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I've spent the better part of the last week dealing with physical pain, much easier to do than emotional pain, so i've had quite a bit of time to think. This is what i think........
The pain that i have gone thru this past week is Karma working her magick. Do i deserve it? Yes. Will i stop saying what i have to say? Hell NO! People (both men and women) need to understand that the lies you tell do have consequences, not for you of course, but for the ones that you are lying to! You may think it's harmless, you are only getting something that you need and are not getting from the person in your life now, but it does alot of damage........i am living proof of that! I am angry, i have no compassion for those that have hurt me and have lost almost all faith in humanity in general.
Men have tried to flirt with me here and it does nothing but turn my stomach, literally. I have no intention of letting yet another man into my life that will only cause me to go back onto my anti-depressants again. No one will ever make that happen again........don't make the mistake of thinking that a few nice words will change my mind. I have always said that words are pretty but hold no substance. SHOW ME!!!! So far only 2 in the last decade in this life have done that!
I think that a few of you........very few........have good intentions, unfortunately those intentions don't mean a damn thing to those of us that are left behind, wondering what we did or said wrong? Wondering why you felt the need to just disappear from our lives? Wondering what we did in a previous life that has put the neon sign "SUCKER" on our foreheads that only we can't see? That neon sign has now been replaced with one that says.........FUCK OFF!
Those days are gone for me now because after alot of soul searching i have finally come to realize that it's not ME...........it's YOU! I did nothing to deserve the treatment i have gotten over the years from you so called "Dom's", in reality, i gave each and every one of you 1000% and the only thing i have ever asked of any one of you is ....... HONESTY. Apparently that one thing was too much to ask for because i have not once gotten it from you! Pretty damn pathetic considering that every profile i read on here from you idiots demands it from those you have contact with!!!!!!!!!! LMAO
When i opened this profile it was to hurt anyone that i could. Now i am just hoping that some sub or slave reads this and realizes that just because you say you are a Dominant does not automatically make you one and that in most cases, the one they are now talking to, is nothing but a poor pathetic loser, sitting behind a computer screen, pretending to be something he is not because in his real life, he is someone that is looked down on, not at all respected by anyone and treated like dirt so he in turn needs to do that to someone else to drag them down to his level so he doesn't feel so alone. In that way, he deserves nothing less than what he actually gets from those around him who make him feel that way. Once again..........KARMA at her best. She's a bitch but she does what she does for a reason!
Submissives are REAL PEOPLE WITH REAL FEELINGS! We have hopes and dreams of spending the rest of our lives serving someone that will appreciate us for what we do. Those of us who are true submissives find great pleasure and joy in making others happy. Our entire existance is about just that..........whether it's a Dom/me, a boss, a family member, a friend or even some stranger on the street. It is WHO we are, not just what we do for a little kink. That we can get anywhere, anytime from any loser. We don't ask for much in return, if anything at all in most cases. I was like that for a long time, even after i'd been hurt beyond measure. But it's those that have come into my life that have lied and hurt me over and over that have bit by bit, taken that simple joy from me. I know that this profile comes off as just some bitch who got their feelings hurt and wants to lash out but it took 6 years for me to get to this point and for me, i doubt there will ever be a time when i get that feeling back. Make no mistakes here folks, i miss it, every single day. But i would much rather miss what i could never find than go back on anti-depressants to keep from hurting myself or someone else. Not one of you are worth that! |
