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Wow it seems like i haven't been here in forever.. Doesn't seem to be an end in sight some days.. I Still can not have a life of my own as of yet .. my health has improved but right now other things have happened to keep me out of sight. The most important is taking care of my mother who is dying with cancer.. So this makes things a lot less for me. But very rewarding as well.. She took care of me after all that's the least i can do for her. So i am still just an emailer... Hopefully my friends you will understand .. I do love popping in when i can to see if anything has changed .. I miss being able to be online as much as i would like too.. But that is not possible right now.. Be well everyone and stay blessed with whom you are.. with much love as always ...
~Please don't take my honesty as rudness or being sassy. I am a plain spoken lady who speaks her mind, and heart. I feel if your taking my honesty as being rude then why bother reading this further. I am blunt but i try to be blunt with class. If you see this as different then i am supposing that you may want to look elsewheres.
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Don't mind exchanging emails from friends or some who may wish to be friends..
she is not looking to be DOM'ed or Master'ed online If things happen and there is a connection ,then in time in real You will be the one Dom'ing or Mastering her.. . Respect comes with respect.. You want a special slave/sub? she is very special ... will be hoping the right choice comes her way...wishing everyone well and good luck in your search.. teach her how to fly! she is a butterfly , not a butterfly collector . Failure is merely a means to begin again more intelligently ..
her yearning becomes so strong sometimes it just over takes her soul her being and intwins it with daily life where she is able to serve in some way to others whether they be Dominat or not she serves always .. with the grace of a swan and the heart that makes her life a joy..she serves with the belly of fire that inslaves her very soul.. for she is (slave) she is submissive she is who and what she is and always will be .
obediently
eileen
It gave her no choice on the bi part.. she is bi curious only.. never been there .. smiling.. she wishes all well and happy hunting..
And one more thing . Please don't email me one day, and the next want to call or me to call. It takes a lot more time to get to know someone , what if im a phsyco? What if you are? And angry people that need some place to wipe their feet please keep on rockin down the road or is it kick rocks, I am not here to be belittled why waste your time kicking me, when you can go find someone who enjoys that type of thing. Sorry, I really don't like being rude, but after so much rudness to me it's really hard to keep from it. I'm not here looking for anything other than friendship. If that's not allowed here i can find somewhere more open to real relationships.
Don't forget to smile and have a great day.
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Again i come back to this little space in here and wonder who some of you people are! I mean good lord, how is it that someone would email you in here without regards to what you have placed here as how you are . I mean .. gosh, here i get an email asking me if i as a sub want to be used hard???? just as that. Golly, where did all the gentlemen go, where did chivelry go, where did respect of ones self go? "looking back through my profile, i believe maybe somewhere there is a spot that states, I DON'T CYBER OR NEED ONLINE SEX, IF I WERE THAT HARD UP I'D GO GET ME SOME! Yeah .. that is said without taste, just as he asked that dumb question without regards to his self as a Man first off and most importantly a Dom male. Yano, i understand that each of us are different in a lot of ways and i also realize that Most here know more about all of this lifestyle than i for sure. But still..
That's like someone telling me that im still here after all this time, i must be doing something wrong not to have a Dom yet.. but IF he had looked or at least read a little of my profile, he would have seen where ALL i am looking for are friends. I doubt i would ever go meet someone from here unless the powers of God himself threw me out there before you !
Why on earth would i dare meet someone when most of these little rude emails i get are from flakes fakes and pure dumb asses, that have no more class than my little toe.
I think i have stated in here that i have too many health issues to be in search of my One. One says haha you think you will find someone as ugly as you are? Or why on earth would you be sticking out your tongue in a picture on here, or No if you can't it up the ass then your off my list, or or or .. gosh you people amaze me . I should say SOME of you people
In all reality, i have had some very interesting and intelligent conversations with a lot of people in here so i know im speaking of the minority as for the idiots.
Once again, i will state, I am only here to make friends, and to learn a little more each day on the facts of who and what i am.
I met a man from here once , who was supposedly a alpha , but in all reality he was more of a whore or maybe slut should be the word. How can a person go out here meet a total stranger for one night get laid not knowing who this other party has been with the day before or night before, and what kind of yuky gunk he or she would have from it? I love my life too much to take those kinds of risk, No i am not frigid by any means, but i am cautious. I worked in the medical field most of my adult life, and in that time we had to study all about deseases such as aids herbes all kinds of V.D. Did you know that the aids virus is ten times smaller than the hole in a latex condom? But wait!!! Some of you don't even wear a condom , much less think about your life or the life of another. I don't really remember how long ago i came to collarme, i do remember i was reffered here by someone who said i could learn a lot from here.., well he or she was so right about that! I have learned that some of you are sincere, i have also learned that some of you think you are what you say you are, and i have learned that some of you just have no freking clue what so ever about life much less this lifestyle, i have never knowingly lived this lifestyle, but i know a hell of a lot more than most of you. I guess that could be the difference of natural and someone who HAD to be taught. Gee here i am sounding like a bitch again, i sure don't mean too.. but there is a flake or two here who tend to push all the wrong buttons and make my blood boil. I think the worst mistake i ever made on here was to answer a very rude email.. i shouldn't waste my time in doing him or her that curtisy, but i did just to drive a point home. It really gave me no other satisfaction.
Why do people waste their time by being rude to someone they wouldn't want to get to know in the first place. I guess it is called being mean or showing their true colors or showing who they REALLY are?
None of these people ever stopped to read the profiles or to read these journals. All they care about is granting their own satisfaction of being rude to someone not just myself i know there are many others here who get this as well and maybe some get a lot worse, maybe some of you ladies actually go meet these jerks.. And i am not calling all jerks.. I have to say i have talked to a lot of nice gentlemen and ladies as well..
(mumbles) ok ok i will stop.. i know i tend to ramble on and on and it still wont mean a thing to anyone here . But it meant a lot to me as it gives me a way of venting off these people who are nothing but ugly inside.
But i don't want anyone to go away from my ramblings and feel i am talking about everyone like this on here for i am not.. There are but a handful of ass holes compared to some very nice highly classy and intelligent people , and those are the ones who capture who and what they may be looking for. And for one more time i am going to state this.. I AM NOT LOOKING TO MEET ANYONE, NOR DO I WISH FOR A D/s relationship online or of all things sex .. but hey maybe thats where im messing up says the jerk who says im pretty ugly.. that would be SAFE sex lol doh..
And i know im no beauty queen. Far from it, but inside i am very good i am very faithful and i am a great friend. I don't NEED ... anything but friends. And of course friendship can turn into a lot of things. Alright, i am sure that now i will again get a ton of rude emails lol which i really don't care anymore .. i don't cry over them, but i don't understand it either , unless these people are very very insecure.. that would be my guess..
Happy hunting people. |
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Please don't email me and one email after ,ask me to call or if you can call. First of all that's a little soon and secondly, I am not looking to hook up with anyone on here at this time, not being rude, just not really looking to get into anything other than a friendship and i will change my profile to state so emails only maybe . I don't recall what is in that thing anyways. If you state your a gentleman then please be one, and if your not please don't bother to waste your time in sending some rude remark to me ,that will only make you fool you already are. And yes i realize this may sound nasty and rude to most out there. For those who know me know that i am not a rude person at all, but i am also not anyones blanket for their anger or vengence or what they tend to be trying to pass off as Masculine but only thing i can see is pittiful loveless people. Gosh that sounds bad and sounds cruel and i truly don't mean to be or to sound as tho i am. Just tired of taking crap from people i don't even know! thank you |
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one seems to grow a little more each day..
altho it is hard sometimes to see oneselve ever gaining entry into the lifestyle which she so yearns to belong to.
I was asked what my definition of the D/s is.. and i had to say exactly how i felt, that is the only way i can be..
I am not overly religious but i do believe in God and i have read the bible.. it is great if you love history for it's full of it.. And it is also a great guide..
It states in the bible that woman submit to your man woman be your mans helpmate.. and man lead your family, so to me it is a natural order of life to be the submissive one of any relationship that is man and woman..
I feel that i should i ever find my One would be on my knees worshipping Him, which i have done before in my life without knowing exactly what it was i was doing. I lived the life without knowing there was a name for it.. that is who and what i am. I was completely submissive in all ways.. He never had to ask or demand anything from me ,, it was always there before he had to say a word. There are many ways of being submissive .. there are many ways of being a slave.. i do not wish to be someones door mat i wish for love and to love how else can one competely be submissive to Him if she has no love for him ? I do not go out an be submissive or slave to just every man i come across.. so there to me has to be a certain amount of love involved in this . I would not want to be slave or submissive to anyone other than someone i cared deeply for .. i wont just go out and be someones play toy just for kicks to me that tarnishes all that i believe in .. if that is all this lifestyle is about then i do not want it., and will be very disappointed in life that it could play such a trick on one who wishes to please and be pleasing to someone she loves.. sighs im getting so disappointed.. Not in the friends i have met but in what i believe should be the correct order of life! Shouldn't it? Or am i seeing things in the wrong way.. one never knows anymore .. |
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I sure wish this would let those links show what they are ..
anyways
many blessings to each of you |
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Good day everyone. Just wanting to say that i am about 100% better now~ What a trip that was. nothing like being dead for a few months to realize how alive you were before . An now i seem to be regaining that life back. To all of you that have taken the time to wish me well thank you so much from the bottom of my heart. It means much more than most can know. And for those who said they were friends yet never email an for those who knew how to reach me other ways never once did. Even had one friend who called while i was in the hosptial, who lived two blocks away at the time , said i will come see you and never . Not that it's all that important, at the time it would have meant the world. But what i wanna say is a big thank you to my true friends. Big hugs .
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Well today is a good day. The sun is out bright for a change. We have had rain for almost two weeks straight.
I am doing much better with each passing day. I am telling you folks eat right for your heart please. That is the hardest surgery i have ever been thru and recover from. You really dont want to have to go there so please take care of your heart.
Wishing you all a wonderful day..
be well and be happy, life is short make the most of it.. |
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Well. I am still here as submissive and carring as anyone can be. So talk to me straight and talk to me honestly. Im not broken and can't be fixed .. smile... for those friends of mine who are hanging in there for me thank you so much , for having faith which is giving me the strength to get it going. Tomorow starts a new day and it begins with the walks.. then who knows where that may lead. I'm tired of laying in bed most of the time feeling ill.. i want to get out and live again so we will see how this goes..
love and hugs to all of you who want them..
later and bewell and be good in all things you do..
eileen |
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Hello friends,
Just a note here to say something i guess i have to say. Yes i DON'T want to say it . But it's the only fair way to be..
Since i was last on here i have had heart surgery and must say that all i can do now is be friends with anyone. I don't think it would be fair to offer myself as anything other than that. Too frail at this time to be in the lifestyle all the way so i could not give my all to it or to a Man. So with that i must just say i will be here to be friends and will not seek out the One . Just in my dreams as He has always been.
I do hope that everyone has been well. And look forward to the emails..
Wishing all well with good health and happiness.
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Greetings everyone,
I do appoligize for being gone for such a long time. I have been out sick in the hospital and then my computer went on the blink then so did my monitor *smile* so now that it is all back in order i am back. Had forgot the name of this site (imagine that) and a friend reminded me. So i answered all the email i could and wanted to let others know that may have been curious as to my where abouts . So i am back..
Am hoping everyone had a fantastic memorial day weekend,. And would like to take a moment to thank all that has served in the past , present and will do so in the future. God bless you all for what you do, and have done and will do. i feel that should be a celebration each and everyday to and for those who have so graciously served our country to keep us safe and free. Thank you and i saulte you all..
That is all i wished to say for now.. Hope to hear from my friends and those interested and i will respond soon as i can. and again i am so sorry that i have been away so long and has taken so long for me to respond to those who have wrote to me while i was away..
Sincerely and submissively Yours,
eileen
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There is one thing i see a lot and wish to clairfy something about myself here .. i see a lot who consider all this play .. i do not .. i consider this life and how i live it daily .. there is a lot more to what i call my life than submissive .. when one lives their life in this mannor it becomes who they are not who they can be when you want them to be .. i am always one of servitude no matter where i am .. even in the vannila world i am of servitude in life to all who need it. Some people call this a gift, i do NOt...What do you call it? i would love to be able to find out what everyone thinks on this . so if you wouldnt mind telling me your ideas on it please do.. thank you |
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HAPPY Happy holidays to all !!! -=)~ |
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Most curious about the Gorean Lifestyle. I have read the books and tho i know there is no Gor but what we make it on earth.. I would love to learn the life as we know it in real earth settings , fore most of the things in the books can not be legal here on earth or per say real life. But yet we can set some of those aspects into our own life. If anyone has any ideas or knowlege please fill me in. |
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Today, i can say days are getting better.
Though the one thing i see everywhere i go, is people fighting over what is right or what is wrong. Who though are the ones to define what is right or wrong for how a person wishes to live thier lives? Is there really an answer to that? I feel that there is. Fore i live my life at the moment i how see fit, if i were with a Master then i would live my life how He see's fit . It would be no others concern.
So this makes me think that most in all these forums and sites tend to rather want to dictake to others how to live thier life, when in all reality they need to check thier own. Fore i don't say, oh my! Your living your lifestyle all wrong, the books said this the books said that or this website states it should be this way or that, bull! For now i live my life in servitude to whom ever needs me .But in just plain and simple servitude for that is what brings out my slavery to a more profoundness of my being. It brings the fire that is within my soul and bellie to a boil where it should always stay. As i am slave.. at the moment not Gorean not BDSM i am merely slave.
That is my life, that is how i was born , this is how i have always been and cannot see me being something other than what and who i am.
Would i like a Master? sure what slave wouldn't. Do i want just any Master? No. I want a Master who is truly a Master. One who don't live his daily life online. When my Master comes i will know by the sound of His boots and the sound of His voice and the sound of His whip once cracked beconing for my appearance my sevice my obedience , everything that belongs to Him. |
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"Hello",
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I'm very new to the lifestyle but I'm not new to who and
what i am .. I'm here to learn and enjoy company of liked minds.
I'm a butterfly not a butterfly collector.
i emerge , embrace and i partake in discovery.
( Failure is merely an opportunity to begin again more intelligently.)
I am seeking a Long Life with a good and all knowing Master.The One who knows who and what i am and how to let me belong to Him.
Show me how to fly!!!Take me where i need to be and wish to stay..I need a Strong Master ,who knows i need Him to guide me and understand me. Not someone who just wants a few hops in a sack and be done, i can find that anywhere. and Please understand i wont meet you right off the bat i will wish to get to know you very well before i ever venture into the real with anyone.
At this time i am working on earning a Bachelor of Science in Information Technology - Web Development .. so my time in here will be limited .
I have a varity of interests and hobbies .. i am not in the best of shape but not for the lack of wanting too altho i do try and work out when i can , i do a lot of running for others so feels i get a good work out lol.. but i do admit i need more an will get more this year it is my goal to be inshape .. to give you a perfection, in time.. For those who understand i have the belly of a slave and have the desire to nothing but please and be pleaseing to the One who will someday be my Life.. And to me the pleasure i have is in pleasing you ..
If you wish to get to know me then email me after a few exchanges then we can exchange our own emails and take things one step at a time .. thank you for reading my profile i hope it shows you a little into who i am .. be well and be blessed in all You do .. I am not perfect but i am working on perfection.
My Ideal Person:
I am looking for a TRUE STRONG Master,someone who don't play around , someone serious in what they want , I am not looking for games or any kind of one night stands besides other things i am still a lady on the outside even tho on the inside i would be your hot steaming submissive/slave. I deal every day which i am sure most of us do in the vanilla world i have not known the world in which i was born to be in yet and i am begining to wonder if i ever will.. i have yet to talk to very many true to whom they say they are .. if your here looking for just play time i am not in the least inerested.. i am looking for someone who wants a real true submissive/slave who can be a lady on the outside and be whatever he wishes in the privacy of our own domain..
The hardest thing i ever had to do was submit to my heart. The sweetest thing i will ever do is submit to Him.
I am special and I am someone who deserves the best. If you can not understand how life works please pass me by. thank you for reading my profile and good luck to all in your ventures.
Today is a new day .. tomorrow is yet to come, yesterday has already gone away .. so im looking forward still to a brand new tomorrow ..
there is a song out well, it's an old song.. it sings are You strong enough to be my Man? well i have to really ask that question, for life isn't all roses .. don't play me dont make me look a fool.. love me and watch all Your desires come into lite.. pleasing and serving is what i have been placed here to do .. somedays though it isn't somethng that can be possible.. im only human, but i can and do strive to be all i can be for you each day ..
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