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	About fireinthehole At this time I am wanting friends more.If it leads some where else thats fine. I am easy going and down to earth. I am not all sub..... I am a switch. 14 years in this lifestyle. Over 13 as a Domme. Have not had a Dom to call my own.

Having a really bad day. Can't go into it all on here. But lets just say I am a bitch today. And don't care at all. On a side note. I don't do cam or the online type of crap. So don't waste my time asking. And if all you want is to fuck me then go else where.

Once again if you message me and all you want is to fuck me or any of that shit I will delete your message. Not wanting that right now. I am way more that my ass,hips,boobs,pussy or what ever else you could want. I have a mind try getting to know me

I have neen going through alot the last few months. My personal life is in the shiter. And doing my best to keep my own computer business going. Still a single mom. And still have a roommate. No men in my life but friends. Kinda sucks. But at least I have the few people who I let into my life that know how to make me feel better. On a side note if you had my number at one time. Not like I just stop talking. My phone was messed ip for a while.

It seems like bdsm is just not part of my life as it once was. Not so much that I don't want it just being a mom comes 1st.

I could just close my account but made some friends on here. I'm just not on the bdsm sites that much. I find myself spending mote time alone thinking. What it is I want outta life. And spending more time with my own family

You ever had a week or day. And just seemed like things that you use to do. How you use to think. Kinda come back. That's what is going on with me. I found myself getting caught up. I was doing like I had always done. And that's seeing if the grass was greener on the other side. To see if someone had a better deal than another. The thing is I had found what I was seeking. But I liked getting all the attention. Now I need to be happy with choice and let others down easy. I at this time am no longer looking for a Dom. I am only wanting friends

Its official summer is here. Today was 1st day of spring break for my kid. What did I plan. Lets go swimming. See me being a real red head can't be out too long. But sucked it up and delt with it. 2 hours in a pool in the sun. So now my whole upper body is burned.

I had a Dom buddy of mine send a slave my way about a week ago.

We have been just talking. well it's very clear from all he has told me that he is not ready to commit to a Domme.

He comes up with every reason why he can't talk on the phone and show his pics.

I told him that any Domme or Dom is gonna want you to show them pics and make time to talk on phone or even text.

With him I see it as he is not really a slave. But a sub. Cause he wants to call the shots.

I know ppl work and can't do things at there job but in your own free time you should be able to live your life how you want.

So tonight we were talking. I got him to show me a pic.

He asked me to delet it right away. I said no. I told him I was gonna hold on to it. I was trying to show him to trust that I would not do any thing bad with it. like post it online.

Once he found out it went to my cell phone he got scared.

I was not trying to scare him.But show him to trust others.And trust that the will not hurt you.

IDK he is not moving forward in this life style but is stuck due to his fears. And untill he lets them go. He will never move on.

Was talking to a friend I made on here. Who happens to be a Dom. He told me I was cranky due to lack of sex. Not just sex with others but that I needed to masterbate. So I did. It took the edge off.

Oh lover, don't you dare slow down
Go longer, you can last more rounds
Push harder, you're almost there now
So go lover, make momma proud

And when were done, I don't wanna feel my legs
And when were done, I just wanna feel your hands all over me baby
But you can't stop there, music still playin' in the background
And you're almost there
You can do it, I believe in you baby
So close from here

Baby I'ma be your motivation
Go, go, go, go, motivation
Go, go, go, go

Uh, girl I turn that thing into a rain-forest
Rain on my head, call that brainstorming
Yeah this is deep, oh, but I go deeper
Make you lose yourself, and finders keepers
It go green light, go Weezy go
I like to taste that sugar, that sweet and low
But hold up wait, new position
I put her on my plate then I do the dishes
She my motivation, I'm her transportation
Cause I let her ride, while I drive her crazy
Then I just keep going going, like I'm racing
When I'm done she hold me like a conversation Weezy baby

Oh lover, when you call my name
No other, can do that the same no
I won't let ya get up out the game no
So go lover, don't it make me rain

as a dominant female I want a slave or submissive they can take a good beating when he when deserves it be able to take me choking the life out of him one that is OK on his knees in servitude to me someone who knows where they stand with me one that is okay knowing there is a bitch but on the other hand well I'm a submissive I don't like any of that be a little nicer and gentle with me show me you care about me by texting me good morning and asking how my morning is or how my day is don't always just text me and talk about how you're thinking about me sexually

last night was the first night in quite a while that I actually had a sex dream most people don't know this about me but I have been celibate by choice that means no sex no masturbating no sucking dick no sucking pussy nothing in my sex dream got me to thinking last night am I willing to let someone have that celibacy am I willing to put myself back out there again in this morning I came up with my answer and yes I am but to the right person not just the first guy that says everything I want to hear

I just spent the last hour on the phone with brighthouse cussing screaming and ranting now all I need is someone to beat the fuck out of I'm just sick of having to deal with them like they don't fucking listen to you when I tell them that my shit's messed up come fix it

Buried way beneath the sheets
I think she's having a meltdown
Finding it hard to fall asleep
She won't let anyone help her

The look on her face, a waste of time
She won't let go, gonna roll the dice
Losing her grace, starts to cry
I feel her pain when I look in her

I wanna be
I want everything, I want everything

Somewhere she is on the streets
Trying to make things better
Praying to God and breathing deep
Gotta break this long obsession

The look on her face, a waste of time
She won't let go, gonna roll the dice
Losing her grace, starts to cry
I feel her pain when I look in her

I wanna be
I want everything, I want everything
I wanna be
I want everything, I want everything, yeah

If I had everything would I still want to be alive
Or wanna be high?
If I had everything would I still want to be alive
Or want to be high?

Now and then she talks to me
And sometimes writes me letters

The look on her face, a waste of time
She won't let go, gonna roll the dice
Losing her grace, starts to cry
I feel her pain when I look in her

I wanna be
I want everything, I want everything
You know I, I wanna be, yeah
I want everything, I wanted everything, everything

Your eyes, never close your eyes
And open up your mind oh and baby
You can have everything, everything
Your eyes, never close your eyes
And open up your mind, oh and baby
You can have everything

is it wrong for me to have a say in what happens to me I don't think so I have a say in what someone does to me or says to me or tells me to do I'm the kind of person to where if you want me to do something that's a little out of my comfort zone then you need to talk to me about it first and then little by little I'll get my feet wet and try it out don't think just because I'm a submissive then I'm going to jump on you and pretty much do whatever the hell you tell me too because I ain't that much of a submissive you have to realize that I have been dominant for a very long time and I have a brain and I will speak my mind at any moment I choose at this point I will say whatever to whoever I want with no repercussions and there ain't shit you can do about it

Adrenalize me

Come a little bit closer, before we begin
Lemme tell you how I want it
And exactly what I need
I'm here for one drug
I'm only here for one thing
So come on and tell me
Can you fly like you're free
Cause I need to feel
Yeah, I need to say

I must confess
I'm addicted to this
Shove your kiss straight through my chest
I can't deny, I'd die without this
Make me feel like a god
Music, love and sex
(Adrenalize me)

I crave excess
Turning wine into sweat dripping down my neck
I can't deny, I'd die without this
Make me feel like a god
Adrenaline and sex

Get a little bit higher
So we can fall 'til we bleed
Push a little bit harder
Pull me into the speed
So tell me, can you feel this
Come into my dream
Are you ready to awaken?
Are you ready to feed?
'Cause I need to feel
Yeah, I need to say

I must confess
I'm addicted to this
Shove your kiss straight through my chest
I can't deny, I'd die without this
Make me feel like a god
Music, love and sex
(Adrenalize me)

I crave excess
Turning wine into sweat dripping down my neck
I can't deny, I'd die without this
Make me feel like a god
Adrenaline and sex

We have to live before we die
We were born to live before we die
Don't you wanna live before you die?
Let me see you live before you die
Right here, right now, adrenalize me
Right here, right now, adrenalize
Right here, right now, adrenalize me
Right here, right now,
I'm addicted to this

I must confess
I'm addicted to this
Shove your kiss straight through my chest
I can't deny, I'd die without this
Make me feel like a god
Music, love and sex
(Adrenalize me)

I crave excess
Turning wine into sweat dripping down my neck
I can't deny, I'd die without this
Make me feel like a god
Adrenaline and sex (Adrenalize me)

TO ALL THE ASS HOLES ON HERE No I will not play with you. Have sex with you. Suck your dick. Let you get me out. And no I will not pick you as a Dom only after a few messages. Stop bugging me for a real pic.I will show you when I am ready. And just so you know. I can and will talk to you how ever I like. I AM UNOWNED AND NO ONE CONTROLS ME

pleas e understand this when I get new messages I always read your profile because it helps me to answer your message that doesn't always mean you're going to like my message but I at least give everyone the courtesy of messaging them back even if its just say no thank you not interested or whatever at this time I still have yet to pick a dominant and you have to understand I don't have to do a damn thing you say because I am NOT Owned by you or nobody so at this point I own myself

I'm the girl you've been thinking about
The one thing you can't live without
I'm the girl you've been waiting for
I'll have you down on your knees
I'll have you begging for more
You probably thought I wouldn't get this far
You thought I'd end up in the back of a car
You probably thought that I'd never escape
I'd be a rat in a cage, I'd be a slave to this place
You don't know how hard I fought to survive
Waking up alone when I was left to die
You don't know about this life I've led
All these roads I've walked
All these tears I've bled

So how can this be?
You're praying to me
As I look in your eyes
I know just what that means
I can be, I can be your everything

I can be your whore
I am the dirt you created
I am your sinner
And your whore
But let me tell you something baby
You love me for everything you hate me for

I'm the one that you need and fear
Now that you're hooked, it's all becoming clear
That all your judgments that you placed on me
Was a reflection of discovery
So maybe next time when you cast your stones
From the shadows of the dark unknown
You will crawl up from your hiding place
Take a look in the mirror
See the truth in your face

So how can this be?
You're praying to me
As I look in your eyes
I know just what that means
I can be, I can be your everything

I can be your whore
I am the dirt you created
I am your sinner
And your whore
But let me tell you something baby
You love me for everything you hate me for

I am the dirt you created
I am your sinner
And your whore
But let me tell you something baby
You love me, you want me, you need me

Well I can be your whore
I am the dirt you created
I am the sinner
And your whore
But let me tell you something baby
You love me for everything you hate me for

(And I can be your whore)
(And I can be your whore)
(And I can be your whore)
Let me tell you something baby
You love me for everything you hate me for
You love me for everything you hate me for

fabrication

nobody remembers your name...
nobody remembers your face...

they want the new flesh
designed for pain without pleasure
re purposing the test
there's no room for fear or failure

imprint your mind with lies
all you know will be erased
you'll endure this fabrication
somebody took your place

took your eyes
took your soul
took your thoughts
took your dreams
took your heart
took your bones
took everything

put you in a box
drove you away in a limousine
traded your life for a page in a magazine

and this is how they put you together
they lie about your future
sell you to the highest bidder

your thoughts
erased
your mind is just an empty place
your god
erased
your soul is just an empty space

they keep you sedated
you're floating like a feather
dress you like a doll
wrap you in shiny leather

kept you under lock and key
there's no way to escape
there's no point of no return
guess you'll just - fade away

Sexual Hallucination

Red lips, a sinister tongue
(I'll taste you until I can't)
Our trip has just begun
(I'll fly with you til the end)
Psychotic voice
(You are in my veins now)
And there's no denying
(There's no denying)
As we both burst into flames

(You'll come down)
There's no coming down
(Higher ground)
Floating over ground
(Out of body)
Out of body
Inner mind
(I'm your slave)
This is what I crave
I'm lost, I'm saved
It's my obsession, possession began
(Physical, psychical, illumination)
Intoxication, fascination
(Mystical, sexual hallucination)
Sexual (hallucination)
Sexual (hallucination)

You watch me come undone
(It makes me want you more)
I'm crawling into the unknown
(I'll follow you to the core)
I feel like I'm dying
(I'm right beside you)
You whisper, "we're flying"
(There's no denying)
We both converge as one

(Don't come down)
There's no coming down
(Higher ground)
We're floating over ground
(Out of body)
Out of body
Inner mind
(I'm your slave)
This is what I crave
I'm lost, I'm saved
It's my obsession, possession began
(Physical, psychical, illumination)
Intoxication, fascination
(Mystical, sexual hallucination)
Sexual (hallucination)
Sexual (hallucination)

(I can barely breathe)
I can barely breathe
(I can barely move)
I can barely move
(I can barely) separate (me from) you
This is what I crave
To be your slave

Red lips, sinister tongue

It's my obsession, possession began
(Physical, psychical, illumination)
Intoxication, fascination
(Mystical, sexual, hallucination)
Sexual (hallucination)
Sexual (hallucination)

Is it a bad thing that I want more. I'm seeking some thing I am missing.And still can't seem to find it.Up till now I had some tricks I would do to appease myself.
But they are no longer working for me.And I think that's because I am
evolving as a switch. I have always been a people pleaser.Now I want others to please me.
I am sick of being the nice woman all the damn time. I am ready to take the word door mat off my self and burn it. I have this need to be liked. And that shit sucks to me. I know where it stems from and I am working on it.
I am wide open now days. Learning more about my self. And with in all that. I
can see what I need to fix and let go of it.. Some is easy some is hard as fuck for me. I tend to think of my self as a hard person. I mean one who is untouched by the world around me. But that's soooo not true. I feel every thing. I have been hiding far tooo damn much. Now that I am letting others see me for me. I am finding that I tend to attract at times the kind of people I do not care for. I just want to see how others see me.And I still do not. That hurts me.

I will not show yall pics of me untill you get to know a bit before. Cause I don't want my pics to be the reason you even wanna talk to me. If you don't like that then "oh well your loss"

I am not new to BDSM. I am only new to the sub side of myself.

I want and need a Dom/Master who can understand that.And go slow with me.Teach me and work with my limits as they come up.

I am not sure what they are just yet.But I know it has to be easy at 1st with me untill I am use to this side of myself

FYI I am a bbw. With red hair. AND A MOTHER

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