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Are you out there madame? Are you looking for a sub like me I'll clean the bathroom vacuum the rigs and mop the floors 

all for maybe a bit of attention I love serving a woman who treats me like I don't deserve nothing it's such a turn on i can explain the feeling 

I got a new toy last night and I need to meet a DOM woman to use it with! Wow thats oressu 

can Someone tell me why it's so difficult to find a woman to serve here? It's almost impossible 

New year same old wants and needs with the same questions I'm seriously afraid being 47 now I'm never going to find the dominant Freinds with benefits I yearn to find 

why do I find the need to hide my submissive self?

why am I so afraid of people knowing I enjoy being slapped in the face by a dominant woman?

How would they react if they learned for the right woman I'd kneel and be her urinal?

and how would they react if they knew I'd suck cocl for her simply to maker smile ?

Why tf do I have these tendencies why can't  I enjoy vanilla things? 

Ok so I don't know but I have this vision in my mind of me serving 

a strong woman she has silver hair and loves and expects me to be at my best and in my 

dreams I do 

in them I begin my day at the foot of her bed awakening before her to be able to prepare for her

i wash and shower make her coffee begin her breakfast make sure everything is clean and straighten up

before she wakes up I draw a bath make her toast and kneel at the side of the bed and slowly kiss her feet and up her body this normally wakes up her happy and refreshed but today seems different she simply lays on her back and says I have to pee I'm not used to this but I'm prepared I grab a towel climb on the bed between  her legs put the towel under me just in case and attach  my mouth to her she releases herself very slowly allowing me to breathe and swallow it's quite sour being her first of the day but I know from experience that this is what she wants and my best course of action is to drink her clean her and allow her to go back to sleep

as I'm thinking this I notice the stream has stopped and she's pushing my head , she quietly  says clean me 

and I run an fetch a warm washcloth I wipe her and she rolls over and says I'm still tired and would like to sleep turn off the shower and coffee and go do the laundry be back here at 8am and wake me up by massaging and kissing my back I expect the laundry to be done and I would like oatmeal instead of toast now I have my task and an hour to complete them 

this is normally when I wake up with a raging hardon and I gotta admit I always feel a  little dirty like is there something wrong with me for wanting this type of relationship?

it's October and the submissve inside of me wants to be allowed out to play

i do a pretty good job at surp them have for a few years now 

But can I tell you how bad I yearn to be slapped smacked and spit on

i really really love to be used and abused and honestly it's been too long 

World seems like it's getting back to normal idk like to as well

if your reading this and I'm your type please write

my days are free and certainly would like to change it up a bit get back

to being a pussy eating piss drinking laundry doing floor scrubbing sub I hope you 

think so as well 

Wow they bring the journals back

yeassssss!!!

kinda happy to be able to type my feelings for strangers to read it shouldnt feel good but it does

Its Fall that wonderful time of year...

Im offering my services to any Doms Who need

their Yards Cleaned..Hopefully you'll enjoy

giving me a rake and having me clean your leaves...

i know the feeling of submission now...the elated feeling...my heart racing as

this strong Woman squats over my face and urinates into my mouth....i love and hate the fact i love drinking her piss...its like no other feeling in the world....i swear when she

chokes me...with both hands i wanna scream i love you....i jus have to say it aloud an let everyone know....

I envy those who are owned, who have the chance to be used whenever

their misstress wants. I dream about being used and abused, forced

to do ma'ams bidding. I yearn to a chore whore...forced to clean

Ma'ams Bathroom and kitchen then sent home without even a slap...

I have this reecurring dream of being in a cage,i yearn for that feeling...

being forced into a cage at night only to awaken in the morning by my

misstress releasing her nectar onto my face...after i lick Ma'am clean thru

the cage im allowed to draw her bath,prepare her breakfast then off to begin

my day after i clean her place,ishower clean my cage enter it and await my

misstress....