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2/1/2013 8:44:33 AM

Today I was asked to think about what colour my Domme is...

I think she falls under the green inquiring dimension. I think in her past, and in everything she does she seeks to understand, and that understanding represents her power. This way she can have control.

Greens love to master anything that comes their way. Then they may lose interest in it and move on to another challenge. This sounds like my domme.

Now, I am no expert so I may be wrong, as I really have only known her for two days.

Myself, I probably am too green. I am intellectually inclined, seeking to really understand how things work. After attaining that understanding, i go on to seek understanding to something else.

Ok, She informed me that she is not green.

hmmm.

Well, here is how she is like orange...

The symbol for Orange is the exclamation point reflecting their high energy, spontaneity and excitement. The colour orange has a vitality and life to it, and it is used to denote dangerous situations reflecting that Oranges like living in the moment. Their special skill is tactics. They are able to look at a situation, know what to do right now and take action.

I do definitely see that in her, though high energy and excitement is hard to see over the internet. She at least in our conversations, does seem somewhat reserved. I do see her living in the moment, able to look at a situation and knowing what to do right now and take action. She appears to be quite smart.

I can also see her acting on impulse, though in our conversations she does seem rather deliberate.

Another core need of Oranges is to have impact on people. They want recognition for how well they perform which can be very graceful and impressive. I do see a bit of that in her as well. In part, I sense that is what energizes her. This is true however for most people, so this in itself does not make it definitive.

Now she could be blue as well....

Blues are concerned about everyday things like seeing that everyone is fed, but they are more concerned about seeing that everyone has the opportunity to develop their full potential. For Blues, rules are only guidelines. If there are special circumstances then rules are made to be bent a little or even broken. I do see this in her as well. I think she is thriving on seeing me discover and develop...

After further deliberation , I beleive her to be ORANGE.

2/1/2013 5:48:13 AM

Today was interesting,

I was chatting with a potential new Domme (I think she now is) about elements of my inner psyche. (I don't know if she would actually say that this is what it was about).

Our discussion was interesting, she was finding out about me, making me reflect on my desires to enter into a Domme slave relationship. She challenged me in many ways, saying that perhaps this wasn't for me, in a quiet way though knowing exactly what was in my mind. She had me doubting what I should be doing. It is difficult to write here, what all this really means in my inner soul.

Then she gave me a task, to find a video clip that i can relate to showing the Domme slave relationship - the one I like the best. I told her that would be difficult as a lot of stuff out there is purely porn, poorly acted and doesn't capture what I feel is the inner essence of the relationship.

So I scanned the internet, and of course I did find many videos that "excited me", raised my "interest" so to speak. I then found a couple that I really connected with. I sent them to her as requested. My resolve has never been stronger.

I needed to chat with her, I needed her, I longed for her. My feelings were uncontrollable. She then told me to not to beg unless she commanded it. I immediately stopped begging. Somehow more than ever, I find myself under her control.

In retrospect, I feel that she had skillfully manipulated me all day. She was in control. She did this without me understanding at the time that she was doing so. It was amazing, this is my dream.

I thought of her all night, fantasized about what had happened, and what might happen. I look forward to further discussions today. I am longing for her direction. As I write this note, I find it difficult to wait.....

Today I learned that I am not in control and I am at the mercy of this domme. Perhaps I am not as strong minded as I previously thought.

1/30/2013 7:46:32 PM