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| Basic stats:
39 years old, 185 centimeter, 80 kilograms, blond hair, blue eyes. My profile pic is kind off up to date (~7 months old). Lost 10 kilograms since I took it but else pretty much still look the same.
Something about me:
I am a pretty funny and smart guy, easy and fun to talk with but a bit (maybe a lot ;) ) insecure and shy regarding women. Most women I liked throughout the years turned into my “best friends” sooner or later. My experience regarding relationships or sexuality is pretty limited compared to most men of my age.
I am thinking and fantasizing about slavery for several years now and often wonder what came first. Did my insecurity “guide” my brain to think I want to submit to a Mistress, a subconscious reaction, pushing away the responsibility for my situation.
Or was I always submissive at heart and that lead to my insecurity, always hoping that the woman would take charge.
Well, we may never find out I guess. ;)
What I am looking for:
Surprise, surprise. A Mistress.
While I'd love to submit to a Mistress in reality I am aware that it may be hard to find someone in the short run. I am not opposed to online slavery either.
In fact I think it can also offer a huge amount of control and intimacy. These days it is so easy to see each other and be available to serve at almost all times.
My stance on slavery:
Maybe it would be good to mention, that this is all theory and I didn't gather any experience so far.
I think slavery gets more exciting the better the parties know each other. Therefor I am seeking for a long term relationship and am not interested in short term “online play”.
I am not a fan of naming likes and taboos in a list form. A slaves likes usually aren't that important. Obviously a Mistress has to know them somehow in order to train her slave effectively.
But naming them in a profile would feel like some form of wish list to me. The same kind off goes for limits, just reversed.
On top of that I don't think that limits are really important as long as the relationship is based on honesty, trust and respect. In the end a slave belongs to his Mistress and it is in her own interest to not damage him (to much ;p) ), both physically and psychologically anyway.
I myself am not to much into specific fetishes. I love control, anything that highlights the power a Mistress has over her slave and the thought of feeling ashamed or even degraded/humiliated is very arousing to me. Really wonder if that still stands true once I experience it instead of only thinking about it. ;)
I want to surmount myself, cross borders to please my Mistress and make her happy but I'd also love if there would be some element of force in case I am ever overwhelmed and feel I can't obey.
My perfect Mistress:
Cruel, maybe even a bit sadistic, not shying away from putting me at emotional turmoil but at the same time a friend, caring, the rock that guides me when I am lost or think I can't take it anymore.
All around a funny person I adore. I somehow feel it simply isn't enough when 2 people have similar fetishes. Both need to enjoy spending time together outside the fetish world, share the same (or similar) humor and intellect. Maybe to romantic?
Anything else:
English obviously isn't my native language and regarding my age it isn't likely that it will improve a lot from now on. I am living in Germany so time zones may be an issue in an online relationship.
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