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| Women Rule! Mistress Carlie Rules and I obey! i am a male masochistic slave, married who needs female domination/ embraces female supremacy.
i am creative, artistic, experienced sub/slave who is intense, likes to please, and is intelligent.
i am NOT looking to replace my marriage,and NOW i am OWNED by Mistress CarlieKiss as her slave. i live in N California, about 160 miles north of Sacramento.
I have many interests, have lived in many places, and work professionally as a geographer/artist.
i would like to meet dominant women/ female supremacists in the Redding area. Also would like to meet more D/s oriented people in the area.
i am interested in paganism, female and earth based religions, life issues especially related to matriarchy, etc
i am a heavy masochist, like to serve dominant females. i like everything BDSM.
WOMEN RULE and males OBEY!
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June 29, 2004
Why is it i think about D/s all the time. Maybe not good, but that is the truth. My life it seems has been controlled a lot about my desires to serve and be enslaved by female dominants. So long it seems but i don't know how else to be. I am one of so many male slaves that lives a dual life. Not apologizing, not whining, just stating a fact.
If i could, if i could, if i could... So many times i have thought that. i am happy in my vanilla relationship, yet that other person inside me seeks that domination female supremacist female to remind me of that other self that is as real as the vanilla self. I know so many dommes have heard this so i don't try to pretend or try to hide things. i know a lot of males lie about their needs to their lives, to their play partners, to their Mistresses. i have spent years trying to balance the D/s in me with the vanilla. Do i have all the answers? No. Do i have advice? Tell the truth and try to work out something that works for you and HER and HER.
Does this make it easier. A little, but not much. But then i have chosen to walk this tightrope. If there is another life after this, i pray to the Goddess that i will not try to be who i am not. i will accept my submission and my servitude and be true to my inner self.
And of course, i don't get many hits by female dominants. Maybe that is okay. i don't know.
This journal is just to talk about things so i am just talking.
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June 22, 2004
Just joined collarme.com last week. It seems interesting so far, a bit easier to use than alt2.com (i think). i usually don't spend a lot of time in chat rooms, either because i don't have the time or get lost in the multiplicity of voices that i don't really know.
It is better of course, when you meet the face behind the voice and i love wondering if the person you think you know in a chat room will be anything like the real person.
Not sure the purpose of the journal yet. Especially if no one reads it. And i surely don't want it to be just an expanded version of my profile. So i guess i wil discover what the function of this journal will be over time.
i live in the sticks it seems. In northern California, 160 miles from any large, civilized city of any sort. There are lots of cowboys here and other types, especially conservative Christians. This is a statement of fact, not a judgement, though for a progressive, liberal, pagan oriented submissive, masochistic male, i might have trouble meeting my type. Won't find them in the local bars or the annual rodeo, that is for sure.
i don't actually frequent the bars since i am married and probably have outgrown my need to congregate and get sloshed. In fact, i am pretty much a tea and non-carbohydrate strawberry-banana-orange beverage drinker.
thank you Dr. Atkins.
Check out my profile if anyone is interested knowing more about me. And feel free to email me, especially dominant and female supremacist type women.. Or anyone in fact since it would be nice to talk once inawhile.
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| Age: 21 |
| San fernando city,
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