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Long day...woke up with a headache at 4 a.m. so took  meds and was out until 11.  had to be in Cleveland at 2 so scrambled to make my dr appt.  it was pouring on the way home, accidents everywhere.  i was so stressed when i got home!  i missed my Master again today :(  A meeting in the morning is expcted  but i hope to find Him online sometime. 

i haven't talked to my Master, but did get a message from Him and that made me happy.  He liked my report on my task and i am so glad i pleased Him!  Busy weekend so i am tired and ready to fall asleep so am going to bed now.  Maybe tomorow i will get to talk to Him.

Yesterday my Master had me do a task. AFter work i inserted my benwha balls.  I went to Lowes and walked the length of the store, dressed in my heels, skirt, blouse and vest.  Each step I could feel the balls vibrating inside my pussy.  The vibrations on my walls felt so good.  It was so hot walking past people who had no idea that my cunt was beginning to throb.  As I got to the end of the store i felt the pressure begin to build.  Master had told me to go to the restroom or if I could wait go to the car.  i so wanted to explode right there in the store but found it very hot and erotic to hold back, my orgasm controlled by my Master even though He wasn't there.  i just kept focusing on His words....in the car if you can wait.  When i got to the car, i sat on the seat and spread my legs.  It was damp and warm.  i slid a couple fingers inside and pulled out the balls......then put the fingers back inside  and as i pressed against the 3 fingers inside of me i exploded in pleasure.  As i felt it beginning to release i took the benwha balls i took out and slid them in my mouth...tasting my juice as i moaned and squirmed with pleasure. 

I spoke with my Master today.  He has given me a tast for tomorrow.  i look forward to completing it as instructed and reporting back to Him. Today was my first day back to work after vacation.  Its hard to get back into a routine. 

i am home!  Vacation is great but the thing about it is you always have to come home.  When you've faced that fact, you just want to get the trip back over.  It was a great week with awesome weather and amazing friends.  It was hard for me to not spend time with my Masster and i missed Him very much.  After 12 hours in the van, i'm going to bed for the night.

Sir had instructed me on a task.  i was to take a trip to the adult store and buy ben-wa balls.  He of course told me what i was to wear.  i shared my outfit with Him and it met with His approval.  On the way, i was to masterbate. After work i headed for the store.  i stopped at a rest area, parked somewhat away from the other cars and pulled my skirt up so i could slide my fingers inside.  Since protocol is no panties when wearing a dress this was easy to do.  It wasn't long before i was squirming in my seat and moaning loudly.  After a moment to enjoy the feeling i drove to the store.  i found the balls, vibrating on a string just as Sir commanded.  i came home to write about my experience and my son was on my laptop transferring files to a hard drive,.  i waited until after midnight and fell asleep, but on my mind was the experience of giving up more control to the One i serve.

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What a wonderful day...i finally got to talk to Sir.  i now feel a peace i've missed since we last spoke.  He has given me a task to complete which i am looking forward to!   i really enjoy chatting with Him and His instruction.  Each time i feel His control even more.  He not only permitted one orgasm but then instructed me to drive someone private and have another. It was very erotic to do as Sir wanted, dressed as He wished and thinking of Him and the honor of being His slut as i felt pleasure.

The day was spent primarily with family.   As the day winds down i realize how long its been since i've had instruction or guidance from my Master...and i miss it and Him.

i miss serving my Master.  i did have a message from Him today but my schedule didn't coincide with His so we didn't get to talk.  He had a task for me for the weekend and i was anxiously awaiting His instruction.  Hopefully i will get to speak with Him tomorrow. 

i was exhausted from only getting 4 hours sleep and fell asleep early last night.  Right now i'm in between errands and taking a break to write this before i take my mom to the store.  i miss Sir very much since we have been on at different times and not able to talk.  But He is very much in my thoughts all the time. 

Today was a very long day!  After work i went to a football game that went into double OT. its now Friday (12:06 a.m.) and i have to get up in 4 1/2 hours.  i'm so tired.  But what made it longer was that i didn't get to speak with Sir today.  i feel like i'm dangling freely high above the ground without contact from Him.  i miss His direction and instruction. 

Today i miserably failed my Master's intruction on a task. His order was to complete a questionaire and copy it into an email.  i copied the pages and put them into documents instead and sent as attachments.  The disoppointment of my Master is as bad as any punishment He could impose.  The pain of hearing i've let him down cuts as deep as any lashing could. my only goal is to be an obedient and loyal submissive.  Unfortunaately i cannot change my poor behavior.  I can, however, learn from my mistake and use it to make more acceptable and intelligent decisions in my future. 

This is my first entry as instructed by Master Jack.  i look forward to my daily journal entries and sharing my time with my Master,  sessions we have shared, and my day at work/home. 

Tonight was the first phone call with Master Jack.  His voice elicits attentiveness from me, yet already i sensed the care and concern as He spoke the words.  i look forward to more time to learn how to better serve and please Him on a daily basis