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| submissive stonefemme seeking Dominant Stonebutch....
PLEASE NOTE**:** i am a queer stonefemme. i have been out in the queer community for almost 35 years, i've been a stonefemme for over 25 years. If you're not clear on what a stonefemme is, please feel free to ask but it doesn't involve biological, anatomically correct males.
i've been into this BDSM lifestyle, and it is a lifestyle for me, for over 12 years. Some insist this is a culture, and i do agree, but this is a style in which i live my life--hence, lifestyle. And, I know without a doubt this is where i should be. BDSM and D/s isn't something i do, it's who i am.
i'm seeking a Stonebutch Dominant, Sadistic in nature, who is monogamous, and looking for a "forever" 24/7 D/s submissive. Local would be nice but long distance is also welcome.
i consider myself to be a good submissive/bottom and basically i'm service oriented. It's my pleasure to serve, in all ways, for my Dominant. i'm a fairly keen pain slut, although not all types of pain push my buttons. However, i keep an open mind about kinks i haven't yet tried.
i also offer mentoring to those new folx coming into the scene. i have references if you're looking for a mentor.
Photo on request.
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as soon as i get my PC out of the shop i'll catch up on all my messages |
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PC is down. Took it to the shop today. |
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Thank You to those who answered my ad. i've had many responses and, as such, have removed that portion of my profile which requested a Dominant for personal training. |
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i've journaled this question before, and still don't have an answer i can understand. It seems to be one those unknown answers that doesn't come easily to me, and for whatever reason, my logic fails to find a way to any kind of answer.
What are the expectations of those Dominants who view the profiles of submissives?
It's been some time since i've been in a D/s relationship, and when skills aren't used they can get rusty. In my profile i state i'm looking for an on-line (or local) Dominant to help me get my submissive skills back in shape with some personal training.
So, when a Dominant views my profile is it then my responsibility to message Them back and open up a dialogue? Should i send a message and ask what was expected? Do views count as anything or they only just that, views? If a Dominant was interested would They then open up the dialogue? How in the heck does this work and who does what? uufftt...it's simply perplexing to me.... |
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Taking a break for a while...... |
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On the twelvth day of Christmas my true love gave to me...
12 Dom/mes a'Domming
11 subs a'subbing
10 whips a'cracking
9 floggers flogging
8 candles dripping
7 paddles swinging
6 butts a'stinging
5 anal pluuuuugggs.
4 bondage ropes
3 cock rings
2 nipple clamps
And a dildoe that glows in the Dark! |
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Happy Thanksgiving to everyone here at Cm. i hope your day is full of good cheer, great family and friends, and lots of good things to eat. Let's also be thankful for what we have, and i hope we all have enough...
To those who are serving our country, we wish you a Happy Thanksgiving and offer you our hopes for a safe holiday season.
We honor you for all you do for us. |
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Goodness, i've been reading journal entries, now, for almost an hour and a half and i've not run across ONE entry from a Domme who wants submissives to send her money. What's that called? Money domination? Well, whatever....
Anyway, it is possible that Cm is beginning to clean up this place? By any stretch of the imagination are those of us who are here for the purposes of seeking legitimate Dominants and/or submissives not going to have to wade through all the riff-raff that Cm is now known for?
One can only hope.... |
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For those of you who are moaning and groaning about the recent multi-billion dollar bank bail-out, i'd like to inform you this is not the first time this has occured. In the late 1980s, this very same thing happened. Let me repeat, this VERY SAME thing happened.
Seems the lending institutions--banks and savings and loan institutions--had home mortgages default by the zillions for reasons that are way too complicated to explain here (but you can read about at this website...www dot economics dot about dot com slash od slash governmenttheeconomy slash a slash savings_loan dot htm).
Homes foreclosed by the tens of thousands, property values dropped like a rock in a pond, and the insitutions that lent their monies for homes were in dire straights. So, in 1989 Congress and the then-President agreed on a taxpayer-financed bailout measure known as the Financial Institutions Reform, Recovery, and Enforecement Act (FIRREA) to help turn the economy around. The total bailout was around 200 billion dollars, an unheard of amount of money at that time.
People moaned and groaned and said we were putting all this debt on the shoulders of our Grandchildren (sound familiar?).
i bought a new home in 1988 with my partner and within 2 months it's value had dropped 20%. We weren't too worried because we had no thoughts of moving--this would be our last home till we retired.
However, with the couple across the street things didn't fare so well for them, like it hasn't for lots and lots of folx today. The husband was transferred to the east coast in 1989 with her and the kids to follow as soon as their home was sold. What they didn't count on was it took over 3 years to get the house sold, and in that time the husband had been transferred a second time, and the home's value was hardly enough to cover what they owed..
Housing economics were very bad at that time, and our economy is tied up, in bondage, as it were, to the housing market before any other commodity. When housing prices go up, the economy booms. When the housing market tanks, it gets really bad all around.
Anyway, back in the mid to late 1980s, this savings and loan fiasco caused all parts of our economy to tank, also, and businesses began laying off, and cutting back. If i remember right, things got so bad that Chrysler, GM and Ford had to be given a bailout. The nation's unemployment soared.
Eventually, after several years, the economy righted itself, and things got back to normal....
OK, so the next time you think this year's bailout is the worst of the worst, remember this isn't the first time it's happened. And the 750 billion dollars that was handed out today and sounds like it's all the money on the face of the planet, is EXACTLY what the public thought back in the '80s about the 200 billion that was doled out in the bailout that happened then. i know, i was there, AND paying attention...
And who was the President who signed the bailout act, FIRREA, in 1989 to get the lending institutions back in the black and the economy back on an even keel? President George H. W. Bush. A Republican.
So, those of you who are Republicans and up in arms over this Democratic President approving a multi billion dollar bailout....remember a President of your party approved a bill to do the exact same thing 25 years ago.
And all your moaning and groaning is sorta like the pot calling the kettle........well, you get the rest.....
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i'm a journal junkie and i admit it. i love to read what others write about their lives, their loves and whatever else is going on with them. It's a slice of their life.....like people's lives are a pizza and reading their journal gives you a slice of it.
There are lots of entries about how phony, fake, manipulating, and lying people are on Cm, but i tell ya, the majority of those who make journal entries sound fairly on the real side to me.
Seems like if one were looking for an on-the-level person, looking through the journals for someone who fit that description wouldn't be a bad thing.... |
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i need help with a question i have about those who are viewing me. i've decided that putting my question out in the "Recent Journals" area might be a good thing.
OK, so what's the etiquette for those in our "Who's Viewing Me" list? Is it proper to send an introductory message to them at any time they show up in the list? Is it better to wait until they are in the list a second time? Should i wait until they send a message? This whole question is confusing to me.
i've seen others post questions here in the "Recent Journals" area and had them mention, in future journal entries, that folx have sent them answers concerning their questions. i've even sent answers to a couple of journal questions and had nice correspondence with those that i sent messages to (only one person gave me flack about doing so, and i really should have guessed as much if i'd just paid attnetion to the Profile name...my bad....lol).
So, is it a good thing to send a "Hello, how are you" type of message to those who wind up in your "Who's Viewing Me" list? And does it matter if they're submissive or Dominant?
Anything you might have to say about this would be appreciated; just put it in a message and let me know your thoughts. |
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As an addendum to my latest jounal entry, i must state that i am not a slave, i am a submissive.
There is a difference, and i know what the differences are. It's clear in my mind the boundaries between a submissive and a slave.
i have been a slave in one of my past relationships, but it is not my notion to start off a D/s relationship being a slave. Becoming Your slave is related to the depth of my feelings for You, and that just can't be determined in the beginning.
Hence, i'm not looking for a Master, or Mistress, for my on-line training. |
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Ever since Cm started this "Recent Journals" feature i have been reading many journal entries on a fairly regular basis. Mostly there's lots of rants and raves, but one can also read about other's desires, happiness, dreams. sorrows, and there's more than a kernel of knowledge to be found if one just reads more than a couple of posts.
The current theme going on in the latest journaling is, what is it that we want?
Recently i got me to thinking, just what IS it i want?
Took about 2 seconds to answer that one: what i think every good submissive wants, really....and that is to serve.
i want to serve. No, i NEED to serve. The longing to serve literally oozes from my pores, colors the whole of my thinking and creates this huge black abyss in me when i'm not.
That's why i'm in this lifestyle, to serve and to please, and the rest of it, the play, the scening, really is in the "great perks" column. However, if it all boiled down where i had to make a choice, i'd take service over play every time.
i spent the first years being in this lifestyle, and yes, it IS a lifestyle for me, as a bottom. It was a good way to test the waters of BDSM, as there was a decent dungeon where i was, and playing there was safe. It was also a good place to learn, as the dungeon was very large, and at every play party somewhere around 100 folx would turn out to socialize and do WIITWD.
i watched, and learned lots over the 3-4 years i was acquiring my bottoming skills, and i took to the scening/playing instantly. i socialized and got to know folx, and my life at that time was busy and fun.
About 2004 i had the good fortune to find a group in my area called D/s Formal Dining; there are very, very few of these groups in the country, which is a group dedicated to creating formal dinners and brunches solely for the purpose of catering to and highlighting the Dominants.
There were months of intensive serving classes for the submissives, who were to be the servers at these events, to learn all and everything about formal dining service.
It was here that i discovered the world of the D/s couple, and the M/s couple, and my interest was instantly piqued.
Up through the middle of 2005 i was able to serve two Dominants, in a service-only relationship, and they were the most amazing experiences of my life.
Back in 2002 and 2003 i had the opportunity to serve a couple of StoneButch Dominants, and even though at that time deep inside, on some level, i knew i was involved in something special, i didn't fully get what it was all about, and it wasn't until the D/s Formal Dining group ame along that i fully understood just how special those relationships had been and what i had been a part of.
So, as i began to pick up pieces of the Ds/Ms puzzle here and there over the years (after 2004) and put them together one by one, by 2008 i had a fairly good idea of just what the basics of this Dominant/submissive dynamic was all about. Not all of it, mind you, but a good grasp of the fundamental basics.
i feel that it's important i stay sharp in my skills, and that it would be a good thing for me to explore the possibilities of finding a D/s trainer i could be in a service-only type of relationship.
A Dominant who would be willing to put me though a submissive's paces, who would be open to re-teaching me the basics, and help me to burn them on the back of my brain. A Dominant who understands that all i'm seeking is a service-only relationship, working under Their direction and following Their orders. Identity doesn't matter: Lesbian, Butch MtF, FtM, it simply has no bearing on what i'm trying to accomplish. Age also doesn't matter, although time and experience in D/s most certainly does. What my goal here is, is gaining knowledge, and that comes from anyone and everywhere.
Perhaps putting out there and being clear about what i want, there might be those who could say i'm "topping from the bottom." However, i'm of the mind-set that when people begin to communicate and sort out to each other the parameters of the relationship they're seeking, there is no topping, no bottoming, it's simply a matter of negotiations. Once the negotiations are over, it morphs into me serving and complying.
With any luck, this will work, but if not, i'll look around and see what the other options are.
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When i got to Indianapolis last year, it was the middle of summer. Summer is OK here, because there's air conditioning everywhere but the humidity is very hard to deal with. The high tempertures aren't very high, rising to somewhere around 90* degrees, but the humidity will suffocate you. If you have no air conditioning, and don't have a pair of gills, you're doomed.
Then came fall, and i loved this season so much. The leaves changing colors, falling off the trees to the ground....my, for a SoCal girl it was amazing. The trees change color almost over night, and it's like the elves have come in the night and painted all the most beautiful reds, oranges, yellows, and siennas on every tree in sight. i was told that Brown county is the best place to see the changing of the tree colors and this year i intend to travel down there as a lookie-loo. "Touristing" is one of my best talents.
The next seasonal wonder was the wintertime. Oh, my goodness, the snow was fantabulous, incredible, and dazzling. After the snow was plowed from the roads and the salt put down, driving around was like being in a perpetual Xmas card. Large, long icycles hanging from the eaves, snow in the tree boughs and all over the ground--it was breath-taking. That i would leave my home state of California, the land of perpetual summer, at this age and turn into a polar bear was full of humor to me...
Then came spring. The worst season of the lot. i came to find that spring and i don't get along not one tiny bit. The temperature changes swung from 10* degrees to 65* degrees in one 24 hour period, and all the adapting the temperature control system in my body had to do and i had to GO through was pure agony. There was some kind of pollen in the air constantly, mostly tree pollen, and i have discoverd i am deathly allergic to trees (who knew? Not me, i'm from California...we don't have trees in SoCal).
For months i suffered from sinus headaches that would turn into migraines if i didn't take Sudafed and tylenol fairly quickly after the headache started. This took me a couple of sinus migraines to learn, and it was a hard lesson. my nose ran, my eyes itched, i went through tissues like they were candy.
Come next spring, i'm going to stock up on Sudafed to the point where the folx at the Wal-Mart will most likely have to turn over my name and address to the DEA department as a suspected amphetamine maker, that's how much i'm gonna buy. It was the most miserable i've been in my life, and those of you who suffer allergies all year 'round have my profound sympathies.
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A friend of mine and i were talking about all the crazy things we did when we were young kids. One of the things we found out we both did when we were young was to call strangers who were listed in the white pages of the phone book, say really stupid things to them and then hang up. Silly, yes, but then again, the years from 10-12 are full of silly things.
This got me to thinking. Isn't that the same thing that's going on here at Cm? People sending silly (or hateful messages) and when you try to answer them they have you blocked? In essence, "hung up" on you? Perhaps these are the idiotic pranks of youngsters.....now, whether these youngsters are 14 or 40, who knows?~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
i had the unique opportunity last month to attend a Lakota Sundance ceremony. It was the most stunning event i've ever been to. i still think about what i observed and have every intention to attend again next year.
This time i only went two days: Tuesday, the Tree day, and Friday, the Healing Day. The Ceremony runs from Monday to Sunday, and there are people from all over world who attend this particular Lakota Sundance, and many camp out for a couple of weeks just outside the arbor area.
i'll post more about it when i get the correct name of the tribe that celebrates this ceremony.
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Changing my license tags from California plates to Indiana ones is quickly becoming the biggest comedy of errors of my life.
my car plates expired the last day of June. About the end of the second week of June, plenty of time, i thought, i went to the Bureau of Motor Vehicles here to see about transferring my tags. The BMV needed soooo much documentation, i had to go home 3 times to get additional paperwork. The last time i went in i anticipated having to give a blood sample....
Handed my stack of papers to the clerk, she looked it all over, and went to a phone on the other side of the room to make a call. It only lasted about 3 minutes, and when she came back, as she sat down, she said to me, "you're just not having a good day." Gawd, when you hear a Vehicle Department clerk say those words, you just know they're getting ready to tow your car.
Seems that some time in 2004 i had ordered a second ownership title to my car, i now couldn't produce it and THEY wanted it. i went back home and called the California Department of Motor Vehicles,asked about getting a form for a duplicate title, and was told i could download it from their website. Also, it would take 4-6 weeks to send another ownership title out to me, and there was nothing i could do to get that time period shortened.
Back to the BMV with this information, and i might have gotten a special permit to drive my car till i could get new plates, but the time periods were in conflict. Back home i went.
As soon as i opened the front door, i downloaded and printed the form to order my duplicate title. Ok, i thought, i've still got 2 weeks of registration left on these plates, i'll only be with out wheels for a month. No problem.....i can deal with that.
Filled out the form, stuck it in an envelope, stamped it and ran it down to the mailbox. 10 days later, while i was sound asleep, i suddenly woke right up out of bed and realized i hadn't put my $18 dollar check for the duplicate request process fee in the envelope....gawd....
Downloaded a second form, filled it out, PUT IN THE CHECK, stamped it and ran down to the mailbox. Ok, now i see it's going to be a little longer than i anticipated to get my Indiana license plates, but not to worry, it's so hot, who wants to go out anyway?
3 weeks later, i got an envelope from the California Department of Motor Vehicles in the mail. Yaaaay! my duplicate title has come, i thought, and i'm so out of here and down to the Indiana Bureau of Motor Vehicles to get my new tags.
Opened the envelope, and what to my wondering eyes should appear? i had forgotten to fill out the Vehicle License plate number AND the Vehicle Identification Number spaces on the damn duplicate form.
.......it was a wonder i didn't jump off the roof.......i was so angry with myself, i had to go in the house and lay down on the bed for a bit.....
i did finally get it all together, but who knows when this duplicate will get back to me. i've simply stopped keeping track of the dates. And to keep my sanity, or what is left of it at this point, i put all my "fussing and fuming" over this whole registration debacle into an imaginary helium ballon, let it go and "watched" it rise to the Universe. Worrying at this point is just wasted energy.....
And how was your week?......
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Goodness, i had my first message from a wanker.
It's probably my sexual orientation and the identity i'm in search of that keeps them away. Or so i think. Most folx don't understand the names i use when i list on my profile who i'm looking for, and perhaps, this is what causes them to keep their distance. Or who knows?......
Anyway, this one didn't stay away.
The first day he came in with a pretty good pick-up line, gawd knows i haven't heard it in all my years, so i gave him some rope to see if he was gonna hang himself.
He did, at one point, start into his wanker fantasy, but i'm not too sure he was very experienced at this wanking thing, because i was able to shut him right down with a "It is very discourteous for you to talk like that to me." And he stopped.....OK, that was easy, i thought.
A few more messages of light banter, and off he went (pun not intended).
Today i received another message from him and he was not to be denied his recounting of his fantasy. And i thought to myself, as i was reading the first of his message, what in the world, here at Cm, is good enough to wank off to? Jeez, if i wanted to go to a website to get off, Cm certainly isn't gonna be my first choice. Jeez, Dude, 50 bazillion xxx-rated websites on the Internet and you choose this one?
So, i sent him a message offering him an alternate website. One that doesn't require fees for the still photos, but to get the movies you have to pay. i'm not going to name it, even though it's one of the advertisers here, just on general principles.
So, he didn't respond right away, but after a few seconds, i did finally get this message back from him......"mama, you rock."
hahahhaahhahah....... ......hahahahah.....
Got a wanker? Send them an alternate website.....one with some REALLY good wanking material....... ........ .......
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To all those who have served our country, we are honored that you voluntarily give your service to keep our freedoms.
To those who have given the ultimate sacrifice, there is a special place in our hearts, and in the history of our country, for you.
Don't forget the military service man and woman this memorial day. They are our country's best and finest contribution for keeping those of us in the United States of America as safe as we are.
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i absolutely love the TV show American Idol.
i don't watch reality shows, as a rule, but i made an exception for this one. i think it's because everyone on my Dad's side of the family are musicians. All his brothers and a couple of nephews are also in the musical world and it's simply in the genes.... ....
Back to American Idol......i think Adam is going to win, but either Danny or Kris could stage an out-of-nowhere win. Allison was voted off this past Wednesday, and although that was sad, i'm sure she'll wind up with a record contract, anyway. For her age she is a really good performer.
Adam has such control over his voice. He plays it like an instrument.....like Van Cliburn played the piano, or like Jimmy Hendricks played his guitar. Adam knows exactly what his voice will do, and just how far to push it. His high and low registers are amazing and his pitch is right on the money. Like Allison, even if he doesn't win AI he'll get a recording contract.
The musical gene in my family was passed down to me--i play the piano. It's been about 20 years since i have done so, and i'm sure i'm rusty, but i have plans to buy a keyboard sometime in the future and pick up playing again. i miss it and i really want the piano back in my life.
my kids cut their teeth on classical music from Bach to Beethoven. Grieg was my favorite, i think. And i absolutely adore Gershwin, what little there is of his music. i even loved playing the etudes, which are what practice pieces are called. Classical is fun to play because of the structure, which is not surprising for a submissive who loves a structured life.
i have a place all set up in my house for my keyboard when i get it. One of their good points is that they don't take up much space. Not even as little space as a spinet. Costco had an absolutely wonderful, very tiny, digital grand piano around Xmas time, but the price tag was far beyond my budget. It was somewhere around $4500 i think. More than i want to pay.
There are a number of piano stores in Indy, but i won't actually be in the market for a keyboard until next year. There are a couple other big ticket items i need to buy first. Like a new pillow-top queen mattress.....
i don't want to shop for a keyboard online because i need to be able to run my fingers over the keys to feel what the key pressure is. i'm picky about key pressure, and i'm sure there is no way to adjust pressure on a keyboard like there is on a piano. Some things you simply have to buy in person.
i hope to be able to find a keyboard with earphones so i can play whenever it's convenient. Don't want to disturb my neighbors....some folx don't appreciate music regardless of what type it is--classical or rock, to some it's all the same--unwanted noise.
For some, music just doesn't soothe the savage breast.
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i read the journals most every day and there are so many posts about all the fakes and posers, and so many folx talk about how they are leaving the website because of them.
And yet, almost every day there are posts from those who have found their Dominants, or have found their submissives, and how this submissive or that one is under consideration, or how this or that Dominant has offered a collar to their submissives.
Can't be all fakes and posers here.....otherwise no one would be making a connection. And some are, so what's at work here?
It's been raining since last night and the rain here, tonight, is so loud it sounds like hail on a tin roof (think that's the name of a song on a Julie Roberts CD). Definitely not accustomed to such large amounts of rain. i do find it exciting, even though i also feel a bit of fear.....not logical fear, emotional fear.....typical femme....
This is tornado season in Indiana, and i can't find that darn weather radio i was given when i first bought my mobile. There's a tiny voice in my head telling me i need it, and i just don't like to ignore that lil voice even though i sometimes do. Is that emotional fear? i have absolutely looked every where.....but obviously i haven't, because i still can't find it. i hope i didn't donate it to the Good Will.
The air conditioner tech finally made it out here today. We had a mini heat wave Friday, Saturday, Sunday and Monday, and of course, Friday the air conditioner wouldn't blow out cold air. i was dying....absolutely dying. And giggling at myself at the same time. i mean, the temps here were around 85*, and i moved here from an area where the average summer temps were 95*-100*. i was used to these kinds of temps, but who knew after spending one winter in snow country i would turn into a polar bear? Not me, said the lil red hen....
When the air conditioning tech was here i went outside with him to watch what it was he did, mainly because if it comes to needing another tech here for the same problem, the first question he's gonna ask me is, "What did the last guy do?" It never fails, so i tag along when the repair guys visit. Like i'm their shadow.
So, the problem turned out to be electrical and he needed to get into my fuse box, which is in my bedroom right next to my tall, white cabinet that holds all my toys (my toys are dedicated just for me)--heavy floggers, quirts, cat-o-nine, crops, metal handcuffs, paddles, all manner of chains, you name it, it's in my cabinet. i did think of the fuse box when i put the cabinet there, and there was room to open the door--not all the way, but enough to check the breakers and i thought that would be OK. And, of course, the tech wanted the door to open completely so he could pull the front of the fuse panel off. Uh huh. Oookaaay.
And he wants to move the cabinet for me so he can open the damn door.
i had to tell this guy that the cabinet was personal and i would move it. He said "Oh" in such a way, and moved to the living room in such a way, that i knew he thought there were implements of the devil in there, and really, he was right.
Well, first i had to remove the two screws i used to anchor the cabinet to the wall with because it's top heavy, and the minute the second screw came out, the cabinet lurched forward and all my "weapons" on the top rung fell forward off their hangers and all over the floor at my feet. All this noise and commotion, clanking chains and metal, and gawd knows what else. It was...well, embarrassing. The tech never made a sound. No telling what was going through his head.
Tomorrow i move the cabinet to the other side of the room, away from the fuse box.
And how was your day?
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Just a quick journal entry.......those of you who say, "Gawd, is she STILL on the website?"...... ......sometimes i walk away from my PC and forget i'm logged onto CM..... ...... |
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New photo waiting approval.... |
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Want to take just a moment to clear something up. There seems to be some confusion about my sexual orientation.
Technically, i am not a lesbian. As far as identities go, technically, i am a StoneFemme, which is a queer identity, and not a lesbian one.
When dropping down the "Sexuality" menu on the profile page, what is offered to describe my sexual orientation are only these choices:
1. Straight
2. BiSexual
3. Gay
4. Lesbian
There is no choice for Queer, so Lesbian is the closest i can choose to get across the notion that i am a member of the women's queer community.
We now return you to your regular programming.
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Some dude recommended we post the following (and it made sense to me):
"********WARNING: Any institutions using this site or any of its associated sites for studies or projects - You do NOT have
my permission to use any of my profile or pictures in any form or forum both current and future.
If you have or do, it will be considered a
serious violation of my privacy and will be subject to legal ramifications.
It is recommended that other members post a similar notice to this."
Can't hurt....
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The weather here has been bee-oo-ti-ful. Temps in the low 70s, the humidity is low, and the sun nice and warm. Have been able to open the windows and doors to air out the house and let the breeze come through, and it's just been San Diego-type days here, lately.....it's wonderful.
Think i have been suffering a touch of home-sickness. The news shows here in Indy are not interesting, by any yardstick, and, go figure, this is what makes me think of home. The news shows in San Diego are filled with such varying types of items....there's the mountains, the deserts, the beaches, the bays to report on, on top of all the other news, so that the news programs there do not, in the least, have to repeat items from one day to the other. Here, you can hear about a news item for 3 days or longer.....it's just plain boring. Guess if that's the only thing i have to complain about since coming to Indy, i'm lucky to be here.........
my movie buddy fell through... ...*sigh*
guess i'll have to learn to go alone. There are just too many movies coming out this summer that i don't want to miss. Already missed "Knowing", with Nicolas Cage, and i heard it was good. Don't want to miss any others.
Have the gardening bug.....want to get some flowers to plant along the bottom edge of the porch, and clear out the grass along the bottom of the tree between my house and my neighbor's on the south side. Want also to put some Scott's weed and feed grass fertilizer on my lot....the grass out there needs to be perked up so it will look better than it does. Also have to get a mower lined up, it's my responsibility to keep the grass mowed. Think i'll ask my neighbors about their mower service....she comes every 2 weeks and uses a riding mower. Gets the job done in about 10 minutes.
Have also got to get the fence i put up last year for my lil dog who passed away taken down. i tried to take it out last fall, but it's not gonna be as easy as i thought. It's gonna take a whole lot more work than i first thought. Not real sure what i'm going to use to get the metal stakes out of the gound. i worked on it a bit last year but then the ground eventually froze from the winter temps, and i had to put that chore aside. Now that the temperatures have risen, and the rains have come, softening the ground even further, i don't think it will be such a job as it once was.....i hope, anyway.
Such are my plans for the spring, which appears to be the busy season here. Summer will be here sooner than i want it to, and the heavy humidity will make it almost impossible to get anything done outside. Perhaps in a couple years i will be acclimated to the humidity, and won't notice it as much. Well, maybe.....
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The company came out this month and leveled my mobile home.............yaaay! It seems it wasn't as out of plumb as i once thought. However, it still needed to be leveled, and i'm glad that's done..
When the tech went under the mobile, i went with him, and it looks fairly good under there. i think i still need to block any water from getting underneath, but it's not as dire a need as i thought. This is a good thing. Everything is working in a postive direction....
i think i've finally found a movie buddy. Have been looking for one since i got here. Found a new personals websites, non-lifestyle, and posted an ad that i was looking for someone to only go to the movies with. i hate going alone; it's just not a good thing.
And i got a reply the very next day. She and i chatted for a bit, and it looks like this will work out. i have missed so many movies since i got here, i especially wanted to see the 3D ones, and there's a bunch more new movies coming out between now and this summer, and i don't want to miss any more. Want to go see The Reader, Doubt, The Curious Case of Benjamin Whatever, if they're still out, and if not, then i'll either get them on PPV or rent them.
Finally figured out the scanning feature on my printer and am going to scan ALL my photos onto my hard drive. i've got a ton of photos, going back 20-30 years, and i want to preserve them as best i can for those who come after me....
i've also been thinking that maybe putting them onto a flash drive might be a better way to go. If my PC were to crash, and for whatever reason the hard drive became inoperative, i'd still have the photos safe and sound. Having a tech get information from a hard drive that's crashed is not inexpensive, and there are some idiots out there that love nothing better than to destroy hard drives with vicious viruses/bugs just for the fun of it.
That's all that's cookin' on my side of the yard, for now. Things will get more active as the weather warms.....
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Been a while since i've posted in my journal, here. my love life got busy for a bit, but nothing jelled. Oh, well, there will be other days....
i absolutely fell in love with the winter in Indy. It was so facinating for this California girl. Everything was new to my eyes, and i hope i never get so used to this season that i don't notice the wonder of it. Anytime i went out in the car, it felt like i was driving in a Xmas card. i know that sounds all syrupy but what can i say? i like it....
Summers here? not so good. Heat and humidity are killers....thank goodness for central air and reasonable electric rates. The only benefit to the summer here is my skin stays moisturized..... ....having said that, it's still not as hot as where i came from....
Am finding a great community in Indy for Butch-Femmes who are into Leather. How great is that? i've been making friends left and right, and have more now than i ever did back in California. This is a good thing, and i'm very happy about moving to this area. my life is becoming very full and there are things to do and places to go every week, it seems.
And i still haven't made it yet to the queer bars downtown. The snow (and ice) conditions have been pretty steady and i'm not real keen on driving in it, no matter how lovely it looks. my friend, E, gave me a list of the bars, but i'm not sure where i put it, and most likely will have to bug her again about giving me the names of the places. Need to go see what the community is like...what the politics are.
Love my mobile home to death, but there are some problems with it. Nothing i can't handle, but still need to throw some money at this thing. First, it seriously needs to be leveled. Got a call in to a company that does that kind of thing, and hope to hear back from them next week. The whole front of this coach is dipping downwards, which has caused a crack to open up in the ceiling about in the center of the mobile.
Then, when that is done, i'll need to get the crack fixed....ugh...not looking forward to that one. Will need to find out if the "cottage cheese" on the ceiling has any asbestos in it, and if it does, that will cost a bundle to remedy. That could become a real problem.
Next, i have to fix the cause of this unleveling problem. The lot i'm on has a slope, back to front, and when it rains, and i imagine when the snow melts, the water runs like a small river under the coach. Need to put some kind of barrier in the back to divert this water to the sides. Think railroad ties will be a good solution for this. We'll see....
So, that's all the news that's fit to print, and i find i'm just happy about being here where i am. Do i sound like a tourist commercial for Indiana?
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We had our first snow here in Indy two days ago. What a sight for a California girl.....it was so different. And i must confess i luved it. The snow was melted by late afternoon but it snowed again night before last, and the temps have been cold enough to keep it. However, no matter how beautiful it is, i'm glad i don't have to drive in it.....it's difficult enought for me to drive in the rain.... ...much less snow.
The change of seasons here is also something i'm not used to. In the eastern part of San Diego where i come from, it was either 70 or 100*....not much inbetween. Those were our seasons. Goodness, here there are actually 4 different times of the year, and when it gets to the last part of Sept, Mother Nature throws a switch and it's fall, just like that. Needless to say, i'm enjoying my adjustment to this part of the world.
And this mobile home i've bought has withstood the cold very well. i must admit i was worried about that when i got here, but so far, so good. i don't know about any temps lower than 22* but it's gonna get colder soon, and i'll find out long about February, i think....
i've pretty much grieved the loss of my lil dog, bunny, not to say i don't think of her every day, but the heartache has dulled. Sometimes i think i've heard her somewhere in the house, but then i realize it's only my imagination. To think i brought her all this way for her to die.....ok, enough of that! i'll be crying again if i don't quit that thinking!
So, these are my adventures in Indiana, and i'm glad i'm here......but i pretty much think i could make anywhere home....home is where the heart is, yes? Cliche, i know, but true, anyways.... |
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Tragedy in Indianapolis. The day after i wrote that last journal entry, my dog got out and was run over by a car....it's been a hard blow and i'm still trying to absorb the whole of it. To think i brought her this far for her to get killed by a car.....gawd....
i've met some really nice folx here and this move, other than losing my dog, has been a good one, i think. Have been to a couple of play parties, and at this last one was able to play. First play in about 2 years, or so. The Dom was very experienced, it went well and i enjoyed it thoroughly.
i bought one of those GPS navigators when i got here, and that was one of my better decisions. Have absolutely no idea how i'd get around without it. Reading a map while driving is worse than using a cell phone while driving. This lil navigator uses verbal instructions to let me know which way to turn and all i have to do is listen. Best investment....
When i lived in California fall would come around about the time of Halloween, or thereabouts. Back here in Indy, when September rolls around someone throws a switch and instantly it's fall. The days can still be warm, but the nights start to get cold. And as the month of September moves towards the last week, the temps get even more chilly. It will be really interesting to see how i deal with the winter here, seeing as i'm from California and it snows here.....
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Well, i made it to Indiananapolis without too much trouble, but driving by myself all that way in a 17 foot u-haul and towing mt car on a 14 foot auto transport was taxing, to say the least. i had my littel dog with me, and because of this we didn't make much distance each day. Having a dog as a trveling partner means there has to be stops every 2 -2 1/2 hours for water breaks, potty breaks and just letting her out to walk around and stretch her legs. Took 9 days, but we did finally get here all in one piece.
Arrived on July 4th but i was much too tired to go watch the fireworks. It's over a week later, and i'm still tired to the bone. There are still lots of boxes in the house but everything will get where it needs to be eventually. i don't have any kids nor a family to keep track of so things can get put away as i go along.
i love this area. i love my new house.....well, it's not a new house, exactly, but it's new to me. It's very nice, but there are things that need to be done. i need to get the master closet reconfigured---i always need two hanging bars, one for blouses and one for pants. my dresses, skirts and dress jackets can go in the closet in another bedroom, no problem.
i see i'll need to get a lawnmower. Think i'll try one of those electric ones. Also, i have a guy who lives in the park coming over tomorrow, if it doesn't rain, who is putting up a little dog run for bunny (she's my dog). She needs a place to go outside and run a bit.
i'm already plugging into the BDSM community here---NLA has a monthly workshop and a monthly play party which i'll attend. There is also a Butch-Femme BDSM group here that has really friendly people and i've made some friends already. That's nice.......
So, so far, so good here in Indy. i'm glad i made the change from California to here. The cost of living is much lower and that works in my favor.
Getting out here in the truck was scary in some places on the road, but all's well that ends well, yes?
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i just got back from Indianapolis on Wednesday, and i found a great mobile home there that i purchased. It's a 3 bdrm, 2 bth and in really great condition. It's got a new roof, a new furnace and air conditioner, and has a carport made from wood, not aluminum. i'm very happy with it. So, i have begun the packing in earnest, and i'm hoping to be on the road in a little over a week.
That may be a bit too optimistic, but i'm trying to look at the positive side........if there IS a positive side to moving everything one owns 3500 miles across the country in a U-Haul, towing the car behind!! i mean, it is a positive living in Indianapolis, but driving the 3500 miles i could do without.
i checked with a local moving company about having my stuff moved for me, but the price was waaay over what i want to pay--$6000. Doing it myself is cheaper, even though it will be more difficult.......but that's how it goes.
So, i am now a Hoosieran.....is that a word? and i need to get a bumper sticker that says, "Native Californian by birth, a Hoosier by choice". That might take the sting outta the other bumper sticker i have on there, now, which is for the Charger's football team..........who beat the Colts and stopped their chances of advancing in last year's playoffs. GO COLTS!! GO BOLTS!!
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So, in the next couple of months i'm going to be located in Indiana instead of California. The cost of living in California has simply gone through the roof and i need a place to live with lower costs. Indiana seemed to fit the bill.
i've been planning to leave California for several years, however the location kept changing. First it was the Dallas/Fort Worth area. However, the more i researched that area, the more i saw it couldn't offer me what i was looking for.
Then i looked at Pittsburgh, PA. i have a few folx there i know, and felt that would help as i would have a built in base of friends. But Pittsburgh is built on hills galore, and i'm strictly a flatlander girl. Even thought they have decent sports teams, The Steelers and The Pirates--ok, so the Pirates aren't all that great,--i just couldn't seem to get away from those hills, especially when i saw a program about the city on the PBS channel that pictured how it all looked. i did love the ethnicity of the place, my goodness, all the different ethnic restaurants, but the hills just didn't do it for me.
Then came along Cincinnati....i STILL love Cincy. The big league sports teams, the Bengals and the Reds, the culture of the place, i was instantly drawn to Cincy. Even not having been there, it seemed to have a "worldly" aura, for lack of a better word.
However, the more i looked at Cincinnati, the more i saw that Indiana was a lot less pricey.
So off to Indiana i go..... |
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