I am a submissive female in my late 30's. I would like to find a dominant female to completely take me down.

People think they often know me but they never really do. I have a darkness in me that I can't entirely control. I seek another's power over me, I crave the feeling of being owned. I don't let my submissive nature be apparent in my day to day life; I guard it like a dangerous secret. Either way, I am never happy in a relationship unless I am with someone I don't feel equal to, whom I can happily serve. I have a masochistic streak in me that craves the pain and anguish of adoring someone that treats me like dirt beneath their feet. I can only accept love and affection if it is given in a certain way. This makes me a beautiful and rare find for a certain kind of Mistress.

I am a strong, resilient person and I need the kind of Mistress who can see all of me and who is strong enough to handle it. Until I meet the right Mistress, I may not be submissive in my daily life at all, because I have learned that most people just won't be able to understand my true nature. I am more submissive than most, but I hide the extent of my submissive nature to the point that it can be seen as "normal."

I am selective who I let dominate me, because I will give my heart to that person and if that person doesn't deserve it, they may act out as a defense against my genuine submission and cause me endless pain and anguish, but I'm not afraid to test the waters if there's someone interested in me. Not everyone will hurt me and as long as I am careful in the beginning, I should be fine. I am not going to close my heart to the idea of getting what I truly want. I need you to know that when I do meet the right person, I'll be able to be myself without limits.

I want something long term. If I find that person who can own me the way I want, I will want to belong to them forever. I need someone strong, powerful and dark. Someone is far above me and knows it. Someone who will cherish me and keep me even when they know who I really am..