Yesterday Mistress Cara extended her kindness to her pathetic slave 66 by sending it more images of its owner.  In lieu she had ensured that the day before it would not be allowed to dribble any of its sissy goo by going over the edge- something which she had permitted it to do earlier in the day ensuring that it also after release licked the goo off with its tongue back into itself where it belongs.   Rather, as she had extended her kindness that right to fly over the edge, was taken back and it was to continue to edge its shriveled cocklette in her honor without release until she deems it is allowed to do so.  It has now been edging with no release since almost over three weeks now and understands it place well and truly.  Yesterday Mistress had it further extended its servitude by having its cocklette now not only locked at night but also go to work with its sissy nublette encaged.

it is now sitting at work as it writes this journal for Mistress.  its cocklette has been encaged for Mistress since 9pm last night and it sadly does feel like it is in the right place locked away as it will in anycase not have any real practical use other than than distracting it which is not practical rather disruptive and earning Mistress’s displeasure.  it has also excited its pathetic cocklette by playing with its tender and now seemingly constantly semi hard nipples getting this whore bitch’s cocklette in its semi hard state (although it did manage to fill its cage in excitement last night but not this morning) and close to the edge before it stopped licking off all the leakage of its sissy juices from its cage savoring the rather pathetic and unpleasant taste. 

it woke up also last night with pain in its pussy balls (what purpose other than pain to the serve on this slut slave?) as it was dreaming of the images that Mistress had kindly sent it, imaging that it had finally been given permission to come and serve its Goddess in real time as she towered over it and instructed it like the whore slave that it is.  It imagined crawling behind Mistress with its nose as close to her sexy ass as possible before being made to prepare her for her lover at which point this bitch whore was woken up with much pain in its pussy balls but it was well worth the image Mistress.

Your slave

66

The weekend is over.  it was a hot and humid one here in Singapore and this slut did not enjoy it very much as the humidity is killing.  It also has been coming down with the flu which it had thought it was done with before being hit with a severe migraine yesterday the after effects of which still linger bit it hopes to be able to shrug it off.  All this thought has not dampened its enthusiasm nor stopped it from its servitude to its owner Mistress Cara.

Mistress has been very kind to its owned bitch slave 66 recently and considered allowing it to go over the edge yesterday before revoking that as this slave paid for its reward by giving up its right to spew and dribble its pathetic sissy juices until Mistress decides and allows it to again.  For this pathetic whore bitch the reward has been well worth it as it realizes its position as a slave and that too as a genderless nebulous slave never to have pleasure of its own but to learn to have that by the pleasure of its owner and Goddess.  Mistress’s consideration to it makes it feel like it has got closer to that task.

it has also edged its cocklette last night before going to bed and also this morning before leaving for work, kneeling on the floor and playing with its rather tender and sore nipples which now hurt when stimulated but get its pathetic shriveled cocklette excited yet and that too without it often even getting a fully hard small as it still is when fully hard.  Rather it seems like its oversized clitty seems to be ready to go over when it is still half soft with all the excitement this slut whore gets from playing with its nipples.  The flow of its sissy sauce seems to have abated somewhat both last night and this morning but there was still enough for your whore bitch to clean and lick up using its fingers Mistress.  Your slut also finds now that it seems its pink cocklette head seems almost bigger in its semi hard state than the rest of its cocklette length making for its looking even more useless and dismally pathetic.  After it had stimulated it to the edge last night which was easier than this morning given the treat Mistress had allowed it earlier in the afternoon, it caged its teenie shriveled nublette away for the night where it rightly belongs and feels less humiliated as its cage makes it seem bigger than its cocklette actually is.  Your slut fortunately did not have any swelling problems from its pussy balls and cocklette being caged last night as it slept on its side and stomach, squeezing its cage between its legs as well Mistress, making its cocklette feel fully its plastic prison.  it released its cocklette this morning again before going to work and stimulating it Mistress.  your slut thanks you again Mistress for your kindness yesterday which it enjoyed.

Your slave

66

This owned slave whore has been reclassified by its Mistress, Goddess Cara as number 66 after originally have been given the name slut by Mistress.  Mistress has rightly decided that slaves do not deserve names as they are only property that remain sexless and de gendered there for the pleasure and amusement of their owners only remaining unfilled and without any sexual gratification ever as it is not important or of consideration.  What pleasure they have is to be gained by having their owners have pleasure and non more.  As such slut has been classified as 66 so that Mistress can keep track of her property.  This slave is further not to consider itself as human and as such neither male nor female rather de sexed and de gendered referring to this slave only as it as it already does.

Hello Goddess.  it is feeling much better today finally after having slept in and now managing to rid itself of its headache and achy feeling. 

Your slut has been following your orders Mistress of exciting your cuckolded whore bitch’s pathetic shriveled teenie cocklette morning and evening Mistress by caressing flicking and pinching its bitch nipples which now more or less remain permanently semi hard sore and very sensitive Mistress and getting cocklette hard/ semi hard actually Mistress as most of the time now it seems to only get to the point of being semi hard before it gets close to the edge Mistress humiliating it further but not even being able to get fully hard Mistress.  it has not released or gone over the edge now for almost three weeks and is getting used to the idea and the fact that it may not ever be allowed to do so at least not in a manner that will give it pleasure, its shriveled clitty keeps leaking out its pathetic sissy slime which it promptly cleans up with its fingers and feeds into its whore mouth to take it back in.  it has been doing a lot of that lately Mistress and hopes that it pleases and amuses Mistress.

it is now also become very aware of when it crosses women on the street or outside always lowering its eyes and knowing it will never be able to please them in any sexual manner ever rather only with its tongue which is longer than its shriveled semi hard useless cocklette.  Watching with lowered eyes their shapely forms all the way from their feet to shapely legs sexy asses their waists and then the slope of their breasts leaves it feeling small humiliated and truly humbled knowing that it will never be able to serve in any form than underneath them Mistress as you train and mold it.

it hopes Goddess is well.  it understands that she has been busy the last few days and misses here directives and guidance.  It is like the sun has been hidden behind the clouds but it knows that the clouds will soon part way and the sun will shine again.

Your whore bitch has continued not to feel so good unfortunately the last couple of days – including today as its headache and now sore throat/ cold continues.  Perhaps it is not from staying up late but more so from the weather change as it has been raining a lot of late and then got hot again.  Unfortunately when it rains it cools down and the temperature setting at work for the a/c’s never get adjusted so it is freezing and hence easy to fall sick.

Despite not feeling well Mistress your cum receptacle has been following your instructions Mistress and kneeling down worshipping you on its knees playing with its nipples to get its shrunken cocklette hard – as hard as it can and taking it to the edge Mistress.  its nipples are getting very tender and extremely sensitive with all the attention the are getting while its cocklette has learnt that getting excited gets it nowhere but despite that it keeps trying to have the experience which is followed by the lesson of not now not in a hurry making it deflate and shrivel up again after having got close to the edge but never being allowed to go over Mistress.  it shrivels up with its usual trail of pathetic sticky sissy goo which your goo guzzling cow cleans of with its fingers Mistress.  it is slowly relearning the meaning of being truly de gendered but constantly kept on edge by its useless appendage hanging between its legs seeking relief when there is none to have only causing distractions for it from focusing on its Mistress’s servitude by looking for relief.  It hopes Mistress to one day be able to overcome this urge from its pathetic teenie sissy clitty Mistress. 

It has a painful headache this morning.  Perhaps more from staying up late and watching Godfather, godfather III actually….yes it finds it a classic and it is always also fun to watch the wonder of Sicily and the craziness of it all.  Does the Mafia really exist?  It thinks so but anyways that is for another discussion san the headache.

Mistress has been busy as she said with friends and family who are visiting her this week and that is good.  It misses here guidance but knows that she has been very attentive to it despite its misbehaving and is just happy to have her as this sluts “bout of brilliance”. 

slut enjoyed wearing its pink thongs to work yesterday.  Not only did it feel very sexy but the feeling of nothingness on its ass cheeks as they rubbed against its pants and the thong string as it remained snug in this bitch whore’s ass crack kept the whore’s shriveled cocklette on edge causing it to leak and make a puddle in its panties. it kept working to lick this clean with its fingers when it could but the dampness was clear on the bitch’s thong.

slut also has been diligently following the simple orders that Mistress had given it and has been on its knees last night worshipping Mistress as it played with its sore and tender titties – it has noticed Mistress that the left nipple seems to have more meat/ is thicker than the right one is it normal or perhaps it is the fact that it is left handed? Do you know Mistress?  in anycase it digresses, it caressed, flicked and pinched its nipples as it got its shriveled cocklette all excited bringing it to the edge Mistress before stopping not allowing it to dribble or spew its sissy juices and then locking it away in its cage for the night Mistress.  Keeping it locked always reminds it of your control over it not only by the physical nature of locking it in but also by the fact that if your bitch’s cocklette gets hard even subconsciously at night it is painfully reminded of its place by pain in its pussy balls and by it getting up to calm down its cocklette- again causing trouble and distracting it.  Yes it happened again last night Mistress not helping the headache that this slut has this morning Mistress – it suspects that it was perhaps part of the problem Mistress.

Never the less, slut woke up this morning and after releasing its cocklette out of its cage it again got it excited using its nipples to stimulate itself Mistress getting it close to the edge Mistress but not over.  Keeping it from getting to close and not going over Mistress seems to be getting trickier as the edge does not seem very far now Mistress and it also most feels like it is there at the edge often times Mistress when your whore’s clitty now is barely semi hard Mistress.  Perhaps that is a function of its lack of abilities and useless state that it can dribble or get close to dribbling without even getting hard Mistress.  it is thinking of you Mistress and happy to be owned by you Mistress.

Life is generally mundane with occasional bouts of brilliance.  This generally rings very true.

This whore is very happy to have found its bout of brilliance and ray of sunshine in its being owned and possessed by Mistress Cara recently and is still riding the wave despite stupidly managing to displease her earlier this week.

it has been given new tasks in addition to what Mistress has already given it and is sitting at work wearing its new pink thongs as it writes its journal report for Goddess. 

Mistress has already threatened to terminate its account on collarme as she rightly points out other than posting its journal there is and should be no other use for the account.  She already reads and controls the account and any interaction it may have through it which of course there should be no need for.  Any external contact can be of course better handled by Mistress for this slut including renting and bitching it out to others if she wants.  This whore bitch has consented to Mistress’s shutting the account and to Mistress’s posting its journal on it as she sees fit.

it digresses though, having got up this morning and unlocked its shriveled teenie cocklette from its cage where it was overnight, this slut knelt and played with its bitch titties as it has now no longer been allowed to touch its cocklette not in any pleasurable manner for sure.  It is only to fondle flick and caress its slut nipples and get its cocklette excited by doing that bringing itself to the edge but not over.  it has managed to do that, a task that took it longer both last night and this morning but it got its ever eager shriveled cocklette to the edge before stopping to stimulate its nipples which again caused slut’s clitty stick (small) to disappear back to its  teenie clitty nub status truly pathetic useless and disgusting and wet and sticky to add which it again wiped off with its fingers and sucked away ingesting it back. 

After cleaning up its useless clear discharge and seeing its cocklette shrinking back, your whore put on its pink thongs as you instructed it to.  Your bitch enjoyed wearing them Mistress feeling the front attempt to smoothen out its pathtic cocklette and the string going deep into your sluts ass cracking splitting its cheeks and making it feel very sexy hot and excited yet humiliated knowing that it wears them as a mark of ownership by its Mistress not for anything else but because it pleases its Mistress.   it gets very excited thinking of that Mistress and its cocklette is making a bit of a puddle in its thong Mistress- perhaps a panty liner will solve this :=).  its pussy balls also occasionally get split by the thong Mistress hanging on either side like useless balls Mistress.  its slutty bitch ass feels aroused without an cover as well Mistress.  Goddess your slut feels like a true bitch whore in them knowing it will please you Mistress but not be pleasurably pleased itself and your slut takes it joy from your pleasure Mistress. 

it wishes to happily start off with reporting that Mistress Cara’s owned slut has finished its orders as given to it by Goddess.  slut knelt and worshipped Mistress playing with its now shriveled and fast disappearing nub using its hand to stimulate and wank it to hardness which happened both last night and this morning rather quickly as it also thought of all the images of Mistress that it had been enjoying and viewing that are truly very hot and sexy of Mistress and that only leave this whore more hot and breathless and desperate for craving her attention and serving and pleasing her.  

it got its cocklette very excited and stimulated getting it to the edge of the spewing zone but knew better than to go over the edge much as its cocklette and pussy balls would want it and drive it to and it stopped before it did so making its cocklette again collapse into oblivion leaving behind its usual wet and messy trail of protest which it immediately cleaned up and ingested.  After last nights edge play after finishing it locked up its occklette as well in its cage for the night before releasing it. it is finding that it better and better able to sleep now with its cocklette caged away despite the occasional discomforts at night every so often especially when it visualizes and thinks of Mistress whom it knows it is fortunate to serve.  

It has spent much of its time at work today pondering over Mistress and if it will be ever worthy to serve her in real time.  it knows it has recently displease its owner and Goddess and knows that slaves cannot and must not do that and this cow hopes it will not be in a position to displease her again.  it knows in the short time that it has served her already she indeed is the kind of owner this whore bitch needs and craves.  it seeks being remolded by her to her pleasures and fancies and desires to serve her from near and afar so maybe someday it can prove to be of use to her as well.  its mind wandered to something that Mistress also mentioned which struck a cord with it.  Mistress had told it that it could never be considered man let alone a woman who are superior to men.  it was neither and nor could consider itself as a person given its worthless being it was also not worth being considered a worm that was crushed under Mistress’s boot as that would be kind.  Further she considered how best to do away with and get rid of sluts pathetic teenie sissy nublette all together.  It is true and this slut realizes it has no functional use for it as it will never be allowed inside a woman- it would probably not even be felt and all it does is distract it from focusing on Mistress and pleasing her so it should probably be removed or permanently locked away.  it understands and accepts that and it would miss it but knows it is for the best. 

it had read a story once a long time back about a slave that had its cocklette permanently encased in a metal sleeve which did not allow for any use but its owner also left its pussy balls all so it was always left horny but unfulfilled.  It was a very good story and it will try and find it for Mistress on the net today as she may enjoy it. 

its edge play and no dribble or spewing instructions have also made it very aware of the presence of helplessness especially when it now sees woman on the street or elsewhere, it instinctively lowers its eyes but also is very aware of there form and how it can never perform or be with them rather only look with the hope of only pleasing with its tongue or offering itself in some other way to them using its pussy ass or mouth again of course only if Mistress wills it.  Perhaps she will rent it out to them.  its imagination is running a bit wild today!!

It is still very deflated from having displeased Mistress over the weekend and that does not refer to its teenie appendage between its legs which is now learning to stay permanently deflated knowing it will never be used.   Its deflation however does not seem to stop it from being always wet and slimy which this slut constantly cleans up as it has been instructed to do by Mistress Cara.

This Slut following Goddess Cara’s instructions, has knelt and worshipped Mistress as the last thing it did last night as well as when it awoke this morning as required by Mistress wanked its cocklette to hardness and to the edge of release before stopping and not allowing it to spew any of its juices.  It finds that stimulating its cocklette by touching it gets it hard and to the edge rather quickly so its has had to be very careful not to go over the line which it has thus far managed to avoid.  Last night after it worshipped it caged its cocklette for the night. its finds having its cocklette  caged safer as it does not have to justify the humiliation of its teeniness or pathetic state as it is behind the cage.  It does find thought that the cage, especially the rings around its pussy balls can cause stimulation to it when it is not asleep especially if it squeezes its legs hard it gets a reaction from its useless cocklette but as soon as the squeeze is stopped its cocklette deflates again, it is something it is avoiding doing for fear that this may cause an unwanted accident which it would definitely not want to happen.  It has also found that with its servitude and edge play this bitch slut’s nipples are also getting more tender and sensitive or maybe it is just imagining this but it definitely feels that way.

Yesterday this stupid slut managed to piss off its Mistress as it stupidly and willfully disobeyed one of its Mistress’s and owners instructions.  It was not sure what it was thinking but it realizes it should have known better than to disobey its owner.  A slave is not supposed to use initiative that is for its owner, it is there to obey and please that is what it exists for.  it is very disappointed and sad about its behavior and for displeasing its Goddess and owner.  it hopes that Mistress Cara can consider forgiving its mistake.

Your cuckolded bitch slut has worshipped you as the last thing it did last night and then as the first thing as it did when it got up again this morning Mistress.  it had also locked up its cocklette in its cage overnight in between its worshipping you as well Mistress, having only released it in the morning before stroking it to the edge.  it stroked its shriveled useless stump of a cocklette to hardness, a task that took a few more strokes than the previous few sessions  Mistress but never the less not too long as it useless cocklette stiffened and got excited from its wanking it.  Your slut brought it to the edge as it had been instructed to on both occasions before stopping abruptly so as not do cover over and spew its sissy slime.  As soon as your bitch stopped tugging on its cocklette Mistress, your slut’s sissy clitty started deflating not being able to hold itself up with any authority what so ever Mistress.  Every time this happens Mistress your slut useless cocklette is left very wet and sticky with some leakage of its sissy slime which it immediately cleans up with its tongue using its fingers to feed it to itself Mistress as it knows to shove what comes out of its pathetic appendage back in given that that is where it should be in the first place Mistress.  Your stupid slut is truly sorry again for its disobedience to you a well Mistress and apologies on hands and knees prostrating itself in front of your image Mistress.

This whore bitch has just finished it morning ritual of obeisance and servitude to its owner and Goddess as well as having worshipped and taken itself to the edge last night and wished to write about that the gratitude to Mistress Cara for allowing it to do so.

it had worshipped Mistress last night on its knees taking out slut’s shriveled cocklette wanking it within a few strokes to a hardened state and getting it to the edge of spewing its sissy slime before stopping and letting it deflate its cocklette back to oblivion, a state which came with its shriveled clitty being a wet stick mess which it rectified by scooping up the goo with its hand and feeding it into its slutty mouth knowing that what comes out of a slave must go in.  it then locked its cocklette into its cb3000 for the night as it had been instructed to do. 

It is a process that it was instructed upon by Goddess Cara and one which reminds it of its Mistress’s control far as she may be from its chattel.  This caging of its cocklette causes it to keep its useless appendage under control while it is sleeping, awaking it often times with immense pain in its pussy balls and clitty stick if by mistake its cocklette got hard for some reason while it was sleeping.  Whenever that happened as it did once last night, it would need to wake up and walk around a bit to calm itself down before working to go back asleep of course also using its fingers to scoop of all the sissy goo from the inside the cage as it could and ingesting it as it has been told to.  The memory of the pain in its cocklette and pussy balls is still freshly etched in its head.- it feels like its balls are being neutered as the ring digs in into its swollen pussy balls.

After releasing its cocklette from its cage this morning and carefully using its fingers to wipe the sticky goo from it – which went again into sluts mouth, it stroked it to hardness again in a matter of a few strokes Mistress again bringing it to the edge of dribbling but holding it back, leaving its pussy balls heavy and swollen and its clitty head sticky and leaky which was again quickly cleaned and ingested by your slut. 

As it sits now writing this it finds it cocklettte small and shriveled and not easily hardened/ hardening yet at the same time very sticky and wet – which needs to be attended to and cleaned regularly. 

Slut followed the instructions of Goddess Cara before going to bed last night.  it knelt on the floor as it always does when following its owner and Mistress’s orders or when speaking and serving her, it played with its teenie appendage of a clitty getting it hard within a few strokes and bringing it to the edge of dribbling rather quickly before stopping so as to ensure it did not spew it sissy slime without orders.  As it stopped its pathetic cocklette shrank rather quickly into its useless teenie state Mistress, leaving it wet and sticky but rather humiliating shrunk to nothingness.  It actually feels that its cocklette is slowly reducing in size as well Mistress.

Once your slut’s cocklette had shriveled, it locked it in its cage for the night and went to bed.  Having its cocklette cage, where it realizes it belongs Mistress made it feel even more owned by you Goddess.  it knows that your slut will never be able to use its cocklette with anyone in a pleasurable way and should be kept locked, the humiliation of knowing that got your sluts pathetic appendage hard in its cage as it expanded in frustration Goddess knowing and realizing this and also causing pain in its pussy balls Mistress.

It woke up this morning Goddess took your slut’s cocklette out of its CB3000 knelt on the floor again and wanked your slut’s cocklette to the edge again Mistress as it thought of serving you and how thankful lit was.  Again it did not take long for your bitch whore’s useless cocklette to get hard and close to the edge at  which point it stopped leaving it to shrivel back to its pathetic useless state again Mistress in a wet sticky mess.  It has now been 10 days your slut has not dribbled out is pathetic sissy slime Mistress and each day makes it more aware of its servitude to you Mistress and its thankfulness for your taking it in as your chattel and making it realize its failures and neutered state Mistress and that spewing its sissy sauce is not what pleases rather its service in pleasuring and keeping its owner amused and interested is what pleases Mistress.

Your slut thanks you for your emails and for your instructions Goddess and for instructing it to cage its teenie useless sissy cocklette Mistress at night.  It has not done so for a long time but it knows that its pathetic useless appendage deserves to be and stay locked up so it cannot be touched or fiddled with without permission by it as it is not its property Goddess rather it is owned and controlled by you Mistress, this slut whore’s owner and Goddess. 

Your whore bitch followed knelt in obeisance Mistress last night before going to be and played with your slut’s sissy clitty Mistress getting it fat and hard but still pathetic and no where real what a real man’s cock should look like Mistress and wanked it bringing it close to the edge Goddess but not allowing your bitch to spew any of its sissy slime out Mistress.  After it did that Goddess, it let your slut’s useless appendage shrink back to its non existent size Mistress and then locked it away in its CB3000 for the night Mistress. 

Not having had it caged for so long made for a rather unpleasant and uncomfortable night for your slut Mistress as it tried to avoid the pain in its sissy grape balls as the cage crushed them when/ if it slept on its back Goddess and it eventually settled for sleeping on its side Mistress but was woken up late at night as its cocklette tried getting hard in the cage Mistress causing it much discomfort Goddess as it should knowing fully that its cocklette does not does not deserve attention nor relief rather it exists to show your bitch how useless it is and how it needs to control its appendage as it no longer belongs to it rather to its owner who really has no use for it.

 it awoke early this morning as it usually does Goddess (around 7 am) and took your sluts sissy clitty out of its cage and then knelt and wanked it again to the edge without again allowing for it to release its sissy juice Mistress.  It did not take many strokes at all Goddess to get your slut’s cocklette hard and close to the edge Mistress as it thought of the pleasure and joy of serving you Goddess and of your sexy and hot body Mistress which it knew as a slave it would never have rather only if lucky someday prepare for your lovers Mistress.

it will also go later today or tomorrow Mistress and shop for a pair of pink or red thongs Goddess and then report back to you once it has done that Mistress with all details.  it is thankful to you Mistress for accepting this bitch whore into your chatel to train Mistress.

it has found a new owner and Goddess and is thankful for that.  After several years of attempting to go vanilla it understands that a slave can never break away from its innate being of serving and worshipping as its pleasure is to be derived from that of its Owners.

it is glad to have found Mistress Cara in whom it hopes to be taken deeper into servitude being molded to her pleasures and fancies, turning it into the perfect chatel and property of hers. 

it has been kindly allowed to be given a name- slut, which it appreciates as a great honor especially for a slave knowing that most are not considered to be worthy of being named being objects and not real people, considered sexless and gender neutral existing only for the reason of keeping their Owners happy amused and aiming to get their attention without being obtrusive.

it has understood that a slaves pleasures are of no consequence to its Owner - it is a by product and distraction to its Owner.  it also knows that having its cocklette it will always have to work to keep it from distracting it and its servtude to its Owner- it is there to remind it of how pathetic it is as it knows it will never be used as it is too pathetic and useless to be so.  it hangs in shame as a symbol of its submission, tiny cage and shrivelled always desiring but knowing that it will never have or get. 

it looks forward to its new and permanent servitude to Mistress Cara and hopes to serve her as her chastized cuckolded slave being pushed further and further down the path of slavery and submission there to serve her as she desires to keep her amused and pleasured, molded for her fancies and as she wishes.  it hopes to achieve through perseverance and dedication the hope that it may one day be able to also serve her real time as her cuckold- her pleasures being taken in and becoming its pleasures.  This slut thanks her for taking it in into her harem of slaves