atoy4daddy

thank heavens for  butter chicken deffinatly my comfort food  i miss you Daddy i love you

in a crocheting kinda mood lately anyone need hats,scarves,mittens,blankets or purses let me know lol :P

*friends are always welcome  even if you are not interested in what i am looking for feel free just to say hi * willing to open my inbox to males again for friendly chat  provided they are respectful of my Owner it doesnt matter how good or wonderful you think you are i belong to Daddy mind body and soul nothing will ever change that i am the most loyal kitten you will ever meet  and love him more then anything in the world   

Daddy is away for 3 days  its funny in my old life i couldnt wait to be left alone and would relish the times my partner would go away for days but now being here with Daddy thats all changed  he has been gone for  little more then 3 hours and it feels like part of me is missing what happened to the strong independant me ? i know shes still in there somewhere  the one who worked her ass off supported her family raised her brother overcame that crap ass childhood and even tho she was terrified managed to buy a plane ticket and leave behind her abusive world to start over but with Daddy its different its safe and comfortable im allowed to be me for once i finally have some one i can lean on and not have to go though things all on my own i know i am still a strong person this new life is just taking awhile to get used to Daddy is my one my soul mate..... siempre

not havin any luck in my search *sigh* Daddy pierced my nipples i love it  it didnt hurt getting it done was terrified bc i have always heard it kills and im afraid of needles but Daddy held my hand and the woman who did it was great  unfortunatly i knocked one about to much accidently  in my sleep and it just sort of happens like when u have a sore and u just seem to keep hitting it  ended up having to take the right ring out and have to wait 6 months before getting it redone but  it is super cute and love the one i still have left  we hada visitor a little while ao she was alot of fun Daddy took us to see wicked which i would deff reccommend to any musical lovers who havent seen it already everything is going well here love Daddy with all my heart and the doggy now if only i could find us an obedient new pet  

*NOT looking for males Doms or subs it doesnt matter please dont bother writing me your emails go right to bulk  i am looking for females only Daddy is straight and  will never share/rent/loan me out to men*

Daddy is home finally  i missed him so much it was a long wait  for him to return but he is worth every second always Daddy collared me  the day he came back the 11th i was /am so incredably happy the moment was worth waiting for  i could never belong to someone or love someone the way i do him he is my everything my Owner/Daddy my best friend my lover my knight in shining armour  he has the power to make me  the happiest woman alive and also the power to hurt me more then anyone else ever could  all i want is to one day marry the man i love and be at his side always i love him  just the way he is  for the man that he is as hard as it is at times he will always be worth it fingers crossed one day he will see how much i truly love him  and he will feel the same  journal entrys will be further spread out since Daddy is home now and most time will be spent with him

25 hours left to go  so happy and excited i cant wait to see Daddy its been so long just waiting for the polish on my toe nails to dry then gunna finish cleaning  before doing my finger nails  im thinking the pretty purple polish daddy bought me :) cant wait to hug and kiss him silly

when i wake up tomorrow it will be one full day and a half till Daddy comes home hell be home around dinner time thursday im soo excited  its like waiting for halloween to get here any one who knows me knows how much i looove halloween lol will spend tomorrow trying to weed the front flower beds as best i can and finishing up the little bit of cleaning i have left  doing my nails  hopefully it will take up most of the day and i can spend thursday morning preparing for him so happy feel like dancing

3 more days  till daddy comes home im so excited i miss him so much  its been 32 of the longest days ever  recently lost my sister sub as she decided it was time to move on  so really hope i can find what im looking for soon  both for daddy and for myself no luck so far tho  keeping my fingers crossed

6 more days till Daddy comes home i cant wait i miss him so dearly  it deffinatly has been a difficult month but it has shown me just how much i truly adore this man  my Owner i would do anything to make him happy because he is the love of my life  i will spend the next 54 yrs lol showing him

i havent been around the last few days  feeling heart broken and confused  nothing seems to be going the way it was supposed to but then i geuss when does it ever  daddy is still away which makes dealing with it much harder sure wish i had sum super words of wisdom right now

day 21 2 more weeks to go till Daddy gets home miss him so much

day 16 been feeling super lonely missing Daddy thank heavens for my sweetpea i love you thank you for being there to talk to when i need sumone who could ask for a better sister

day 12 some how i missed a day  it has deffinatly been the longest 12 days ever incredably lonely i dont mind waiting for Daddy one bit he is well worth it but the longest iv ever been on my own my entire life was 5 days and even then i still had friends about  and work every day since this place is still really new all i really have is the doggy house work and exercise to keep me occupied home is where ever Daddy is we are apart so i am feeling incredably home sick

day 9 spoke to daddy for a few mins online today realizing just how much i really really miss him made me cry i love him so much and cant wait till he comes home to his kitten feeling really lonely tonight :(

day 7/8  still feeling really ill no sleep at all last night it just wont come and when it does there are the nightmares ready and waiting hoping i feel better soon so i can get out and work on the yard missing Daddy like crazy

day 6 really wishing i had  sumone i got along with  just to go for coffee with or for a walk  feeling really lonely wishing i found it easier to make new friends but shy would be an understatement when it comes to me and in a small town it = super lonely while Daddys away wishing i had more in common with the girl Daddy introduced me to before he left  i can see why he thought we would get on well she was super nice but just wasnt there well fingers crossed only 24ish days left and Daddy will have his hands wrapped around my throat once more

day 6  and i am feeling so sick today very dizzy the fact that puppy needed to go out for sum exercise was the only motivation for getting up  exhausted nd feeling like death  missing Daddy bad

sitting here tonight listening to music and toying with the cuff fastened around my ankle  i realize just how much i really do hope Daddy will collar me when he returns that he will mark me as his own  i know without a doubt that i belong to him and only him  but what sub or slave doesnt dream of being collared or marked by the one man or woman she loves and trusts more then anyone else  he has always said when the time is right i will have everything i want it has been an incredable 2 years full of ups and downs joy happiness and pain iv learned more about myself in a few years with him then with people iv spent most of my life with i wouldnt trade a second of our time together for anything it is all precious to me i love you Daddy with all my heart

missing Daddy so much 5 days down :( not much else to say tonight

really hope this month flys by last nights nightmares were horrible  and having a hard time dealing i deffinatly wasnt ment to be on my own i doubt anyone actually reads these but it kinda helps atleast 

day 4 and i dont know what to do anymore  regretting not finishing things that should have been done before i came as its come back to bite me in the asscompletly stressed out and just want it to end i really wish Daddy was home

went from decent day to crap just like that  doesnt seem to matter if you go far away if you dont totally settle drama from your past it will continue to follow you everywhere wish family would just leave me alone i get they dont want me to be happy but jeez you think they would have something better to do i really wish Daddy was here tonight to hold me tight  :( feeling lost and lonely 3 days down on to the 4th

day 3 my nightmares have started again iv had them as long as i can remember  they got really bad from time to time and made it impossible to sleep  they stopped when i moved here but have once again started so did not get much sleep last night was so exhausted this morning then panicked when i realized my cell was out of time so Daddys normal good morning txt wouldnt have gone threw i didnt want him to worry so i hurried  and added more time and checked my email to see an email from Daddy my heart lept and i had a goofy grin he truly is wonderful i cant believe how lucky i am  spending today outside with the doggy , cleaning and maybe doing my nails later

really who knew you could miss some one so much so fast its only day 2 and i just feel like a lost little kitten they have felt like the longest days of my life this is a totally new feeling for me im used to being alone  for the most part iv always liked my solitude but now its like my whole life is on hold and i cant function right without him its a scary feeling how am i gunna make it the next 28-29 days without his smiling face and firm hand the beautiful bruises he left before leaving thursday were at thier brightest yesterday and now are beginning to heal they will be here awhile longer but gone way before he returns i miss him so much really could use sum nice people to chat with for the next little while

its been a little bit since i have added a new journal this sunday will make it 3 weeks i have been here with Daddy and things have been wonderful he had time off so we were out and about lots canada day we spent walking about with the doggy  spent sum time at one celebration then another  was a great day Daddy loves to try new restraunts so i got to try east indian food for the first time (yes really for the first time iv led a pretty sheltered food life lol )im afraid to try new foods so Daddy orders for me he hasnt made a bad choice yet  iv even come to love sushi :Pwill  never admit that one to him tho it was a good Day we both got slightly burnt we got home cleaned up and climbed into bed after he attached my cuff to the chain we curled up watched a movie and listened to the fire works monday and tuesday were quiet days spent gardening walking the Doggy and running errands  wed we went into the city as i had an appointment at the eye dr iv never had them checked and have suspected for awhile i needed glasses so Daddy decided i had to go and i got heck from the dr and Daddy as it turns out i should have gone yrs ago and i deffinatly needed glasses as i am very much near sighted  i got my perscription so then Daddy and the nice girl at the counter picked out cute pink versace glasses i tried to pick another pair even tho i wanted them but Daddy insisted every girl deserves one nice pair of glasses afterwards we got th doggy groomed and headed off to dinner we were early as our company hadnt arrived so we went into a funky little shop and looked around where i saw th most adorable sock monkey so Daddy grabbed him and bought him to keep me company while he is away dinner went really well iv never been to a tapis restraunt before it was fun thursday was busy with Daddy packing me doing laundry  i was so sad all day we had a wonderful Dinner Daddy is a great cook iv never had lamb before  but it was time for him to head to the airport i was pretty proud i stayed fairly strong despite holding on to him for dear life i didnt cry till after he left  then of course i cried so hard i made myself sick i already miss him so much its only been one day  and he is gone for a month  but ill be strong and be here waiting for him like a good obedient kitten i love him so much he really is my everything

i have been here with Daddy now for 10 days  and have never been happier  Daddy was right this really is where i belong i finally feel whole finally have a family who loves and cares for me i cant believe how lucky i am that he found me we took the doggy for a hike yesterday  what an adventure that was  it was nice very pretty  and quiet  we went an hour to a little river  almost getting stuck in  a spot where there had recently been a mud slide  i lucked out that time lol  the doggy went for a quick swim and then  we started our treck back  but this time  going down the muddy hill my foot got stuck deep in the mud when i was trying to get it out my foot came out just as the doggy was comming down he stepped on it and buried it in the mud  so i couldnt see it thank heavens for Daddy my knight in shining armor always  he dug it out for me and walked back to wash it out in the river meanwhile my other shoe got stuck and my foot came out  so i pulled that one out and stuck my foot back in just as Daddy was comming back we continued on Daddy laughing at my  one shoe coated in mud the other soaking wet  we took a shorter route and finally made it back to the car after being  dinner for millions of mosquitos they really are very bad here  iv never seen so many  on the way home we stopped  for  a burger  now where im from i have never in my life seen a tick ecept maybe a pic on a box well as we sat outside eating  i noticed i had about 5 of them on my pant leg i freaked  *not usually a girly girl but when it comes to spiders and apparently those little buggers im the biggest wuss u ever did see* Daddy picked them off for me laughing and i sighed glad my ordeal was over or so i thought till we got home  i went into the bathroom to undress  as Daddy hosed off the doggy making sure he was free of ticks  i thought i had a piece of grass stuck to my arm so i went to brush it away  but it stuck  thought huh must be like a burr type thing so i gave it a little tug it came off i looked and i had a big tick between my fingers  i dont think iv ever squealed so loud  and then another crawling on my sleve  it was a nightmare! i quickly turned the shower on  boiling  and hopped in *yes with all my clothes* i stood under the waterand slowly stripped  freaking the whole time tossing my clothes into the nearby sink once they were off  daddy came into the bathroom and asked if i was ok  just as i saw one on my hip and panicked again Daddy pulled it off for me  and just as soon as he had he saw another  he checked me out completly to make sure i was free and clear  we showered  and changed and i curld up nxt to Daddy on th couch  while he worked petting me now and then till it was time for bed  really was an interesting day  i look forward to a lifetime more

I have been away for awhile but i am back i survived my first flight alone and  I am living with Daddy 24/7now I couldnt be happier to finally be home where i belong  I am such a lucky kitten to belong to someone so wonderful he really does make me happy and after 2 years  still gives me butterflies like no one else I am still pretty scared about starting over sumwhere totally new but i know hell be here to help and support me so i will be ok still no luck finding a new girl for Daddy has been pretty frustraiting and sad trying hard he really deserves the best someone special

23 Today :) looking forward to spending the evening chatting with Daddy   Daddy got me such a wonderful gift he is such a great man this is  one lucky kitten

tomorrow is my 23 birthday  given the start to the week doesnt seem like itll be a good one missing my little man and daddy is still far for another 21 days fingers crossed it will turn around  supposed to have a thunderstorm :) yay

:( lost my best friend today *Rip aries you were the best little dog anyone could have ever asked for* feel like a big part of me is missing the apt seems so empty without him trying to trip me up  i love you and will always miss you little man 

missing Daddys touch so much 23 more days till i am due at his side getting so nervous about starting over  and about the plane ride but he is soo worth it this kitten would do anything for her Daddy

ok so before anyone wastes anymore time Daddy has NO interest in selling me for any amount he doesnt want to loan or rent me out to ANYONE! it doesnt matter who you are what you can offer or how desperate you may be i am Daddys kitten and he is the only man who will touch me

totally in love with my new shoes yay for early birthday presents!<3

I just dont get it  how there are men out there who have the balls to call themselves Dominants when in fact they are nothing but  low life poachers my profile says i am OWNED!! i dont mind random chat with friendly people but if you cant show respect for anothers property  you dont deserve anyones time  your message will be deleted  so dont bother this kitten is totally loyal to her Daddy