Depravedpigslave

There are days when this slave feels hopeful about the future, and days when it feels completely hopeless with a profound sense of loss. Today definitely falls in the latter category. it isn't exaggerating when it says that it has had thoughts of being dominated and/or being a slave to men for as long as it can remember. As it got older, those thoughts and feelings only intensified. In its 20's, it was able to experience that life when a Master allowed it the honor of being His slave for 6 years. Although it was only part-time, it was still a wonderful learning experience and the most fulfilling time of its life to this day. its service to Him was cut short when He moved to Europe for His job. He gave it the choice to go with Him and begin service to Him on a full-time basis, or to stay. Being so young and inexperienced at the time, it sadly chose to stay.  That decision has haunted it ever since. it will forever be grateful to Him for allowing it the privelege of being His slave. Despite that experience deepening its desire to be an owned slave, life had other plans for it. Now it sits here, full of regrets, sadness and that sense of loss it spoke of. it doesn't want to live this unfulfilled life it now finds itself in any longer. it desperately longs for that sense of purpose it had back in its 20's when it was His slave again. But as it gets older, those opportunities seem to grow fewer and further between. It gets harder and harder to hold out hope as the days go by. It's true what they say about youth being wasted in the young. 

it's tired of aimlessly going through life, wasting it, Sir. Please give it a purpose and reason for being, Sir.