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1/19/2018 11:15:23 PM
Hello fellow submissives and slaves, I have not written my thoughts in a while. I should journal when I’m happy and fulfilled too.... the search for the Master that I am humble enough to serve has been full of trying things out and seeing what happens. Kinda like the search for the sexiest pair of heels. The one that fits you well. Compliments the what ever you wear, brings out your happy.... I found him. He is wonderful, he makes time for me! He makes being an extension of who he is as a Master, dominant and man, very easy. When I’m not in his direct vicinity I don’t feel complete. When I am serving him, the time passes so quickly I can’t get enough!..... I’m like the submissive Cinderella that tried on her perfect slipper, the fit was perfect and becoming HIS.... was so magical! I can journal from a content happy slave’s perspective and share my thoughts to help strengthen the bond between a Dominant and his submissive..... Please ask questions. Open up conversation..... Keep your collars tight, your knees comfy, and serve him with joy of heart and spirit! Greymatter
11/24/2017 2:48:42 PM
Do you get excited when she not in your vicinity?? I know I get excited just seeing a text from him. I get excited when he asks about my day and tells me he is thinking of me. Just because. I want him to make me feel I’m important and his priority. I know he is mine and my only focus. If it’s onky kink?.. then please say so. I believe in being his slave is more than the kink. It’s an all over experience. Stimulates your mind and your body. You serve him because he is your Master. You serve him completely because you love him and serving him is the scoop of vanilla on top! Where is this person. You get small tidbits, you get courted, chased, and when you completely submit. They have you. And they forget what it took to get you!,,, Very sad slave today. He broke my heart !,,
10/15/2017 9:05:20 AM
Hello and good morning, So apparently just because you are a dominant and choose to chat with a submissive, you are expected to say Sir....that is reserved my Master only. Not for someone who is just communicating via this site. If that is your expectation, then you are talking to the wrong people. I’m not a weak person. I’m a submissive.... not a door mat that mindlessly does what people say just because. Respect is given, when respect is earned and established... Collars tight. Knees comfortable Greymatter
10/1/2017 12:23:14 PM
Hello fellow collar spacers, 
I find communicating with people through this site can have some issues.
The purpose of the profile is too, read it.   See if the information documented is what you are seeking.  If most of parameters meets your needs... then drop a line and say hi... if a profile states “not willing to locate“ and you live outside of the state of persons profile... is safe to stay that person ( which is me) is not moving.... if I bring that to your attention, then please don’t be rude or call me dumb or other rude comments. Also, please dont get
an attitude if I tell you I work a lot and will try my best to reply back..  I have to take care of myself financially.  Don’t depend on anyone to do that...  Reading is fundamental and necessary in an online profile....
Keep your collars tight....and read a book!!! Your Master might appreciate some brainpower.
Greymatter1201
9/29/2017 10:41:57 AM
Good morning everyone,
I hope the BDSM world is treating everyone well today.   Being happy in all you do and who you serve is very important. Finding that connection makes being a slave/submissive a fulfilling place to be.   Loving who you are with and a Master that also uplifts his  slave is very important.....
Makes wearing his collar a treasure and a privilege...
keep your collars tight....look up to your Master each day...
9/12/2017 5:45:40 PM
Hello all. I have not journaled in a long while. There have been some big events in my life. So my focus has been on getting me in line. Apparently potential Masters don't care. Even if you tell them... they judge you and make you and tell you your not eager enough and because I don't drop what I'm doing and come and fuck/suck them to prove I'm worthly.. Really.... I'm not desperate or stupid. I'm a strong, smart woman. I'm a submissive. If I can pass along this tidbit to you all out there. Please make sure you have respect for the people that serve you. We are human beings. We are submissives... collars tight... Greymatter
9/2/2017 5:04:08 PM
Hello. I journal, write, communicate my thoughts, my wants, my needs and where is struggle in this journey. I'm not complaining or bitching just thinking out loud on paper. Submitting to the one would be amazing. Maybe I'm asking too much. Or be too open about how I feel about things and this is a turn off to My potential Master. Transparency has its good points and bad points. The double edged sword. I communicate effectively and it's appreciated until I'm told I'm too rigid and not being obedient. What can I do right??? I'm told I'm too cautious about meeting someone in person. I'm told I should just jump into being a slave with out learning my Master. That would benefit the Master I'm sure, but compromise myself in the process. I could pull it off for a while, but the joy in serving would not be there. I can serve Him sexually all he wants... I know there would need to be more to truly be owned than that. Serving him mentally, spirituality, taking care of his domestic needs, the list is endless. I am that slave....why is this so hard.. Would wear his collar proudly and with honor. Greymatter
9/1/2017 9:33:31 PM
Hello all,
I have not written in many days ...there are aspects of this lifestyle...well its my life, not just a lifestyl..  I do enjoy and embrace it.  ... I am very happy with who I am and my purpose is in life.....what I dont like is the virtual dance that is needed to find your true Master.  Everyone has an opinion
a thought, a whatever... I understand what being property is. I know how to serve a Master... I know what my role and purpose in life is as a slave/submissive is. I know that I have not been collared yet.  I want that in the future whith the right dominant. I'm not perfect, I have thought, I have ideas.... my Master will always be the priority.. 
Collars tight..
Greymatter!!
8/25/2017 9:00:38 PM
 

Let's see. I need to process and write apparently. I was told that I take the slave "role" too seriously.. really .!!!! It's a role now. Thought it was a lifestyle.... you obey your dominant/master and  do what you are told... you are taking it seriously...WTF. Did you expect half asssed... did you expect me not to obey... either you are told you are not a real slave/submissive because you are not owned or collared. Or you are asked" why are you not owned or collared, you must be defective... where are the Masters with integrity,?? The ones that take it seriously?? The ones that don't blame thier subs/slaves when things don't work or need adjustments....
true slaves deserve true masters... they provide the integrity to the collar!!!!

 
8/20/2017 9:43:09 AM
Good morning all, Listening can be accomplished by many of your senses besides your ears. You can listen through body language, read what is being communicated. (Not always the best method) things get lost in translation. You listen with actions and non verbal communication. Listen and obey... listen and obey... sometimes that can be a challenge for someone like me.. I use my head and mind to process my surroundings and listen to what is being communicated. There are times I'm way off and it bites me in the ass. There are times I am on target. I'm a slave/submissive my role is to serve and obey. My role is not to question my Dominant/Master on decisions, needs and wants etc. Listening without questioning that is so hard.. I ask my potential Master please be patient with me. Embrace my intelligence. Tame my willfull spirit.. Control is needed all the time. Harness my energy... Make a safe environment for listening to you and too me!!! My listening ears are ready... I'm on my knees waiting/listening..humble and willing. Keep your collars adjusted.. Greymatter1201
8/19/2017 12:46:59 PM
hello... so I need to clarify a few things for some Master/Dominants out there... just because Im a slave... does not mean I'm your slave.. in saying this...you both must be compatible..comfortable..so if I communicate this to you and you get an attitude and start saying I'm not a real slave, I have a velcro collar, I'm not a good slave, etc... I just proved my point.... that we are not compatible. True Dominants and Master...doesn't behave that way, when they don't get thier way.. because I'm a slave.. does not mean I have to serve you because you say so...
 
8/19/2017 8:24:03 AM
Good morning all..
My writing today was a struggle and a task I had trouble completing on time.
I task myself each day to put in writing my thoughts down on virtual paper each day or so. Slave/submissive... Dominant/Master. We all have souls, parts of us that keep us in touch with our physical and emotional self. Being who we are or what drives us to this lifestyle is unique for each person. For Me, the need to serve another, be controlled, keeps me in balance with the Vanilla life I live each day. I can always tell whenever there is much more chaos in my vanilla--alter ego.. my slave/submissive side is not being fed or nurtured. My Ying is not in touch with my Yang... if I had to guess for
The dominants it would have to be the same push/pull as well. If you have not Mastered your slave recently... you must need to fill that need as well. Being true to authentic self.. I was asked this question once again the other day.. if I knew the difference between a slave/submissive. Those titles, if you are submitting to your Master...does it really matter what you are labeled as.... submit because you enjoy and are feeling it in your soul..... the power exchange and energy exchange...,runs to your soul and virtually fill your DNA with him..,
Collars tight...humbly bowing.
Greymatter1201
8/15/2017 9:51:19 AM
Good Morning all, Time is something that is given and can be measured like ingredients in a recipe. If is measured correctly and and love thoughtfulness is mixed in , magic happens. I'm forms something marvelous and fulfilling for all parties. You want to grab it up and hold on to that perfect thing....enjoying time with your Dominant/Master is one of those magic recipes. Bad timing and experiences shape a slaves perception of things and can impact how they process cues and information. Those experiences can be very taxing for Master/Dominant working with that slave. Time and patience with her will always needed to reshape those perspectives. Master/Dominant's ultimately mold thier slaves---for the good and for the Bad....
8/13/2017 11:01:13 PM
Good evening all,
Finally a time to end my day by releasing some thoughts.   Change is huge for anyone including slaves.  Just dealing with any change can cause a certain amount of stress.. sometimes the stress in ones live can evoke change for the better. You can't change anything unless you are uncomfortable in your current situation. Change in the way you are handled by someone can be stressful. Consistency is the key... just because you are in the role of the dominan/master should not give you the freedom to just arbitrarily change something with out discussing with your sub/slave.  For several reasons this is important:
1. Trust-- we trust our Masters to be consistent , precise, and dependable.  Constant change causes us to make mistakes and not feel as confident in our abilities.
2. Training practices--inconsistent behaviors and change will cause us  to fail. This can increase our chances of future failures and rookie mistake.
3. Physical responses--unexpected change can elevate stress hormones, increase anxiety, and alter moods.  Not a good way to build healthy, happy slaves.
Ultimately... the Master is in charge and the slave submits... if  you are developing a good quality slave,  talk about change together and healthy submission will occur deepening that bond....
just throwing out change because you can...  will not get the outcomes you might hope for..
collars tight, kneel in presence... enjoy your submission....
Grey!
8/12/2017 9:39:18 AM
Good morning fellow BDSM'ers, I woke up on the right side of the collar (haha).. Transparency and perceptions have been woven into a lot of conversations recently. When you are asked about your limits, are you being asked because you really want to know or will it be used later in a different manner. i believe that open communication is necessary for a healthy Dom/sub realationship. As you journey through this learning process and you discover that there are limits you were not aware of, is the Dominant so rigid that there is no happy medium or negotiation if the end result is the same... I am very much aware of my position as a slave is and what position and status my Master/Dominant holds..so. It's not about that it's about discovering ways to satisfy each other and to serve unconditionally. Keep your collars adjusted and your knees comfortable as you kneel in his presence. Greymatter1201
8/11/2017 7:38:18 PM

Hello all,
I learned somethings about myself over the past year!! Am I too unreasonable about who I desire to Dominate me?? The physical connection is needed.. but before all of that. He needs to feed my brain. Get me hooked with his intelligence, his sense of humor, how he talks to me... stimulate that organ. You have the rest of me completely. I will submit all to him with out any questions or doubts.. I will become his property, own me , collar me..
I would wear his collar proudly.. adjust it accordingly
Greymatter

8/10/2017 12:47:35 PM
Hello all
My thoughts on last nights journal entry were a little to raw for everyone. I was being open and transparent with everyone.  Being in this lifestyle is so fulfilling with the right Master.   I am wanting that connection with Him. This lifestyle has its negative aspects since vanilla people dont understand and find it taboo..  my heart and soul is in it.  I was told im looking for a storybook Master..   I don't know what that looks like.  I am wired to be his slave. 
Serving him is my lif goal. Giving all of me to him is my life goal.  
Collars tight
Greymatter
8/9/2017 8:30:10 PM
Hello,
I really need to get these thoughts on my virtual tablet, hopefully with out too many tears.. Took some time to run and clear my head. Except it really got me thinking too much... I am asked , have you found your Master... each time it's a no...Am I just not  meant to Mastered...????  The fucking part of me that is empty and not fullfilled and nurtured.   This  built up energy that has no release at this time... not being completely awakened..  not having the tightness of his collar or his hands around my neck .. his scent, his voice, the energy exchange.....everyday is a journey somewhere....
Peace to you all!!!
greymatter
8/8/2017 2:05:15 PM
Hello fellow BDSM people, I'm tasked to write some thoughts. I enjoy writing my perspective on things.. seeing things on my knees looking up haha!! Serving someone, serving him, complete power exchange, control, kink, trust, honesty, transparency, communication etc... all encompass the life of a slave to ones Master. That person recievung all this from the person giving these treasures is one special person. Slaves are viewed as property to ones Master...property is of value. You nurture and make improvements to property to increase value. Well making improvements and nurturing a slave increases her value and worth to her Master. It the Masters responsibility to train and make his property value increase. Your thoughts?? Keep your collars adjusted and mouths open wide!! Greymatter 1201
8/8/2017 2:04:19 PM
Hello fellow BDSM people, I'm tasked to write some thoughts. I enjoy writing my perspective on things.. seeing things on my knees looking up haha!! Serving someone, serving him, complete power exchange, control, kink, trust, honesty, transparency, communication etc... all encompass the life of a slave to ones Master. That person recievung all this from the person giving these treasures is one special person. Slaves are viewed as property to ones Master...property is of value. You nurture and make improvements to property to increase value. Well making improvements and nurturing a slave increases her value and worth to her Master. It the Masters responsibility to train and make his property value increase. Your thoughts?? Keep your collars adjusted and mouths open wide!! Greymatter 1201
8/8/2017 2:04:11 PM
Hello fellow BDSM people, I'm tasked to write some thoughts. I enjoy writing my perspective on things.. seeing things on my knees looking up haha!! Serving someone, serving him, complete power exchange, control, kink, trust, honesty, transparency, communication etc... all encompass the life of a slave to ones Master. That person recievung all this from the person giving these treasures is one special person. Slaves are viewed as property to ones Master...property is of value. You nurture and make improvements to property to increase value. Well making improvements and nurturing a slave increases her value and worth to her Master. It the Masters responsibility to train and make his property value increase. Your thoughts?? Keep your collars adjusted and mouths open wide!! Greymatter 1201
8/6/2017 1:22:00 PM

Good day all,
More thoughts into the realm of bondage and binding..
So, a loose binding on the hands/wrists for the first time for us as newbies is a great way to start the process. Loose enough to feel safe and embrace the process, but tight enough to get a reaction. It created that safety and trust needed to get into a deeper experience. Would be the same for introducing any new kinks of fetishes into the life of a slave/submissive to begin the training process. Time and patience creates a healthy slave so that she can be enjoyed by her Master as he desires.
Keep your collars tight and your knees comfortable...enjoy all the kinks and nasty!!!!
Greymatter 1201
8/5/2017 5:23:36 PM
Hello fellow collarspacers, Taking time to write. I have been tasked to put some thoughts down. Bondage is new thing to me as a slave/submissive. There has to be a level of trust. To allow someone bind you and feel that vulnerability in their hands. It puts you into several thought areas. The energy exchange between you and your Master. It's a powerful flow of energy. Other ares of thought is the trust that you will be released from the binding . One of my biggest fears. Only because I am learning that level of trust comes with time and consistency. Giving another person that control over you... along with the trust, feeling that he will treasure that vulnerability and make the experience sensual, as well as feeding his sadistic side of bondage of his slave. For being a new experience for me, it's a slow process of trust and the complete power exchange between two people. It releases all sorts of chemicals and endorphins in the brain and on a cellular level in the body, mind and soul. Those feel good chemicals, sexual arousal chemicals and body responses that happens. It's a chemical rush that we chase every time we submit to our Masters will and Dominance. He has the responsibility to take care of his slave/submissive in that scene to ensure that the experience is pleasureable so it can be repeated with the same results. So he can add to it and take her out of comfort zone with safety and caring through the process.. Keep your collars tight and kneel with pride.. Lisa ( aka greymatter1201)
8/3/2017 5:43:23 PM
Hello fellow collar spacers... I finally have time to write today. I have been asked what my kinks are... well my kinks have always been directed by my Master ( when I have been with one). His desires and pleasures became mine .  My biggest kink was pleasing him.. I do have things that turn me on and arouse me... indeed I do.   My biggest thrill is seeing my master pleased and happy.  A smile from him or a quick slap on the ass,  is all a slave can hope for... keeping him pleased sexually, his domicile is tidy, serving him as he requires... 
keep those collars adjusted, heads down and asses up!!!
Lisa
8/1/2017 2:41:28 PM
Hello all, How are my fellow submissives/slaves?? Hope all is with everyone..being a slave is a remarkable dynamic to be in.. the trust that is needed between you and the Domaninant/Master is very important and special. I look for that trust in that person to keep me safe and fulfilled. There is such a turn on when the right Master grabs the back of your hair and can evoke that fucking control and pleasure at the same time. I had a taste of that special treat and would love to taste that once again and often...I'm getting so aroused and have that feeling of chemicals that fill your brain and eventually your heart. That is when the real training can take place for a Master to mold his slave..whispering ever so powerful in your ear..." I will make you into what I desire" and tugs a bit harder on your hair... that is so hot! Keep your collars tight and your knees comfortable!!!!!! Lisa
7/29/2017 10:40:13 AM
Hello everyone,
hope all is well in the BDSM world.... I have been asked a lot why I'm not collared and owned yet,  well I'm waiting on the Master for me... the one true one that can unleash all the submissive potential in this slave... he can harness the potential in my mind which will arouse  my body for his pleasure.  Serving him will be like second nature... we will work as   One unit... I will learn his wants and desires and make myself ready at all times.. the total power exchange will be seamlless and flawless ..
I will wear his collar proudly and bow to his feet for complete submission.
Keep your collars adjusted, shoulders down and asses up!!!
Lisa
7/26/2017 11:29:40 PM
Good evening collarspacerd:  
as I wait for my master to come along, it is such a long journey... I have read many profiles, had such good conversations with people along the way... I will wait patiently for him, prepare my self for him, get in the mindset of him, waiting to serve him ... Time is the golden key to unlock the treasures of this slave ....
keep your collars adjusted and bow to Him!!!
Lisa
7/23/2017 1:29:06 PM
Hello collarspacers, I have not journaled in a while. I have lots to think about over the past week...among my thoughts have been the desire to serve a Master. Have him direct my day and control all that I do.. I need him to be physically in my presence, to smelll and taste his essence. Experience him through all my senses. What a pleasure for all my senses. Body, mind, and spirit... I would wear his collar everyday and would be honored to be His... completely His... Keep you collars adjusted... mouths open for all he has to offer. Wink wink ... Lisa
7/15/2017 3:52:43 PM
Hello collarspaceres, Hope all is well. I want to put this out there. Just because I choose and others choose a dating site for meeting people, posting thoughts, or general use of the site , does not make us desperate single people... It's far from the truth. Being in this lifestyle has its own sets of challenges with people's perceptions of this being a lifestyle one would choiose. Please don't judge us on our own site. Vanilla friends and family don't understand and you can't openly discuss it with them because you are judged. I know from experience with my own mother. I want and need a stable, strong and caring Master. One who will mold me in his perfect creation. Made just fort his own precise and individual needs. That Master will literally and figuratively have the world at his feet.. Serving and caring for him while enjoying herself In the process... Keep those collars adjusted and your leahes tight....Master I'm here!!! Greymatter1201. (Aka Lisa)
7/13/2017 6:10:02 PM
Hi collarspacers. 
Hope everyone is doing well.  Timing and time.  Very simple words... very complicated concept... you will never have enough and you can never buy more... investing  time in your slave is more valuable than anything.. you gave of yourself, to her,  the most valuable gift, the gift of time. when you meet that special Master, either the timing is perfect or so off it devistates you... I will bow down  humbly to my Master each TIME  I'm allowed to be in his presence...
keep your collars adjusted....and ready yourself for your Master

Lisa. (aka greymatter 1201)
7/11/2017 10:09:27 AM
Hello all. I did not get a chance to journal yesterday. It was very hectic at work and my mind was very exhausted.. When you don't have that person that to keep you grounded with his control...you can't keep focus... I need that in my life.. I need a good spanking and punishment... Running rouge with scissors.... is how I feel right now... I need to feel a collar around my neck.... Lisa
7/9/2017 4:27:25 PM
Happy Sunday collar spacers, I enjoy writing my thoughts down and communicating my perspective on my life in the BDSM community. It has been relatively short compared to most, but I have learned a lot about myself, my desire to be a submissive/ slave, the need to serve and the excitement of the kink. There are things I need to work on, my response to communication or lack of. I am honest, I come to each encounter with an open mind and a pure heart. I love how I feel having a dominant to control me and all that entails... I so miss that feeling now and feel a tad out of control. Kinda of hard to explain when you don't have some to control you and have you fully submit and it makes you feel a loss of control.... my master is out there..... I know he is.... when I see him.. I will kneel in his presence... Keep your collars adjusted... bow with dignity and respect to the Master!!!! Lisa
7/8/2017 11:30:46 AM
Good morning. Happy Saturday everyone , I have been processing a lot over the past few weeks or so. I know that being a slave is a hard wired instinct that needs to be nurtured and developed all the time. It's like a garden. It's there, even if you are with out a gardener, things still grow. Not always refined and pretty. But it grows. I'm a slave with out my Master Gardener, the desire to serve is always there. It needs direction and control to make it all beautiful and enjoyable. The desire to please, serve, and to be used is what I live for. It's a long journey fellow submissives. Keep your collars adjusted and bow to him sincerely... Lisa
7/7/2017 10:15:28 AM
Hello collarspacers, Dating sites such as these for Master/slave relationships.. you expect some amount of honesty. This type of relationship is already edgey due to the dynamics we live under. I know full disclosure takes a long time to get too. Starting out in that direction gets you there easier. it's starts that intimate dialogue you need to have to able to submit completely to your Master. Trust is needed, you are giving yourself over. You can't hide stuff about you. You are naked literally and figuratively in front of your Master on your knees, head bowed as he looks you over... his property, his slave. You can't hide anything physically, you might be able to in your thoughts, but that can only be temporary...eventually he sees that too.... the things he will figure out about you and ask you to do. You have to be honest. Both physically and emotionally.... Keep your collars tight and your ass in the air! Greymatter
7/6/2017 4:48:32 PM
Good afternoon fellow collarspacers, Today is supposed to be a happy day....it's my birthday. Another day I'm here to enjoy what life has to offer...I have no complaints and understand everything happens for a reason...people pass through your life for a season....sometimes to teach you things and sometimes to make this time on this earth more enjoyable... every encounter I have with someone I learn about myself...could I have handled things differently, could I have been a bit kinder, maybe not shared as much....NOT...I'm an open book.. I don't know any other way to be... l love hard, I cry hard, I forgive easily and would want that from others....I can be on my knees serving my Master and will do it with complete enthusiasm and enjoyment. There is nothing half assed in this world or in my obedience and servitude..... If you would like to chat about topics or have questions about my journal entries or basic mental questions, Please feel free to ask. Skype: moocows1@cox.net ( username)  , not email . Just tell me your screen name so I know who I'm chatting with... Keep you collars adjusted and your knees comfortable. Lisa
7/5/2017 8:35:49 AM
Good morning my fellow collar spacers.
I get asked a lot if I'm a good slave or a good submissive, my response has been this:  with the right Master..he can tap into my potential as a slave...I know I can fully submit at all times. But my real potential comes when my Master can stimulate my mind as well as my body and soul... this is where the time concept comes into play...time invested up front to lay the groundwork for a content happy slave..
Serving a Master and you are happy and content, think how that would show up.  Postive energy when sucking his cock... getting  into the zone where all you think about is the cock and making him happy.  Looking up at him while your mouth is full of hard cock waiting for his next instructions to please him.  Not just going through the motions because you have too or don't know any better... sitting at his feet, just enjoying those moment...  happy slave/happy Master....
Keep your collars adjusted....
Lisa (aka Greymatter)
7/4/2017 8:39:26 AM
Goood morning fellow collar spacers, I have been asked a lot about my journal entries and what my motive for writing them...I have been asked is it because I'm being tasked to do this, if I need to get thoughts down on paper, etc...my motive to write I because I'm without a Master...I need that dominant presence in my life...I need to serve and to have that control placed on my life to be complete. I know I'm not an easy slave to control. I have a couple of bad experiences with previous Masters and this has set some insecurities within myself and this comes to the surface and I react. I have some trust issues and need the direction and patience to get over the hurdle... That Master for me, needs to be a task Master that can be strong, consistent, and does not give me any room to wiggle out of situations... The reason I write is because if I struggle with this maybe there are others that do as well...I'm a licensed mental health therapist and behaviors are what I do. This lifestyle is not for everyone and you just can't talk to others like you would with vanilla relationships..I know this from experience, vanilla people judge, they think you have defects and are "crazy". So writing for me helps in a variety of ways...I get to serve my fellow BDSM folks, I get to put my thoughts on paper for my own processing and I love to write. Keep your collars adjusted! Your knees comfortable! Greymatter. Aka Lisa
7/3/2017 9:34:26 AM
Good morning,
Owning someone, taking ownership, collaring you etc.   That is something you dont take lightly. It's viewed in my opinion as permanent. It's a comitment that is taking very seriously.  Getting to know your potential Master is a must.  Getting to know your slave is a must.  It might work for one and not the other.....
To be a devoted slave to a Master.... would be amazing!!
Keep your collars adjusted...and the spankings hard!!
Greymatter1201.  Aka Lisa

7/2/2017 9:48:06 AM
Good morning all,
I have been journaling through the lens of being a slave/submissive recently.  I do understand that A Master has an extremely important role in a D/s relationship. They are responsible for the care and development of a slave.  That ownership can't be taken lightly.  I understand we give ourselves to them for complete control, in return we want to be valued in the eyes of our Master...even if we are valued as their property or possession.
Don't you value things that are important to you, even though they serve you.  In the times real servitude, Masters put a high value on a good slave/servant.  I believe what ever role you have in life, you should be valued. I value a Master and what he brings to the relationship, I value my role as a slave.
Keep your collars adjusted and your knees comfortable.
Greymatter. (Aka. Lisa)
6/30/2017 12:34:12 PM
Let's see. I'm curious what the real dominants/ Masters are really thinking about the slaves they have or currently want to have as their own someday in the future. I have been told a variety of things as journey through this lifestyle. I have been told your actions are an indicator of what you feel or communicate. Actions not words. What about the actions of the Master. Their actions do indicate their true feelings and words. We might be slaves, submissives, pieces of property, bitches etc.....we, at least I watch the actions of Masters and can pick up in their true intent. Even if they are in control, there are times being with and enjoying your slave is kinda the point of the dynamic.... Keep your collars adjusted and enjoy !!!!
6/28/2017 5:28:20 PM
Hello collarpacers....hope is well in the BDSM world....
Patience as a slave/submissive can be very hard sometime, you are  at the request of your Master.. not the other way around.  They desire time with us, we serve them during that time.   What is hard , we desire them and want to be in their presence and it's up to Master to allow us that priviledge. That need can be hard to supress at times and we react.  I have done that and have been punished for not being patient and just waiting.
It's like being very hungry, wanting to eat, but having to wait to be fed. Your state of hunger overrides your ability to wait and you just ask to be fed ... when Master decides when and how!!!
Have a great day...
6/27/2017 8:30:17 AM
Good morning collar spacers, Communication is so instrumental in the training and learning for a slave/submissive. Not just in taking direction for what the Master is wanting or desiring, but to determine where they are In their head. Being submissive does not make you mindless or without thoughts...you must be strong in mind and spirit to take direction from your Master. Would you want a slave that only goes through the motions, just doing it because that is what they are being told...or would you prefer a slave to do what they are told because they are devoted to their Master and understand the dynamics of the D/s relationship. I am the slave that understands the dynamics of the relationship and follows the directions of a master because I'm motivated to please.
6/26/2017 8:09:17 AM
Good morning everyone. Being a slave and wanting to serve is something you are hard wired internally. I did not realize it until I was faced with my first Master/ pet relationship. For a person that has to make decisions and control many aspects of my life, others lives and in my professional life it's a sense of control to have to submit to the needs and whims of a Master. It brings a sense of calm and balance that goes to the core of your soul. It keeps you grounded. You serve because it's what you do and how you function. It's your normal.
6/25/2017 10:30:31 AM
I patiently wait for him. I know he will come for me soon. He will claim his property and mark his slave once again. He will collar me and I will be his forever.... serve him, love him and submit to him Poe.
6/25/2017 8:13:14 AM
So here is my entry for today. I could not sleep and so the thought of nurture and nuturing came to my greymatter--- Nurture could be a noun or a verb. To care for and encourage growth and development of someone or the process of caring and encouragement of someone.... Masters nurture thier slaves and submissives with each encounter with them. Slaves develop throughout this process. It takes a lot of time upfront, but the rewards are bountiful in the end. Slaves nurture their masters by gaining the confidence to be completely submissive... yes that takes confidence in ones self to give completely to your Master. Confidence to know your place, confidence in meeting all his needs and confidence in your contentment that you have served him and met his heeds...
6/24/2017 7:06:31 PM
I love who I love. Can you serve and love who you submit to. You have to be able to submit completely which includes you inner most feelings and thoughts. They are all his., the master or the dominant......
6/24/2017 5:07:43 PM
Times in life you must wait for that perfect person to enter your life or renter your life. Open honest communication is what's neeeed to build that solid foundation. You can't build a foundation on sand. You need time at the potters wheel to mold your slave to image you need her to be. His hands mold her. His hands control her. His hands discipline her. His hands pleasure her. His hands touches her body and her heart
6/24/2017 11:55:38 AM
I'm going to use this time I'm with out my master to journal thoughts and stuff. Feel free to add or ask and strike up a conversation
6/24/2017 10:42:04 AM
A master/slave relationship is a deep and special bond. She gives all and gets what her master deems that she has earned. Time in the beginning stages is so needed to develop the bond and cultivate that trust so when they are apart she can look on their past time together for comfort and security until she is at his feet serving him once again.
MissNurplerSmirk
 
 Age: 21
  Missouri