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Is it just me or does it seem that the only female dominates on here lately are those that seem a little more interested in finical gain than sadistic pleasure. I'm sure this may have something to do with supply and demand but it really makes one question if it has more to do with money. It's one thing to have a submissive fantasy that your life is completely controlled by someone else and the reality of giving everything that makes life fulfilling for someone you meet on the internet. The other thing I have to question is how many are real local women and how many are scam artists located elsewhere?

I guess it is just another example of how this site and other personal sites are increasingly a huge waste of time.

Everything I get that feeling that something is missing I can't help but feel that it's something external that is driving the need. A trigger of some kind, like a trip to the hardware store or the pet store. Funny how the mind works and how your libido turns common everyday objects into sexual objects. I guess it's context.

Started book three and then got distracted by Call of Duty Black Ops II and House of Cards on Netflix. Not really a bad thing because writing about the past just makes me desperate to re-live it or at least add new memories to feed on. Nothing feeds the libido like creating a huge piece of fiction based on fact.

One thing I've been thinking about is how you misplace people that used to be the focus of your life. You just forget them one day and then out of the blue 10 odd years later, something makes you think of them. The thing that bugs me is that often this only happens with the people I would like to in fact see again but you have no clue what happened to them.

The second book is coming along really well, just waiting for the editor to get through the first four chapters I've submitted. It has brought up a lot of introspective in my life and how it has shaped by S&M. The question that seems to be pressing for the main character and myself is the desire for S&M a replacement for a desire for intimacy?

Yes there is a level of intimacy involved in even the most casual play date but it has been my experience that emotional intimacy usually takes a back seat even in long term relationships of a D/s or S&M type. The activity can shield one from a emotional connection through the dehumanization of the sub and the unconditional worship of the Dom. This could be in part because of the limited people that share the interest, it's easy to low the standard of what one is seeking in a partner. I think this is extremely the case when you are talking about Femdom relationship. Where the woman are far fewer than the amount of men seeking to submit to a woman.

I have always found that interesting that there seemed to always be a limited amount of Female Dominates. Which creates a sausage party of countless desperate male subs willing to submit to woman, who's personality or physical looks are very unattractive. Is the social influence of western civilization still so strong in this day and age, that it is still creating submissive little girls? I always felt that part of the attraction was to go against the social normal. Yet still a majority of the woman involved in D/s, Bondage and S&M activities are submissives. 

I guess maybe that's the overall problem there is a limited number of people on this earth that you can connect with on an emotional level and when you add sexual interest, that lists gets really short.

I finished the first novel I every wrote earlier this year call The Jury and I've almost got the first installment of the second book done The story is pure fantasy with some real life experiences thrown in. Basically it's a Blackmail femdom story that I was asked to write for FemDomCave. My affiliate link is http://mtclientsite.co.uk/fdc/store?ap_id=beats

I can't help but wonder if it's just me or if it's too much to ask for some form of reality with your sexual interests. My sexual interests are not my life style. I don't live my life to get off. There is a great deal more to life, art, work, music, family and good old fashion conversation. 

The greatest cock blocker know to man, Red Flags. Yes, I don't know if it's age or experience but I've found myself less like to settle on what might work and the real thing.