I love BDSM. I love the history behind it, the stories created from it. The lives affect by it. I am entralled at the differences that can be overlooked when a play is in session.

One can lose their identity and become their fantasy, become their passion.

They no longer hold their name but their ranking. They become a verb. They dominate, they submit. Race/religion/creed are gone, appearances don't matter, and it is a girl being a girl and a Dom being Dom.

It is a beautiful lifestyle and there are many who abuse it, many who don't understand.

As a Dom it is your responsibity to teach and take care of your sub. I don't think many understand how connected a sub will get. You are responsible for this girl who would do anything for you along with a Sir at the end. Don't take this for advantage becasue there will always be another Dom ready to take over.

Anyways, I love this lifestyle. I love the obedience involved, the protocal that is demanded. I am so passionate about learning more. I want to make this a huge part in my life. I want to study and analyze anything.

This isn't a fetish for me. This isn't a phase. I am very serious when I give my absolute control. I will not lie, I will not hide. I give everything to my Dom. My trust, my respect, my hopes and my dreams.

So I will not listen to men who use BDSM to relieve some sort of game. I will not respond to anything less of what I need.

I want a serious Dom. I want someone who lives the lifestyle. I am begging for some sort of sign that not everyone here is looking for a sex based relationship. BDSM isn't about sex. it is about trust. It is about power and the exchange of it. There is a foundation that many don't understand.

I don't care if you want to add kink into your sex life. Or want another girl to roleplay with your wife. That is great that you can go out of your boundaries. But that is not what I am, nor is that what I am looking for.

I am not going to respond to messages that read "will you fuck my black lab," or "don't you think you desire slavery because you are black," or any other bullshit.

I am losing faith in finding anyone to relate to... anyone strong enough.

So I am begging... please, Sir, find me. I am waiting.