BangMeHard

Mmm...
A year older, and a year wiser.
I still seek that special someone.
Though being here can be fun, I find I need hip waders and a pitchfork, to get through the bullshit.
I have yet to find someone I can mold, shape, train into MY pet.
Ohhh he's out there. Does he have the guts to approach? Casting aside his fears, misgivings, to supplicate himself to me?
Time will only tell.

Humm...
I still have yet to find a WORTHY male sub. Too many pansey bois about for my taste. It would have been a nice birthday present having my own lil boy toy. Ohh well these things take time.
Tomorrows my birthday!!

What's the old saying?
Life sucks and then you die.
I wouldn't be so lucky!

The only good thing about Valentines day was my mother, and uncle came for a visit.
I busted my ass making a meal that was fit for royalty, including a vegetable and dip platter. Chips and homemade dip, as well as a crackers and cheese platter. I even made a sinfully rich chocolate cake too!

My usless husband took off for the entire day! Leaving me to do all the work, and prep myself.
As usual he came home empty handed on Valentines day, like he does for every holiday, even my birthday.

He couldn't even send me a frigging e card. What a looser. His excuse being he didn't know my addy. Hello.... ASK numb nuts!

I sent him three cards all of which made him aware that he was an asshole, all made special for Vday! I especially liked the one that told him to shove a rose up his ass.

Now I know why some women go gay!

My birthday is coming and I don't want it too. I already know what he'll be getting me.
Heh... this journal is a great tool for venting. I'm still pissed, but at least I got it off my chest!!

And remember no one forced you to read this, so STFU!

Yeah, just my luck. I get an interesting pm from a Master, only for him to give me shit.
I'm supposedly"lying" because I won't leave my husband?
WTF is up with that? I have children! Sorry, but my kids needs come first before my own, regardless if I want to leave him or not.
I'm lying to myself cause I don't know what I want!? I believe I pointed out in the profile, that I am not exactly sure if I know what I want.
Duh!!
I do know I do not want someone who's a "control freak" or is into "head games". Don't like it too freakin bad!
Too lazy to read the profile, or journal, actual glimpses, of what I seek, that's your problem, not mine.
If you're too damn lazy to read what I have placed before you, and then you commense in acting like an ass. Then it's your fault if I go off on you!
It's easy to say "leave him" more difficult to do it, seeing there are children involved. They need both parents.
God, where's the "dolt filter"!!???

A new day has dawned, blah. Still there has been no promising mail, or contact. I'm really begining to think there is no one up to the challenge.
Back to the drawing board. Maybe later on I'll feel a little better.

Things that make ya go Hhhmmm....
I actually had some mail when I signed on to CM this afternoon. Too bad none of it had any promise! The crossdressing one made me shudder. I don't like wussy boys for subs. Christ, if I wanted you to dress as a woman, and rape you, it would not be for your pleasure! It's going to take one hell of a sub to catch my eye.
I'm tired of people that put forth no effort into their profiles sending me mail. If your serious about finding a Dom or sub least you can do is make a good profile. I'm still not happy with mine. But at least by reading mine, you know what I'm seeking.
I still wonder if I'll ever find someone that completes me. Though it may only be through on line, in many aspects it will be real.
Come and find me.....
Master

Bah! No rest for the wicked this morn. I swear, if women knew what the men they were going to marry would be like in the future, most of us would have stayed single!
Lets see, my account is less than 24 hours old and I'm getting mail woohoo! Sadly some of it is lackluster.
Maybe I should have stated in my profile, that I'm a 6'2" transvestite, cross dresser, with a passion for eating paste, collecting shiny objects, with an extreme attraction to things with holes! LMFAO!!
No seriously, IF, I catch your eye you will NOT send me PIG MAIL!! BIG TURN OFF!
I am not here so you can wack off. Want to do that go rent a porn flick. I want More. As a switch I go either way.
Somewhere, out there, there IS a Master for me. He will know the right "balance". He will know what he is doing, how to control one, without being an animal.  He will be skillful, suave, a gentleman, as well as dominant. He will learn to understand my needs, and I his.
Mold me.....

Mmmm, what can I say? Been on here a few hours, and I really need to learn the ropes. For your information, I absolutely HATE it when someone IMs, or PMs me with an a/s/l check!! ::Many hugs and kisses for SP, you know who you are toots!:::