I am a Civilized Monster.
I am greatly amused by your pain. I am also greatly amused by your pleasure. When you scream, gasp, moan, sigh, I am happy.
I will gladly restrain you because that keeps your squirming to a minimum (and since I'm so incredibly fond of knives, this is practical as well as hilarious).
I mentioned knives? Well, yes indeed, knives will happen. All types of knives. Swords even. Blood will not necessarily happen, because that's were I drawn the line--a thin red line, granted, but a line nonetheless.
I will flog you, cane you. I will twist, pull, scrape, scratch, and bite. I will poke, prod, torture, study, and learn. I will most definitely laugh.
I will give you multiple orgasms, if possible. But, when you are gasping and screaming, I will turn the Hitachi off and say, "I'm sorry, I couldn't hear you over the sound of the Hitachi. Were you about to come?"
And yes, I will gladly fuck you. Fuck you with things. Odd-shaped things, big things, small things, most likely very cold things. Actual dildos and penises are negotiable.
I will cuddle with you, pet you, hold you, try to make you feel safe. Yes, I realize that I didn't add 'afterward' to that last sentence. Cuddles, safety, and pain are not, in my mind, mutually exclusive.
When I tell you to ask permission to orgasm, it is because I am a control freak. I want to know exactly what is happening, when, where, and why. Think of it as if I were writing the definitive work on the subject.
But, if you beg, you will only amuse me. If you call me 'sir,' I will probably mock you. If you try to make me mad, to use my anger in your favor, I will chain you in a corner and go sit in another room, ignoring you completely. If you try to top from the bottom, I will do exactly what you don't want. If you lie or are incapable of knowing yourself well enough to know when you are lying, I will never scene with you again.
I am not interested in your submission. I am not interested in controlling your life. I will not take responsibility for you outside of a scene.
I am not your Dominant. I am not your Master. I am not your Daddy. I am most definitely not some sort of leather-wrapped Superman who can read your mind and dominate you the way your want, when you want, no discussion necessary.
I am simply a Civilized Monster.