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deannawill

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I am a totally submissive and blossoming female (MtoF transsexual) who has a need to be owned. When I find the right person, I will give my all. Please understand, I am one hundred percent authentic. For one thing - life is too short to fool one's self and others. For another - I NEED to be owned, to please, and have most things decided for me. My goal is to be an addition to a home where I can live my femininity to its fullest. I am willing to relocate any distance under the right circumstances. Looking For: A man, a woman or a couple who will allow me to live within their lifestyle sphere. To me (and a lot of Tgirls I've met), orientation is not important at all. I am ready to speak intelligently with you, as you wish. I am pretty quiet, and very sensual. I have had some experience with Doms, but I am very willing to learn more in order to please well. Just thinking about having my hands tied behind me and being forced - gives me shivers. Ideal Person: I want four simple things in life: I want to feel safe and loved, I want to know that life has a quality about it, I want to have fun, and I want to please my Master or Mistress. I have a lot of common sense and logic, and I am able to generate as much day-to-day responsibility as you wish. I know the score with how most things in the world work, as well as my place. If you are looking to find someone who is "for real", I just may be her. Talk with me. :)
9/18/2005 7:51:55 AM
I am very interested in talking with a Dom from rural Pa or rural 'anywhere' :).  My hope in life is a possibility to live with a special 'Him' in as a loyal sub in His home. Please be open-minded about gender, since I feel that I am more feminine than most genetic girls.
8/30/2005 3:59:34 PM
Life can be sad sometimes. Life for this TS is confused at best, and tumulous at the worst!  Unfotunate it is that a TS often carries a blend of depression and anxiety as her normal fare, but she seems to have a built-in hope that she can find normalization in her life.  What does she seek?  In my case, it is the security (isn't that the normal woman's reach) of being in the arms of a strong man - he who can overcome her in most ways - without laying a bruise upon her body. 

But he assures that he can insure her safety, and allows her loyalty to be surrendered softly.

Should this be my fate, I am not saddened.
8/23/2005 1:55:01 PM
I am looking for a fair and firm Master who is considering a sub for live-in relationship.

  For You, I am willing to work, stay at home and cook, mind the home, or whatever pleases.

Obedient, attentive, intelligent, and loyal.
4/2/2005 2:06:14 PM
MAN WANTED!......sincere pre-op/non/op TS in search of her Dom. I have much to offer in sincerity, loyality, and obedience.

May I also  friendship and support for you when needed? Please drop me a msg and see if I can fill a void.   Deanna
12/30/2004 3:35:16 PM
This just happened to me........... My mood is bad. He has just left me without so much as a nod. I fall in a heap to the hallway floor - me, a miserable sight, lying on my side, sulking and kicking across the ungiving marble. Tears dry, spasms lessen. I lay face down and let the coldness of the marble first touch my left cheek, then my right. The polished stone draws the flushed heat from them. Outward breath paints small fog marks. There is a soothing about it. Minutes pass into whatever larger segments that they become. The stone calms me. Then an urge!.....I bare my breasts and press them against the confidence of the marble. The stone lulls and comforts me.......no, it holds me, even as I wiggle, it has grip. My bottoms fly off, and my mound is next to be caressed by the swirly floor. Add a pair of slithering legs, and the trance is complete. My master returns. He is angry because I do not rise as he calls to me. He has to lift me. I try to fall, weak-kneed, back to the floor. But He has none of this, and again, I assume my role. I am a submissive. (by deannawill)
9/25/2004 9:06:04 PM
Ever wonder who searches harder? Is it the Dom/me seeking the perfect sub to serve and to be loyal - almost to a "no matter what" degree? Or is it the little sub who is craving to have a void filled in her life which is unbearable? I can't presume to answer that, because I am not a "D", but I /do/ know that I feel hurt because, so far, I cannot find that right "D" for me. Not that I haven't been trying. No. I ran the clubs and TG type nightspots. I did the internet thing until I wore out a keyboard. Once, I drove 400 mi to meet with a prospective D. It didn't work out. We just didn't 'click', but at least /this/ sub is trying hard to find "Him".
8/15/2004 3:59:13 PM
Just taking advantage of a lazy Sunday.........slightly fogged with scotch........and feeling like making my marks on this thing of ours. GAUD AM I HORNY!!! Now that that has been uttered, I feel a bit calmer, although not much more satisfied. Tell me! Where the hell are the Doms or Dommes who want such easily-gotten chattel such as me? I have avowed to be faithful and obedient. I have poured out my meager soul about my worthless needs and fantasies. Now it is up to you to step up. Out of all the beautiful people here at Collar, certainly someone out out of the bunch of you would risk giving me a tumble? I admit readily that I am no longer totally (or even closely) nubile......wait! MY BREASTS are only than four years old damn it!! Perky as hell and to die for. I have a well-taken-care-of bod that has not blinded anyone to my knowledge lately. All the GG girls out there can go scratch. Gravity has been smashing my breasts down for only four years, and I flaunt the hell out of em. On a more serious note: just enjoy your lives, that is my advice. If you can squeeze me into the equasion, so much the better. 
6/3/2004 3:33:22 PM
NUTSHELL: I want to please as a sub. I am less than four years old as a TS.....just a baby (and I've been told not to 'hard to look' at either). I /must/ have a new life. Work me in a Kmart, Walmart, or keep me home to care and cook. If you are a fair and caring Master, who wants someone who knows what this sub needs, I may be (and should be) there with you to serve you.
5/11/2004 4:49:37 PM
Talked by phone with Him. Took a drive with Him. He had to pick up His kids, but said he would meet me at a certain place in an hour. Thought we hit it off very well. I went and waited (25mi no less, and for an hour).......GOT STOOD Up. feel very hurt. He won't even acknowledge me or give me a reason. See? Not finding your "mate" is not a male domain. I didn't deserve this and am still crying on and off. Somewhere, someone who is a decent and caring Master will get a good thing.
4/28/2004 3:35:10 PM
As a recent 'Collar Me' member, I am overwhelmed by all the similiarily -connected people here. Now, I see that there is a smallish and dedicated group who moniter constantly. The choices of subs and Masters are quite limited. So......I have to increase my odds, lol. I AM the /one/ to accept! If ever there was an honest and 'ready' sub out there, it is ME. After all, a TS has already faced many real life situations, and she is usually certain of what she wants and needs. Before you "straight" males dismiss me out-of-hand, I beg you to give me another look. Talk with me. I may just show you what dedication really is. *kiss*
4/17/2004 9:40:57 AM
I am just checking out this Journal Entry feature. I am always trying to learn, and realize that it is the best way for me.
rhian20
 
 Age: 40
 Gloucester, United Kingdom