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*** Absolutely NO RacePlay! To each theire own, but DON'T disrespect me, so DON'T ask! Hello, Well I am new to this site and still getting my bearings. I have been gearing up for this journey for about a year. I have little first hand knowledge of thw lifestyle and I very cautious. Ironically I am a very controlling person. I control every aspect of my life. I am a mother, a provider, a nurturer. I take care of me. Iam a very strong, and independent, with a submissive side that yearns to be nurtured and fulfilled. I dated women exclusively for years but my need to explore my submissive side has caused me to look for a Dom. Dominant men excite me. I love Alpha males who know what they want and how to get it. I also have a hopelessly romatic side that needs to cared for so the slave thing WILL NOT work for me. I am spoiled and like attention even to the point of being a brat at times. I like affection, gifts and absolutely adore words of affirmation. Kiss With that being said... I am about 5'7" full figured, attractive. I am very loving and sweet. I am very sexual and responsive to the "right" individual. I am new to this as I said, but I am not dumb. I do not like bullies or men who want a woman to take care of them finacially, I know my worth and will not settle. I am NOT looking for the online thing. I understand it fills a void for some, my time is limited & long term I will get bored with you and move on. I am spoiled I will say it again and I need, crave and desire attention. Hence at times is why I love to have a boy toy or cuck at my disposal. Not for sex but pure fun and to use at my whim, something I KNOW would never fly with a Dom. This is a total oxymoron I know but I am complex. ;-) I am more than meets the eye. I am smart, playful, resourceful, spiritual and loyal. I've even been told I have a baby girl fetish, hmmmm? I love taking care of the one I love physically and domestically I believe in gender roles. I am an excellent cook and love to entertain. I don't really know what to add but if you would like to know something please ask. Hard limits: humiliation, blood sports, no permenant marks.
10/30/2012 4:55:41 PM
I told you on the phone we could forgo the party, but you told me you'd meet me there at 7pm. I arrived at 6:50, found a table in the middle so you could find me & waited. I ordered a club soda from a passing waiter & sat. At 8:15 my irritation had me order my first drink from the same waiter. Men passed and some asked me to dance & I politely declined. At 8:40 I walked up to the bartender & asked him for a double shot on the rocks. I enjoyed the cold bitterness on my tongue then slow burn as the amber liquid glided down my throat. An unassuming man at the other end of the bar had been eying me all night. I'd seen him smiled & politely ignored him. I finished my drink, paid & tipped the bartender & went to the ladies room. I freshen my make up & made sure not a hair was out of place. I grabbed my clutch & returned to the party fuming. As I passed the man at the bar he stood & touched my arm. As I turned eyes blazing he apologized & made small talk. What the heck, the liquor had given me a hint of "fuck it" I'd later regret. He pulled out the stool at the bar & I sat & ordered another shot. My irritation mixed with intoxication allowed me what I thought was mild flirtation. A laugh a light touch on the arm after he said something witty. I felt the alcohol but drank my shot as he ordered me another. When he put his hand on my thigh I shifted but he let it linger giving it a little squeeze. I felt uncomfortable so I stood to leave. I never saw you watching me from across the room. I asked for my tab & he told me he had it. As he was pulling out his wallet I heard, "Thanks I got it." I turned & looked directly into your eyes, cold as ice. I picked up my drink &you removed it from my hand as you leaned in and kissed me on the cheek. I introduced you, & you two shook hands. You placed your hand on my back & ran it up my spine. "Ah you must be the mystery man she told me about, I thought she just wasn't interested he joked." You thanked him & I felt you tug tightly on my collar momentarily cutting off my air. "Nice meeting u I whispered." and we turned to leave. I didn't say a word as you lead me towards the door. You never said a word the entire way home. The alcohol was making me dizzy & I just laid back and looked out the window. I felt your gaze but didn't dare turn to look at you. I started to feel a little ill. You parked & grabbed me by the throat & told me "Everything off understood?" I gasped for air & nodded. But you didn't let go, I started to feel lightheaded, & grabbed your wrist. Blackness was seeping over me until I felt your lips faintly on mine, as you released my neck and blew a slow breath into my mouth & said "Breathe Bitch!" My eyes fluttered & I gasped as the first recesses of air re-entered my lungs. I coughed as I felt the cool air as you got out of the car. I regained my & willed the tears not to come. WTF you were late no call no show. How dare you be mad at me, it was casual conversation? As I walked in the house I went straight to our room and began to undress. I reached into my drawer & pulled out a black gown & I went to put it on I caught your gaze. The flash in your eyes was undeniable. You closed the distance between us & grabbed my hair a yanked so hard I helped dropped the gown & grabbed your hands to ease the assault on my scalp. I didn't see it coming, but I Heard your hand cut the air just before it made contact with the side of my face! "IF YOU EVER!" Your voice was laced with venom, the anger shone bright behind cole black pupils. I covered my head and cowered. Hot tears stung as they slid. " How many drinks did you have, & shots no less?" I didn't say a word cuz I didn't know exactly what you had seen but my irritation rose to the surface. "WTF Ray you left me there?!" I yelled. The second blow sent me to the floor. I held my face as I looked up at you. "Who the Fuck do u think u r yelling at & don't you dare get up!" you ordered. "So thats an excuse yo get drunk & you let him rub your thigh?" you growled. "That's crazy?" you said shaking your head. I was sobbing now still on the floor at your feet. You glared down at me with such disgust it hit me how far I let it go. How no matter what my irritation I was your property & had allowed another man touch what was rightfully yours & although fleeting the entire ordeal could of been avoided. You turned to walk away & I blurted out, "NO WAIT!" panic consumed me. You turned & grabbed my hair. "Master I beg of you. I was out of line & beg for your mercy. Please punish me Sir, I was beyond disrespectful & should be disciplined immediately. I beg you Sir," I pleaded. You eased your grip as your cock sprang to life, I reached out to touch you & you slapped my hand hard. I recoiled. "Please Sir, say something... Yell, curse me, beat me anything but silence?" I begged. You released me & I immediate knelt with my arms behind my back, head bowed and waited. You went and sat on the bed. I stayed that way until my thighs started to burn, my shoulders began to shake and sweat ran down my back. Finally, you said, "Crawl to me." I collapsed & moved my stiff body onto all fours & crawled to you. "Bow & hold on to my ankles," you said I looked on your eyes & saw emptiness. My heart broke. What had I done. I did as instructed completed confused as to why I had to hold on to you? As I wrapped my manicured hands around your ankles I felt the slice of cat-o-nine tails cut through my back. I fell face forward to the carpet. U waited as tonight I recovered quickly! "thank you Sir, I said as the second blow reigned down across my shoulders. My whole body shook again "Thank you Sir,@ I choked out. "You like this new game? It called Punish the Slut?" you asked rhetorically. I braced myself for the next blow digging my nails into your ankles. "7 lashes since we were to meet at 7, understood?" you asked. "Yes Sir thank you" I replied. As the whip left marks all over my back & ass I accepted my fate shedding quiet tears, shaking, thanking you for each stroke. After number seven I collapsed. My body spent my mind blurry from pain. "Look at me!" I got to my knees, & looked into your eyes confused by what I saw. You stood and pulled out your cock & I opened my mouth. You grabbed my head & began fucking my face gagging me until tears & slob ran from my chin. I felt your balls grow tight & felt the pulse of your orgasm as you pulled out of my mouth & came all over my face. "You don't deserve to drink my cum," you said "U are correct Sir," I replied. You reached between my legs & I was soaking wet. You told me to stand up & bend over. I felt the cold gel on my asshole & the pressure of the plug as you pushed it inside me filling me, I winced in pain. "Now go clean up" you said. I tried to walk but my legs gave out & you rushed to my side. "r u ok?" you asked. I shook my head No. I had let you down & your disappointment was far worse than any physical discipline. You walked me to the bathroom & took out the plug. I cleaned it & myself up. I walked back in & you had cuffs in your hand. "I can't trust you, so tonight you'll sleep cuffed to the bed," you said. "Yes Sir," I said and laid down putting my arms above my head you cuffed me laid beside me threw your arm across me possessively & drifted off to sleep.
9/8/2012 1:02:06 AM

As I turned the water off I heard the chime of my cell phone alerting me that I had a new text message. When I saw your name, a smile instantly appeared on my face.

You: "Be home in 5, Present yourself to me."
Me: "Yes Sir, where?"
As I typed my reply...Geez! I thought, your timing couldn't be worse, I was just cleaning up the kitchen. Ding!
You: "Where are the kids?"
Me: "She is in her room, he is asleep"
You: "In the room, then"
I ran to our room, everything was in order spotless, as you like it. That was the last thing I needed, I thought relieved. Ding!
You: "Naked!"
WTF! I just held the phone as my mind began to race, as scantily as I used walked around the house, naked has just never been my thing & you knew it. As I started to undress, I felt the panic creep into my throat. I took a deep breath & neatly folded my clothes & placed them on the setee at the foot of the bed. I dimmed the lights & took position, just as I heard the front door close. I wrapped my arms around myself, stood with my feet shoulder width apart & bowed my head.

You entered the room & I prayed you left the lights down, true to form I saw the room get bright and I let out a soft sigh. You started towards me and stopped abruptly. "SUB!" the tone in your voice, made the hair on the back of my neck stand up. I knew you were displeased. I immediately placed my hands behind my back & shuddered inwardly. Why? I wondered why do this to me?

You closed the distance between us, kissed my cheek & said, "Good girl". I heard you chuckle, "Why are you trembling?" you said. I knew it was a rhetorical question, you already knew why; YOU! I felt your arm encircle my waist, "Relax," you whispered into my ear, as you lifted my chin. You kissed my shoulder, I shuddered. I felt your eyes on me, I knew you taking in every inch of me and the tears welled up in my eyes. You walked around and faced me, you looked into my eyes with your piercing brown eyes, those eyes, the ones that could see right through me to my core. You kissed me deeply & I felt my knees go weak. You held me up, oh how you knew me so well..."Why so so angry Mon Cherie?" you said as you smiled & reached between my legs, my pussy was already slippery with my juices. My mind & body at odds as usual...

My mind was racing, you knew those were tears of anger. I didn't want to be subjected to this. I hated this being vunerable, exposed, it caused extreme damage to my psyche everything you did something like this but still you pushed me. But I knew it wasn't about me, it was about you. Period. As you slipped two fingers inside me I moaned. I felt the warmth of orgasm approaching & you had barely touched me. You slid in and out me with such percison and I was a well oiled machine. "Your upset with me baby?" agian I said nothing as again that wasn't a real question.

I leaned against you as my body surrendered to your touch. You removed your fingers & brought them to my lips, I sucked greedily until they were clean. When I was finished I bowed my head again & waited. "Release," you commanded letting me know PRESENTATION mode was over. I immediately wrapped my arms around myself. Although I wasn't in presentation mode you had not given me permission to leave your side.

You moved my arms and I drpped my head, you lifted my chin & pulled me to you. "Stop it, come here," you said quietly as you wrapped your arms around me. I laid my head on your chest and nuzzled into you, you chuckled. You kissed my forehead. "Where you busy? " you asked. "Just cleaning the kitchen. Why are you so tense?," I said. (For as well as you knew me, I too knew you. I also knew that I was your biggest way to release that tension, so I wanted to gauge what I was in for!) "Long day thats all," you replied. "Can I finish the kitchen in the morning?" I asked. "Yes," you answered.

I felt the beginings of an erection, and ran my hand across it. I felt you respond immediately. I walked over and dimmed the lights and looked to you for approval, you nodded, chuckling. I came back took your hand & led you to the bed. I began to undress you & folded your clothes, pulled back the covers. Your dick was at full attention. I kissed your neck & rubbed your head, I knew what was coming this wasn't one of those slow, sensual nights. I turned around & backed into you, you squeezed my nipples hard, I cried out! I bent forward and took a deep breath. I felt you spread my pussy lips, I thought you were about to put your fingers back inside me, but I was wrong.

You entered me with such force my knees buckled. I gasped as you gripped my hips. You fucked me hard. Each stroke felt like you were opening me deeper & deeper. You rode me until every last drop of tension seeped out of your pores. The waves of orgasm, came crashing down, my head started to spin, my breathing became fast & i began to scream "Daddy! Daddy!". That brought you over the edge, as you gave one final thrust & the moan you made was low & gutteral as you emptied all of your cum inside me, so much it began to spill out of me & run down my thighs. You released my hips & I fell to the bed. You laid down beside me & grabbed my hair & kissed me hard. I purred, this was what you needed. This was what I was made for....YOU.

LadyRoxanna
 
 Age: 35
 Beaumont, Texas