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Mistakes are common but when one makes them to often i guess she just isn't worthy.  i fail in my thinking and choice of words.....sadly sighs at her lack of knowledge and understanding.  my heart is heavy and sad and all i can do is apologize.....

The mind of the submissive reels as she awaits the sting of the crop or the sound of the whip as it flies through the air.  The greatest pleasure to me is the pain that touches my flesh and then sings through my soul as it penetrates the very inner sanctum of who i am.  i long to feel the hands of the One who will bring me to tears through my pain but the pleasure and joy that i will feel deep inside my very soul will be evident as i look deeply into His eyes and know He is the ONE that rules my heart, mind, body and soul.  The hardest and longest road is the search for Him.....is He real?  is He out there?  i long to surrender to Him and feel His strong arms holding my body but His mind and will are what will hold my heart and soul.  i crave to meet You Master the ONE who will release my inner submission and allow my soul to be free and to sore with the eagles.

i see so many Dominants posting how the women on here are just fakes or wannabe's or don't respond to their emails.  i believe that this is a two-way street. 

What really is upsetting is when you feel like you are getting to know a really great Dominant and then for no reason at all they just disappear and you don't hear from them again. 

i am beginning to wonder if that One is really out there for me or not.  i am a good submissive, i am fun, i am willing to learn, i am obedient most of the time, i enjoy a lot of fun things in the lifestyle but i just don't know.  Anyone with any advice?  Is there another site that i should look into?

i have talked to some really awesome Dominants on here but are any of You truly looking for a submissive BBW to love and to cherish her gift of submission?  Shrugs sadly. 

Sometimes i just want to throw my hands up in the air and give up. 

Steps off her tiny soap box......and heads to her lonely bed.