IWANTNOTHNG

His-story & Destiny:

I just read your profile and it moved me to write the following paragraphs:

There is nothing wrong with the lifestyle - and certainly nothing wrong with you & us.  There is no need to apologize to your family, peers or friends for your strong feelings.  you are normal and sane. 

We (lifestylers) are just one of a few lucky genetic throw-backs from a glorious era thousands of years ago - an era that lasted a lot longer than this modern "civilization" has so far.   

In people like us - certain genetic doors unlock at various times & ages - and then "peculiar" evolutionary characteristics are allowed to surface and give us these incredible impulses & feelings (of dominance & surrender) that confuse us today but were once incredibly strong and normal in everyday life for millions of people and for hundreds of thousands of years.  Once we connect the relevant modern nomenclature with our emerging and growing feelings they cannot ever be locked away again.  It's called the Humpty-Dumpty Syndrome - or HDS for short!  It happened to me around age 15.  At nineteen I knew what and who I was.  I could never go back to a vanilla life without some serious psychological damage.

Yet in our culture at large these feelings have been forced to remain dormant in the vast majority of "civilized" people - who, over the last few generations, have passively allowed themselves to be glazed over by both church & state insisting on so-called "equality".  While I have no quibble with "equality" (equal pay for equal work) - I want and need my equal to be as submissive as I am dominant and as willing to follow as I am willing to lead.  This is how we wage peace and harmony and survive.  One leader - one (or more) follower.  Very much like our corporate CEO's and military brass.  Somehow we've forgotten that this hierarchy in marriage and other personal relationships (schools?) are not much different. (slaps his forehead).

For some reason no longer is a young girl anxiously awaiting her time to be "kidnapped" from her tribe and unceremoniously "taken" to another part of the jungle only to be enslaved until some chief or tribesman deems her worthy to make her part of his household or harem.  Today she's been brainwashed to believe that sex is bad and no boy should "play" with her.  No longer are girls itching to be "raped" - running & fighting only to discover that the piercing scream they hear is their own....and originates from deep, pure, unadulterated, orgasmic ecstasy.  And unless she is very pleasing to the man, master, boss, dominant, superior - who owns, protects and feeds her - she will not be "raped" ("punched asunder" literally - forced apart by a prick) again.  No longer is a girl biting at the bit to be passed around - a gift from the Patriarch who wants to favor a passing guest or another Dominant - something the Inuit & other cultures have done for generations and some still do to(this)day.  Forced monogamy has resulted in the elimination of true sluts but insidiously proliferated prostitutes - complete with gun-toting pimps.  Maybe we should emulate the Bonobes.  They don't use money!
 
In today?s world the word "rape" (from the same root as "rapier" - which means "to cleave" or "split apart" - or more to the point - "surrendered flesh" - or "rapere" - which means "to seize, carry & ravish") has now, unfortunately (since 1300 AD) gained the connotation of a woman being molested (molestar - "to be bothered") against her will - instead of being introduced to a world of pleasure that she would want to experience over and over again.  Why?  Because she can - and we didn't.  And as a true slut she's willing to do whatever it takes to feel that pleasure wash over her mind/body - again & again.  In the ancient days that might have included some painful discipline.  No problem.  She translated and incorporated that into pleasure as well.  Easy as pie.  And now, awakened, she doesn't just want it - she needs it.  I opine and pine that there are so few sluts today.   

When a woman can no longer resist the hormonall insistence urge and need to be fucked - she is often humiliated and made to feel embarrassed.  This is firmly embedded in the Spanish culture with the word "embarrisado" or "being pregnant".  The two feelings (pregnancy & humiliation) have similar connotations and stem from the inability to "hold out" - like any good Catholic girl should!  This is as close to the line of demarcation of what was once considered normal and what is now considered an embarrassment to "civilized" people.   The message: fucking is bad - even if it results in a child.  What a crock of shit.  At least the Spanish cultures are up front & center about it.  The rest of us have buried it - deep.
 
No - today we have succeeded only too well in permanently erasing the incredible delicate survival systems that allowed us to roam and populate Earth for 2 million years.  At the same time this evolutionary (outward appearing) rough & searing relationship between men & women succeeded in creating a world where both were kept close to our roots - and allowed us to not only survive but dominate all other life forms - right or wrong.  Unfortunately both government & churches, for their own gain, created as many equalizers as possible - cars, stoplights, guns, military service, equality laws, etc - all designed to put men not only at par with women and reduce their "advantage" (resulting in many men feeling useless, angry, violent and domineering) but at the same time creating a false sense of "equality security" in women - resulting in feelings now equated with "cheating" - and being cheated upon.  The resulting competition has pitted women against women and men against men.  And alliances are struck that rock the fiber of "morality" and not-so-public affairs!  lol..

So I'm not sure which came first - did most men ask for equality insecurity (since most have proven that they can no longer master themselves - (OK they can still Mastur-bate themselves) let alone be response-able for a submissive human being and offspring - or did the equalizing accoutrements play the larger role in the emasculation of men?  Or did the two move toward and dovetail in the middle?

No matter.  Homogenization seems to be social agenda - if not the goal.   More men are willingly becoming affeminite (or are estrogen mimickers at fault here?) and more women are forced to act more like men - especially if they're running for political office: harder and harder to do with testosterone at such a high premium (maybe I should have used the word "difficult" instead?) - LOL...  

Yet this "equality" experiment has been nothing short of a disaster - despite Gloria's valiant effort.  Our social fabric is unraveling at the seams and the relationships between gender is at an all-time low and reaching its nadir. 

Never mind the emotional & reproductive (creative - yin) superiority of women and the physical & spatial (destructive - yang) superiority of men.  Never mind the millions of years that shaped our relationships and the many differences that were once celebrated in high-octane, all night, drug-induced drumming & dancing around large fires - were caution was thrown to the wind and spontanious sexual orgies erupted to the delight of young, old, dominant & submissive.  Never mind that both men & women were instrumental in our long-term survival - not just in spite of but because of their respective roles as dominants & submissives - if not as Owners & owned.  Never mind that these ancient roles seek - no demand - for the pendulum to swing back to its middle ground - where it belonged for millions of years: men the stronger outgoing pundits needing to be pleased and obeyed (right or wrong) - and women - as highly sensitive and hormonally superior child-bearing cavitational vessels to be treasured & protected (willing or not!).

So you see little girl - you have a glorious and very long evolutionary history to look back on and refer to - one that does not need an apology from you or anyone else.  So go forth and be the best pleasing submissive that you can be and hope that some day, some dominant has mastered enough skill to make you his happy, fully realized (using your real-eyes) surrendered slave.

Now that is a hell-of-an accomplishment for both of you!