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Smile, something in my life has got to change. I feel I can taste what that is, now to in fact feel it, taste it or in some reality other than my dreams touch it. I long to wrap my hands around it, my arms and embrace it....will it come to pass? God I hope beyond hope that it will.



It is funny to me that so many people are disparaging about this place when I have met so many real people here. If I only went by what others place in their journals or profiles I would think that no one here is real...in my limited experience this place is FULL of real people, it is AWESOME! That so many have reached out to me, have offered to help, thank You all. Thank You for Your time, advice, counsel...thanks for caring. HUGS to everyone!!!!


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OK so some very cool people here. Some of them seem very worth knowing, others....well You know who You are i am sure. i have found i love the conversation, and it has sparked something in me that i did not expect, i will see where that takes me. OK so i know i have down that i am seeking dominant men...what i mean is i would like to become friends with people but especially dominant men. i am also not looking to relocate, at least not at this time.

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10/25/2011 12:04:12 PM

WOW did my life just have a very pleasant and unexpected thing happen.....DEEP HAPPY SIGH!


10/12/2011 6:43:26 PM

OMG, Portland was so very beautiful.  I would love to be able to live in that part of the country, WOW.


7/1/2011 7:38:45 AM

Life is feeling so very good right now.  I love it when a person can awaken a new thought or awareness in me.


6/28/2011 11:12:13 AM

What a fabulously beautiful day!


6/16/2011 10:01:02 AM

Thanks for all the advice for my gf.  I have forwarded her all the replies.  It is a beautiful day and I hope everyone is loving it!


6/14/2011 1:34:58 PM

OK, so before anyone jumps to the conclusion that what I am about to post is about me...it is not...no seriously it is not.  I have a best friend who is also on this site and she is in a rough situation.  The last time she posted a question about a dilemma she was in with a Dom on here he retaliated...I told her I would post her words here because I have some very cool intelligent "friends" here who I am certain could offer good sound advice to her.  Thank you all in advance.


Hypothetical question:,if you are a Dominant and you begin a dialogue with a submissive, this lasts a few months then you as the dominant have life happen and you just disappear. You do not tell the submissive what is going on, you just up and leave and do not reply to im's, emails...nothing, oh and by the way the last conversation you had with said girl was an unresolved argument about a demand you stated that she could not in anyway due to her life meet.  Not quite a yr later you resurface...begin more dialogue with the same submissive...this time you actually meet.  (A little background info here....last yr you had a girl and were looking for another...fine. You were very clear last year that you sought to meet with this sub alone, that she was for you and you alone...you could not stress enough that you the Dom felt that the two of you needed alone time to get to know each other better and find your own dynamic.  You also said that she would be a part of your family but would in no way serve the other girl just the Dom and that once you and he had found your own dynamic that the three of you would spend time all together.  This yr you have a wife and you do not tell the submissive until you meet her that you are married...she is still thinking you are looking for a third but has no idea you are married.)  Now you are demanding that the submissive who is still in the same life circumstance as the last time you were speaking with her find time to come spend not just some time with you but spend time and overnight time with you...not that sex is what you are seeking.....because you have stated this many many times...oh and BTW this overnight time will also include the wife being there, though she will not particularly participate in any way.  You the submissive have no idea what the wife will be doing....perhaps needlework or watching tv...a manicure or reading a book perchance.  

 

How wrong is the submissive to be confused by this...how unreasonable to say...excuse me but You asked if I would like some time to spend with you alone....day, night...in public or private...no matter...alone just to talk face to face and feel out the D/s in person...  You pushed the submissive to see you, she went to great pains to arrange from a few to several hours with you.  She will be 9 hours from her home and support network if in fact she agrees to see you.  The first time she met with you and your wife she was 6 hours from her home and you were 30 minutes from yours.  Is she being unreasonable?  What should she do? Can someone...anyone offer advice here. Thank you all.



6/9/2011 12:28:40 PM

Today is absolutely gorgeous!  I hope everyone has a stupendous day.  I have recently been gifted some BDSM books and I look forward to learning from them.  Discipline...I need more discipline...


6/4/2011 8:17:42 PM

I love it when someone can touch my mind.....when they can open me up so smoothly that by the time I realize it...it is ok....maybe even more than ok...GRIN


6/4/2011 10:38:51 AM

Heavy sigh, it is a beautiful day!  I am going to go shopping and see what I can find<grin>

 


6/1/2011 1:49:57 PM

Out for some errands.....I love this time of year.


5/17/2011 5:05:49 PM

What a glorious time of year, it fills me with hope.  Have been chatting with a couple of interesting people... they make me smile.  Nothing serious..just chatting.  Sigh, one day I will connect with someone again.


4/28/2011 2:37:23 PM

Life has been good.  Wish you were around more...  Not too much going on here, been really quiet.  Was recently talking to a person into hypnosis...kind of rekindled my interest.  Have a great evening ya'll.


4/6/2011 6:41:10 AM

Was awesome to visit with You.....You do my heart good!


3/31/2011 4:59:18 PM

It has been a while.  I am still missing that special one...


10/17/2010 12:30:03 AM
I NEED change.....I need to be out of the place I am stuck in...sigh

8/31/2010 10:56:02 AM
Change seems to abound in my life.  If there is an insertion point for the humor of God or gods...I must be the epicenter.  One day, maybe soon I WILL take my life into my own hands in the hopes of finally finding that peace I seek.

4/30/2010 1:03:42 AM
Sleepless nights suck only slightly less than nightmares....!!!!!

4/21/2010 9:54:30 PM
Well...I met a person who has been able to help me get a better outlook on things.....sigh.....thank you

3/12/2010 6:04:10 PM
I am soo tired of difficult ex's...sometimes I just wish he would go away for good.

12/24/2009 8:48:51 PM

I have had a fantastic week...getting alot acconplished and feel that the year will end pretty darn well.  I have had a wonderful Christmas eve so far and look forward to an even better Christmas tomorrow.  Life often throws curveballs and the trick is to adapt to them as best as I am able...I am still working towards my goals.  Peace and hope to You all.


11/27/2009 6:55:36 PM
Well my life has been beyond busy.  Illness, family and oh yes I did discover what was going on with that communications issue.  Life is good...I hope looking up.  Be well, have missed you all.

7/29/2009 6:06:06 PM

When one you care for drops out of site suddenly...does not reply to im's, email, or text messages or phone calls.....how am I supposed to feel.....I have a part of my life going well...and then this.  Leaving on vacation for a bit...have fun and be safe all.


7/23/2009 12:16:26 AM
worry stress concern worry worry worry...stress concern worry worry, this is how my week is going

7/16/2009 1:31:01 PM
So someone asked me what my greatest fantasy was...did not take me any time to think of it..."total obedience"...to be trained, taught, hypnotized...whatever it takes...I want to know that I am secure in my ABSOLUTE obedience.

7/4/2009 5:59:53 PM
Happy 4th!!!!

It's funny how I can feel alone sometimes when I am surrounded by people, people who do not really even know me.
 

7/3/2009 9:36:26 PM

Knowing that I want to belong and trying to make that a reality those are tricky things.  How to get there from here...how indeed,    I KNOW when someone makes me feel special and they know as well, now hoping life will not conspire too much against me.


6/29/2009 9:06:32 PM
Change sometimes sucks.  Soul searching, self examination, taking measure.......  What will the future hold, weeks , months, years from now...what indeed.

6/23/2009 8:38:40 AM
Hear Ye...Hear Ye...this is to inform any and all who may personally know or just know in an online capacity that TASSIE GEOFF is a SWEET DARLING KIND and TENDER MAN!!!!!! 

6/22/2009 7:00:54 PM
What a fantastically beautiful day today has been...!  Getting alot accomplished on the home front, the garden is thriving!  Good friends and special others make my world as close to perfect as it gets.

6/19/2009 9:42:46 AM
Being healthy is so much better than being hospitilized or injured....seems like a no brainer I know, but sometimes the obvious needs to be stated. 

When one person can make another feel special that person should feel really good about it.  When two people find eachother and they both make the other feel special...they should figure out how to be together in SOME fashion...

5/5/2009 8:16:11 AM
Beautiful weather, I love this time of year.  I am feeling pretty blessed with the people I know right now...and as I talk with friends who are at different stages of their BDSM life that is a GOOD thing.  One friend has her marriage falling apart becasue she and her SO are seeking what the other can give, but are looking for it from other people, sigh.  Another was scammed by a most spiritual Dom...til He wanted money..... .  I hope these people do not lose faith.  Patience and openess...things one must have and utilize in this lifestyle,

5/2/2009 8:57:32 AM
Hospitals suck....especially in the middle of the night,  Now I am sleep deprived and not looking forward to the day....hopefully my brother will rescue me early in the day.  Hope everyone is well.

4/30/2009 10:56:05 AM
I hate being sick...I have too much to do to be sick...grin.  Had a freaking awesome weekend and am on the downside hump os a really long week.  This weekend should be ok provided I do not get worse.  I have really missed contact with a couple of regular close friends this last week or two...but busy times of year do exist and they do pass.  Hugs to everyone...be well

4/24/2009 7:15:35 PM
It has been a long week.  I feel emotionally wrung out....I remember...a forever ago... thinking I could not express myself.  Any emotion but happiness was not good to show....then after a perticularly rough point in my life...that changed.  I met a special person who showed me that it is ok to be me.  That if my tears fall they are just as special as my smiles, that my pensiveness was just a valuable as my silliness....that I can wear proudly who I am...without fear of being myself. Sometimes I even meet people who understand this...that is special for me.  When I am with that special one...He will understand,value and appreciate my transparency...not consider me weak.

4/19/2009 7:44:06 PM
Concussions suck.......sigh

4/18/2009 7:41:59 PM
Sometimes I wish I were better with having people inside my head.....but then, that would not be me,grin.  This IS after all a part of my journey that I need to learn to accept about myself.

4/12/2009 3:44:45 PM
HAPPY EASTER !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Happy day I fed some friends and am just relaxing now.  I love spirals.

So on holidays I realize why I cannot run away and start fresh...family obligations...sigh. 

On most other days though I would love to be able to pack up and go...go to that special person and place to be who I long to be.

4/9/2009 1:43:28 PM
Vacation rocked for me!!!!  Really had a blast and needed it too. 

That butch dyke domme turned out to be TONS of passive agressive DRAMA....... .  Oh well ya win some and lose some. 

The remodel is coming slowly but surely.

Family is on coast right now... YAY!!

Ex is a pain still and getting more frustrated so acting out too much again. 

Looking forward to Easter and friends just wish I was closer to that special one.

3/11/2009 12:09:39 PM
Yay...vacation for me....!!  Hope everyone has a cool week or two because I sure will.  Will be going out of state to visit some awesome friends!  A week of fun...friends...and relaxation, about the only thing that would make it better would be to share it with that special someone.  Everyone be safe and crazy!

2/23/2009 10:20:57 AM
Interesting week...still too much work to do but took some time to have fun this weekend.  Missing that special someone who contact has been hit or miss with this week...mostly miss,sigh...well hopefully this week will go better.  Fem dommes are cool.....sigh.

2/11/2009 10:31:19 PM
BUSY BUSY life for me lately.  Love good people and personal growth.  I am having a Female Dominant come to visit me ,,,can't wait.  Wish I could visit that special someone... .

1/13/2009 11:02:26 AM
For those of You who wrote and asked...she was absolutely YUMMY!!!!!!!

Life is AWESOME, i love the feeling of belonging. 

If i could just manage to get the ex out of my life.....

12/23/2008 11:18:13 AM
Address indeed....where does the time go?  It seems like just a few moments of chat and bam all this time has gone by....  Have a date tonight with a new girl....I LOVE GIRLS...they are so soft and tasty...grin.  So how many people want a harem?  Someone...recently asked me that, personally I have never wanted a harem but if the one I was with desired that...then thats cool.  I do not mind the idea of sharing,poly sister slaves....BUT the fit does have to be a good one.  A cabana boy might be good though...lmao

12/20/2008 12:01:33 PM
Happy Saturday before Christmas to all...!  I have had a really hectic week complete with minor disasters...but my friends helped me keep the proper perspective, thank you all.  I have found that I...hmmm I what...I am learning to trust more and more eachday and to believe in myself more and more as well.  For You who are helping me get there...thank You...careful though...I may end up on Your doorstep one day,lol.

12/13/2008 11:37:36 PM
So...someone asked me today if I wanted an example of what they could do...of course being the adventurous lil'shit that I am I said yes.  Nine or ten hours later....He revealed His devious nature...grin...very interesting...actually more like VERY INTERESTING...grin.  Woke up and was compelled to journal those thoughts...nite all

12/10/2008 6:30:25 AM

     Where has the time gone...OMG I thought I just posted an entry, sigh.  Life is very hectic but in a good way mostly.  Still hitting the gym every day even the days I do not want to go...trying to save money up for that...my trainer is SUPER...little shit...! 
     If my ex would just realize that I have moved on...then my life would calm down.  How does one get off with dropping off the face of the earth for 9 months then just deciding to walk back in?  Not a word, an email...nothing but my worry and feelings of abandonment...for His to say now He is back for good and that I was never released!  WTF???  He does not understand the word no... .  Everyday I pray for strength...and patience. 
     To everyone who has offerred support thanks a million, You are who helps me get through every day.  I am so unprepared for Christmas....but I will be there soon enough,grin.

Happy Holidays Everyone


11/4/2008 10:38:09 AM
Well...life is a little better.  Still trying to work it out...man is there  alot to work out.  Weight loss is going well...trying to be responsible for me in the positive ways that help me.   Life goes on.

10/27/2008 8:30:32 AM
Sighs....well the best one gone....

But the other friends and mentors still around!

10/24/2008 6:04:30 AM
of course there must be balance....followed by a worse week, sigh................................
where are You...

10/20/2008 10:09:07 AM
I would be hard pressed to say when I have had a better weekend! 

10/16/2008 11:51:03 AM
How is that a person you have never met...can grow on you so quickly?  I mean really...why does making Him happy seem SO IMPORTANT!  It seems positively mad at times...like some part of me has simply taken over the controls and my normal conscious mind is on auto pilot...looking, perhaps seeing...but not driving.  At times I feel sooo out there... .  At times I feel like my mantra is it is ok if He will be happy...is that ODD?  I mean really I have never met HIM...am I crazy , in denial or what... .  So breathing is good and learning to let go is good... .  Later

10/9/2008 8:01:23 AM
Place one foot in front of the other....breathe...remember that I am pleasing someone...and that I deserve to feel good about that.  That I am improving myself with help, guidance, encouragement...even if they are in creatively sadistic limit pushing ways...grin.  Some people care, why I may never understand and have found that daily it is easier to allow that knowledge to seep slowly and warmly into me...to FEEL it.  Too FEEL...it has been a while since I have allowed myself to FEEL...I think I could get used to it.  Have a SUPER day all...hugs and kisses

9/26/2008 10:26:16 PM
Sigh...feeling a little lost lately...out of control even.  Someone told me recently..."because as a slave you will not make any decisions at all..hence no guilt can ever be attributed to you" I am not sure how I feel about that comment.  On this journey, no one is holding a gun to my head, i am still "doing".  When the daily presense is absent then what, then who do I turn to...who guides me then?  Ultimately it is myself....so how do I get out of that? 

9/10/2008 4:31:24 PM
Wow alot has happened this week for me...internally.  I am on fire...so many thoughts and feelings developing and swirling around.  So many questions about why I obey, it is not just force of one personality over another or even over mine, I know that...what I don't know is WHY.  Why when I think I have made up my mind do I decide to go back and obey...follow through...to acquiesce?  I am learning, learning alot about  how I feel about obedience.  I have been owned in the past, but that situation occurred so slowly and gradually that I never stopped to think about the why's...I just obeyed almost out of habit.  Thank You to everyone who is helping me, who offer support and advice.

8/29/2008 5:46:41 AM
So another darn good week...still feeling the results and highs of last weekends play...yummy.  Looking forward to what this weekend will have in store for me....grin.  Anybody have real experiences on what relocating really involves?  How often it works or fails?  Just thoughts circling around in my head... . 

8/21/2008 7:43:02 AM
So this week has been pretty good.  I find that I am being intrigued by a couple of very intense Doms.  Peoples approaches on directness and communication interest me...I do not really care for the bully, though strong and sure go along way.  My sister gives me a hard time telling me I need to just give up the sub thing...she does not believe in the strong Dominant man...boy is she missing out!  Grin.

8/11/2008 6:57:05 AM
Well last week was a really good week, made some new friends and that is always good.  Some of You are quite talented erotic writers...grin.  A few of You are really getting into my head...and I am not sure how I really feel about that.  It must be good...because it is an indicator that trust is coming back.  But at the same tims...being compelled to talk to you or even realizing how much I think about You...that is scary.  Growth happens!  be well

8/6/2008 10:28:16 AM
Some people are so cool and some just scary.  To my new friends thanks for giving me hope.  To the others....I hope you find what you deserve... .  To the few who actually chat with me, smiles thanks...it has helped.  Baby steps...trust is coming back...

hugs

7/9/2008 1:25:18 PM
So...some of You have noticed that my profile is hidden now most of the time...sigh.  It is because there are some people who insist on harassing me... .  So if You are a friend or want to be I am still here, just hidden from time to time, please still write to me.

7/5/2008 2:21:36 PM
OK so this "master" is emailing me and when I tell him that I am not interested in relocating or pursuing a relationship at this time as I am in a relationship with a girl right now, this is what he tells me.......
 
Master4slavesTPE on 7/2/08
 at 9:20 AM:
oh ok - but if you have or love a gf,
 that means gay - so all is understood....


 So I guess I am gay now???? When I write back to tell Him that this is the silliest thing I have EVER heard, He next replies.......
 
Master4slavesTPE on 7/5/08
 at 1:00 PM:

lol a same sex relationship is a gay
relationship - eating pussy occassionally
for kink is bi, lol...

live and learn...I never realized that I was gay.

7/4/2008 12:49:43 PM
Happy 4th ya'll!  So many good people here, it warms my heart.  Thank You to everyone who has expressed interest and been willing to have dialogue, I am learning alot.  Someone recently pointed out to me when I inquired why they were in such a rush to move forward that Dominant men were used to going for what they saw and wanted, and that BTW that is probably part of what attracted me to dominant men.... .  Grin He was of course correct.  Here to friends and the possibility of more.

6/25/2008 10:08:41 AM
This has been an interesting experience.  While some people are VERY pushy, others are very kind.  I have enjoyed the intelligent dialogue with some greatly, wish I had more time in my life.  But I do realize that I have the rest of my life to pursue these interests.

6/17/2008 12:21:18 PM
I like YOu WW!  You seem like a real COOL man! 

Distance sucks, honesty rules!

6/11/2008 7:27:29 AM
Some people her e are very real it seems.  Others...wellll  to each his own. 

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