brittySFts

i waS introduced to the lifestyle by a member of the SOJ who taught me many things and showed me many things about what being a submissive means in the society... and of course that it could in fact mean and be many different things, and that each of us must find the way that it works for ourselves and those we engage with... i was happy to serve in his house and to live and work there about half of each week, i had a fabulous time and yet found that when it was over in that aspect, i felt like i had experienced something special, and that i had discovered in myself something that i had only awakened by this experience. yet i went for a number of years after that (that was in 2006) without furthering what i had done, learned or become there, although i sought such opportunities... those that came were either too extreme for my thought on servitude or not directed toward the things that excited me to consider... so i drifted and fell into a marriage to a man who over time became a cruel warden of my sex life while denying me any growth or satisfaction in it. It took me awhile to understand that he did this by design (as i finally got him to admit to me in a heartbreaking moment that ended aNY thought that i would be able to continue in that relationship, as much as i had felt that i loved him).