Today I decided it's enough, it's time now to show myself to the world and go seek a master. I've been wanting this for years now, and today I start. I know I am submissive, I love being obedient and to crawl and so on, and I always play with my body with safety-pins, whipping myself with belts while calling myself names in front of the mirror, and I sometimes go out just wearing a coat, no shirt under it. I want to be dominated by a harsh man, and whipped and called names, etc. etc.

I am new to this, but I am very eager to learn, so let's see where this goes. I am 20, live in Hilversum, The Netherlands, and nobody knows yet this is how I feel often, and yes I find it scary. But I want it so much!