I can assure you that I am quite ready for what I am seeking. It's simply a matter of making contact with a like minded lady who can see that and will permit me to demonstrate to her my commitment.

      I went through a period back in the 90's when I traveled to Portland at least once every other month to attend sessions with one of the many Pro-Dommes that were active back then. Although I wouldn't trade away one of my experiences, It left me wanting. Until I met Jina and went to her exclusively. She was the perfect girl. Attractive and young, she actually took the time to get to know me. And when she did, boy, was she ever able to get into my head. She was smart, played the piano, and lived by her own rules. And I was glad to serve her in any way that made her happy. After I informed her that I just couldn't afford to be with her as often as I would love to, She quit charging me and would sometimes contact me to come up. I put a lot of miles on my car as two sometimes three trips a month I would drive to be with her. She never allowed me to become sexual with her other than she loved to have her toes sucked. She had other guys that she saw but never indicated whether any were intimate or all professional. Then one day she informed me she was moving to San Fransisco to attend law school. I received a post-card she sent me from China, a trip she made before her classes started and with no address It was the last I heard from her. And the end of an important part of my life. After Jina I had no interest in pro-sessions and have been trying to find another lady ever since. There was one thing I look back on and regret not having said to her. I remember asking her a question once as we were driving in downtown Portland. I very much wanted to know and I asked If she would tell me If there was any certain thing or fantasy that really made her hot. And after giving it a little thought she said that she would really like to view two guys "making love" was how she put it. And I was a bit disappointed because it was something I couldn't provide. I told her I wished I could help but I wasn't wired that way I love women.  Not many months after she left, and missing her deeply I had always wished I had told her that although I wouldn't be able to "make love" to another guy if it would please her that I did so I would be willing to perform whatever sexual act(s) that she desired so much to watch. But such is 20/20 hind=sight.

      Anyway I gained a lot of experience but never wanted anything else again that didn't include at least a close friendship. And I still do hope that one day I am fortunate enough to meet someone into something closer to a 24/7 relationship, I could see myself so grateful after so many years that I'd eagerly dive in totally and become a chastity cuckold if it would bring joy to my girl.