CrazyC


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	About CrazyC No one could have told me 5 years ago what I would have to learn, experience, and enjoy when walking into a BDSM community and relationship. It is not something you can put down in words some days, but it is a beautiful path. It is filled with bright colors of joy and deep darkness of our shadowy selves. We get to high dive into the deep parts of our inner selves, and see from many different levels what we are. When explored to this extreme, you don’t come out the same as you entered. And the question stands, would I ever wish that I didn’t take that step. The answer….no. I would have never become fully at peace with who I am naturally. In a factual manner, I am a student majoring in business. I also learn bellydancing on the side, and follow a very earth based faith. Certified in massage, but not active in practising it. I have figured out though that I need something special in a relationship where I get to explore my submission and love for pain. I want someone that understands the growth that comes from learning the energy of power between two souls. It needs to be real, so in this manner I am not in it for online relationships. I do though love having friends, and in that manner it is great. I want a master who can help me grow and respect me enough make some decisions for myself. One who understands that there is a vanilla life, and that we need to live in it. That our relationship is strong enough to trust me in that world. In other words, I will not revolve my life around BDSM and want someone is of same spirit. I am far from perfect, and have some insecurities. I recognize them as something I need to work on as an individual, and not something anyone else can "fix" for me. I love to get to know you as a friend before playing, so realize I might take things slow. -c

I really am only here now on occation and during that time...I am just wanting friends. Please forgive me if i don't fall to the ground on my knees because of your amazing letter of demanding submission from someone i have never laid eyes on.

For those who are in the Sacramento Area or visiting, this new group is a great place to meet new and old friends and find out what is going on in the local area. Please drop by and say hi!

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(This is from my philosophy paper, and to help with the stupid "who are you?" profile question.)
Who am I?

This is one question that I still have tried to dodge for the quarter, and to be truly honest I have no complete answer to it still. I feel it is an unfair question to ask someone, since we are always evolving. What I feel and think now, will be a little different and a little the same. It all depends on how the future and how the past plays a part in my life. The Past holds keys as to why I react the way I do. Where my future, can only happen after I pass through the door. Then there is the question that if I don?t like the door, I can always walk back out and find another door. I have seen these types of changes in my life, and know that the person I am today won?t be the same in the long run.

I have been labeled to later find out that the label was the wrong diagnoses. I have lived by other?s rules to find that they were more not well educated rules that have any backing. I have found that things I thought would be there for a life time can be very temporary. I have had material things, and then I have had nothing. You see life through different eyes when you don?t know where you are going to sleep at night. But these are all my realities.

I also understand that the person next to me might not feel the same way. This person might have been labeled and it helped them heal. They might find comfort in living in rules made from ignorance. I couldn?t, but for some this is good for them. They too might have had all their material good taken from them, and found this left them more wanting of them.

I guess the best way to describe me is I am the flame on a candle. Though my spirit is the same body/candle all of my life. The flame from that candle is never the same. And like my body, the candle is ever fading. The flame, on the other hand, is growing and evolving until there is no more candle.

I have a gift to give,

But I hold the keys tight.

It loves to play around,

And sometimes be a tease.

It loves to explore life,

And all the possibilities.

This gift is quite beautiful

And seems to grow with age.

The little scratches you may see

Made the gift a more valuable wage.

It is uniquely special,

And has splendid things to share.

With someone who is knowledgeable,

And will flourish in his care.

I have a gift to give,

Are you worthy of my heart?

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