My princess. 

Thank you, thank you, thank you. I have never felt so utterly submissive before. You are amazing, incredible and so skilled in the art of taking me deeper [yes i do finally get it now] Yours forever. B

WELCOME HOME MISTRESS.:. In your absence you were deeply missed. Now that you have returned I can start living again!

A question:

Lets say this one "handsome slim toned gym body of a man sent a nasty, unsolisited message to another person even though they had never met or spoken before. what would you think of that man? Would be inclined to trust him? Would you beleive anything that he claimed or would you like me be certain that he was not at all what he claimed to be? Plus his photo really says a lot too! :-)

If that is handsome, I am a monkey's uncle - someone needs a decent meal!

Wishes to thank his Mistress for allowing this insignificant soul to help her through a truly frighting experience today. I was happy to be there in your hour of need and always will be. Mistress has to only click her fingers and i shall be there.

wishing a speedy recovery to my mistress. I miss you.

ben

Miss karen ma'm this boy would like to express his gratitude for the invite to my mistress's birthday party. It was indeed a most enjoyable evening. I have never danced so much in my life and will confess to having aching feet. It was worth it just to see my mistress so happy. She was still dancing when my taxi arrived. It was a pleasure to meet her friends and family too. I am in your debt miss karen.

ben.

My mistress is just so special. She has a heart of gold yet she is cock throbbingly sexy. I love listening to her speak. She has a very sexy voice, all breathless and erotic. She has the uncanny knack of twisting me up inside, making me so hard that it hurts. She could tease for England and get a gold every time. I adore her, worship her want her so badly.My mistress knows all this and it amuses her to see me squirm. Mistress knows that my feelings run deeper than that of just a sub. I made a fool of myself a few weeks ago and she could have easily just walked away, but she didn't. I just have to prove that i am genuine, prove that i would never hurt her and show her that she deserves to be 100% happy.

"Life is not about what i've done, what i should've done, what i could've done... it's about what i can do and what i will do"

Good luck today mistress.

This submissive adores and loves you.

ben x

I tell you goodnight with tears in my eyes. I wish i was there curled up by your side. Time passes, but not fast enough. I try to be strong but i'm not that tough. When i feel your embrace it will be all right. But my heart aches for you on this lonely night. Hurry back mistress i miss you.

One extraordinary night. A night i will never forget. I adore you mistress.

THANK YOU

Hopes my mistress managed to get some sleep. I did not realise how late or early it was till i heard the birds outside. Good conversation will do that i guess. It was a joy to hear my mistress giggle. I adore her giggle, and can never get enough of hearing it. She did however tease the hell out of me again. She only has to lower her voice into an almost whisper and i am as hard as a rock (with all due respect) Perhaps tonight she may allow me some release or as i suspect just tease me until she has had her fun and then leave me to suffer the rest of the night. I love everything about my mistress.

A quote from my mistress's own moist lips:

"I'm not a tease, Im just a reminder of what you can't have"

Plan B not only a decent singer but also my mistress's next move. My mistress is very resourceful, clever and imaginative with just a touch of evil thrown in for good measure.

This is going to be fun!

Audaces fortuna iuvat - Amor vincit omnia

I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to (yet) doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have. I have also learned that given time, effort and purpose you can change someones opinion of you and this opens the door to their heart.
You know I love you, you only have to let go and i will catch you. I am in this for the long haul.

Me"I know we have known each other for a relatively short period of time but I know you are the one for me. I am not just smitten, i do not have a crush, i love you, i need you , i want you.

Her“sure you think its love right now darling , but you will soon find yourself another girl to love and it will be nothing you have ever felt before”

Me "sure, in three or four years time I will probably love another girl, and she will call you Mommy!”

Her "omg that was so sweet ben, i am crying here

Result :)

The woman in black - should be a scream - just looking forward to being near her.

Talking to my mistress on the phone is always thrilling. I never know what mood she will be in, or if she will allow my call at all. The past week I have spoken to her almost every night and way into the early hours. She has that kind of voice that can either make you melt or make you hard or both. Mistress loves to tease me and make me wait and wait and sometimes she will tease so much that i actually feel pain. Does this bother my mistress? no it makes her giggle and its that giggle which makes me melt. Five days now she has made me wait. I can wank but i am not allowed to cum. I find myself getting hard just thinking about her now. This is fine while I am not near her but tomorrow we are back working together and i am so scared that i will cream my trousers the moment she says hello. I will be taking a few pairs of pants with me just incase :)

I love my mistress so much, and will do all i can to make her happy.

The pursuit of happiness is: the chase of a lifetime!

May the force be with me tonight. Hope she likes my light saber lol

At least I have Her all to myself now :)

Mistress thank you for chatting to me for so long last night. It was so good to hear you laugh and giggle. I did not want to let you go you sounded so happy. I want to shout it out for all to hear that i love you mistress. I look forward to working with you again next week, i have never been so excited to return to work before, well since the last time LOL

Hope your day was not to tiring, you have to agree it was worth it.

I love you x

Your ben x

My darling mistress please remember i am a phone call away if you want to chat or just 20 minutes away by car. I hate knowing you are hurting and I would do anything to take it all away! PLEASE let me mistressx

Your ben x

Thank you so much mistress for taking my call last night. It was so good to hear your voice. Thank you also for making me beg and plead for you to stay. I did not want to go to sleep and would have kept you up all night if i could. Mistress you know just how to keep me on the edge with your teasing, my goodness i was on the brink so often i thought i would explode.I do understand that i have to have permission and i promise i have not had sexual release now for over a week. Looking forward to chatting with you saturday. I do hope you will look kindly on my pleas mistress, not sure i will be able to function at work if i do not get some kind of sexual release soon. I know that sounds like an excuse but it is really becoming and excuse the pun "harder" to cope. I love you so much mistress and will do anything to keep you happy.

Ben x

"An erection at will is the moral equivalent of a valid credit card."-Alex comfort

How can i explain the feeling i get whenever i hear her sexy voice. I just melt, i get a tingling feeling and an ache in my stomach. When she giggles, oh my goodness how i just want to lick them off her lips. When she sighs, i want to just wrap my arms around her and whisper “i love you mistress” Mistress has the ability to arouse such passion within me [with all due respect to my mistress] I dream of touching, and caressing her perfect freckled skin. I dream of running my hands through her long red hair. I dream of being the only one for her. Is it just a wonderful fantasy? No it can and will be a reality one day. I have made it my mission to make her happy and will do all i can to make sure that happens. Does my mistress know all this? Of course she does and it amuses her to know i am so besotted . She deserves to be loved and adored, she deserves to be told often that she is the most beautiful woman on this earth. Mistress believe me when i say, i will never let you down, i will always make time for you, i will always put you first and i will love you with all that i am and that’s forever!

Ending is better than Pending LOL

One word for Her  GLORIOUS

As punishments go being banished from my mistress has to be the worst. Finally i get the chance to make it up to her and i plan to pull out all the stops. (I wonder where that phrase comes from?) Monday 13th is Mistress Day so naturally my mistress will be well looked after by her subs and slaves, including this one.

Thank you for your punishment mistress i strive to be a better sub for you every day.

x

Anything that's worth having Is sure enough worth fighting for. When it gets tough you got to fight to hold on to that which has value! You are a prize to behold mistress and any  man who truly loved you would have moved heaven and earth by now just to keep you. Remember that, let it all go and open up to new posibilities. I will not apologise for how i feel mistress, I am just a man when all is said and done. A man who loves everything about you, and i WILL fight tooth and nail to make you happy. I will never ever give up so do your worst.

Ben x

Every new day is another chance to change your life forever.

The party went well, no fights which is always a bonus. Mistress did attend although she did not arrive till late and unfortunately most of my family had already left, but still she came and i was so grateful. Her gift was somewhat embarrassing and i did have to hide if from my colleagues. Luckily mistress did not insist i wear it but i had to promise to take a photo of it sometime this week, which i will of course. I met miss Karen for the first time too, she was charming and very pretty. Mistress did not stay long but we had one dance and that was heaven. It felt almost like touching a god. It certainly made my night. Thank you mistress for attending, even though you made me wait, it was worth it in the end.

Men who care passionately for women attach themselves at least as much to the temple and to the accessories of the cult as to their goddess herself.
 - Marguerite Yourcenar

Well it is here, my birthday. Do i feel any older? not really i guess i need to be more of an adult now. Not really going to happen though, will save that for when i get to 60. I had a number of BIRTHDAY messages from friends on CM including mistress of course, but also from naim who i hope to become good friends with should mistress accept his request to join team mg. He seems nice enough and mistress speaks highly of him so thats good enough for me. I am so very nervous about tonight. Not sure if mistress will be attending the party. She is teasing me, i ask and she says "maybe, maybe not" so i will have to wait and see. I must learn patience, something i am useless at but am trying so hard to learn. I want to please my mistress, make her smile, make her giggle, and keep her as happy as i can. I will let you all know how it all pans out. Wish me luck.

Ben.

Growing old is mandatory; growing up is optional.
--Chili Davis

I did not get to speak to mistress yesterday, she was not feeling 100%. I did speak to her tonight though for a few minutes and she sounded on top form. Two more days to my birthday party, really looking forward to it even though mistress has not confirmed that she is attending and i am too much of a coward to ask just in case she says no. So i will keep everything crossed and just hope she can spare an hour or two to make my night.

I've learned...
that two people can look at the exact same, thing and see something totally different.

My mistress is just wonderful. She makes me laugh so much at times. Talking to her tonight she was in playful mood and boy did she tease the hell out of me. I loved every second of it of course. She sounded so happy it was a joy to hear her giggle. My birthday party is one week away but i am already excited because my mistress will be there along with a fellow mistress. Mistress will finally get to meet my family and friends and i know they will adore her as i do. Just counting down the days.

Life is too short to wake up with regrets. Love the people who treat you right. Forget about the ones who don’t. Believe everything happens for a reason. If you get a second chance, grab it with both hands. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said life would be easy. They just promised it would be worth it.

Looking forward to my birthday on the 20th - Hopefully be celebrating it with the most beautiful woman in the universe. Mistress mg you are so kind to see past my stupidity and give me another chance. I promise to do all i can to make you happy and to keep you smiling.

your ben x

The trouble with resisting temptation is that you may not get another chance.

Sometimes you have to forget what you feel and remember what you deserve.

I've learned...
that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

I apologies for my stupid remarks mistress. I keep getting it all wrong don't i?

You cannot make someone love you. All you can do is stalk them and hope they panic and give in.

When a mistress tells you " do not fall in love with me" or "do not mistake friendship for anything more" or "be patient "  take notice because she means every word. I made a fool of myself, not the first time and will not be the last. I have been chastised for being over familiar with my mistress. I have been chastised for falling for her in a big way. She made no promises to me, in truth she kept me at arms length. Not once did she ever lead me to believe there was ever anything but friendship between us and i messed up big time. Will i stick around and allow her to control me like this?  oh my goodness YES. It is what i signed up for, her control, her dominance and of course her friendhip.

I am more than happy to be a speck of dirt on her shoe, as long as i belong to her.

Ben.

Just wanted to wish you luck for tomorrow mistress. I will admit to be missing you already but I am sure we will work together again very soon. Thank you for the dance at the party and for agreeing to help celebrate my birthday in a few weeks time. I will learn patience mistress, i promise. Thank you for  the long chat and for being so open and honest. You know my feelings.

Love you

Ben x

Find the things that take your breath away.

Find the joy and make it contagious.
Awaken your soul and reach for more.

Mistress i do understand your need for peace and quiet, I know the past few weeks have been problematic for you. Please know that what ever you decide I will follow you where ever you go ( with permision of course) I will not add to your problems princess, just know I am but a phone call away. The invite still stands for the New years eve party ma'm, however i know you have other invites so i wont be too disappointed. I am totally ready for 2012 now, you have brightened my future just by being you.

I love you.

“Life is not about waiting for the storms to pass… It’s about learning how to dance in the rain” 

Forgive me for the text but i was very concerned for my mistress as I had not heard from you in a while. I understand that i have broken your rules and will take any punishment my mistress wishes to give. Would my mistress give me a chance to make it up to her with a gift? please allow me to send you some beautiful flowers to help raise your spirits? You know how much i love and care for you mistress, please do not punish me for just being concerned for a very special lady in mylife.

"Love is that condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own."

Hope you feel better soon Mistress. I am only at the end of a phone line should you need a sympathetic ear or something else.

Your ben x

this boy loves you x

I love you so much mistress and you know that goes deeper than just words on a screen. I will always be here to catch you, protect and love you, no matter how long it takes. I will never let you down i promise. You should be treated like a queen always.

ben x

You don't know what you got till its gone, then its too late.

Thank you mistress for allowing my phone call last night. Forgive me for getting so emotional but i can not help it when you are close. Thank you for chatting to me for so long too. I hope it does not spoil you day. You have the most infectious giggle mistress and i can not get enough of it. You know just what to say to get the blood pumping, i am putty in your hands. Hard stiff putty most of the time (with all due respect) but you know exactly what you are doing and i love it. When i say `i love you` i mean every word, you know how i feel. I will always be near no matter what, you can rely on me.

Have an excellent day mistress.

Your ben X

The thought of being with you tomorrow gives me the strength to go on today. 

Babe just walk away.

Thank you so much mistress for our conversation last night/this morning. I had not realised it was so late. Please do forgive me for the lack of sleep but to me it was worth every second. Thank you also for sharing your concerns with me, for trusting in me, i will never let you down, but as you have said so many times, words mean nothing, actions do so that will be one of my New Year resolutions, to show you how much i care, how much i worship and adore you. I look forward to our next chat, i would talk to you every day 24/7 if i could, but i fear you would get bored of me all too quickly. I wanted to thank you for my gift, it was not expected, but gratefully received, i will treasure it.

"For anything worth having one must pay the price; and the price is always work, patience, love, self-sacrifice"  I love you x

One exceptional evening. Thank you mistress, you are a true goddess.

Working after hours is usually seen as bad, however when it is in the presence of a beautiful goddess then i would be happy to work 27/7/365. Not going into too much detail but today was one of the best at work days yet by far. Today she called me darling which at the time was thrilling. I must add here that she calls everyone darling, but it was the first time she actually said it to me. It truly made me melt a little and catch my breath.   Only a couple more days and then i probably will not see her again for a while but i will be in contact via CollarMe, yahoo, and the phone so it is not all doom and gloom. Looking forward to out night out tomorrow. I have never attended a "works do" before. It never really interested me, but try and keep me away this time. 

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is...
You  

For Her.

No one ever said that love was gonna be easy
Gotta take the ups and downs the in-betweens
If you take this journey, gotta give yourself completely
Never let nobody ever step on a dream.

You better stop, listen to these words I say
You better stop don't you throw this good thing away
no no, Put your trust in me and I'll make you see.

No the rain wont last forever find a way to make it better
Long as we can stand together Love will find a way

 
Gonna make a new tomorrow say good-bye to tears and sorrow
Better listen when I say Love will find a way

I want you, I need you
You know that I believe you
We got it you know it
So if it's real just show it baby

Try, listen to these words that I say
Try, don't you throw this good thing away
No, put your trust in me and I'll make you see

LOVE WILL FIND AWAY!

The whole person, with all his senses, with mind body and soul, needs to be involved in the worship of a genuine GODDESS. I am thankful to be doing just that.

I love my mistress goddess.

The one who makes me the happiest, is always the one who is already taken. Still have Her as my mistress and that is more than enough for me.

I love you mistress, with all my heart.

I have been chastised for not following mistress's orders. It was not an intentional mistake i just forgot. I think that made it seem like i do not care but i do. Mistress told me to be online for 7am this morning and to wait for my punishment. I was awake at 6am just to make sure i would be up in time. i waited and waited but she did not come online till 8:30 am. I was not annoyed, i was more worried that she was angry with me i hate it when she is angry. No anger was shown however she was disappointed in me which is worse i think. I hate letting mistress down. I now have a task to complete today for her which is to purchase her a suitable pre christmas gift as an apology. i would buy her anything just to see her smile, hear her laugh. She demanded that i make myself available sunday evening, she has something planned. This always gets me excited and just a little scared because you never know what is going to happen. Looking forward to returning to work tomorrow as mistress will be back after her nasty cold. I really did miss having her near. One day perhaps she will see me not just as a work mate, not just as her submissive but as a close friend who simply adores everything about her.

831

means "I love you" 

 eight letters, three words, one meaning

If loving you makes a slave of me, then I'll spend my whole life in chains. -- Sophie B. Hawkins

Beyond fantasy. Beyond obsession. Beyond time itself... he will find her.

Get better soon mistress x

Mistress gave me a task this week to wear womans tights (again) and to perform for her on web cam. I embarressed myself again and came before i was allowed to, so as punishment i can no longer wank my pathtic cock for her. I do not really care about not wanking, i care that i have dissapointed my mistress for the second time. I can not help myself when i hear her voice it just makes me wnat to explode and i can not control it. I posted the requested photos of my failure for all to see. I feel so bad, i hate upsetting my mistress. I have to wait two weeks now before i can perform for her again. it will be the longest two weeks of my life. There is one silver lining to this dark cloud, i still get to be near her at work and that is something i will not mess up. I am always on my best behaviour even though she likes to tease and make me blush every chance she gets.

I love you Mistress MG.

I am happy as pig in muck today because mistress is home "hooray" I will not see her till tuesday however, so must be patient. Since knowing mistress i have realised that patience does not come easily to me. I am looking forward to hearing all about her weekend, but mostly just to hear her sexy voice, hear her giggle and to be close enough to smell her purfume. Will i survive till tuesday is anyone's guess.

"Absence from those we love is self from self - a deadly banishment."

Sad to say that I will not see my mistress again now till next week. She will be away enjoying the sights and sounds of our capital city. Tempted to follow like a well trained dog, but know that would be frowned upon. What ever will i do with myself while she is away. I have become so used to being close, it is going to be difficult to consentrate at work over the next few days. Mistress MG will probably not give me a second thought or a third one for that matter, but i still love everything about her. I was happy to contribute to her weekend break, just not happy that she will be so far away. I have it bad, what ever it is LOL.

"Can miles truly separate you...? If you want to be with someone you love, aren't you already there? "

The luckiest man alive i am. I get to work with the sexiest woman on planet earth. She is amazing at everything she does. It is very inappropriate but i get aroused whenever i hear her voice. This can be extremely embarrassing at work not to mention very uncomfortable. Would i change anything? not on your life.

Mistress MG i love you desperately.

I found out this morning that mistress has a softer side to her personality. Mistress called me at 3am YES 3am it was, i did not mind but was concerned that she seemed down and a little tearful (something i did not expect from her) We talked for over an hour and i am glad to say she was laughing before we said our goodnights. I suspect she had a nightmare or something although she did not say. I was a little weary for work but it was worth it just to hear her voice. I am looking forward and also very nervous about this evening. Mistress can be fun but she also has an evil streak and likes to embarrass me. I am not allowed to just text her but hopefully when she reads this she will know how much i am devoted to her. All i want is to make her happy and i will do all i can to do just that. I love you Mistress.

Mistress has set me a task yesterday, to puchase a pair of womans tights and to report the purchase on here. I thought it would be easy to just buy them with a few other items in our local tescos. The problem was i had been thinking about it all day and by the time i went shopping i was bricking it. I am sure the girl on the checkout knew they were for me. She kept smirking and i just got embarrassed and red in the face. My cock was throbbing in my trousers and i was sweating so bad i thought i would be stopped by security. She really does know how to make me suffer lol. I now get to wear them on webcam friday evening for her amusment. i really can not wait. I would do anything for her, ANYTHING.

So excited i am fit to burst. finally i get to be so close to her that i could easily just wrap my arms around her and squeeze. Of course that is unlikely to happen, but a man can hope. It will be difficult not to stare at her in that crisp white blouse she always wears. it will be difficult not getting a permanent erection, knowing what i know, remembering her sexy voice on the phone (with respect mistress).  Mistress has laid down the rules to which i have to follow or i am a gonna. No talk about bdsm, no sexual talk and no being an over familiar annoying  prat. i do get to call her "miss" though which is fitting. this will be the very first time that i will truly want to go to work, cannot wait for next Monday.

Ben

 It was just amazing, oh my goodness, oh wow She is just one outstanding mistress. It all started thursday evening on yahoo. Oh how mistress loves to tease and make you feel like at any moment you are going to burst. An hour we were chatting, it ver, then like no time at all. Mistress got me so aroused that i was willing to pay more, double, treble anything just to remain in her company. Mistress had other plans however but i understood even if i was disappointed. She did however forbid me to `wank` and it was torture. I did consider just doing it and not telling but i couldn’t, she would know she would find out and then i could be easily dropped. Saturday night was a million times worse and better, it is hard (excuse the pun) to describe the emotions. She teased me for most of the night on yahoo until i was so desperate i actually cried. Still she would not allow me to `wank` she just laughed at me and i both hated and loved her at the same time. I got a text at 2.30 am instructing me to call her, did i refuse? not on your life. Mistress was so hot, breathless and sexy. She said she needed to scratch an itch and i was allowed to listen but not `wank` and that i could choose to stay or go. I actually hesitated can you believe that and she noticed and said i should leave so i had to beg her to let me stay and she made me pay for it too. I would have given her the world at that moment, she is so good at making you feel so desperate you will do anything. She has the sexiest giggle and it made my cock throb, just hearing her breath makes my cock throb. She was so aroused and kept licking her fingers, tasting herself. It drove me crazy and i begged to be allowed to `wank and cum` but she kept saying no, not until she had. so i had to listen to her, listen to her becoming more and more breathless. Listen to her moan and say all those words, to tease me more and then she screamed and damn I could not help myself, I just exploded and sprayed everywhere. I could not speak for ages and when I finally did I just kept saying sorry, so sorry and she just said one word " pathetic " and put the phone down and it cut me like a knife. I didn’t sleep, I wrote her so many messages, apologising. Today i had a message from her with instructions to firstly write this account on my journal and I now have a punishment to look forward to. Mistress's punishments are not pleasant so i am not actually looking forward to it. I just hope it is not a time out. I hate not talking to her or not hearing from her, i have to have some contact or i panic. Mistress please do not make me go away, I am so sorry i let you down, it will never happen again. I will do anything, pay anything please do not leave me alone i beg you.

Ben

Mistress seemed a lot happy when we spoke last night. I hate when she is sad. She sent me a lovely text message today, she can be so thoughtful to us needy submissives. Looking forward to our telephone conversation at the weekend.

She has given me a new task to complete for the weekend. I am happy to do anything and everything she asks of me.

All my soul follows you, love encircles you and I live in being yours.

Looking forward to chatting with my mistress tonight. I can not resist her when she speaks in that low sexy breathless voice, it makes my cock twitch just thinking about it now. She certainly knows how to tease and get you so hot for her that you will do anything she asks and more. I am so grateful that she allows me into her world, she has so many expreienced subs to choose from too. I love everything about my mistress and i hope she never gets bored with me.

A very small degree of hope is sufficient to cause the birth of love.

This sub has been lacking in his devotion to his mistress. He strives to be a better sub for her. I send messages daily via e-mail but she has instructed me to leave weekly messages of devotion or something that will make her smile on my journal. I will do anything to keep her smiling.

Chains of steel will rust with time but chains of the heart will only grow stronger - for my mistress

She has me wearing lace knickers to work this week and i am constantly aroused. I dare not move  and if i have to I have to hold a book or my jacket infront of me. I am keeping a daily diary for her amusement which I will send to her on Friday. This is my first task which she called the easy one. What have i let myself in for hahahaha.  I dont really care, i would do anything for her as long as She is happy with me and allows me to be hers forever.

So happy today, my persistence worked and she finally accepted me. I now belong to her what a wonderful feeling it is. I know i am one of many, i know that i will be treated the same, i am just so grateful to be in her life, finally. I sent her some flowers to show my appreciation. It genuinely feels like all my Christmas’s have come at once.

She continues to fascinate me more and more each day. We speak often (not as often as I would like) but i am happy to wait hours, days, weeks even months (well perhaps not months) for her to answer my calls, and i would willingly pay for every thrilling second. She has this amazing corset, one of her followers purchased it i am not sure which one but she looks amazing in it. I admit to saving the brief webcam view she so kindly granted me. I was more than happy to pay for the privilege of seeing her. It is so strange, i have seen her in the flesh, yet it feels far more arousing watching her on web cam. She has a sub partner which is good for her but a shame for all of us who would willingly take his place. Maybe one day i can prove to her that she would be better off with me. I would look after her well, be the best boyfriend a girl could ever wish for. I would never hurt her, she is far to precious. 

I am as giddy as a kid in a sweetshop today. Spoke to her for 3 hours last night, well early this morning. Did i mention that she has the most irresistible voice? She is like a child one moment, giggling and making me laugh and the next her voice goes all quiet, and deeper and breathless and i just melt. She is an expert in getting what she wants, she had me begging for her to keep talking for longer and YES i was more than happy to pay for the time. Most of you who read this will think idiot or fool but i would say that you are the fools for not taking that step to experiencing such powerful emotions. I would have done anything for her, just to chat for one minute longer. I only wish i knew about bdsm before, i have missed so much. I have never had such strong emotions about anything before, not even football haha.

Well She spoke to me and i was ok, only drooled occasionally hahaha She was with her friends so i didnt intrude for too long. I watched Her all night, she has the most infectious giggle and i love the way she brushes her red hair from her eyes. She is perfection in every way conseivable. I am nothing to her but would do anything just to have her smile at me. One of these days i might even be brave enough to ask her out on a date.

today i get to spend a few hours with her and i am as nervous as a schoolboy. it is not a date however, there will be other people there but she will be there and that is all that matters.Will i be brave enough to talk to her? will i resist the urge to throw myself at her feet? will she just laugh at me or even worse, ignore me? My nerves are all over the shop and i know if she speaks to me i will be dumb struck. wish me luck,

Insane, that is how i am feeling, this is not me i am not like this she has cast a spell on me, i am not this pathetic or am i? No woman has ever had this effect on me.can not stop thinking of her. I replay her voice messages over and over again just to hear that giggle. At work she was just another colleague,  bossy at times but very friendly. What has changed dont ask me I am lost lol she laughs at me and i blush, she makes fun and i blush. I just want to drop to my knees in awe but she would laugh at that to. Please dont let this feeling ever stop. Pathetic rant over.

She was just a friend from work. She introduced me to this website and to bdsm. She even gave me my name on here. Now i want to be hers, totally in every way possible. She is extremely clever, has a perverted sense of humour, which is what first attracted me to her. She has eyes you could lose yourself in and that red hair i just want to run my hands through it. I already know i am not worthy of licking her boots, something she likes funny enough. She is well out of my league but I cant stop thinking about her or fantasising about her. I have this need to please her to make her smile or laugh or just take notice of me. If i sound pathetic i dont care i just have to be near her even though we no longer work together i make excuses to call or text and i know she will read this and think i am an idiot but i dont care. I only hope there is no cure for the way i am feeling, it is torturous and exciting, terrifying and stimulating i am lost to her for ever and i dont care.