i really want to try to indulge in the submissive lifestyle and am trying to find somewhere practicle to start. I am 39, though often people guess (rather generously i think) that my age is more like late twenties, I'm transgendered and have been on hormones for five years, but unfortunately have been unable to get any hormones for the past seven months, however i'm working on rectifying that as quickly as possible. i have a 37a-27-36 figure (once i am back on hormones my bust should return to a "b" cup in a matter of a few months), stand 5' 7" have long raven hair and pleasant features, i live as a woman, and all my id identifies me as Brittany and as female, though i am in fact a pre op ts. I think it's fair to say men who like ts girls find me attractive and in the winter of 2002-03 when i was desperate for a way to pay rent i worked as an escort for about 7 months to the satisfaction of everyone who saw me.

if you know a little about who i am then you will better understand what i am looking for, a partner who is suitable to my needs and desires and situation. First, sexually, i'm a total nympho and not a top

as far as bdsm goes i don't think my delicate and creative sensibilities will ever warm to really hardcore hard play. I'm interested in bondage (being bound into fuckable positions) perhaps some limited sensory (such as sight) deprivation, and into sensory play of the type that is stimulating and erotic but not painful. I don't like pain and i don't want to be tortured or cut, or massacred in any way. I find the idea makes me feel ill. i also would not favor any kind of electrical play or any kind of torture device oriented play. I have a friend who brought over one of those fucking machines once though, and i found that to be really wild and fun, and would love to try more of those... i also found the idea of fisting to be really erotic though i can't for the life of me figure out why but when i watched it i found it fascinating and i have had a few people try to do it, and the ones who approached it right made it very pleasurable... now my new kick is the desire to feel double penetration "down there" i guess i see something erotic that catches me somehow and then a fascination grows with it til i can try it and see how it is... i really don't want anything to do with violence, any kind of hitting or even pinching, no abrasion or genital torture or "expansion" type stuff, no branding or anything like that, or interrogation or cutting or stimulation through terror, i want to be erotically enhanced, not scared... i don't care for uniforms or anything though some leather and fun outfit type fetishwear can be fun, i have a really good corset from fredericks which a friend in mexico suggested i wear for betweeen 1 and three hours every day to train my figure, so i kinda like that kinda stuff in fact, after trying it... im not into feet or anything though it doesn't bother me, and things like watersports, bathroom games, and other things that include bad smells are an intense turn off for me. I think my cool quest of the moment is finding a lover who wants to try going through all the positions in the kama sutra with me...

i like the idea of being collared and belonging to someone but i want it to be someone who will be caring and understanding of all the things i have been talking about. Once someone does something that i find to be gross, i have a really hard time with wanting anything to do with him after that... i also should mention i don't want to get into "altered states" type sensory deprivation or anything, just maybe a blindfold sometimes to increase the element of surprise in sensations or in someone who was unbeknowst to me invited to join in play... the closest i might get to enjoying the mildest kind of pain would have to be spanking, my ex boyfriend sometimes did that when i didn't expect it and though i'd ask him to stop and he would continue anyway, he did it hard enough to very mildly sting but not really hurt, and it did seem to enhance both of our moods as we played... i think that about covers what i had to say in the way of describing what my boundaries are... If all that sounds like the girl you want to boss around in your bedroom then gimme a note and tell me some stuff about yourself :) You'll be glad you did!
love,
Brittany