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*****Update for a New Year 2012:
I've been officially tagged as CodeJockey's fuck toy.
955-326-818.slaveregister.com I am definitely in love and very very happy!

At the eleventh hour, when I was ready to delete this profile, give up on men and enter the convent (even though I'm not Catholic!), he appeared. The connection was instant, the bond growing stronger every day. I can be myself with him and he gets me in ways no other man ever has. Unlike so many men I've talked with through this and other sites, he actually wants a relationship. He is poly, yet he has more time for me than the men who claim they want monogamy.

Thank you for helping me believe again in love and relationships, CJ![end of update]*****


I am a straight (no interest in women at all) sexually submissive woman in search of a straight alpha male type.

I won't submit to you immediately. Instead, let's try something radical. Let's get to know each other and exchange names before we discuss the size of your dick. Let's date for a while and get to like each other before we fuck. How's that for kinky? *laughs*


“You cannot drive a car (me) until you first get a license. And you must first prove you can pass the exam before you get behind the wheel of said car.” (paraphrased from a dom friend)

I don't drink or smoke. I would prefer you didn't either. I don't have kids and I don't plan on having any.

I am no masochist, but I can appreciate some creative pain in a sensual capacity. I have enjoyed mild applications of spanking, flogging, caning, and belting. But to truly tap into my submissive vein, you need to tap into my mind and heart. That comes with time, trust and patience. Do you possess such patience? I am not on any agenda. I hope you are not either.

I am looking for love. (Please note, I did not say I am looking for marriage.) I know some men think LOVE is a four letter word, but I firmly believe that love is what makes this BDSM bond amazing. I think I have a lot of love to offer to the right man. I don't want to merely submit. I want to give my all to my best friend and lover.

No psycho assholes, please. I'm so tired of being blamed for having a backbone and standing up for what I believe is right.

I am looking for that rare man who "gets me" and whom I get in return. Is he out there?

If I seem a bit walled in, please try to understand, I have been hurt and the walls are there for my protection. I may be a cynic, but the desire to believe in "happily ever after" on some level still resides in my heart. Show me I can trust you and I will lower my defenses. You may find a sparkling jewel inside.

We all have baggage. It's how we deal with that baggage that shows what kind of men and women we are.

“Most cynics are really crushed romantics: they’ve been hurt, they’re sensitive, and their cynicism is a shell that’s protecting this tiny, dear part in them that’s still alive.” —Jeff Bridges

9/3/2012 5:02:09 PM

Thomas Kemp wrote, "Love feels no burden, thinks nothing of its trouble, attempts what is above its strength, pleads no excuse for impossibility, for it thinks all things are lawful for itself, and all things are possible."

1/24/2012 7:16:55 AM

"Life is a pile of good things and bad things. The good things don't always make the bad things go away but the bad things don't make the good things any less good."
-- Doctor Who

1/24/2012 5:57:15 AM

"While monogamy may forbid having more than one partner in your life, that does not mean that by embracing polyamory you are forced to have multiple partners; it is perfectly possible to be in a phase either of multiple relationships, of a single monogamous one, or perhaps none at all, dependent on desire, which is not linear or fixed in time, but cyclical and constantly changing."

"Polyamory, as it is referred to throughout this book, should be understood to encompass many aspects of freedom, as we will see, and not just those of a sexual and romantic nature, as can sometimes be the case in some polyamorous communities. To embrace this way of life, a complete reprogramming of the "romantic central nervous system," as it were, is necessary. If confronted with the concept without warning or adequate reflection as to its implications, many couples could be destroyed by the lifestyle–not because it is a harmful concept in and of itself, but because for them it would be artificial. A possessive man using polyamory as an opportunity to commit adultery would be artificial. A life of harmony cannot exist without intellectual coherence."

-- excerpt from The Art and Etiquette of Polyamory: A Hands-on Guide to Open Sexual Relationships

1/2/2012 1:33:46 PM

So, after an appropriate warm up, CJ gave me 20 smacks and 12 lashes of the belt to ring in 2012. Get it? Ha!

I was curious to feel how he wields a belt. He was definitely holding back, but I still felt welted. I wasn't.

I'm beginning to understand how one can love and dislike something at the same time. It was harsh to experience, but I loved it in retrospect. And not a mark on my bottom! I will definitely ask for more belting in the future!

Thank you, CJ! Happy New Year! 2012 will definitely be a wild ride!

10/15/2011 11:41:08 AM

nipple clamps on all BBW haters! *maniacal laughter*

9/29/2011 5:16:31 PM
I have found someone and am enjoying the getting to know bliss and NRE that goes with it.
9/25/2011 6:54:15 AM
I am in bliss!
9/21/2011 4:04:37 AM

Why do people insist on sitting in the exact center of a bench and then spreeeeeeaaaaad their gear out as much as possible? I view this as a silent claim of territory. They can't claim the world, so they'll at least claim the bench? *laughs*

When I sit on an empty bench, I take a corner and don't put my bag on the seat with me. Then other people can have a seat!

A lesson in (un)common courtesy.

9/19/2011 10:42:09 AM
I met someone...and he's wonderful!
9/5/2011 1:08:43 PM

Star Wars Inconsistencies

I was just watching Star Wars Ep 1,2,3. Have you noticed the time line doesn't quite mesh with Ep 4,5,6?

Luke's uncle Owen and aunt Beru looked to be in their 20s when Obi-Wan gave the baby Luke to them to care for. Luke is about 20 in Ep 4 so that would make his uncle and aunt in the 40s but they look much older, like much more time had passed.

By that time line, it had only been 20 years since Darth Vader and Sidious had killed off all the Jedi. Yet many characters talked of "hokey religions" and "old superstitions" when referring to the Jedi and the ways of the Force. Don't you think it would take more than 20 years for something to fall into myth and legend?

And someone mentioned early in Ep 4 that the Emperor (Darth Sidious, ex Chancellor Palpatine) had dissolved the last of the Republic House of Senators. Why did it take 20 years for that to happen? Surely if he was able to wipe out the Jedi in a matter of hours, he could have dissolved the Senate just as swiftly.

Another inconsistency ... In Ep 6, Luke asks Leia what she remembers of her mother, as Luke has no memory of his. (He's fishing for details of his mother now knowing Leia is his sister.) Leia says she remembers her mother was kind but sad. How how could Leia remember her mother (Padme) when she was just a baby when Senator Organa took her to his wife to raise as their child? To that end, where is Senator Organa and his wife if Leia isn't referring to them as her parents?

And another thing... How did Senator Organa get to be King? Seeing as Leia is a princess...

Too many questions! Too much time to ponder such things! *laughs*

9/4/2011 7:47:00 AM

Seems the CM gods don't like me today. They wiped out my entire profile.

Nothing like a clean slate.