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to those people who want to message me...plss read this first
it will save both our time and your effort!!!!
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this is what i wrote before i join this site(with high hopes of course).........
11-18-08
at first i thought im different..i do not understand why i love to see people being humiliated,restricted,suffered,in pain,tortured..etc..
then i found out..its not only me who has this kind of attitude,all of us has an innate crazinest inside ..what makes me different is that, i have the guts to let it show,,to come out and to
put my self into test on how far can i go and how crazy i can be.
now its up to u..to join me in this lifestyle..im serious about this..if ur that someone who wants to be dominated and put into test,,lets see if your worth to be my sub/slave.
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3-15-09
that was few months ago...
few months of endless questions if i am dominant enough..of my fetishes..if i want this or not..if im willing to be relocated..etc.etc..and if i am a she!!!(lol)
when i joined this site i had a very high hopes that this will help me to discover my self,to know what i really want,to find that missing part,to meet that person who will join me in my dream of being a true mistress with a submissive man right besides me and explore the lifestyle with him.
i guessed i was wrong, its not that easy,actually its like finding a needle in a rumble of rocks.harder than i thought.
i've met a lot of people here,,real slaves/subs.,wana be's,and dominants as well.
chatted to few brave souls and been friends with some,but still i cant find that missing part of my life.
once i thought i did but...i guessed im not lucky enough!!!
now im wondering..mybe im not really as crazy as i think i am,learning and hearing a lot of things a dominant mistress should do made me realized......
mybe im not a real domme after all, or maybe like everyone else here saying they are this and that but at the end of the day they still have no clue who they are and what they really want.
i wana dominate people specially guys,,thats true but im not sure if putting their lives into danger or loosing their self worth as a human is what i want.
what i want is a submissive man not a stupid dog, a lover not a bitch, and a friend not a toy,who can still be a man and stand up as a man at the end of the day.
funny..this crazy site brought me back to reality making me realized what i really want,so its not crazy being here after all!!!
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