Cntryoutlaw

What an interesting journey this life of ours is. 

I sit here today thinking wondering as I so often do.  Each of us look for something, that is why we are here. Some look for a lil play time within our own minds. Some look for a diversion, a little kinky fun with someone strange to us or someone we can play with occasionally.  Others of us look for something much deeper. Some for a romantic encounter still others for something much darker.

Myself I ponder, with so many people here and on other sites and in local community groups, is there really one out there that can fill ALL of my needs. Can they satisfy that dark beast within me and yet still be able to wear that cloak of vanilla.

Oh such things to ponder

We live, we love

We work, we survive

We search, we hope

We want, we need

We hurt, we heal

We live

I wanted to take this time to wish each and every one of you a very very merry christmas...may each of you be safe and enjoy this season. I truly hope each of you find something very special to hold on to the next few days and through out this next year.

J.

Good Morning dear friends,

As I was reading through some profiles over the last few days and weeks I noticed quite a few people using the word "punishment" to describe an activity or activities that in my humble mind clearly wasnt "punishment".  I realise that noone really pays much attention to what I write or think and that is ok too....its still just a little peeve to me.

In my opinon

Punishment should NOT be fun

Punishment is not pleasant

Punishment is not designed to turn either of you on

Punishment SHOULD correct a specific fault or problem

Punishment SHOULD be specific

Punishment SHOULD be clearly understood by both that it IS punishment not play

I guess I am peeved a bit because I AM a sadist and have many times been talking with a submissive and have had them tell me they WANT to be punished....NO NO NO what they mean (I believe) is they want to feel pain, to be hurt (not harmded), to feel that intensity.  They do not have to do something wrong just to feel that...and IF she IS doing wrong or bad things to be punished so she can feel pain....something is wrong ...again IMO. 

I can understand when a girl does something wrong....to confess it to her Dom and beg for his help in correcting her behavior...BUT that is not what is happening. For the most part, these girls really mean they want to be hurt they want to be spanked, even tortured.

What complicates it even more is when some men encourage this mixing up of these ideas, by incorporating sexual innuendos with punishment. A prime example, and I have read this many times in profiles talking about their punishments..The Dom will say to the sub "When I am done punishing you, you will beg me to fuck you" or "you will crawl to me begging to suck me"

HUH?   if he had said "when I am done TORTURING" or "when I am done WHIPPING" etc that would be all good..subbie is not confused...

I guess I just feel that a Dom has a duty and obligation to NOT confuse a submissive about what is happening.

well I know each to their own...this is just my rant for the morning

J.

How many times have you heard or read "he needs to be broken" or "She needs to be broken", "I was broken", someones heart was "broken".   My thought is how many times can a person be broken or a heart broken before they/it cannot pull themselves back together.  How many times before the heart will not heal?

What then...when the heart doesn't heal...

Just tonight's thought

It still surprises me sometimes, though it really shouldn't anymore, how some people can be simply rude.

What I am speaking of specifically is when you pay someone a genuine heartfelt compliment...I realize they don't necessarily wish to have any sort of protracted conversation however that does not preclude their showing some class and grace.

As I see it and for what it is worth if a person should give a simple compliment it is the least we can do is be polite if only to say thank  you...there is the ability to have that as a per-configured response.

Just a thought we maybe should be a bit more polite...I understand when they don't gracefully take no thanks for an answer.

Tonight I find myself pondering a question...perhaps it is more a simple fact of what is as compared to a question....

The issue is, why do men seem to feel the need to lie to a girl, lead her on....then when she commits to him to abandon her in pursuit of another girl?  Is it the chase they seek or are they truly unsatisfied? Do they not have a shred of honor and loyalty. What happened to a man saying what he means and meaning what he says? 

It is tragic how many are hurt by such behavior. Then when a genuinely honest man DOES come along....she looks at him with distrust and expecting to be mislead again. It makes it feel as if you have to jump through hoops to prove you are in fact honest.

WHy not be up front and say what you are looking for....behonest with yourself and with others. It is obvious we are not everyones cup of tea...lord knows I am not...and that is ok...I only want to be ONE's girls everything.

Just a thought

Honor

What is Honor?  Honor to me is a very simple thing yet at the same time very complex. 

Honor is knowing what is right and doing it.

Honor is saying what you mean and meaning what you say

Honor is giving your word and keeping it

Honor is doing what you SAY you will do

Honor is respecting other’s property

Honor is being honest with yourself and with others

Honor is not stealing

Honor is not breaking faith with others

Honor is telling the truth, not half truths or outright lies

Honor is taking responsibility for you own actions

Honor is not cheating or using underhanded tricks or slick talk to get what you want

Honor is to be able to look in the mirror each morning and KNOW you have done right

Honor is to be able to look in that same mirror that night and KNOW you stood tall

I am not sure why they do it but occasionally someone takes an interest in each of us.  Normally I dont mind that at all, but when someone decides they need (for what ever reason) to create fake profiles and then over and over and over view my profile.   All I can think is that they get some perverse pleasure from it...To me, its no big issue other than being mildy annoying

Tonight sitting here reading through the emails, some well written though the girl would not fit me, some not so well written or clearly copy paste from fakes and scammers.  Yes there is one Im very interested in.  ;) you know who you are.

Anyway I digress, I was thinking....with the types of messages I get ...99% crap...I pitty in a way you girls...you must get inundated with tons of emails from those who are SO out there that their reality is truly frightening, sincere yet frightening, to those who want a quick msg or phone call or cam so the can spank their monkey before "mommy" gets home. There are those who have absolutely NO idea what it means to truly own a slave...they gush all their "domly" wisdom touting that they are the be all end all and any woman who doesn't instantly drop to their kness for him is either a fool, a liar, or a player and fake.

Yes I truly must apologize ladies for all the buffoons, baboons, bumblers and buttheads that you have to deal with in that search for the 'Man' that fits with the needs you have and where you are in life.  Yes not all have the same wants needs and desires...it neither makes them a player or a fake, though there are plenty that are who are quite adept at blending in...that ole half truth thing...

Just my nightly musing and pondering from the road...cause I got that kind of time ;)

Good journeys, smooth trips and good fortune in your quest

Me

Good evening to those few of you that might read my or any persons journals on here.

It seems from what ive read from other individuals writings, few actually do read them or the profiles for that matter. Rather they seem to spend an inordinate amount of time writing either foolish messages to potential individuals or they write such short dribble that they are discarded as useless.

I fail to understand how men can write to a woman whom they dont even know such things as ...

I am going to come over, rape you and show you what a worthless whore you are.

Write me back slut or you will pay for it

Send me your picture and phone number bitch

I am your Master obey me or else

and other stupid statements.   Guys...are you that blind to see that you are merely wasting your time. What girl would take such idiotic statements in her first communication from you with even the slightest grain of sincerity.  Unless maybe  your whole intent is to prove you you are a fool, in which case...keep writing such remarks...you definitely prove you are just that.

Take some time, be respectful, be polite. This is a person you have never met. Would  you speak to someone on the street in such a manner? I think not, well maybe some of  you would...and probably why you have had some legal issues such as arrests..and restraining orders perhaps.  Seriously, think a bit before you write. Take the time to actually READ the profile and see if there is common ground.  Be civil if even just sending a short note of compliment. 

Another point, try not to tell someone else how they should live or what they should or should not want. Remember this is not YOUR slave...at least not yet...and if you are crass and belligerent, I'd say its a good chance they won't every be your slave or submissive.

Bottom line fellas, use  your big head instead of your little head when writing a lady, woman, girl or female how ever they may describe themselves.

Just my thought for the day

Daddy Please:

When I know I can withstand her vice like velvet grip no longer, I break the kiss and look deep into her beautiful eyes.  The lust there does it; I must cum in this delicious slave of mine.  I pull her down against me and drive one more time deeply into her, hearing her groan as I bottom out again.  Holding her there I whisper into her ear, “give it to me baby, give me your cum, cum for me princess, give it to Daddy”.  Instantly she begins to spasm her pussy gripping me even tighter near painfully, her legs a mass of quivering flesh, her ass gripping hard, her whole body tense against me straining to go a million ways in one time. I see her eyes roll back in her head and her body shaking, raising her up to go deeper as she cums…I hear her quivering ringing the slave bells MY bells. As I cum deep in her I remember she said she would ring my bells for me…and she has. My slave, My baby girl, My beloved princess, My virgin wife has again given her Daddy her very essence…

I wonder why it is some ask for people to write and then when they receive mails the summarily delete them without so much as opening them or a simple thanks but no thanks.  I find it rude, disingenuous and down right poor manners not to respond in one way or anthere.

I realize that women here are swamped with emails. As i see it the fact of the magnitude of the emails does not preclude one from a simple polite no thank you would suffice.  If they put as much time into writing one as some of us do (discounting one line squibs) Im sure they would appreciate their letter to at least be read even if not responded to

Just my thoughts on manners

Each day brings new experiences new journeys and new paths to travel. We have but two choices, to blindly plod along or to open our eyes enjoy the sights sounds and smells. We can be sheep just following any old dog that happens to choose to go our general way or we can be wolves who seek out the paths least traveled, stand along in the harsh wints of reality and truly live our lives.

As I sit here this evening, I wonder why some people find it fun to mislead and then attempt to belittle those within this chosen way of life.  Just tonight I had one message me in such an attempt.  I have had dealings with this one before. Though for me that person is quick to identify due to their apparent lack of imagination, it is still quite annoying that they seem to feel it is either fun or their mission in life to judge us.

I am not sure there is an answer to this question, some people are just buttheads. Pitty there isn't a way to stop them, but its part of life I recon. They are in all areas of life I realize, just that sometimes it gets a bit weary dealing with them all the time.

LOL Ok nuff of my rant for the day