fastacting

Had another date today that is forcing me along on my path to misandry lol

I really just will never understand men. They say they want more than just sex but when you're alone with them, they just want sex. And it's worse with guys who know I'm submissive. First date and you think I'm going to go back to your place and let you tie me up?! Really? Do I look insane or something?

It made me sad at first. I mean, I wasn't feeling loads of chemistry anyway, it's not that I'm sad things didn't work out with him. It's more sadness that no one seems to see value in me past my body. I guess it could suck worse, I could be having trouble getting laid too lol but no, I can get that easy. It's the deeper connections that I seem to be unable to foster.

Men wonder why women are jaded, do they not understand it's behavior like this that makes women jaded? The guys who will hang on for a couple weeks, seeming all wonderful then disappearing after you finally feel comfortable enough to play. The guys who seem all nice but in reality are only interested in sex. It just gets old.

Already got the message I expected, that this isn't the way to attract the type of Dom I'm looking for. I know it won't, I have no hopes of finding a Dom. As I say in my profile, the Dom I want is likely non existent. That's fine, I don't need this stuff to go on with my life. I'd like it, sure, but I don't need it.

I just find CM pretty laughable. At other sites CM is the joke, apparently full of fakes on both/all sides of the equation. I suppose that's to be expected on a free site that caters to the fetish world. I came on here earlier to just click through some of the local Doms and I was kind of taken off guard at the crazy things some of these men think they're going to find, and at some of the women who think anyone will believe their profiles are sincere. I do know there are good people here, I've met a handful over the last six months. But now I have to admit defeat, none of them were Doms who were looking for anything more than a sex partner. Hey, that's fine, it was fun. But it's not what I'm looking for. Maybe at some point there will be a better place for those of us who want an actual D/s relationship incorporating more than just the sex. That would be great. Until then, I'll just be a bitch here lol (which is funny, because no one who knows me would ever use that term to describe me).