although i am not a masochist i do enjoy being spanked and it is hard to explain but it seems that if someone is doing something to me with their hands i enjoy it i supose it is the interatction, they are tweeking my nipples, spanking me etc. but if they use impliments with no contact(nipple clamps canes etc ) then it ceases to be enjoyable i supose at some point i may come to "enjoy" the suffering because that is what my partner wants and i want to please my partner, but at the moment i am still selfish enough to want to please my partner in ways i enjoy. i dont want to top from the bottom and dictate what and how we will do things, i supose i am looking for someone who is willing to do what they want with me but (at least to start with )do it in ways i enjoy so that if they want to see my bottom red they spank me or if they wish to abuse my nipples they use their fingers or teeth it might just be that they few people i have tried these things with so far were not right for me and when i meet the "right" type of person they will release the masochist in me. i have discovered i really want to experience medical play i think it is the total submision involved the whole strip stand like this bend over adopt this position etc . |