JustMandy

Dying and crying.Oh! the more i try to be positive the more something comes along and stamps me back into the floor.I am fed up now (well still have to carry on and drone around) hope the day gets better.

Right! what does this mean i just read it in a profile. (established member of the business community ) Oh! and where does this community hang out.Where do they drink coffee while chiillaxing.Is there a secret place for this business community.Do they meet in a secret business gang hut on Thursdays after bingo.Who knows.because i don't. :)

Longest coldest winter ever!So today i made my mind up.I am going to work towards moving to a nice place.Against the odds but i will do it sooooo i am looking to be able to do this by next year.To leave the past and start again.Droning again today must have droned through loads as i have little memory of it (Good) Slippery car parks God the council skimp on everything no salt or grit i think ive twisted my ankle it hurts.Toast i think il make some Yummmm. :)

Not sure my darling incubus will come tonight.Doubt it She never does.Probably to cold brrrrr :(

Well its been  interesting tonight and in the morning i think i have found a friend had a really good chat and feel good.But now its back to droning and dancing as the morning is still young.Oh! and i have a critic as well.So i look forward to the next damming criticism of my journals (They are for fun you know not to be taken to seriously mr parrot) 

Shutting the window because it's soooooo cold (Did i really need to write this)

So how does my quilt cover buttons undo themselves? hmmmm! perhaps its an incubus sneaking in and in the confusion to get to me wrestles with the quilt.I wonder if i leave the window open later one will sneak in and jam her ghostly head between my thighs and gently tongue my cl*t whilst i have an erotic dream.

And i wake up with my quilt unbuttoned and in a map of Africa.Might happen! worth leaving the window open.

At last got thing's done.And sorted out music its good to feel usefull and today i have felt usefull.So now to stop droning and rest.

Not feeling well today.Can barely move and i was hoping to be better soon.This has gone on for nearly two week's.So the light at the end of the tunnel should start shining again(i hope)

Like lonley121  pic i can hardly stop staring at it.(eat Bitch) holding my ribs they ache now.

Survey.........

What is your favourite colour.

STAMP KICK STOMPEROOOOOOOOOOO Is what i am going to do with this lappy in a minute.

A burst of mindless violence then il sit and stare at the broken pieces and wonder how il get a new one.

But il feel better (i think).

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Hmmmmmmmmmmmm! Drone on and on. the circle of life continue's hey!.Its a lovely day and i feel like an adventure hopefully a space ship will beam me up and whisk me away to a far of planet and show me the meaning of life.Then dump me back in a field at midnight with no memory of what happen'd and clutching a cold pot noodle.Did that happen i don't know but i do know the field and cold pot knoodle were real.

Sooooooooooooo that's all i need to know.

Hmm! They say the moon controls's us all.Really,Well i spent hours getting ready and put my face on just to go shopping.And i never felt like i was being controlled by the moon at all.

And the moon made me forget the coffee.

Well things might be looking up. I really don't know why i bother writing these journals though as they really are mind numbingly boring.(sorry) sooooooooo now i will not write anything unless it's interesting ok.

Kitchen scrubbed everything done.Ahhhhhhhhh! time to relax with a coffee LMAO.Sooooo let's see what next. x

Drone i feel like a drone just droning about doing drone things.Good morning how are you if your reading.Hope your ok and not feeling droney like meeeeee.

If i could keep a job for more than two week's without messing it up i'd be very happy.More to the point if i could keep a relationship more than two week's i'd be estatic.