justdutchie

Profile? Yack! How to be dutchie in 250 words or less!

I guess I should state right off the bat that I'm not interested in finding new play partners. I have the partners I want/need so I'm here to make new friends and to socialize with old ones.

I'm an odd arrangement of submissive woman who's also a control freak.. I control what goes on in my life -- my home, my son, my business are all subject to my capricious whims. I like to think I can control everything about me, BUT, when that certain genre of male enters my universe, everything changes. I become compliant and about as submissive as one could want. I might still be a wiseass but I've learned to limit the use of my sharp tongue and acid wit. The alternative is that disapproving look that just devastates me.

I'm 50 years (egad, that's old!), I've been in and around the power dynamic lifestyle for 150 years (since 1980). These days, I pick and choose my play partners and lovers carefully because of some very special needs I have. You see, I've been blessed with multiple sclerosis and its slowly but surely taking away my ability to walk. So I no longer go for the complete Japanese bondage cocoon. My physical challenges make it less enjoyable to render pain into pleasure. There's too much everyday pain that gets in the way and is definitely not erotic. My pathes to subspace and beyond are fewer these days; more restricted. Still, I'm grateful they're still there and pray they'll be around for some time to come.

Over the years, I've watched this lifestyle evolve repeatedly to fit the current population's needs. My own participation has changed from being a outspoken teacher and organizer to a smaller, quieter role as a veteran player with no pressing need/desire to prove who or what I am.

I attended a party recently, the first in some years, where my quiet role became very apparent to me. I was somewhat at a loss because of all the new people in the group but more interesting was my lack of desire to show off in front of folks. This is actually a change for me as my previous "self" loved to step up to an A-frame and take on all comers. I wonder if that old self will return as I become more comfortable in the new playspace and around new people.

Anyway, no games, no spam, no pictures of your pink parts or manly man parts. I respond to all emails, even if just to say "no thank you." I'm also not logged in everyday -- lots of other irons in my fire, but if I'm on, say hello. I don't bite -- much.