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Due to the owner of this site being an asshole with no regard for contracts or human decency I will no longer be coming here or checking this profile. If you would like to contact me, please do so on FL: felaciaOfX


I am a Big Beautiful Girl, and am becoming okay with that thought. I am overweight and starting to get okay with that fact, though it doesn’t mean I don’t want to change it, or don’t want to improve my body; nor does it mean I find myself attractive. I understand that others do find me attractive and am beginning to accept the fact if they love me for me, even love my body, I should too. I still have major self-image issues, but over the last 3 years of being with my Master, I have begun to improve and be okay with my body and myself, while changing for the positive. Doesn’t mean I have gotten far, but I’ve at least started moving in the right direction.
I am bisexual, currently about 50/50 in my tastes, though I find myself beginning to lean more and more to females. That may simply be because I already have one Man whom I love dearly and want someone for both of us.
I am polyamorous, but do get jealous at times. I have gotten better about this by working on me and understanding exactly why I get jealous about something. Most often it is not wanting to feel left out, but I also don’t ever want another to feel left out for I know how much I hate that feeling. I have learned that I can feel absolutely no jealously, but I am thinking it is from a high level of trust in all parties, as well as caring deeply for all parties and it is knowing that another person isn’t trying to come in between Master and myself, with malicious intent. This has happened multiple times in the past, and only recently have I found that there are people who desire us and who don’t want to break us up. This is a wonderful feeling and seemed to, at the time, alleviate every ounce of jealousy this girl might normally feel.
I identify as a little/babygirl and as a slave. The little me is quite young, which I understand can make some people uncomfortable. I do not have the behaviors outright all the time, but there are things I do that are child-like. It has taken me a long time to accept the little me in all her ways, but the more I accept that side of me, the more I can grow. I do age regress both sexually and non-sexually. I am a consenting adult, as are all of my partners. I would have it no other way. The slave side of me is pretty straight forward, but also being discovered. For years I had fought against her, and even when I had tried exploring her in the past I didn’t delve far enough and didn’t have the aid in doing so. I do now. My Master helps me to learn about all of me, and in doing so, has made me a better person.
Though going undiagnosed properly (I haven’t seen a psychiatrist and don’t really want to), I do have anxiety and depression. Both of which I have dealt with for as long as I can remember. I have gotten somewhat better, but there are times when small things set me off. I know part of the issue is the fact that I am an empath, and I do tend to hold onto emotions (which are merely different energies) for longer than I should (my Master says that I hold onto the most negative ones, even those that aren’t my own, the longest). It causes not only psychological ailments but physical ones too. My chakras are all sorts of out of whack, and it messes up the rest of me. I would love to find someone who works with such things to help me with them. I don’t feel confident I can do it properly on my own, and have always wished I could find someone who could do such things and lived close enough to me that we could meet up regularly to do it. This isn’t exactly a “what I am seeking” but it would be nice to find.
I have been in the BDSM “community” for a short part of my life. I have been curious about the Master/submissive (secretly slave) dynamic since before I knew there was a whole community out there. The internet became a useful tool for me in learning about it, but I didn’t have much luck and didn’t discover until many years after CM, which is horrible, but also where I was lucky enough to meet my Master (in the chat rooms.) Master actually introduced me to , but until I was with Him, I didn’t use it much. I was too apprehensive to go exploring on my own, fearful that I would mess up somewhere along the way. And so I focused on the vanilla relationship I was in with a man who had claimed to be Dominant before we got together, but failed miserably after we were together and just waited to see how long it lasted before we finally split up. Not long after we did, I rekindled friendship with Master and we ended up together. I have been ‘collared’ to Him since January 27, 2011 and officially collared, with a real slave training collar (which is simply stainless steel chain link wrapped around my neck and has since expanded to include a pendant) since December 27, 2011. So since about then I have been expanding my community and knowledge and seek to grow further.

The “What I Am Seeking” Part:

I am ready to date. I am ready to start actively seeking another female to be with Master and myself. To do this, Master and I must date females together to find possible relationships, and even possible play partners. He is straight, but isn’t opposed to being around other males. (Which means couples aren’t out of the question in dating.) Nor is He opposed to me dating Men. He would approve them though and would have to meet them and feel comfortable with them. At this time, however, I am personally more interested in dating a woman than a man.
I’m not all that picky about what a girl looks like. Personality tends to win, or can make a pretty girl ugly and an average girl beautiful. I do enjoy curves, but can’t fault a girl for being skinny. I personally love boobs, Master loves asses more. I have huge breasts (J cup) but still, love playing with boobs so much. I do have to find the girl attractive on some level though, as does Master, otherwise it just wouldn’t work. Just like the girl would have to find Master and myself attractive. Everyone should be happy!
I would love a sub/slave sister. Ideally, I would love a triangle with Master, another submissive/slave girl and myself. From there then grow and stem out, but I feel a nice strong core would make for a stronger House overall. I know we will have to be patient to find the right girl, which is why we need to date and see where things go.
I would love to find a Mommy, but Mommy doesn’t have to necessarily be the same person as my sister. I’d even offer that a Mommy doesn’t necessarily have to even be involved with my Master, who is my Daddy. It wouldn’t be bad if there was involvement though. It just depends on the person, and depends on how things develop. I just would like a Mommy, and the logistics would be worked out based on the relationship and the person and the dynamic. As is with all things I am seeking.
Friends, friends, friends. Actually, I don’t need a ton of friends, but I do need more friends than what I have. I need to be able to hang out with my friends and do things with them. I’d like to talk with them online, or on the phone or through texts. I’d like to go to each other’s homes, hang out somewhere for a meal, enjoy each other’s company. I don’t mind having a small group of friends, but it would be nice to have more near me. I don’t have many friends in St Louis, let alone in the BDSM community, whom I see or talk to on a regular basis. Hopefully I will be getting my license soon, which will allow me transportation to be able to go see a friend, but first, I have to make friends to go see.
So I am seeking a girlfriend/lover/sister/Mommy/etc. Can all be the same person, doesn’t all have to be the same person. So, in this quest, what is it I am actually looking for in a person?
First of all, intelligence is a must. I am not a genius or anything (Master is) but intelligence is a turn on for me. I enjoy talking and debating, though sometimes I do get heated about things; Master has helped me cool the fires a lot though. I actually prefer people more intelligent than myself, but am not mad or anything if they aren’t. I love when people are more knowledgeable than I am about certain things and I am more knowledgeable about other things because this allows us to learn from one another. I love learning. I would hope the girl I find would too.
Does her height matter? Nope. I’m 5’2” and love girls both shorter and taller than myself.
Does weight matter? No, and yes. No in the sense that I don’t mind if a girl is skinny or fat, but find curves to be most appealing. Yes in the sense that I personally don’t find a girl who is 500lbs to be attractive. I don’t, however, dislike many girls who have a similar body shape to myself. I am about 250-260 pounds (about 40 of that is boobs, I swear) and do have a big fat belly. I don’t mind a belly on a girl…as long as she doesn’t mind me playing with it and stroking her all over and exploring every little crevice of her body as I kiss her, lick her, caress her and wash her.
What about her race? Nopers. Master is black. I am white. I enjoy people of all ethnicities. Race matters less than anything else.
Personality and intelligence are key. Are you a good person who wants to explore and grow? Do you enjoy having long conversations about everything? Then most likely, I will want to talk with you and see where something may go.

I’m finally ready for more in my life. Would you like to be part of that? Send me a message. You can even find me on DalNet in my ‘no judgment channel’ #Shameless. I look forward to meeting you.



About the House, written by Master:
The House of X is MasterOfX's home, the home of His girls and their family and friends. It is a Polyamorous closed intimacy circle which is sexually monogamous onto itself. It is also a bdsm organization and a school for the study of advanced sensual arts. It is not a harem, as the definition of harem is multiple women belonging to or in service to a sole man; The House allows for the presence of other men in the organization. The House is Gorean friendly but operates outside of its constructs. The House is very protective of its own. If you have questions regarding the House or its members, please direct them to MasterOfX

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11/4/2011 1:59:21 PM

Something I find amusing. People who seek others to literally, outright abuse. Now why would any girl willingly enter such a relationship? I honestly don't think any would, unless they are not right in the head. But a man who is seeking to ABUSE a girl is NOT a Dom. He can hardly be seen as a man at all if he needs to abuse a girl to feel good about himself. 

 

I am into TPE. I am even into being beaten around when I am a super bad girl, or even for fun. But I am not into being ABUSED. I also know my Master would never abuse me.

 

Some people are truly so stupid and need some harm to them for wanting to do harm (and probably doing harm) to others. Evil bastards.


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 Age: 31
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