Collarspace.com
Vertical Line

HiddenJewel

HiddenJewel

Friends:
VLS57
Tied4me
Do us both a favor, read my complete profile before contacting me. Do not think that I am here to be insulted, I'm not. I try to be respectful of everyone I speak to – please show me the same respect. Please do not send me a chat invite or a friend request before we have even said a word to each other. Do not expect me to call you Sir, Master or anything else except your given name until such time as I feel it is appropriate.
I am submissive, it is who and what I am. I am also a novice. That does not mean that I do not have an opinion or something to say about matters. I am not looking for a play partner, I am looking for a life partner. I need truth, laughter, love, someone who will love me for me. I'm not looking to be micromanaged, had enough of that from my ex. I am looking for an LTR, eventually living together. My 27 and 25-year-old sons live with me. I will explain more if you ask me. If a Dom is going to become a full-time part of my life, then naturally they would know he is my lover. There would only be vanilla when they are around, sex and/or D/s behind closed doors. What I am looking for is a mix of D/s and vanilla. I understand relationships change and evolve and hope ours will as well. I am looking for something deep, meaningful and lasting.
I am looking for someone close to my own age who doesn't smoke or do drugs and only drinks socially. By drinks socially I mean no more than one or two drinks a day. I have had bad experiences with men who have had more than that and it is a deal breaker for me. You must not be married, involved or any other of not single if you are looking for anything other than platonic friendship. There are no exceptions to that, period. I am not into long distance relationships, they just don't work for me.

Happy Father's Day

I hope everyone has a safe and relaxing Memorial Day

I forgot to mention the wind tunnel, lol I swear we live in one I got a bird bath and put a solar powered fountain in it I might have saved myself the problem and just watered the lawn instead! The wind would blow the spray to the side instead of back into the bath Wed have to fill it at least twice a day lol

We had some excitement in the mobile home park over the past month.   First there was a motorcycle being chased by the police right in front of my place.  They got him.  

Tonight was a propane leak next door.  We were evacuated as a precaution.  They found the source and took care of it.  They checked the whole neighborhood to make sure.

I wound up with both an Alexa Echo and a Google Nest device.  I am trying to figure out which one to go with.  My research so far is not helping me decide.  I need something that will play both Apple Music and UTube Music, if possible.  Also, control a thermostat, maybe a doorbell, lights and outside cameras.  Any feedback is greatly appreciated.

And the fun begins.  My mother's dementia is getting worse, rapidly.  I am beginning the hunt for a dementia care facility in my area as the ones near her are horrible.  Thankfully, I don't work full-time right now so I am able to have a day or two during the week to make phone calls and visit facilities.

My ex MIL isn't expected to live till Monday.  She is a controlling bitch and ruled her family with an iron fist.  I don't feel anything about the news, I kinda feel bad that I don't.  I do feel bad for my sons, even though they aren't close to her.

lol had to run around outside this morning chasing down mobile home skirting that had blown away overnight.  Thankfully I found it all and we were able to put it back in the slots.  Hopefully we won't have to do it again tomorrow.

I hope everyone is safe from the storms.  My sons are up in the Buffalo area to visit their dying grandmother and now have to stay a few extra days thanks to a travel advisory.

Thanks to the storm I couldn't work this weekend as a dog/cat/housesitter.  Next week is a dog walking job a few days.  I am still looking for a nanny job but nothing is available that is close to me.

I am so happy that I can use my journal again!

Lot's has changed since last time.  My sons and I have finally bought a home and are moving in.  It has taken us a whole damn year of hell but we did it!

Unfortunately, I am current unemployed.  This happened the last time I bought a home too.  It sucks but yet it doesn't as I am getting a hell of a lot of totes and boxes unpacked. Lol

Merry Christmas everyone!

Happy Labor Day

I am disappointed.  I couldn't get a motorcycle ride in today.  The guy I was going to ride with discovered that the right pedal for the "bitch seat" had been sheared off somehow.  Story of my life lately.

I am not sure I even know where to begin. The girls I was a nanny for decided it was fun to run up to me kick, hit or bite me and run away laughing.  They are five and two, granted, the older one has ADHD among other issues.  She is not medicated, which she really needs. I have gotten no support with discipline from the parents so after three days of their bad behavior, I quit. So I am unemployed. Now I am currently dog/cat/housesitting for a week. I managed to get a shower the first night I was here. Then a bad storm came through and apparently took out the thermostat on the water heater so now I have no hot water.   i have arranged to go to a friend's house for a shower until the homeowners come back Friday.

I am having a debate with a male friend about piercings.  I have seen videos where the woman has huge piercings and I find it repulsive.  He, on the other side, says they are attractive.

What's your feelings about it?

Btw, I am not going to go into how we started it!

Can we just skip today?  First thing this morning I got in an argument with one of my housemates.  Then, on the way in to work, I was in a car accident.  The truck in front of me slammed on its brakes and I couldn't stop in time.  Thankfully my airbags didn't go off, but I hurt from head to toe.  

Happy Fourth of July!

It's really depressing when you realize you are at the most, second in everyone's lives.

Happy Father's Day to all the dads out there.

Sunday I was grating an onion for an Indian dish I was making for dinner.  I managed to grate a few layers of skin off my right thumb.  I wil probably loose the top layer or two.  I didn't feel the need to wash it out as I figured the acid from the onion cleaned it right out!

I found out last friday that my debit card was hacked.  Someone had fun to the tune of over $500.  Hopefully they catch the bastard.

Today was a day that I seriously questioned why I am a nanny.  UGH

Sigh, it has happened yet again.  This time though there was a twist.  I met him here and talked, emailed for a few weeks as our schedules didn't allow us to meet.  He alternates between Maine and Philly.  I felt an instant connection and he told me he did as well.  Then a friend of his died and he needed help to deal with it so he disappeared for months.  I had given up hope but he showed up again a few months later.  We met for brunch a month ago and we really hit it off.  He even told me that he felt he could easily fall in love with me.  Also tells me to take a look at the town he was living in and asked me if I could live there.  So then he goes back to Maine and a few days later tells me he wasn't sure if he could fit me in to his schedule even though we had worked it out on our date.  (Or so I thought).  I hadn't heard from him for weeks so I sent him another email asking him what was going on and he replied that he just couldn't fit a relationship in his life and was sorry for not telling me sooner.  

I went through something like this quite a few years ago, being told that I was someone they wanted a relationship with and then telling me something different soon afterwards.

Happy Mother's Day to all the mothers and single fathers out there!

it is total chaos here, lol.  The two year old has the runs, the older one is a tornado.  The two dogs demand constant attention.  I'm considering asking for a raise.

Happy Easter!  I hope everyone who celebrates has a peaceful, enjoyable holiday.

Heard a song today by Lainey Wilson called Tougher.  In it she sang that  "life is tough but this girl is tougher".  Precisely!

I heard this in a song the other day by David Lee Murphy and felt like it applied to me, lol.


"There might be a little dust on the bottle, but don't let it fool you about what's inside.  It's one of those things that gets sweeter with time."

I don't know if it is allergies or a cold but my nose just won't stop running.  I told a friend I was going to start wearing a nose ring, a q-tip bent and each end shoved up a nostril.  Her comment was "Eww" lol

Before anyone gets upset, I'm just kidding.

I cooked an Indian meal today.  Spent a couple of hours shopping for it yesterday.  I had to to go two grocery stores as well as an Indian grocery store.  We had Palak Paneer, Butter Chicken, Basmati Rice, Roti and Kaheer for dessert.  We're all stuffed, lol.  It was a lot of work, but a lot of fun too.  

I needed a fun weekend, found out friday that the mortgage company screwed up the paperwork on our mortgage.  They used the wrong address so it was invalid.  Idiots!

Yet again I have caught whatever the baby has, ugh.

Happy New Year!  I hope everyone has a better year than this one.

I hope everyone has a Merry Christmas! 

I'm in a good news, bad news situation.  We were approved for our mortgage, but now we have to come up with a large downpayment.

OMG this just never ends.  Our offer was accepted, however, now they want to try for a different mortgage so the deposit will be lower.  Now, I do understand why and if I were in their shoes I would want to as well.  But, the search has been going on for over two months and I want to go home.


I'm back in that damn Whack-A-Mole game again.

We made an offer on a mobile home this morning.  It was a little higher than what we were approved for, but at this point, I will sell my car to make up the difference if I have to.

Rode in a Tesla last night.  All I can say is WOW.  It damn near drove itself!

Happy Thanksgiving everyone.


still looking for a place to move to, sigh.

Well, time for an update....

We vacated the apartment in time but weren't able to find a place to move to.  The boys are living at their father's place for now and absolutely hate it (I don't blame them at all!)  I am crashing at a friend and his wife's place.  A friend was buying a mobile home that I was going to rent to own.  The realtor that took the depost and drafted a purchase agreement broke the contract by selling it before our time had run out.  He is furious and will be suing her and the office she works out of.  However, that means I am still homeless, ugh.  I feel like I am a mole in a whack-a-mole game.

Moving sucks!

I have way too many things on my plate lately.  I am looking for a new place to live as well as a new job.  It really sucks that they are happening at the same time.

Thankfully, I think I have found a new place and i have a job interview tomorrow.

Happy Labor Day

 It happened again, I caught a cold from the toddler I am a nanny for.    

I am so happy, I was able to get a hold of a dear friend that I  haven't talked with in a couple of years.  

This is going to be a poor month because I have the next two weeks off as unpaid vacation.   The little boy and his family are in Sweden visiting family.  Going to be going back to senior care and or working in my friend's gun shop.

Just found out my older son tested positive for Covid today.  Of course, this is after I am already babysitting the little boy tonight.  His family had it two weeks ago so they felt ok with me just wearing a mask and hand washing frequently.

Happy 4th of July everyone!

I have to admit I am disappointed in the local festival this year.  It hasn't been held since before Covid, but I was hoping they would come back like gangbusters.  Oh well, maybe next year.

I went back to my nanny job today.  I missed the little guy and apparently he missed me too.  He was grinning ear to ear and ran to me and gave me the biggest hug.  He was glued to my side all day and cried when I left to come home.  

I will find out tonight where I will work tomorrow.  The little boy's mom will test tonight.  If she is negative I will be there tomorrow, otherwise will be working at a friend's gun shop.  

I will go shooting tonight.  I have a new gun to shoot and can actually go by myself now.

Happy Father's Day to all fathers out there.

 

I just found out that both parents of the toddler I am a nanny for have tested postive for Covid.  So, I have inadvertenly exposed my family, friends and co-workers to it.

OMG.  Had a screaming toddler all day today.  Poor little guy has had gas the past three days and today it must have been alot worse.  He also was grabbing at his ears and back of his head today.  Tylenol did seem to help.  I suggested his parents call the doctor but I got the impression they probably wouldn't.  All he wanted to do was be held by me, wouldn't go to his parents.  As soon as I put him down for a nap, he would wake up screaming again.  

It figures, finally got my membership to the range stuff in the mail today.  I am too tired to go shoot.

Went for my first motorcycle ride of the season.  I forgot how much fun it is.

Happy Memorial Day everyone.  I am going target shooting with a friend soon.  Waiting for my credentials to arrive so I can go whenever I want.

I have changed careers, kinda.  I have gone from being a caregiver for senior citizens to a nanny for a 16 month-old little guy.  Both jobs mean I take care of and look after someone who needs help.  I still do light housekeeping as well as personal care.  The benefit of being a nanny verses a caregiver is that I am not watching someone I care about decline healthwise.  I am watching someone learn, grow and explore.  He is very affectionate and has quite a sense of humor.

Sigh, I wish guys would tell me if they aren't interested any longer instead of just disappearing.  

OMG!  I am so happy that journals are back!  

Starting back to school, classes are Accounting II and Research &Writing.
I finally had a relatively pleasant dentist appointment.  Unfortunately, i have to have a root canal.  Ugh.
Ready for round 4?  Ugh.
Happy St. Patrick's Day to all.
I've been home from work since yesterday.  I am glad I decided to not go in to work.  I don't want to make my clients dizzier than they already are.  I managed to get a to help with the vertigo.  The doctor told me that I had a virus for the rest.
My workday was short today.  A client was hospitalized yesterday and will be kept for at least a few days.  The client that was hospitalized for the flu seems to have experienced something that is causing a change in his mental capacity.  He can’t remember things and is very cranky.  I guess it is one of the downfalls of this business.
I am keeping my fingers crossed.  I was told that I will be getting Sunday’s off starting this Sunday.  I am very relieved, not sure how much longer I could last.
Working 55 +/- hours with no days off is killing me.  Good thing I love my job!
Omg.  I am exhausted.  I left my house at 8 am and walked back in the door at 8 pm.  I took a client to the doctor for a bad cough.  The doctor wanted him admitted to the hospital.  We spent 6 hours in the ER.  Another two were in a holding area, waiting for a bed to open up.  When I left, he still hadn't been admitted yet but was diagnosed with the flu.
Sweet!!!!!!!  Eagles are Super Bowl Champions!!!!!!  It was a phenomenal game.!!!!!
Fly Eagles, Fly!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Go Eagles!!!!!!
A twelve hour day is tiring.  Most of that time was with clients.
I love my new job!  
I was supposed to work 8-3 today and tomorrow.  I got to the client's house and found out that her daughter didn't want a "stranger" visiting her mother.  I am not happy.  Came home, changed clothes and heading out to Uber.
Not off to a good start with my new job.  The first client cancelled yesterday.  I just cancelled the other two as my roads are impossible to drive on.  The school district closed which means no need to plow for school buses.
I got a new job and am hitting the floor running, so to speak.  Time management will be interesting as I am back to school as well as driving for Uber.  
Happy New Year!
Go Eagles!!!
Merry Christmas everyone.
Getting new tires installed on the front of my car today, will get the ones for the rear once I start my new job.
Interestingly, I got my Honor Roll certificate in the mail yesterday and got my grades online today.  
Made the Honor Roll again, thanks to my younger son.  I never would have made it through Algebra without him.
Brrr nellie!
Happy Thanksgiving!
My younger son informed me last night that my front tires have little to no tread.  Yuck.  I have no clue on what to look for or what kind to get.
I have been driving for Uber to try and get bills caught up.  I didn't think I would enoy it, but I do.  I enjoy meeting new people, driving and seeing new areas that I didn't even know existed.  While driving in Philadelphia is still stressful, it isn't as bad now as it was in the beginning.  
I am having an issue with major dizziness.  I got out of bed and promptly fell into the wall next to it.  I feel like a pinball, bouncing off of things.  A dear friend told me to use baby decongestant spray as ear drops.  It takes a day or two to work but it definitely does.
Back to school starting today.  This semester I am taking Algebra with Applications and Effective Communication Skills.  I am going to need all the help I can get from my younger son for the Algebra.  He is a whiz at it and I just don't get it.
Surprisingly, I made the honor roll again this semester.  
Finally on break from school.  It was definitely the toughest semester yet.  I will be happy with passing this time.  
Happy Labor Day!
Had a scare last night.  After dark, I heard a crash outside my house.  I turned the outside light on and saw it was my glass patio table that had made the noise.  It had shattered into a zillion pieces.  I have no idea why.
Happy Birthday to me......
August is Shooting Sports Month.
I switched my major, unfortunately it means I have a longer time before I graduate.
Happy Fourth of July!  I hope it is fun and safe.
The assistant dean called me to go over the options and consequences of switching majors.  She let me know that if I switched majors, I would lose some of the class credits that I had already earned.  She said that I would also have more classes added on which means I am in school longer before I graduate.  I stopped in and got a list of the classes for both majors.  Now I have to compare class for class and see if I really want to switch.  I already know I do, I just want to make sure.
I just got my grades today. I got an A in both my classes which gives me a GPA of 3.625
Happy Father's Day.
I am switching my major to Bachelors of Science in Accounting.  It will get me where I want to end up more than the other one would.  Waiting on final grades, but I believe I got A's in both classes.
Two more weeks of school to finish, then off for two.  I have to go talk to my academic advisor on campus.  I am not sure she is putting me on the right path or not.
Happy Memorial Day everyone.
I received yet another insulting message.  Apparently, he was so ashamed of himself, he blocked me, lol.
Happy Mother's Day!!!!
Well, I did it. Handed in my Power Point presentation. It was thirteen slides long and only the second one I have ever done. Now comes the hard part, the waiting.
So far I have a 96 in History and a 98 in Ethics.
Yet another "gentleman" expressed his unsolicited insult.

Apparently, they don't realize it is a reflection on themselves.  
I found a new sleep aid that works wonders.  It's called my Ethics textbook.  Every time I try to read it, it makes me very sleepy.
I am glad today is almost over.  I found one of my cats peeing on my bed, soaked the bed down to the mattress.  Another of my cats threw up three times today.  I found out I have two chapters in each of my classes to read as well as a paper due for one.  I sure hope tomorrow is better!
I don't know who gets more of a workout from giving the dogs a bath.  lol
I think I've been online too much lately. I caught myself trying to turn the page of my paper textbook by swiping left with my finger. Lol
My profile states I am a submissive.  What part of that don't some men understand?
Happy Easter!
One week of school down, only eleven more to go.  Ugh.
I definitely need to learn to manage my time better.  I guess it is time to set up a planner again.
My classes are American History After the Civil War and Business Ethics.  Both are Honors courses.
Starting back to school today. I am keeping my fingers crossed that I can continue straight through to graduation this time.
It's only fit for fowl outside today.
I just received notice that my email provider which is Verizon.net won't be available after April 29.  What provider do you use and why?
Go Flyers and Phillies!
Buckle up, looks like we're still on a wild weather roller coaster ride.
You don't realize what part a person plays in your life until they leave and there is a hole where they were.
I learned something new today.  The infection in my leg could have also infected my ankle bone.  My doctor told me that right before she gave me a to get an X-ray to see if that is what is causing my ankle pain.  Ugh.

My grandmother used to say "Getting old isn't for the weak."   I tend to agree with her.
Happy Saint Patrick's Day.
Finally, I can stand for more than a minute or two without pain. I can finally get back to making dinner without having to rely on one of my sons to do it for me.
The snow looks so pretty, especially on the trees
I had forgotten how difficult it was to draw blood from me until I found myself in the hospital for a few days. I am bruised all over my arms now, ugh.
Insulting me will get you blocked.
Found another one that is appropriate for me:

"The worst thing you can do is become cold because of past experiences and ruin your future experiences."
Just saw this on Pinterest and thought how appropriate for me:

"Getting no message is also a message".
Well, I did it.  I wrote and mailed the letter.  I don't expect to hear from him but I at least needed to let him know how I felt.  
I have decided to write him a letter instead of showing up at his door.
I haven't heard a word from someone in a month.  I cared very much for him.  I have tried to contact him with no success.  Would you consider it stalking if I showed up on your doorstep under those circumstances?
Happy Valentines Day, it sucks to be alone.  I am proud of my younger son who bought me a dozen red roses.  It made me cry.
I am not sure what hurts more, a Dear Jane email or absolutely no contact whatsoever.
I just did one of the hardest things I have ever had to do.  I left my older son at the psychiatric ward, he signed himself in.  I am in shock, it hasn't really hit home yet.  I can't even cry yet.  I know it is the right thing for him, yet....

On the other hand, I have met someone and want to see if my intuition is right so I am no longer searching.
Finally!  Made it to school break, finished it a week early.  I think this was the hardest semester yet, probably due to the rough start I had.  It felt like I was always playing catch up.
Happy Labor Day.  I am taking today off of school, holiday enough for me.
So much for that idea. If I drop down to one class, I would have to pay for the class myself.
I'm thinking about dropping down to just one class a semester for a while as I am feeling overwhelmed.  I just can't keep up with two classes, keep the house cleaned and have a moment or two to myself.
Ok, I now know that I need to go through the tutorial for Power Point.  I spent the weekend working on it.
We went to the Phillies vs Giants game last night.  It was a great game!  We all had a great time even though we didn't get home until 1:30 this morning.  My sons are dragging their asses today, lol.  
The Domestic Relations department here are idiots.  When my younger son graduated, the child support payments for him stopped.  They also stopped my alimony which shouldn't have been done.  I called them and left a message, I called again and was on hold which they disconnected.  I was going to take my copy of the support papers down to them on Tuesday.  I will even give my ex credit that he also contacted them as well as sent a check to them to forward to me.  Finally, Friday I received the papers from them that started the alimony back up.
My BUS302 book should have come with an access code to an assessment, mine didn't.  Took five business days to get the problem taken care of.  Now I am busting my ass to catch up.  I am NOT a happy camper.
Time to hit the books again, semester starts today.  This semester it is Humanities 211 and Business Concepts.
Happy 4th of July everyone.
Neighbors are setting off fireworks and my poor little female dog is cowering in a corner visibly shaking.
My younger son got his license the other day.  Now the real worrying begins.
Happy Father's Day to all the fathers here!
I replaced my old Highlander with a newer, slightly used one about a month ago.  As I was getting some things out of the back passenger seat yesterday, I looked at the pocket on the back of the front passenger seat and noticed something in it.  I pulled it out and discovered it was a folder from Wells Fargo Bank.  It was a new account folder that contained the previous owner's personal and bank information.  It contained username, password, name, address, phone number, social security number, and both her checking and saving account numbers.

I was amazed that not only did she leave it in the car, but the dealership missed it, twice.  They missed it when they took the car in as well as missing it again when they detailed the car to deliver it to me.

If I was a dishonest person I could have stolen her identity, everything was there that I would have needed.  I didn't do anything except drive to the nearest Wells Fargo branch and turned it in.
On semester break now, I managed to get an A in Pre-Algebra (thanks to my younger son) and a B in Sociology.  
My younger son had his first graduation tonight.  He attended technical school and took cabinetmaking and carpentry.  He received two awards and also a small scholarship.  He will be doing co-op in the fall.  It is hard to believe my baby is grown up at times like this.










Happy Memorial Day.  Thank you for your service.
Not a good day today.  Had an argument with both my older and younger son, can't seem to grasp pre algebra to save my life today.  Having a pity party with a Guinness, chocolate pudding and a long, hot bubble bath.
I think I spoke too soon, now I am struggling with both courses.
Passed my midterms with flying colors.  Whew!
I made the Dean's List for last quarter!
Midterms, ugh.
I got a 97 in Humanities and a 87 in Psychology.

Now I am taking Pre Algebra and Sociology, ugh.  I am really struggling with them.
I managed to finish this semester a week early, so I have two weeks off.  Now I get to have the fun of getting my house clean again.
Apparently I missed the memo that said you didn't have to use common courtesy online.

If you change your mind about someone, at least have the good manners and let that person know.  A quick note to that person is much nicer than being rude and leaving that person wondering.
Wow, I am feeling old, my older son turned 21 today.  Needless to say, he wanted to go to a bar and drink.  I convinced him to go out to dinner and have a drink then.  He did try a few beers and didn't like any of them.  He even tried a glass of white wine, didn't like that either.  I told him it was ok, that not liking them was not a bad thing.  I had doubted he would like any of them as he has very peculiar taste.  I am also glad because he has ADHD, the last thing he needs is to get drinking heavily.
Just started back to college after taking time off to deal with some personal issues.  I forgot how much time you need to devote to it.  My biggest challenge will happen the week after next.  I am going to be in Las Vegas for a week attending a trade show.  It will be difficult keeping up with schoolwork and attending the show.
To all the men and women who have served, are serving or will serve in the military, Thank you for your service.
I will be going back to school starting in January 2016. I am going for my Bachelors of Business Administration with minors in Accounting and Entrepreneurship.
I wonder how long it takes before certain things don't remind me of someone I would rather forget.
Had the fun of having to go to the local clinic to get a deer tick removed from my shoulder blade.  I didn't discover it until I had dropped sons off and returned home.  My doctor had nothing available until almost dinner time.  I tried to remove it but it was in too deep.  The doctor gave me a short course of antibiotics to take, just in case.
My little dog keeps on escaping my fenced in back yard.  I didn't even know she had escaped last night until she was barking on the front porch!  At least I know she knows where she lives, lol.
Maybe the part about not playing at the first meeting isn't made clear enough in my profile?  There will not be any exceptions, period.  I do it for my own safety and peace of mind, not to insult you, nor are you being compared to anyone else.  I forgot the rule once and paid dearly for my mistake.
Drives me nuts when people just send a chat request without bothering to read my full profile!!
Went target shooting at a rod and gun club with a friend yesterday.  It was a blast (pun intended).  Shot with my pistol and a few of his and fell in love with one.  It is on my list of next purchases.
Happy Birthday to me. Only good thing about this one is I get senior citizen discounts now, lol.
Talk about weird......  My stepfather passed away yesterday, the same day my father passed away fourteen years ago.  August 1 is definitely not a good day for my family.
Happy Father's Day to all the Dads out there.  Sadly, my father passed away 14 years ago.
I can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel.
Please, don't contact me if you aren't sure you are ready for a relationship.
Happy Mother's Day everyone.
Ok, people if you decide you aren't interested in someone, at least have the guts to tell them.  It is cowardice and being rude not to have the decency to tell someone instead of just not answering messages.  We are all big boys and girls and we all can take it.  If you can't then you sure as hell don't belong here.
I had two unpleasant messages from men yesterday, they both were very insulting.  Obviously, there seems to be some people on here who are too lazy to read profiles before contacting someone.  I do not have it in my profile that I am into being humiliated, yet that is what both of these men did.  It only got their messages deleted, I didn't even honor them with a reply.
Many years ago I heard a woman say to her toddler "Some days you are enough to make a saint take up drinking, and I am no saint!"  Today is one of those days with my older son.
Happy Easter.
It is always amazing to me how the arrival of Spring lifts my mood.  
Wow, just realized I have $.97 to my name until payday which comes every Monday, thanks to my ex.
I finally got all the paperwork together and dropped it off to the agency helping me with trying to stop the foreclosure.  I had to get my taxes done as part of it, yet again I owe the IRS.  I am going to have to start paying taxes on the alimony I get quarterly so I don't get nailed each year.  

Next I sent off the paperwork to the loan people to use the involuntarily unemployed insurance to take care of the payments for me.    

My sons told me they didn't want to see their father any more so I talked with him and finally got him to agree to counseling with them.  Then today they both wanted to go over to his house even though it is my weekend.  

I still can't catch a break.
So far I am not impressed in my dealings with Social Security Disability.  I already heard back asking for more information.  They repeated questions that my lawyer had already answered on the original application, then wanted me to sign the release for my doctor and have someone witness my signature.  That is a new one to me.  I had my older son witness it, lol.
So far the only good news I have had in months is that the foreclosure has been stopped while things are being looked into.  

My house still leaks, I can't pay my bills, thanks to Obamacare I am poorer than ever.  I filed for disability.
Sigh, just found another leak in the house.  

Have an appointment tomorrow night for debt counseling.
I am flabbergasted, almost speechless but am so pissed I am crying one moment and yelling the next.

I just got a collection notice about an account with Verizon Wireless.  It is for over $1k!!!   Obviously I don't have that much money laying around the house with nothing to do.  I am in debt over my ears and may lose my house.  I have gone to see a lawyer about getting disability and also will be meeting with a debt counselor to see what can be done to keep my house that I worked so hard to get.

Back in November I went to my local Best Buy to get a new cell phone.  The kid who set it up messed up when he was trying to transfer my phone number and told me the number was lost.  He set up another account for me and it has been working.  I just found out today that the original account he set up to transfer the phone number was never closed and was sent to the collection agency because of that.  Now I have to go back to Best Buy and talk with the store manager about getting this cleared up ASAP.
Is today over with yet?

The lift gate on my car won't close.  I took it to the dealer this morning and they told me it would cost over $400 to get it replaced but they need to order a part.  Oh and by the way, I need two new front tires, a rear brake job and my 90k mile service is long overdue.  The bill for it all was a little under $2,500.  I told him to order the part for the lift gate but the rest would have to wait as I am still unemployed.  

I get home from that to find that one of my kittens had peed on my bed.  
Ok, enough of Winter, time for Spring!
Unemployment has decided that I need retraining.  No shit.  
Happy New Years to you all.

I hope this year is better than last, it sure was a rough one for me.
Discovered that I don't like it when the darkness comes so early in the day.  It makes the nights seem endless.
Have a Merry Christmas everyone.
Found out the banging was a neighbor. He was banging on his truck for some reason.
Was rudely woken up this morning shortly after 5 am to what sounded like someone pounding on my front door.  The dogs went crazy and dragged me down the hall.  There was no one there.  I had planned on sleeping in but after being scared awake, it isn't going to happen.  Nap day.
Tamiflu really works, my son is up and about already.  He says he feels much better.
Perfect timing, my younger son has the flu.
Pretty sad when I have to cash in my piggy bank to be able to buy butter.
Thanks to my friend who is setting up his and a partner's gun shop, I have a little bit of paperwork to do.  Every little bit helps when you are flat broke!
Why can't people use common sense and cover their mouths and nose when they cough and/or sneeze in public?

I think I am coming down with a cold because some !@#$% person didn't do that.
I found out today that I was approved for unemployment.  

I also applied for free or reduced school lunches for my younger son.
Spent the weekend helping a friend working a gun show.  It was nice to get out of the house, meet nice people, have a good dinner and nice company.  Not complaining about the extra money either.
After going through hell and finally able to get on my own feet, I was actually proud that I did it and things were looking better.  Then, I lost my job.  Now I get to go through the degrading experience of applying for all the financial help I can get.  To top it all off, the website isn't even working right.
I talked with my doctor today.  He is sending me to a rheumatologist and agreed that he would fill out the disability paperwork for me.  I advised him I had no insurance and he said that it probably would take at least a month for me to get in anyhow.
I filed for unemployment today.

Tomorrow is my doctor appointment, then I will see about filing for disability.
It seems like I am spending today at the door, opening and closing it for my dogs all day.
Well, I am officially unemployed now.  I have fibromyalgia and I have been out on medical leave for a few weeks because of the severe pain I have been experiencing.  Apparently my old employer had called my old home phone # even though I haven't lived there in almost 3 years now.  They had also emailed me, but again, due to the pain I haven't been on much.  In addition, my cell phone was dying and I had to replace it so I went to BestBuy to get it done.  I wanted to keep my phone number, but an idiot messed it up.  Thanks to him, my number was dropped.  I was told to come back in a few days to allow time for the number to "port".  Apparently he cancelled it instead and I was without a working phone for a few days without knowing it.  I found out when I tried to place a call and it said it was a different carrier.  I went back to BestBuy and was told by another rep that the number had been cancelled instead.  I was compensated with a free phone case.  I replied to my previous employer and explained what had happened but they replied that the position had been terminated.  
I have been away from here for a while for numerous reasons including my own health concerns that I have spoken with a select few about.  It has reached the point where I have been forced to take a medical leave of absence for at least a few weeks.  Needless to say that is going to make a big impact on my finances even with child support and alimony.  Just when I get on my feet I get knocked on my ass yet again.
I have come to the realization that I am burned out at work.  
Ick, i wish people would keep their sick germs to themselves.
After two follow up calls to the roofer he states that it isn't the flashing that is causing the leaking.  Now he is blaming it on the previous owner.  He states that the previous owner put the siding on himself in the area that might be causing the leak.  I was driving home as he was telling me this so I have no idea what he called the next layers under the siding.  He mentioned something about some waterproof layer might be missing?  I have cedar siding on my house if it makes any difference.
I called the roofer today, he stated he told the crew he sent out exactly what to do.  He will come out tomorrow and see what they did.
The answer to the months old flashing question, No.  It still leaks, sigh.
Finally!  The flashing has been replaced on my roof.  Now let's see if that stops the leaking.  Then I will let the insurance company repair the damage to my home and go after whoever is responsible for it.  


Happy Birthday to me.  I am $49.95 plus shipping and handling, lol.  
Good news.  My son doesn't have to go back to the doctor for a month now.  The urinalysis today showed no blood.  The doctor wants to follow up once a month for the next few months as it can come back, especially in older kids and adults.
A recent first meeting has taught me I need to ask quite a few more questions before agreeing to meet someone.  I learned I omitted a few questions, learned a few things about myself and a few things I should have done differently.
The blood work all came back normal for my son.  The name of what he has is Henoch-Schnlein Purpura.  The doctor is going to have him come back a few times a week for monitoring his blood pressure and a urinalysis for a few months.  
I had to take younger son to the doctor.  He had three different types of rashes on his body.  Found out he has poison ivy, a staph infection and another one the doctor has never seen before.  The brat seemed proud of that. lol
I talked with the roofer crew chief today, according to him he was here yesterday and tacked down to flashing.  I advised that was not what the owner had said he would do.  Then I was informed that I have rotted siding and that may be the cause of the leaking.  I told him the owner wanted the flashing replaced, not tacked down.  I also said I will talk with the owner on monday when he returns.  It looks like I may have to actually get up on the roof myself and take a look when he comes back.
I woke up this morning to the lovely sound of the alarm for my sump pump going off, again, and water in my garage.  That was even before my first cup of coffee.  After that, I found plaster on my kitchen floor.    Needless to say, I am pissed.  I will call the roofing company again and tell them I am going to involve a lawyer to get the job done and repairs made to the damage caused by the shoddy job.  That should motivate them.
The owner of the roofing company is on vacation this week.  He had told me before he left that he would have some of his crew do the work this week.  I called yesterday to ask where they were and why weren't they here yet.  I got an answering machine and left a message.  Today I received a call from his receptionist saying that the priority shifted to people with trees on their roof.  While I can understand that, my roof still will leak during the next storm.  I had a fit and told her my roof has been leaking for months and that i was very upset and unhappy, that I had talked to the owner of the company and what he had told me.  I said the damage was getting worse and that was not acceptable.  An hour later the foreman called to say he was heading to my house to look at the flashing and asked where it was.  I expect a call tomorrow from him, or i will call and raise hell because there was no sign of anyone being here today.
Oh joy.  There is yet another storm going to be rolling through, time to get out the buckets again. Did I mention I hate storms anyhow, even if my roof didn't leak?

Yup it leaked, again.  I am going to call the roofer again tomorrow.
Go figure, the night my sons leave for camp my shower curtain rod decides to collapse.  Unfortunately it is a two person job as you have to expand the rod until it is tight against the walls at the same time someone else tightens the screws with an allen wrench.  It is a curved one.  I am thinking gorilla tape for now, lol.  Thankfully I have a guest shower I can use, but boy the water pressure sucks!  
Cats do NOT always land on their feet.  Super Kitty was at it again today, took a flying leap from the top of the 6' scratching post to the beam supporting my loft.  The beam has to be 9' off the floor and at least 5' from the post.  He didn't make it, landing flat on his belly.  That is the 2nd life he has gone through since March.  At this rate he will either be dead before he is 3 or will give me a legitimate heart attack.
Happy Independence Day!  I am spending the holiday weekend alone, unpacking.  I swear the boxes multiply when I am not looking.
After replacing the backup battery to the sump pump last night, I awoke to it going off again this morning.  Unfortunately I haven't had a chance to call the plumber today.  Definitely will have to find the time tomorrow.  

The meeting about the roof was interesting.  The roofer who did the work on the roof for the previous owner as well as the gentleman and another guy who had worked on the windows in the loft were also there.  My sons were home as well as myself.  The men and both my sons went up into the loft and checked out the damage up there, looked at the leaks in my kitchen and hallway and also went up on the roof.  I opted (insert chickened out if you want) to stay on the ground.  After a discussion the roofer stated he would replace the flashing for free as it had not been put on correctly.  The other men agreed that would be the first thing to do in tracking down the cause of the leak.  He said he will be back next week to get that done. 
Sump pump issue is resolved replacing the dead backup battery. Altogether it cost me $180 to get it taken care of. Tomorrow the window company and roofer are going to meet at my house and we are going to go up on the roof and see if we can resolve the mystery of the leaky roof once and for all. Hopefully once that is determined, whoever is responsible for it will fix it correctly and fix the damage inside it has caused. I hate ladders and am terrified of heights, should be interesting. I told my boss if i didn't show up for work friday it means i am either still on the roof and can't get down or i fell off and am dead. lol
Still waiting on a call back to get my sump pump alarm checked out. It was a rough week for schoolwork, had both a term paper and a PowerPoint due. I have never done a PowerPoint before in my life! They are both done and handed in. I looked at the work for this week and it looks easy, thankfully. I am taking the summer off from classes to unpack and finish moving in. I bit off more than I could chew when I started so soon after moving.

Now my sump pump alarm is going off.  I checked my warranty and luckily it is covered.  Now I just have to get the plumber to get out here before it is too late.  I am really beginning to hate rain.  Before it was my leaky roof (which still leaks) and now it is my basement threatening to flood.

You know you're old when you've been alive for longer than computers have been popular!

I have to do a PowerPoint presentation for a class, I have never done one before, ugh.  First the professor makes me do two term papers, then I get a PowerPoint to do.  I haven't been in school since I won't tell and to have all of this included in my first semester back is overwhelming to me.

I am feeling old tonight, my older son just graduated from high school.

I have decided to take the summer off from college and get things done around the house.  I am overwhelmed by things not getting done.  We are still not unpacked and I am tired of not finding anything I need.  I am still dealing with a leaking roof, the damage is increasing every time there is a heavy, long rainfall.  On the plus side our fence is fixed and we can use our deck now.

Happy Memorial Day everyone.  

We are spending this long weekend getting work done around the house.  We picked up a new mailbox post, a couple of new fence posts, a few railings, a staple gun, post hole digger and dirt.  Got my Weber kettle cleaned and fired up for dinner.  Had an awesome dinner of grilled corn and melt in your mouth steak.  

My older son is getting an award at school today and they are having a luncheon for it.  I decided to take the day off for it.

Going back to school after many years is tougher than what i thought it would be. One of the classes is interesting, the other class is boring as hell and i am having an awful time trying to focus on it.  Of course, having my life go to hell in a hand basket isn't helping matters any. 

Wow.  I just saw a raccoon on my back deck.  I am also hearing what I believe is a fox barking somewhere out back.  My yard backs up to woods and that seems to be where the sound is coming from.

Feeling a little worse for wear after my adventure with my garage door.  I did go out yesterday to get a key made to keep in the garage but the place was closed by the time I got there.  I will definitely get one made today.

I did a stupid thing today, I accidentally locked myself in my garage.  As soon as the door shut behind me I know what I had done.  I found a toolbox and grabbed a handful of screwdrivers and a pair of pliers because I couldn't find a hammer.  I tried to pick the lock but that didn't work so I switched tactics to taking the door off the hinges.  I got the pin to come out of the top hinge easily but the bottom one was rusted into place, I couldn't get it to come out no matter what I tried.  I finally managed to get myself back into my house by wedging a flathead screwdriver between the door and the jam right where the bolt is and sliding another one to the end of the bolt then pushing it back towards the lock.  I am heading out to get a spare key made for the door and will hang it inside the garage in a safe place.

"Super Kitty" is back to his fearless self.

Almost had to make a trip to the Animal ER last night.  My one kitten is very active, climbs, jumps and runs everywhere he can.  He decided to leap from his 5'6" scratching post up to the beam supporting the loft.  He didn't make it and came down on top of the back of one of my kitchen chairs.  He didn't move for what seemed a long time, just laid there.  When he did move, it was very slowly over to me and wanted to be picked up.  I carefully picked him up while I searched online for ER for animals.  He was moving ok, just very slowly and did not want to be put down.  I did my homework with a kitten cradled in my arms.  When I went to bed he didn't run and play with his brother much like he usually did.  Today he is better but has calmed down some.  He has been nicknamed "Super Kitty".  This is the second time in less than 2 months he has scared me half to death.

Oh joy, now we're having issues with a circuit breaker being tripped every time we turn it back on.  It is for some lights in the kitchen, we haven't had an issue with it before.  I can blame my sons for this one, they were turning every light on in the kitchen, which they generally didn't do before.

My older son took his girlfriend to her Junior Prom tonight.  Poor guy was really nervous, lol.  Now mom gets to stay up until he gets home safely.

I was unlucky enough to pick up a bolt in my right front tire on the way to work this morning.  By the time I got done it was almost flat, managed to limp it over to Pep Boys. They told me they were too busy and couldn't get to it until tomorrow.  The were "nice" enough to fill it enough with air for me to get home.  I stopped at Mr Tire and they repaired it for me to the tune of $35, oh and they informed me I needed new tires and new rear brakes.  Now, let me ask you.  Do I really need them or was it just because I was a lone female with no wedding ring on????????  I know how to check the tread, I have no idea how to check my brakes.

ugh, i wish kittens had snooze buttons!

The guy came to my house tonight and will get back to me with some estimates.  Interestingly enough, the seller's disclosure stated there was a small leak that had been fixed, didn't mention where the leak was but this one definitely is NOT fixed.  There is no money in escrow to get any repairs done either.

My boss ignored me today and then left early.  Go figure.

 

I may be joining the ranks of the unemployed tomorrow.  I was out sick last week because of laryngitis (with a doctor's note mind you) and today I called out because my kitchen ceiling is leaking from all the rain.  I got an email from my boss telling me that I need to talk with her tomorrow about my attendance.

Just made my first mortgage payment tonight.  

Still have some laryngitis, not back on the phones yet.

My throat is better but I still have laryngitis, it has been over a week now.  I went back to work and have been doing printing and stuffing envelopes.  I wonder how long they have this type of work for me.  

I am home from work with laryngitis and a raw throat.  I am on the phone all day at work so if I can't talk, no work.  It has mixed blessings.

So far I have lost 26 lbs, I can even see where I lost it.

On another note, I am home from work sick.  Plus add to that the fact that my new to me house leaked during the rain we just had.

Well, I did it.  I started back to school, going for my Bachelors in Accounting with a minor in Business Administration.  Wish me luck!

We are finally all moved out of our old place.  We are all exhausted and sore but happy. We adopted two 8 week old tabby kittens right after we started moving and they are a blast.

I went out and bought a lawn tractor, chain saw and garage door opener at Sears tonight.  We needed all three and they were having a sale on them.  It was one of the most expensive shopping trips I have ever been on.

I had counted on someone I thought was a friend to help me load a trailer I was renting with more boxes.  He hasn't proved reliable in the past and yet again he proves to be someone I can't rely on.  I don't need a friend like that.  I cancelled the trailer and will load my car instead, it will just take more trips and a longer length of time.

Spent the day hanging curtains, I have to run out tomorrow and get a drill bit for the rest of them.  

On another note, I have been on a doctor monitored diet and am losing weight quickly.  I have lost 13 lbs in 8 days!  

I am taking a much needed break tonight, too tired to do anything.

Our furniture is now in our new place thanks to a male friend, hired movers and my sons. If anyone is in need of movers, go to UHaul and hire SafeMovers through MovingHelp.com.  We can highly recommend them.  

My sons and I have been spending today moving boxes to our new home.  Tomorrow is the day our furniture gets moved, then we will be living there.

Closing went smoothly, no snags.  I am now a homeowner!

Tomorrow is the big day!!!!!  

Finally!!!!  I heard from my mortgage broker at lunch that my mortgage was approved today.  I am all set for my closing.

Down to 2 days until closing now!  My mortgage broker said that my mortgage should be finalized tomorrow.  She will email me the amount to bring to closing.  I have to bring a cashier's check, they run $9!  That's highway robbery!

3 more days until closing!  I am excited, scared, nervous all in one.  

I went shopping last night and bought a few things for the new place, a cordless drill and a vacuum, lol.  Closing is friday!   I am so excited!  I finally heard from the chimney/fireplace people, their estimate was over $3k.  Needless to say I am going to be shopping around a bit.  Sir said he can do some of the work on the chimney so that will be a big help.  I will have to save up for the liner.

Spent an awesome night with Sir last night.  He was able to come see my new house, had dinner with us and spent the night.  He surprised me with a sexy lingerie set after we were in my room.  i put it on and modeled it for him, then he placed my collar on me and a ball gag in my mouth.  i was then told to get on all fours on my bed.  He got behind me and told me we were trying something new, called "the quiet game".  He was going to make me cum many times but would stop at the slightest sound from me.  He told me my safe "word" was either to knock on my wall or tap his arm.  He used his fingers and my favorite toy on me, i know i came at least 6 times.  Then he resorted to my most favorite weapon of all, his cock.  We were definitely making the bed bang the wall when he was fucking me from behind and pulling my hair, my favorite part!  i loved it when he was talking dirty to me as well.  It was nearly impossible to not make a sound, i did let a few slip out.  Fortunately i got a charley horse in my left hip or i think i would have it.  Sir massaged my hip until it was gone, then told me to lay on my back while he fucked my ass.  i know i made some noise then.  After i cleaned up and put things away we turned the lights off, climbed into bed and snuggled until we fell asleep.  i love it when he can spend the night, i really hate sleeping alone, i have resorted to snuggling up with a pillow which is a poor substitute.

Officially hit overload today.  Came home to find out my sons are each failing at least one class, my rent check never made it to my landlord and I got an authorization form in the mail from my mortgage company.  It wanted to make sure that I had paid my car loan off. Now, mind you I had already forwarded both a copy of the payoff letter and a copy of my title.  That just sent me over the edge on top of dealing with hell at work and the difficult sellers of the house I am trying to buy.  I just sat down and cried.  It didn't resolve anything but I felt a little better afterwards.

Geez, now the mortgage company is losing papers and asking me to dig them up again.   I am still waiting to hear from the sellers about the leak in the house.  Also waiting for the estimate for the work to the fireplace as well.

17 days and counting until closing!

 

Still waiting for the estimate from the chimney inspector.

We met the chimney inspector at the new place yesterday.  The driveway wasn't plowed so we had to trek thru the knee deep snow to get to the house.  We walked into the house and discovered there were puddles of water in the kitchen, great room and laundry room.  I almost cried i was so upset.  The leak in the kitchen was repaired before, so the sellers say.  There is no indication as to where the puddles in the great room came from.  The laundry room puddle probably came from the power being out and no sump pump.  

To top it all off, the inspector said the fireplace is not safe to use.  It needed a lot of things, like a cap, the top needed to be redone, the liner was about 3' short of the insert.  My realtor is going to talk with the sellers' realtor and find out if they put it in themselves or did they buy it this way.  

This is definitely not what i needed to find 3 weeks before settlement.

TGIF!!!!!!  This has been one of the longest, roughest weeks i have had in a very long time.

A neighbor had a small electrical fire tonight, there were 3 fire companies that responded. Thankfully it didn't appear to be a serious fire.  Unfortunately the roads are only plowed wide enough for 1 vehicle so trying to get around was difficult for them.  The firefighters were slipping on black ice so i asked my older son to put down some salt on it for them.

It is amazing how much stuff you can accumulate during 2 years.

My office is closed today, the first time in 2 years.

New Mexico is looking better and better!

Ok, winter storms can stop any time now!

Today wasn't a good day.  The callers wouldn't let me get a word in edgewise even to answer their questions, my chair broke at the end of the day.  On the way home i was stuck in traffic, it almost looked like the delay was because a tree had fallen on a PECO truck.  I couldn't see for sure but it sure looked like it did.  I don't think anyone was hurt as i didn't see any rescue around it.  It made my day seem not so bad after all.

WOW, this weather and the aftermath is absolutely incredible.

We wound up with 8.5" of snow today.  I didn't go in to work as I didn't feel like dealing with the long commute home.

Homemade chicken noodle soup, jammies, a warm blanket and a good book.  A perfect combination to make me feel better.

I'm fighting a cold and losing. 

The sellers agreed to the second estimate, so things are looking up.  Then will be the chimney inspection/cleaning.  The last step is to get all the papers to the mortgage company that they need.  

The sellers don't agree with the proposal, he thinks it is too high.  I replied I am not against having another company come in and give them another estimate, however, the work still needs to be done.  He said he will be willing to give me a credit towards the work provided I move in on Feb. 15th, which is not an option for me.  My "wonderful" landlord made sure that I would stay put until the end of March or it would cost me a lot more money.  

The environmental company did an inspection in the attic of the house I am buying.  They found new growth since the last time they were there 1 1/2 years ago.  They are proposing an air test, removal of the mildew/mold, sealing it, also enlarging the access to the attic.  That is if the air quality test comes back as low spores.  If it comes back as high then they are recommending replacing the insulation as well.  The owners are looking at a bill somewhere between $4,500 - $7,500.  I wouldn't be surprised if they want me to at least split the cost with them which unfortunately I just can't do.

Now we're in the negotiation stage of home buying.  Let me just say it is the most nerve wracking time of the whole process so far!  The sellers are digging their heels in on some things that make no sense to me.  Other things they said I could wait until after settlement to handle.  That is something I refuse to do, if they won't cooperate then I will have to walk.

It is astounding how many hoops mortgage companies make you go through in order to get a mortgage!

Anyone have any suggestions about what to look for in a used lawn mower/tractor?

I can tell there is a full moon soon, the callers are getting stranger each day.

The inspection was today.  The two main issues that the inspector found was that the heat pump wasn't working, and he found some mildew/mold in the attic.  Now to figure out what to do.

I have decided to put the money for the down payment into a savings account so I know it won't get spent on something else.

My realtor contacted me while I was grocery shopping with my younger son.  He told me that the sellers accepted my final offer/agreement.  I embarrassed the hell out of my son by doing a short happy dance in the dairy section, lol.  

Well, I did it.  I accepted their counter offer, now the fun really begins.

So much for crossing my fingers, they came back with a slightly higher offer.  I will sit down and go over my finances to make sure I really can afford it before I accept.  I am so nervous about getting in over my head.

I feel like I am in a game of ping pong.  The sellers came back with yet another counter offer so I countered yet again.  I am at the top of my comfort zone now, keeping my fingers crossed that this will be the end and they will accept it.

The sellers countered my offer, then requested a statement of financial responsibility.  Seriously??????  I put a deposit with the offer, and am pre qualified for the mortgage.  I refused and countered their offer.  

Finally!   My divorce is final as of 12/30/13. 

I paid off my debts with some of the settlement and the rest is going for a downpayment on a house that I put an offer in on today.

Serious house hunting has begun.  It should be interesting, so far every house I have looked at up until now has sold quickly.

Wading through all the insurance decisions I have to make for myself including FSA, life, health, dental and vision.  My head is spinning, geez.

Watching the Army/Navy game with my sons.  I wish I understood the game, lol.

What a jackass my EX husband is.  Apparently he was so worried about his tiny, minute details that he forgot some things that he wanted to get credit for paying during settlement.

It is amazing how much weight has been lifted from my shoulders because of yesterday.

Wow.  My divorce was granted, we reached an agreement.  

Tomorrow is my big day, divorce settlement meeting.  Get this, I got a text from him saying he was sorry.  Then he goes on to tell me that he wants to borrow one of our sons on my weekend with them.  Typical move from him.

Be safe everyone!

Feeling overwhelmed right now.  I am still trying to get the financial end of going back to school straightened out.  I had the joy of telling my soon-to-be ex that I needed a copy of his tax return from the IRS for it.  I am also getting my older son ready for college next year.  Still dealing with trying to get my divorce and a job that is getting more stressful all the time.

It should be interesting, next wednesday is the meeting with the mediator for my divorce. My soon-to-be ex is working on one of his "famous" spreadsheets.  I wonder what the mediator's reaction will be to it.

After trying for a week to get plans set for this weekend to go target shooting, my sons wake up with nasty coughs.  How rude! lol

It really annoys me when someone says they will get back to you and they don't.  I made tentative plans with a friend to go to his place this weekend with my sons for some target shooting.  He said he would let me know for sure, I still haven't heard back from him.  

Have a safe, warm and Happy Thanksgiving!  Mine was off to a rocky start, my coffeemaker died right after I turned it on.  I made a quick run to Kmart and picked up a new one.    Thank goodness they were open!  I am spending the day cooking dinner with my sons and enjoying the experience.

Finally!!!!!  I survived work and now can enjoy 4 days off.  

I am SO looking forward to having 4 days off!  You would think that with the upcoming holiday, people would not be so cranky!

Finally my work week has ended.  The hardest part of working saturdays is getting out of bed, lol.  

Is it sunday yet?  I can't believe my work week isn't over yet.

I am so disappointed!  I had a date with my sir and he cancelled because he came down with a stomach virus.  

Food poisoning is no fun!

I am looking forward to this weekend.  I will be helping some friends at a gun show.  It gives me a chance to talk with pleasant people, unlike my job.

Sigh, yet another day spent as the mole in a "Whack-a-mole" game.

I am beginning to see improvement from the physical therapy.  My back doesn't hurt as bad and I can go longer without having to use my heating pad.

Not sure if the physical therapy is helping or not, I don't see much improvement.

Physical therapists have to be sadists!  Mine loves to inflict even more pain than I already am in.

I decided to go back to school and get my Bachelor's Degree in Accounting.  I start January 6, 2014.  Wish me good luck, I am going to need it!

I received a surprise call from my sir friday night.  He told me to go outside and look at the sky.  He then asked me what I saw, I replied I saw an almost full moon.  He then said he was looking at the same moon at the same time, was thinking about me and wanted me to know he loved me.  It made me feel very close to him even thought we weren't  I can honestly say that was the first time someone has ever called me and did that.  It made me feel very special and loved.

Having a rough day, feeling overwhelmed and tired of being in pain.

First week back to work after my accident, I am exhausted and every bone in my body hurts.

Get this!   "(and therefore you did not take good care of the martial asset entrusted to you)."  This was included in a lovely email from my asshole husband about my accident.  Is it just me or does this sound like something out of a previous century?????????

Realized yesterday that the rental car was contributing to my pain from the accident.  I found a replacement for my wrecked car and got financing for it in my name.  During an interesting discussion with ass (hubby), he informed me I was not allowed to touch the insurance money until he talked with his lawyer about it.  He is so afraid that I am going to screw him out of a penny and reminding me yet again why I left him.

Sir and i were able to meet for dinner tonight.  It was wonderful to be able to see him, talk  and share a meal together.  Needless to say it wasn't long enough, but our time together  never is. lol

My run of bad luck continues.  So far I've lost 4 days of work due to my car accident.  I am still waiting to hear about my car.

Airbags work.  I think I totaled my car today.  I am not happy about it as I was planning on driving it until it wouldn't go any more.  I think I reached that point, just a lot sooner than I had planned on.  

The meeting with the landlord was interesting.  He agreed to extend the lease through March.  Now to get ass (hubby) moving and get things settled.

Happy Labor Day!  I am spending my long holiday weekend packing the house up and storing everything downstairs in one corner of the basement.  According to my tyrant landlord he would consider giving me more time before we have to move out if we did that.  I will know more on thursday when he "graces" us with his presence again. 

 

To add to my fun, ass (hubby) is forcing the settlement to go before a Master.  He wants me to "let him go" and allow him to do one settlement payment and not have to deal with me financially again.  Personally, I don't care if I ever see him again.  As an added bonus, he makes more than I ever hope to make and wants to settle with about a 70/30 split in his favor.  

Went from living under the roof of one tyrant to living under the roof of another (my landlord).  

The hits keep coming, I definitely need a break.

Dammit.  No go on the lease/purchase offer.  I feel like I am a mole in the whack-a-mole game.  I just can't catch a break.

My realtor is going to see if we can arrange a lease to purchase for the house I am planning on buying being the divorce settlement has come to a screeching halt.

I hate packing.

The meeting with the lawyers didn't go as well as I expected, I had hoped for more to be accomplished.  My soon-to-be ex did his usual nickel and dime act by appearing with a full 12" of papers.  He must have spent weeks doing all the math, starting from the date I filed for the separation.  He even reneged on his offer of a lump sum for alimony.

One benefit of not completely unpacking when we moved, is there is less to pack this time.  My sons are a very big help to me, thank goodness.

A date has been set, finally, for the divorce settlement meeting.  It only took my landlord giving me two months to move out to get it set.  

It simply amazes me how much junk a teenage boy can manage to cram into his room.

Just received notice from my tyrant landlord that i have 60 days to find another place to live.  He wants to sell the house.  

I am completely exhausted.  It has been a very busy week for me, last weekend was a gun show and monday I had a date with Sir.  We had dinner after we went to a shooting range, had a blast (pun intended)!  Last night was a real treat, Sir stayed overnight.  After I cooked dinner we retired to the bedroom.  It was mind blowing, followed by lots of snuggle time.

The house closed yesterday, now to motivate his ass to get the final agreement done and over with.

It can stop raining now!

Happy 4th of July!!!!!!!  Have a safe and happy holiday!

Still looking for a motorcycle riding companion.  

Ok, maybe work isn't so bad after all.

Work can't pay me enough to go through another day like today!

Happy Father's Day to all the fathers here.

I'm on pins and needles, applied for a mortgage today.

Wow, today was a day from hell at work.  Pizza, wine and a long soak in a hot tub then early to bed for me tonight.

Now comes the fun of house inspections next week.  I sure as hell hope there are no surprises.

We accepted an offer on our house.  Closing is mid july.

I am STILL looking for a motorcycle riding partner.  I would love someone to ride along with me while I am still a newbie to riding my own.

To ALL who have served or are serving, Thank you!

We got an offer on our house!  Now comes the negotiation fun.

We all survived the day.  I can definitely see where my son's father gets his personality from.  He is a carbon copy of his mother, needless to say I never got along with her.

So far so good.  I managed to remain calm when I really felt like telling my (not soon enough) soon to be ex off.  If I can just do it again tomorrow, then I won't have to see or talk with him again until maybe wednesday if I am real lucky.

Taking a short break from the craziness tonight.  Tomorrow is a short day at work, then a mandatory attendance company picnic.  After that, time to spend a few hours getting everything but the food ready for my older son's Eagle ceremony.

Getting things ready for my older son's Eagle Court of Honor on saturday.  I am looking forward to it because some of my family will be there.  I am not looking forward to it because some of my soon to be ex inlaws will be there as well.

if I NEVER have to talk to my sons' father again it will be too soon!

 

Finally things are looking up.  The house is on the market and the settlement is moving forward.  I can begin to seriously think about house hunting.  I decided to go back to school and get a degree in accounting, beginning that whole fun process.  

Sir and i were able to spend the night together last week.  All i can say is WOW.

Wow, first caller cussed me out at work today and it went downhill from there.  

Finding myself having to sink even more money into my car.  It can stop any time now!

One bad thing about being a single parent is having to be both the "bad" and the "good" parent.

Still looking for a local motorcycle riding partner.

Yet again people are coming to work sick, contaminating the rest of us.

Damn!!!!  I had no clue alimony would be included as income, I'll be paying the IRS for quite a while.

I hate having to work saturdays, just can't seem to get up on time.

Looking for a motorcycle riding partner, care to join me?

Is it friday yet?????????????????

Now the real fun of finalizing the divorce is beginning.  Ass is reminding me daily why I left him.

Ok, where the hell is the warm weather?

I spent today using my smoker to smoke almonds.  I am going to start selling them at the gun shows I help at.  Now I smell like wood smoke, lol.

I have been spending quite a few weekends helping a friend at a gun show.  I am learning alot about handguns by showing them.  It is exhausting but tons of fun, especially not being hollered at by cranky people, lol.

All I can say is "Wow"!

I'm so excited, I get to see my Sir tomorrow!

Today is my 1 year anniversary at work and I got the day off with pay.  I spent the day pampering myself and loved every minute!

Brrrr Nellie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Go Flyers!!!!!!

Wouldn't you think after getting the flu this past fall and then getting the flu shot that I wouldn't get the flu again?  Wrong!

Today my older son turns 18.  Whose bright idea was it to determine someone was an "adult" at this age?  They need their head examined!

Had a wonderful surprise when I got home from a day of hell at work.  There was a box containing a day collar.  I absolutely love it!

Beginning to feel like an icicle. 

I hope everyone has a better year in 2013.

My sons and I went out last night and bought shovels and a big pail of ice melt.  We're ready for the snow now. 

Merry Christmas to all. 

i spent a wonderful, special morning with my Sir.  i surprised him by towel drying him after his shower.  i miss him already.

Altogether not much damage here.  Lights flickered, trickles came through the basement walls.  My wood shed sustained the most damage, blew apart and now all the wood is soaked.

Getting water in the basement, hope the power stays on!

Not a fun time here but so far, so good.  Was up till 2 am this morning with older son, he couldn't sleep.  I was able to take a nap this afternoon, thankfully. 

Ok, now I am getting scared.  I need to remain strong though, my older son admitted to me that he is getting worried about it.

Be safe everyone!

I am so tired of testy people! 

So much for nice weather for Halloween. 

Feeling icky, home from work today and probably tomorrow as well.  Caught a stomach virus that is going around at work.

I swear someone threw an extra day in this week on me!

Maybe I won't job hunt after all.  They finally are giving me the tools I need to do my job and extra staff to take the load off.  It isn't so bad after all, now.

Back to job hunting again, I can't take it much longer.

If you are looking for certain things in a reply to your first message, make that clear from the beginning.  I just had a bad experience with that.  My reply wasn't what he expected and instead of telling me what he was looking for in my reply he criticized, insulted and then blocked me.

Wish I could find a stay at home job that wasn't a scam.  I hate the job I have, way too much stress.

Ever notice when it rains it pours?  I'm lucky enough to have the flu so I'm off work for the rest of the week.  Not what I needed after having to very expensive months in a row.

Feeling yucky, almost like the flu but not quite.

It is amazing how even half an hour spent with my soon to be ex reminds me things can always be worse, I could still be with him!

Happy birthday to me.   Not off to a good start, overslept.   Got to work and my cubicle was covered with glitter, streamers, garland and balloons.  It was the pickup I needed.

Finally got out for a brief ride sunday!

Ok, autumn/fall can arrive any time now as far as I am concerned. 

It is definitely a full moon tonight.

Why can't it just rain without storming too?

I miss my sons.  They are camping for two weeks. 

Work was so horrid today a group of us went out for a drink or two after work.  Those stools were so tall I almost needed a running start to get on one. lol

OMG, just picked up my car from the shop.  Cost me $1,000 to get the a/c motor replaced and the car inspected.  It damn well better blow out gold plated ice cubes for that price!

Back from a 600 mile round trip this weekend to attend my sister's wedding.  The best part of the whole trip was coming home and seeing my sons again.

Hmmm, what to do tomorrow.  Go for a ride or stay home and cook out?

I am NOT a big fan of thunderstorms.

Yay!  I get two whole days off.  OMG it is been such a long two weeks.  Too many hours at work dealing with impossible people on the phone.

Happy Father's Day to all the fathers out there.

I'm so excited!  I passed my motorcycle permit test.  Now I get to ride again.

Falling isn't bad at all, its the stop at the end that is painful!

I seem to have misplaced my guide to parenting.  Omg, what a week!

Apparently my sons' father did not really teach them how to mow the grass. 

Went out with my sons for an early Mother's Day dinner.  It was thoroughly enjoyable, both the meal and their company.

Allergies suck!

Go Flyers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Stood up, yet again.

Tonight is a Calgon night, most definitely.

Finally found a good thing about PMS.  It makes dealing with cranky people on the phone alot easier.  lol

Finally getting central air installed this week.   Now, watch us get a cold spell, lol.

Went on a shopping spree this weekend.  Bought a new lawnmower and weed wacker as well as two gas cans.  Even with the research I did, it was pretty much buying blind.  My sons weren't a whole lot of help except to provide the muscle to load and unload the car.

 

Sometimes I think people should wear post-it notes on their foreheads to let or remind others of the issues they are going through.  My older son is dealing with depression as well as adhd and it is really hard sometimes to remember that when dealing with him.  He is 17, a whole head taller than I am yet is immature in alot of areas. 

I am exhausted already and it is only tuesday.  I worked saturday, was off sunday, worked yesterday and worked 10 hrs today.  Guess I should start thinking about getting to bed earlier.

Had a very enjoyable (although brief) playdate with a good friend last week.

Finally finding the house, even with boxes all over the place still.  My sons are a big help to me, it seems like they have grown up overnight during the move.  They don't leave me alone in a room with their father even when I ask them to so we can talk in private.

Haven't moved in 15 years.  You never know how much stuff you accumulate until you have to move it!  It seems like the boxes are multiplying like rabbits, every time I turn around I am tripping over more.

Finally!!!!!  I started my new job tuesday and today I found out I am approved to rent the house. 

 

I have to admit I am afraid something will happen and it will all go wrong though.

I decided to take the job and not risk going with a temp agency again.  Now to find a place to move us to.  I hate flying by the seat of my pants so to speak but I have no choice.  Some day all this chit has to end!

I was offered a job, not sure how long I would last in it though.  Have an interview next week with a different company.  Hopefully I will have a choice between the two.  If not, I will take the original offer just so I can get an apartment and get us moved out.

Got turned down for renting the house.  Back to the drawing board, yet again.

Found a house to rent, hopefully I will be approved for it.  Now to find a job!

Packing to move is alot of hard work!

Today I received a statement from the apartment manager telling me I would not be receiving any sort of refund for my deposit/rent.  Tomorrow I am talking to my lawyer about it, hopefully I can get at least some of it back.

Had a wonderful meeting yesterday. 

Ok, life sucks, once again.  I lost my job today which means no apartment.  Just want to stick my head under the covers and cry.

I have decided to put off going back to school a semester. I think I should spend more time with my sons for a while after we move.

I got the apartment, I got the good news today.  Moving day is January 7th, should be a very interesting month for everyone in my house.

So far so good with the job, it is an open ended assignment with a possibility of it going permanent.  I also may be getting an apartment soon, going to check it out and apply tomorrow.  Keeping my fingers crossed it all doesn't come crashing down on me.

I finally see some light at the end of the tunnel.  I have a temp job starting tomorrow!  It is a start.  Hopefully they will like my work enough that they will offer me a permanent job soon.

Friday should be fun, have a job interview and a hell of a cold (thanks to my sons).

No, I will NOT put out a cig, pee on you or anything else to or with you if you are a submissive male.  Geez!  Stop asking me!!!  Mail from sub males are sent to bulk mail and deleted as of now.

Decided to go back to school.  I have to do something to support myself after the boys move out.

Wow, I'm on a roll now.  Stood up twice in two days. 

Seriously thinking about leaving here.  I've got enough to deal with in my life without dealing with liars and game players from here.  I can count on one hand the genuine men I have met through here and even then would have fingers left.

Job hunting really sucks now.  I had a choice of two jobs with the same company, was told to decide and let him know the next day.  The next day I called to tell him which one I had chosen, only to have him tell me that the jobs had been filled from another office.

Wow!  That was scary.  Goodbye Irene!

Be safe!

Job hunting sucks.

Please be sure to read my complete profile before contacting me.  It would save us both time.

Why would someone ask for your picture and then block you?  How rude!

Not sure what to think.  My trainer/mentor/friend hasn't been available for a while now, said he'd explain soon but that was 5 days ago now.  With my previous experiences it feels like I've been dumped yet again, but I keep hoping that's not the case.  I miss him.

Ever get the feeling you have a big, black cloud permanently hanging over your head?