ireallydontcare

Ok, so here's how that last one went. It took me a lot of time to gather the courage to do it. Thank you so much for the opportunity to try it. I appreciate it very much.

I couldn't sleep the night before. I was so nervous. I felt like it was Christmas Eve and I was getting the biggest present of my life. But it was different. I felt really nervous and scared. I kept playing it out in my head how this would go and how it would work. My mind raced and I hardly slept. I did manage to doze off a few times for about fifteen minutes at a time.

My alarm went off at exactly 4:50am. I took a deep breath as my stomach turned and the butterflies danced in my belly. I got up and used the bathroom and edged myself like you ordered. It didn't take long cuz I had been horny from thinking about doing this thing.

I went downstairs where my mom keeps her treadmill that she never uses. Hell, I don't even use it, but it works. I was naked like you ordered. I stretched out a little bit and then started jogging on the treadmill. After 10 minutes, I turned up the speed to a harder jog. I was already starting to breath heavy and my boobs were starting to hurt so I held them a little bit while I jogged. After another 10 minutes I turned it on to a hard run. My legs were tired and I was sweating like a pig after the 5 minutes you required me to run. It took me about 15 minutes to catch my breath and I felt like a fat, out of shape pig. I rested while on my knees and rubbing myself. I made sure to stop before I came. I hated myself for it. I wanted to cum so bad because I had been excited all night long about doing the task, but the thought kept running in my head “You need to earn your orgasm.”.

After I caught my breath, I was sweaty and smelly and I went back to my bedroom to start getting dressed. So I took a deep breath and made the breakfast you chose for me. It was kind of gross, but I managed to get it all down. Two large cloves of garlic and a thin slice of raw onions. I washed it down with a cup of old black coffee. I was still dripping with sweat when I finished. I didn't wipe any of my sweat away even though it was driving me insane. It even got in my eyes a little bit and it really burned. After breakfast, I knelt down and edged myself again. This time I almost lost it. I cried when I forced my hand away from me. I caught my breath and went to start getting ready.

You said to get ready from head to toe, so I started with my hair. It was greasy, sweaty, and all over the place, I'm sorry but I had to use a brush to get it together right. I took the right side of my hair and tied a hair tie really tight around it. Then I took some hair on the left side and I braided it. I made myself some bangs and left some strands loose on the sides of my face like you wanted me to. I left the back of my hair alone like you wanted.

Now it was time to do my make up. I got that cheap make up kit you wanted me to buy that almost everything in it. I put red eyeliner on my right eye. I put black eyeliner on my left eye. Then I put some silver mascara on my left eye and black mascara on my right eye. Then I put pink eyeshadow on my left eye, then light blue mascara on my right eye. I put some deep blush on my right cheek, and light pink on my left cheek. I put red lipstick on my upper lip, and black on my lower lip. I used black lip liner on my upper lip and red on my bottom lip. I looked at myself in the mirror and my heart fell to the floor. I have never looked so stupid in all my life. There's no way in hell I would ever go out looking like such an idiot. But I smiled as I stared like you suggested I should do and it kind of felt better, just made me feel way more nervous. Those nerves were making me way excited and turned on big time. I started to back down and think to myself that there was no way I could go through with this, it's stupid. It's wrong. Then a voice in the back of my head told me this: “Who cares what other people think? Fuck them! You can dress and do whatever with your own body. And if someone even dares to ask you why you look like this, you can just tell them that you lost a bet or something. Make a joke out it. Laugh with them. Make it fun.” It kind of made me feel better.

So then it was time to get dressed. I had put my clothes out the night before because I was so excited to do it. So I started from head to toe just like you said. I put on my thickest black choker. Then I hung the male symbol from the front of it like you demanded. I put on my tight, bright orange, tank top you told me to wear. It was thick enough to hide my nipples but not the hardness of them. Then I put on my metallic blue mini skirt. I hadn't worn that since my last rave I went to about a year ago. I can't believe it was so short and tight. Then I put on the tan thigh high on my right leg and then the black one on my left leg. They were long enough to just barely hide under the skirt but every step I take the tops would show. Then I put on the bright yellow heels I wore at my cousins wedding a few months ago. I closed my eyes as I turned around to see myself in the mirror. My jaw dropped when I saw the ridiculousness. I was the ugliest girl in the world. I looked so stupid and mismatched. I wanted to cry. I finally finished the outfit by putting in my fox tail. That just made it worse. The tail dangled down to almost the back of my knees. I started shaking really bad and had to stop for a few minutes to drink some water and give myself a pep talk. I even got a lump in my throat when I said to myself that I need to do this to prove to myself that I have no shame. I need to prove to myself that I can actually go through with it. I always wanted to be humiliated in public and here I have a chance to do it and I can't back down now. It's time. Fuck the world. Let's do this. Come on. Come on. Come on. Come on. Come on.... lol.

I finally got up and grabbed my purse and my keys. I was shaking so bad and this crazy warmth fell over my body like a blanket. It was the craziest feeling in the world. I got this tickle between my legs and my stomach turned so weird. When I got outside I stopped before I closed the door. I listened for people outside, but I didn't hear anyone around. I listened for cars but nobody was coming. I took a deep breath and closed the door behind me. I was on my way. I walked as fast as I could in those hellish heels to my car watching my legs the whole way thinking to myself how stupid I was to be doing shit like this just to get off on it. There has to be something wrong with me to crave this kind of shit. I got to my car in like, 5 seconds but the walk seemed like 5 minutes. This crazy fog came over my mind and I started feeling like I was in this dream. Like I wasn't me anymore. I was someone else. Someone braver than me. Someone who really didn't care what people thought about her. All I felt inside was the sexual excitement between my legs as every step I could feel the plug in my butt and the tail brushing the back of my legs. The air between my thighs and the hot sun on my body. Before I knew it, I was in the safety and privacy of my car. I adjusted my skirt to go over my stockings before I left my house.

I drove about 45 minutes out of town to a walmart I tagged on my phone. I parked as close as I could find and sat there for about 15 minutes trying to be brave enough to do it. I pulled the latch on the door and the second the hot air hit my face, I went back into that weird dream phase again. I was shaking so bad and I was sweating so bad, but I stepped out. It wasn't too busy, but there were a lot of people around. I adjusted my skirt the entire trip. Every few steps I would pull it down, but pulling it down exposed my belly. I never felt so embarrassed in all my life. I was shaking so bad. I felt like every single person in the world was going to judge me today. I put on a smile to help me cope with it. And I started walking toward the store. It was like I went deaf to the world. I got tunnel vision. I had a mission and I had to complete it and nothing else mattered. The more I walked the more calm I got. I noticed some people just ignoring me. But most were staring at me like I was a freak show. I did hear some people laughing and I saw some people chuckling and pointing at me, but I forced myself to give them all dirty looks and go about my business. I got a hand basket and went inside. I couldn't stand the smell of myself. I was completely gross. I was in there maybe one minute when I heard some girls laughing at me hysterically. When I looked in their direction, they just kept laughing and looking at me up and down. I ignored them. I think almost ever single person looked at me whenever I passed by. And every look I got, gave me the tickles down below. I almost lost it when I heard some guys talking and one of them said, “Shes wearing a fucking tail in her ass dude.” The other one said, “Fuck it, I'd still hit that freaky shit.” They were in the next isle and didn't know I was there. I went straight to the pharmacy and picked up a box of their cheapest condoms. A small cheap bottle of lube and a douche. I put them in the basket. Every moment became more and more sexually intense for me. I didn't know anyone here and I had to remind myself that what they think doesn't matter cuz I'll probably never see them again and even if I do, they won't recognize me anyway. I had become someone else in my head. And to be honest, it really really felt good to escape myself like that.

I went to the juniors dept and found me a really short pink skirt with some pleats on the bottom for only five bucks. I bought it 2 sizes too small for me like you asked. I found a white tee shirt that said “This girl is Extraordinary.” I bought one that was 2 sizes too small for me. At least I was able to hide the condoms and lube in my basket now. Then I went to check out. There were no young guys at the registers to check me out, only three women and none of them young. So I went to pay for the items and I could hear the workers talking about me but I couldn't hear what they were saying. I just heard laughing and snickering at me while I totally ignored them. The most uncomfortable thing that made it feel worst was that tail. It made me feel like a fucking stupid idiot horny bitch in heat. The lady rang me up and didn't say a word to me or even look at me while I paid it.

I took my bag and walked out as fast as I could. Security was in their golf cart following me all the way back to my car. When I jumped in, I started crying. They weren't tears from being embarrassed so much as they were tears of me being so proud of myself for doing something so extreme. I was hurt for being looked at like I was such an ugly and smelly thing, so that made me cry, then I cried because I was so proud of myself for doing it. I don't think I had ever been so wet in all my life. My pussy throbbed with pure delight. Now that that part was over, the rest was easy as hell. It got much easier to be out like this. I taught myself to endure it and be proud of myself instead of ashamed of myself. I did something to please another. I sacrificed my dignity to make someone happy. Thats fucking huge!

So I didn't go to the mall, I chose to go to Target instead cuz you gave me the choice to do one or the other or both. Anyways. I didn't have a hard time at all at Target. There were a lot less people there and yes, I did get a lot of looks, and a few laughs but I was able to just laugh with them this time. At target I bought a thong, a pair of fishnet stockings, a stick of beef jerky and a candy bar. There were a ton of young girls at the registers but no boys. The girl laughed at me when she checked me out. She said, “I like your hair,” then the girl behind her laughed too. I just smiled and laughed too. “I lost a bet.” I said. She didn't say anything else, just smiled. When I walked away, I barely heard it, but I think I heard one girl ask, “What the hell is that between her legs? A tail?”

So I left feeling pretty embarrassed and ashamed to be seen like that by girls that were my age. Being judged has always been a thing for me. I've always worked hard to look pretty and be strong and accepted, and this just totally made me feel like shit for doing it in high school to other girls. I actually cried on my way to my car for being such a bitch back then. I got a taste of my own medicine and it felt like shit. I felt like shit. I was so arrogant back then and I want to thank you for making me experience that today. I never realized how bad I made those girls feel until that moment. It was horrible.

I got myself together in the car and made the drive home. I stopped at this little sex shop a few miles from my house across from a TNA truck stop. A small sex shop there. I was feeling a little depressed but this time it was much easier to get out. It was like already normal by this time. So I went inside. There were about 5 or 6 truckers inside looking at magazines and videos and toys and stuff. I went to the videos and started looking through them. I was the only girl in there and I felt really uncomfortable and kind of scared. I found two cheap dvds. “Sperm Banks Volume 4.” And “Cum Fed” I couldn't find dvds of old men in there at all. I started walking and this old man came up behind me and said, “I like your tail.” I just kind of got really scared at first and then smiled at him and said “Thank you.” Then he followed me to the magazines. I couldn't find any magazines besides Playgirl for women so I ended up buying a Penthouse instead. Then that man tells me that he liked the way I dressed. I kind of snubbed him and just smiled trying to ignore him. But he stayed with me all the way around the whole store. I went to the dildos and found a cheap vibrator. He said that that one was too cheap, to let him buy me a better one. I told him no, that I was fine with this one and that I wanted to pay for it. He stared at me really weird as I passed him and went to the register. I noticed that all the men were looking at me and checking me out in my stupid outfit and ugly look. But they all kept staring at me.

I bought the items and the fat old man behind the counter asked if I needed anything else, I felt so out of it I couldn't even talk. I felt like I was in danger. I felt like their eyes were burning into my soul. Like I was surrounded by zombies who want to eat my brain. So I just shook my head and walked out unharmed and safe. I ran to my car and sped home.

The second I got inside, I took off those damn painful shoes and ran to my room where I stripped, and showered and washed the filth from my body and face and hair. I couldn't stand to be like that anymore. It was driving me insane.

So here I am. Naked, air drying from my shower while I type this. I'm sorry it was so long that I had to rest a few times. My knees are killing me. My back is killing me right now. And my butthole is as sore as it's ever been. I'm not too happy about the anal pain. I don't really like anal that much, but I did it for you because it brought you joy to have me do it. That's just how I like to be.

My confession. The one thing that I totally forgot to do was edge myself between each stop. I was so nervous that it totally slipped my mind. I also didn't ask the guy at the adult store if he had any dvds of old men like you asked. I also didn't go to a fast food place and eat there for lunch. I ate the jerky and the candy bar. So I'm really starving now. I just called for a pizza which should be here any minute.

I really really hope I satisfied you with this task, Master G. I never thought it would be so deep. I didn't realize the impact it would have on me to be degraded and humiliated like that. I never realized how far I would go to prove myself for a Dom. I never realized how cruel and judgmental I am to others, especially other girls. It was easily the most humbling experience I have ever had in my entire life. And I want to thank you for making me realize that it's time for me change who I am. To grow up and find what makes me happy and pursue it with all I have. Because I only have one life and I better love every minute of it. And I don't want to die saying, “I never got to...” like you said. You truly are amazing. And thank you from the bottom of my heart for your time and energy you put towards me. You are appreciated and wonderful.

Thank you,

eve