Jeannie69

i think some people find it so intimidating that i know what i want in my life.  Most people aren't blessed to be able to say those things.  I do admit that what i want changes from time to time, but very quickly I get right back on my path.  My path is to be with the Dominant of my dreams.  I will make certain that happens and I will not settle for less.  I don't expect him to look perfect or act perfect because all of us aren't perfect.  The most important thing to me is that he suits me.  Another important thing is that when i find him i give him everything he needs.  He will never lack for anything and always know i am there to please him.

I make no excuses for myself as to what i want out of my life.  I seek ultimately the best because i know i can give the best.  I may be a sensitive submissive but that doesn't make me weak.  I am very strong.  I bounce back very easily from disappointments and heartbreaks.  I know that i don't want a poly relationship or a married man looking to get his rocks off.  I seek something real and serious.  So many people just want to play and that is not what i am about.  If we both see there is nothing there between us then i do hope we can be friends.  I will always be myself around you because i want you to know the real me.  It's not fair for anyone to act a certain way and then not carry through on that behavior. 

So please don't message me if you aren't real.  That would be waste of everyone's time and energy when something worth potential could be waiting for us.

I was kept awake most of the night last night thinking about the energy of a Dom.  I am sure most of the submissives out there can understanding what I am referring to. 

I have always been intrigued by the power of a Dom and how it draws me in.  When I meet someone I really connect with I feel a force inside me that automatically draws me to him.  I see it in the way he looks at me and how he talks to me.  Sometimes I tend to look away for fear it is going to completely consume me and I am going to lose all control.

When I come across a Dom like this, I dream of the time when he is going to touch me.  I close my eyes and imagine him caressing my cheek and looking deeply into my eyes.  He draws me closer to him and wraps his arms around me.  Then I feel his hand come up and grab my hair and pull it enough just to know he is there.  I suddenly become drunk and have visions of playing with him and connecting with him on a very deep level.  A level that most individuals can possibly begin to understand.

His power draws me in and I lay awake at night imagining him touching my soft then hard.  I go into an area where we are the only creatures purely existing for each other's pleasure.  I sit at work (much like I will do today!!)  and think of ways to please him.  I moan softly and shake it off hoping to be able to concentrate on work.  However, I will be longing for that way when I get to see him again.

i am feeling extremely restless tonight.  Actually i have been restless for a couple of days.  My mind is racing with thoughts of my life and how i can best accomplish the goals i set for myself.  i met my "friend" this week in florida.  We had a wonderful time together.  He showed me several different areas and always treated me with respect.  That is very hard to find in the world today.  i think one of the discussions we had though was what moved me the most about the whole trip.  i had somewhat potentially serious issues with myself that he was able to bring out in me.  He mentioned it to me and i immediately broke down.  Instead of running away or saying He didn't want to continue anything further with me, He simply talked to me.  He was very open and honest with me.  That also is very hard to find.  A strong Man doesn't run away He stops them before they become out of control.  Out of all the people that know me and have tried to help me, He was the One that broke through that wall.  It was a very high wall since i have been building it for a long time.  At first, i was completely shattered.  i cried and cried and cried.  then something snapped inside my head and my heart.  i had the realization that i was open enough to Him to take me in and touch me in that way.  Then a weight felt like it had been lifted off my shoulders.  i was able to say to myself that i can't do this anymore because it is affecting other people besides myself.  i can't have an issue of mine destroy something that can potentially be a wonderful dream come true.  So far, He has been like a dream to me.  as the days go on, i look forward to learning more about Him.  Every aspect of Him.  He is a very wonderful Man and i am fortunate enough to have Him in my life.  i hope He knows how truly grateful i am to Him.  i hope when He reads this He can feel me kissing His cheek and holding on tightly to Him to feel Him close to me.

it seems as though i have met someone i have really connected with recently.  we are in the process of learning about each other.  i am going to put my search on hold at this time.  i want to see what we can offer each other.  please continue to email as friends if wish.  you never know what the future may bring.