I have spent many years getting my life in order and like it that way. So giving up control of that is never going to happen for me. I am responsible and I know I can count on myself to "get it done". With an honest self appraisal in hand, being a submissive or a slave is just not possible.
Many years ago I tried being a submissive and a slave. I failed miserably for 2 important reasons. Namely, it is just not in my nature and my choices of who to surrender were very poor. I have no regrets and no apologies for it. In fact, I believe it has benefited me and those I was with. At times I even miss and smile about it all. Only being allowed to wear 2 pieces of clothing not including shoes and socks was fun. And being chained the bed post at night was a good one. And even the 2 weeks where every night being locked in a harness until bed time I recall fondly even though my jaw ached a lot. (Certainly cut down on my one liners and zingers - yeah I had it coming).
Having said that, I do find myself looking for a female top, not necessarily a Dominant. More of a special someone just wants to have some fun and take control for a short period of time.
I consider myself a decent guy and I would have no expectation of any type of sexual contact. It's more about the helplessness and the freedom from Real Life for a few hours or days that comes with it. Just keeping simple. I am not a toad, and really don't want to be thought of one. |