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Hi and welcome. I hope you are prepared for a long read ;)
The fact that english is not my native language, will make the read even longer and less interesting. Im sorry that I have no pictures of myself in this profile, and that you have to read here to find out something about me. The last profile I had, had pictures of me and then i got bombed with mails from men that clearly did not read the profile text. Im not trying to say that Im so hot that all the men just must have me, but I am female... wich again apperently makes all men wanting me.
A bit about myself, I am 23 years old and live in Norway, scandinavia. I live at home with my parents and my sieblings, and it is probably about time to leave the nest again. I have a degree in sociology (3 years in university) and I am currently working as a consultant in my church. My family is extremly religious, them far more than me.. even though I still belive in a creator and the good of Jesus, Im not a fundamentalist like my folks :)
As I said, it is about time I leave the nest again, this meaning I have been married and actually got a divorce again. This ofcourse is a great shame in my society, but hey... nothing to do about that now. Luckily it was no kids involved, so in other words, Im single.
Why am I here then.. that is a good question ;)
I am very facinated with the lifestyle, and would really like to learn more and experiance more of it. When I say "the lifestyle", im not refering to a lifestyle where the woman does the housework while the man is at work. Where the man is the family head and the woman is by his side.. to me, this is what normal life is.. this is vanilla.. Im not speaking of a 100% sexual relation where everything is related to sex. Where each night is a new "rape" scenario and every day is housework in the nude with a buttplug installed.. this is not a realistic scenario at all! What i am talking about, when Im refering to "the lifestyle" is a relationship between two or more people, where at least one is not only Dominant but also sadistic. I know this very well not be the perfect definition for BDSM or "the lifestyle" but it is what I mean when I refear to "the lifestyle". For the lifestyle to work, and be beutiful, the Dominant sadist needs a submissive masochist. A sadist on the free, without his/her masochist is something difficult and potentially dangorous. With his/her masochist they form something very very beutiful. I dont see it as it is the Dominant Sadist that tames the sub, I see it as the submissive channeling the Sadist thru her/him-self.
I am a submissive masochist, let ther be no doubt about it !!
Then the natural question to follow, at least for me.. what do I mean about masochist (again, im selfthought, so I dont have all the definitions correct maybe).. what I mean with masochist is someone who loves pain.. everything inflicted by damage to a person is considerd by me as pain.. wich types of damage can I think of:
- Physical - By far the most apperent way of damage, and obvious why it is painful
- Social - Maybe the most devestating of all types of damage, and extremly painful for those cought by it.
- Mental - Impossible to inflict for strangers, easy for your loved once.. and the kind of pain that never goes away.
- Terminal - Any kind of damage that would threathen life or health to a serious degree (having unprotected sex with HIV-positives, removal of limbs etc.)
- Criminal - Any action that would leave the subjects as a criminal (pedophilia etc.)
A lot of things and activities belongs in more than one of these cathegories, and that is not the point.. anything that crosses into Criminal is a strong NO FUCKING WAY .. from my part, and I will report anyone trying to get me into something like that to the authorities. Anything touching Terminal should never come as a supprise on me, and should always be open for me to reject. Physical, Social and Mental (that dont touch the last two) I would consider something that would be fair game for the right Dom. That is the keyword however.. the right DOM.. not just any DOM is free to pick and choose any sub.. I am a free woman (even though my father has me on a short leash).. and even as a DOM you have to fasinate me. That is how it should be, because having someone submitting to you is an honor. It would be cheap and false if the sub submits just because your a random DOM and not because you are "THE DOM".
For experiance, I dont have much from relationship (even though its impossible to go thru a divorce without social and mental pain). For physical, it was a natural component of my fathers way of raising us as children to smack us. No real beating though. I do however experiment myself with cloth-pins, chopsticks and hot wax. For social I havent done much experiance, but I am an easy target if your a DOM that like those thrills. For mental.. that is my true and deepst desire. It is the deep and honest reason I am here, and the one I have the highest hope about. It is impossible for me to inflict on myself, and it takes a true sadist to get to know someone so good, and still have the lust and desire to use it against its target. For Terminal and Illigal I have no experiancen and no fantasies.
At this point it is about time to say sorry again... for a long and probably boering profile text, but as I said earlier it is on purpose. I hope it works as a shield against all the hopeless boys beliving that they are Dominant and that submissive girls are their "free whores".
I chose bisexual, even though I cant really see myself as a lesbian. I dont however see how the gender of a true Dominant will affect my attraction to the person.
I chose submissive because as I understand it a slave has no saying in its life. I however want a saying if it comes to terminal or criminal topics.
now.. if you have read all this, and still wants to msg me, please do :) And if you want to make an impression and prove that you have read it all.. write a joke at my expense.. it is always fun and it gives me the warm feeling og humiliation ;) Remember that Im not great in english, so point out wich part is the joke :P
Best so far : JOKE -> Your Life !
thank you so much for reading
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