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my body trembles, as i kneel on the hallway floor. Awaiting Your arrival and then O/our departure, as W/we begin O/our journey to the Château at Roissy.
i have been submissive since before i even knew what it meant. i remember having bondage fantasies from the early age of 9 or 10. It wasn’t until i found the BDSM Lifestyle that everything fell into place for me and i realized that i wasn’t an aberration of society *smiles*. i was educated by a loving Dom when i was 22 years old. He taught me many aspects of the Lifestyle that i still crave to this day. i quickly became addicted to pleasures and the pain as they mingled and became one. Since that time, i have found a way unto life that cannot be fulfilled in any other way.
Throughout the past several years, i have come to know myself better then i thought possible. i understand what it truly means to serve and the pleasures that are gained from being able to do so. i have tried to live my life without BDSM and came up wanting. i accept that it will always be a part of me. It is what enables me to feel complete.
At one point in my journey, i thought that being a submissive was the only thing that would fulfill me. Then i was introduced to pain. i discovered just how pleasurable the pain could be. If it was harsh enough, then it would frequently send me into subspace. There was nothing like it, the whole world melted away until all that was left was that thud that kissed my skin, sending ripples of pleasure coursing through me. Time and people no longer existed, i was nothing more then a vessel. i then learned how to achieve orgasmic release from the thud of the cane or the sting of the whip. i fell in love with the pain and soon began to crave it like an addict. i had my limits pushed further then i ever had thought possible. From neck to knees, my body was a tapestry of bruises, cuts and welts that would take weeks to disappear. Then a Daddy Dom entered my life and showed me a whole other side to the Lifestyle. His touch was gentle, His words were sweet. It left me confused at first but i grew to desire and crave that gentleness as much as i hungered for the severity of the cane. Nothing pleased me more then having Him whisper, “Good girl” in my ear. i loved how He would let me curl up against Him in His arms.
i have had an epiphany as well. i have come to realization that i am the epitome of an oxymoron. i am also learning to come to terms with in inner depravity that i kept secreted away for so many years due to fear. i am many things and have many varied interests however, i am a lack of control junkie! i am considered by most to be on the bratty side and yes, i do enjoy testing the waters so to speak. Mostly, i just have this insatiable need to see what will happen. What i am not; is a newbie, novice or doormat. i know the difference between Domination and disrespect and will not tolerate the latter.
i have very few hard limits and if there is something that i haven't tried, i will usually try to experience it.
i firmly believe that in order to control my body, You must first be able to enslave my mind. i can bring myself to submit to Anyone but i am searching for the One(s) that i want to submit too.
In my vanilla life, i am a BBW and a single mother. i run a very busy household that can get quite hectic from time to time. i have a wide variety of hobbies and interests. i can be very stubborn and outspoken but never uncouth. Beware of my sense of humor *smiles*.
If Y/you wish to know more, please don’t hesitate to contact me. Be well.
Take me to the edge and allow me to look into the abyss.
Respectfully,
candysweet
__________________________Favorite Quotes_______________________
And if you gaze for long into an abyss, the abyss gazes also into you.
Friedrich Nietzsche
“When she's abandoned her moral center and teachings...when she's cast aside her façade of propriety and lady-like demeanor...when I have so corrupted this fragile thing and brought out a writhing, mewling, bucking, wanton whore for my enjoyment and pleasure.....enticing from within this feral lioness...growling and scratching and biting...taking everything I dish out to her.....at that moment she is never more beautiful to me. ”
Marquis de Sade
Why do people say, "Grow some balls"?
Balls are weak and sensitive!
If you really wanna get tough, grow a vagina.
Those things take a pounding!
Betty White
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For all the submissive boi's out here, please know that i am in no way, shape or form Dominate. While i have tried in the past to explore that area, i know that it is not who i am. i have no desires to try and Dominate you nor will i just send you messages of that manner. Please respect this. |
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A submissives plea
When i am lost, please help me find myself because i may not be able to do it on my own.
When i am confused, please remind me of my place because i may need Your strength to banish these thoughts.
When i am sad, please wrap Your arms around me because Your embrace is worth more than a thousand words.
When i am happy, please let my happiness fill You because i love to see how Your smile makes Your face light up.
When i love You, please let me love You passionately because You are the reason that i can love.
When i say something wrong, please correct me because i may not realize that i have offended You.
When i misbehave, please punish me because i need Your chastisement to obtain a level of perfection befitting of You.
When i give You my mind, please enslave it for it gives me satisfaction to know that You control it.
When i give You my body, please use it as You see fit because it is then that i feel my true worth.
When i give You my soul, please treasure it because without it i would be dead inside.
When i give You my heart, please protect it, for i am human and emotional pain is far worse than any punishment that You may administer.
When i sit at Your feet, please touch me because the smallest touch from You makes my heart race.
When i upset You, please don’t ignore me. Let me know so that i may see the err of my ways.
Ignorance may be bliss but for those on the receiving end, it’s like a knife through the heart.
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i am reactivating this profile after it has been sitting dormant for about 4 years here. As for the pictures in my profile, the ones of me in the leather outfit and the fistnets are older and the rest have been taken within the past month. |
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The results of my BDSM Quiz:
Submissive
96%
Degradation Lover
93%
Experimental
89%
Masochist
82%
Exhibitionist / Voyeur
79%
Bondage
71%
Sadist
25%
Switch
25%
Dominant
4%
Vanilla
0% |
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Thank you to A/all for the birthday wishes yesterday. They definitely brought a smile to my face *smiles* |
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The Rack.
As You open Your eyes, to this new day.
Your mind starts racing with thoughts of what may.
You rise slowly, with a smile in place.
You gaze upon Your newest, seeing the fear contort her face.
Bonds tight, stretched to the point of breaking.
Knowing full well, she is ripe for the taking.
Standing above her, looking down into her eyes.
her fiesty spirit, flickers then dies.
With Your fingertips, You caress her soul.
Knowing that it is You, that makes her whole.
her need is great, she is not ready You think.
You wish to take her further, on her journey in kink.
The creak of the crank, a scream in the air.
You know full well what she can bare.
her eyes beg and for mercy she will plead.
Your prowess will tell You not to heed.
The tears cascade down her cheeks in vain.
Only, You know the truth, she is in love with this pain. |
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As the darkside beckons with such a force,
i surrender myself completely with no remorse.
To be Your pet, Your servant, Your slave,
i crave Your lash when i misbehave.
i love to love love's darker powers.
It blooms; it blossoms and begins to flower.
Tis then i love the chains and whips.
The pleading from my soft, soft lips.
my heated moans, my tortured sighs,
the sting and redness upon my thighs.
As i kneel before You, at Your feet,
head bowed, knees parted, eyes never to meet.
i wait anxiously for all Your commands
and eagerly fulfull all of Your demands.
Some say this love exceeds the extremes
but if that were so, then so do my dreams.
Where people dare not to speak it's name
i embrace and love to play O/our little game.
But one must remember the golden rule
and if it's not followed then you are a fool.
my body is sacred and given to You in trust
You should love and respect me, this is a must. |
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