never been in to pain too much----  a bit of conflicting feelings at the same time is a rush..interesting...   this is unusual however.. I have body aches to the umph degree..sore nipples.. the flesh around my entire middle is hurting.. even my neck and face...  then there is the soothing of the cuddling with the amazing blanket that is made out of  fleece faux fur...   it is cool to the touch and provides warmth when cuddling.. the contrast of all these sensations is giving me a wierd pleasure.. I am feeling very tired as this is the flu on the doorstep of trying to come in..  very unlikely it will.. I am very healthy and I suspect my system will kick its ass.. I just sipped a cup of very hot tea...  half hour later I want a frozen dr. pepper... hmmmmm  I am signing off...  I am going to cuddle up naked with this blanket and sleep....  sipping on this dr. pepper frozen icee drink....  Im hot and cold at the same time...   m pussy is feeling so tender as if it had been ravished last night... no--  I am not even wanting to have glees tongue on me in the slightest...

I feel like a flesh ball in a comfy blanket feeling the elements of toxins fighting my very strong kick ass imune system....  a battle as I feel this .. I am weird, there has been no drugs taken..none but an apsrin.. I am laughing at this entry...   but serious to enjoy this strange moment...     then to write it out here is even more strange..giving me a bigger laugh..

wish me health getting well soon

soooooooooooooooooo  busy...  working and not  havin fun...   back for a moment now..  have happy holidays all...   take moments and reflect as the year changes again...  be more healthy..love those who love us harder..  be better friends and family members...   seek balance of ones true inner soul.....  never hurt or force your wants or agenda on others ...  

unless-----  wink...   but strive for balance and more health in 2013   happy holidays to all that write and read me..

I enjoyed using a pussy pump last night --   the excitement and reaction of her body to this fun toy was amazing..    I used it over and over---    I had to use it on myself as well..  it is wonderful ---I suggest all women try this at some point...  giving and receiving this pleasure  I used the suction on her nipples as well..  simply perfect---   I loved this so much any clear images you want to share with this enhancer please share....

there is so many desires and likes with what we all call the lifestyle..  we are all individuals...   for me i am tender and sensual.. never mean.. just not. but I also know the tease of the love and affection most submissives crave after getting a feel for me is very powerful.. I use that for a better feeling for us both.............  now when it gets to be intimacy as it is for glee and graphic..  then anything goes because we have travled the distance and I know them...........  they trust me

 so a few of you asked me how I can so matter of factly write about how I pee in their mouths.its not just their mouths its their bodies....................  to me I am connecting with them in such a soft and unique way..

  it takes awhile for them to learn.. but once they do it is a craving they cant do without.. I can hear them simply on the phone start to shake and want to leave what ever they are doing like a drug addict to be able to be connecting to my pussy how I see fit and drink.. they have both learned how to gulp with out loosing my stream..  they feel it in their throat and then in their bellies..   mostly while it is going in their mouth ..warm ..   us both connected .. them hearing how this release arouses me..   they swallow just right.. push tighter..  then when it is over they are actually left there wanting more..

 I take this from glee often..  when it hits me I tell her to drink more..    of what ever.. and then when she is ready I will take her..  it is a process of extreme arousal for me...    I want a piece of her.. with graphic I dont have the desire to drink him.. I dont desire the same interaction with his penis often..I have touched him and teased him beyond what he can barely stand.....  teasing him with little kisses.. its not that I dont enjoy his penis but it is a submissive penis to me and there is a difference usually on feelings of dominace over different male submissives.. I care deeply for them, but dont feel womanly free arousal from their penis.. its more their mind and response..

my sweet glee  has not been touched by me for all the reasons I have not been out here..  just not in the mood for anything else but reflection..and busy

so the other night I wanted to tease her--  those things with the rollers on them so one can move furniture around...   it is 2 by 2 feet...   and is basically wood, a square.....  I put a board on it and pillow.......... had glee sit on it bottomless ...spread eagle....  telling her to keep her legs open-- have her scooting around trying to show me and get my attention so I will touch her pussy--  she knows the rules..  she has to beg but not beg.. she has to come up with wonderful statements on how she feels..why she wants me to touch her...

I had every plan on touching her but wanted to keep her wanting badly as I ignored her....  I retired to my couch as she scooted and followed me....  I started watching a movie as she was comfy sitting on the little moveable chair.. h er head resting on the very comfy ottoman...    keeping her knees apart....

I told her to get a sheet and place it on the couch near me.. she got all excited and told her to lay near me with her legs apart one on the floor and one on the back of the couch...  I got aqauainted with my favorite pussy slowly-- moive was no longer being watched..I pulled her ..pinched.. pulled back her flesh-- sucked and nibbled..  had her panting.. fisted her at one point..spent an hour or so on her pussy and her orgasms..   god I love this dance..she is so free just like I  have trained her to be--

then I had her lay on the floor and I fucked her face hard..lovingly peed in her mouth--  grinded her face...........    it was intense and very loving as I had not been with her in some time.

I lost a love that I cherished and loved every single day of my life for the last several years..   had to take a moment to go through the healing and balance of the loss..  the acute pain subsides and I am in play mode again...

have not been out here in awhile.........  just so busy.. very few to dance with out here as newbies have to strike me in a very unique way and it seems rare these days....   feel free to write me and give me a piece of your introductory soul....... if it is meant to be I will take a piece of it and we together will never be able to undo.. 

ive been very reflective over the last several weeks..  that seems to happen to me.. not a night or two.. weeks...  go in deep....    a very sexy kitten/tigress( who is unique to my mind)---  tugged on my most special parts this evening in an email of  a sweet hello..  it woke me up..  over the years out here for me there has been so many special people who have given me wonderful exchanges.. all unique to themselves and me--    the good the bads and the nothings and the absolutely superb out here..  probably the same for us all---  to those who have danced with me briefly or deeply..   thank you--   I remember it all.

something I find so beautiful ...  to stare at or at a glance...  always.. an attractive woman with her legs open...    a man or woman between with their head close .. showing loving her pussy with his her mouth...  always takes me a moment to take it in visually---  I  can hear the wetness or the slippery flesh being loved..

this is not usually the type of entry I write..    in deep thought about the massacre during the batman showing...    so many thoughts...

remembre Maggie--  my dear submissive man friend who I have known for years..  he has the ill wife and I enjoy turning him into my precious Maggie?--  he has a very mysterious clitty..its very long and large, but we make it work with tight fitting panties and such....  remember him/her--     he comes in to visit me now only a few times a year..  I have enjoyed this man for years as he goes to that place and becomes totally my Maggie...  amazing

He came to visit the other day and we always ride and play in a limo..its just our history and way..  we do stop in his hotel or a hotel sometimes...

this time Maggie was waiting and had to change into the outfit I had her buy.............   she had some skimpy large size lingerie..  stockings and some slutty shoes..  the shoes are the same of 4 pairs she always wears..each one was nearly 400 a pair..  not because of the designer, but the size...

I had Maggie wear a plug that fit in her pussy/ass very nicely..  she had to wear it the entire time.. I tied h er to the sides of the interior of the limo...  privacy divider up...  driver had driving route to follow.... 

 there my pretty girlie sat...all tied up and spread open facing me...  titties pinched with pretty jewled clamps...her very unusually large clitty was placed very tightly with in a little panty sack..  only to keep it against her with in the fabric..   I let the tip of the clitty come out of the  top of the panty line...  it leaks when she gets so excited she starts to not breath right.. I like that when she starts to loose it that way...

I caress her clitty with in the tight fabric..   she also has these little balls that are attached to her clitty................   they are just growths.. but sometimes enjoy pulling them and squeezing them gently..  I like to examine them as she sits there..  poor darling...  but at the same time so dam lucky

I get so turned on with her transformation, I start to get wet and put a plug into my pussy , and then put it in her mouth to suck..  then in my ass..  back in  her mouth...   I let her watch me as I put the little plug in my pussy and ass...

the arousal she feels as she is moving with the slight bumpy driving feeling..  ..absolutely sexy to me..  her legs are also spread on the floor and upward just slightly..  I like to have her bend her legs up so she is almost tilted..I like to see her lumps and her clitty..  and I constantly check the plug up her pussy/ass..

her orgasm when allowed to come is so intense.. she shivers and shakes..  I like taking her there...

then back to my pre Maggie man...  we talk about life and the depth of why he needs this...  we both dont care of the why..  we are both amazed that we still get the same thrill of those several years ago when this use to be a once a month get together..

der god its hot---- we all know that ...     graphic has had a bit more extra time as his family is spending time elsewhere for a few weeks...   hmmm--  wonder whos phone starts to light up with sweet little beggins???--   had glee and graphic play the other night.. just them on the comfy floor.   on a sheet..   they both did things to each others bodies as I instructed them to play...  I respect graphics limitations remember.. cant have his mind conflicted ever..    had a double headed dildo. ..  had glee put it in graph very slowly..  then she put it in herself as they both sat facing each other.. kissing...  indian style...  with their bottom parts pointing each other....   ..   the fun of adults going here is amazing..  me sweetly and fondly giving them instructions.. them both so amazing to be open enough to let themselves go to receive and carry out with pure enjoyment and giving...     the whole scene is such a mind bender....    no wonder all of us cant recover when done playing...   I had graphic each a few grapes out of her ass..  she had to relax after he put them in so he could suck them  out ....    i had him enjoy few pieces of mandarine orange slices in her pussy after that messy sucking...  they both came over to me while I was sitting on the chair near them... I spread my legs open and they both at the same time licked the cool gooey melted slush drink I had .. I dribbled it on my pussy and moved just right so they both could feast...  had them beg for who was going to dink my first pee....      all of us there, three people who would never mention this in public vanilla...   amazing again how normal it seems for us--  so naughty...  and taboo.. but perfect in satisfaction that most people will never know

it is so hot..  I love vitamin zero water.. I am sure there is something addictive in there as I crave it.. I like to put it on ice as well....   so the other day I was with some work people and I had to pee so bad..  we got carried away and it just got pushed away...   then it was time to go.. I drove for another 30 mins and when I stopped to get gas,  I had to pee so bad.. almost doing the potty dance..  I did not want to go to the ladys room there, just yuck...  so thought of how wonderful it would of been to have a submissive loving mouth waiting..  go to the bushes or proper secluded place and take care of my problem with love and affection for both------  I did not so I had to surrender to going to use their bathroom.. I did not make it and peed my pants just enough where I soaked my panties and a little of my jeans...    that will never do, so I took off my soaked panties.. put my jeans back on...   put my panties in a dixie cup I had in the car and called graphic...   he has been very busy with personal stuff and I have not seen him in awhile as his life is not fitting in my schedule.. I miss him too---  so he couldnt say no and had to see me..   I could tell he was at that place of having a fit--  he dropped what he was doing and made some excuse...

I met him as I was driving--  I told him how I missed him and all the years he was such a devoted submissive even with his circumstances of his full life...  I gave him the dixie cup and told him that was his present.. he took the black panties out of the white cup and smelled them as he was thanking me.. I told him what had happened.. he got excited and asked me if he could suck them...  he h eld them up to see the crotch better and put it in his mouth.. sucked them and just watching his delight.. his slow and precise effort to get all the piss out of them was such a turn on...

he sucked them and rubbed them in his face...  I told him he had been so good..    told him to get back in to his car.. keep them in his  mouth and follow me..  we went to a hotel where I swim all the time..  there are dressing rooms you can lock that are for families, more adults together..  they have little benches and a little shower....  not unusual for two adults to change in them at the same time..  so there we went.. I have never brought him there before...

he followed and in we went..  I told him to drop his pants so I could inspect his rock hard penis..  I looked at it and talked about it ..  it is a nice penis..  he stood there bottomless and I had him pull up his shirt so it wouldnt be in the way..   he layed down his pants for himself to kneel on...  I told him to give me his shirt and I put it up on the small counter.. I removed my jeans and positioned myself over his face.. he shook with his fucking sweet desire..  my graphic.. all  mine this way---    we talked sweetly to each other as we do--  I told him to connect and he was almost punch drunk. again turning me on..   he suckled me as he does and I let go more pee.. lots as if this was what I had stored in me from the afternoon-- only letting a little out at the gas station a bit earlier..  I peed into him.. he gulped and moaned as he was so thirsty for me..   he gulped and suckled like a starving nursing submissive...  it was beautiful and so sexy to me..    I then let him giggle and tell me how wonderful this day has turned out to be.. I moved his shirt and sat on the very small counter.  with my legs way open...  one on the wall and the other on this purell holder dispenser..   had my darling graphics slowly kiss and lick my pussy as I spread it open for him with my fingers.. I could see in the big mirror... I had him lick just where i wanted..  it was so sweet and sexy.....   I pulled back my hood and told him to make love to my clit.. he did with his tongue and mouth so connected on me..  his head moving in gentle circles..  our universes connecting at this few moments of time from where his mouth was on me and my body was purring into him..   my submissive... such affection....  he sucked me into a very powerful orgasm..  I got down and put my jeans on..  told him to stand and I caressed his rock hard penis with my hand.. he was snorting and grunting and being so cute trying to hold his orgasm....  I told him to move back and get a tissue, he did .. he finished hiself off for me to watch...  dear god it was spontaneous and I still lvoe my grahic so much

tonight---   actually wee hours of the morning..  I am not going anywhere..   repeat of the entry I left here..   I am just taking a pause to put together a place for you all to visit me and the pieces of me I love to share.......   its in the making as it has been for awhile.. I spend too much time working making another rich--  not on purpose but just the way it is for now..---   I am having fun putting the places together of me to share..