It seems that everyday I long to embrace my more femine side.  I don't have any desire to lose my penis but, at less than 2 inches it doesn't do anyone a whole lot of good.  On top of that I love to get my ass filled.  Cram a nice cock or object  up me and I'll want to get fucked until I can barely walk.  Good luck trying to get clothes on me after that.  Yesterday, I went through the mall and wished I could try on the womens clothes.  Men's clothes are so boring.  They are loose in order to hide everything and they have no style.  I truly wish I could be androgenous, with small breasts and have the ability to dress pretty in my off hours.  At work, I would have to wear compression shirts to hide small breasts and enlarged nipples.  That alone will make me wet through my pants all of the time.  I've done some research about taking hormones.  I'm just having trouble taking the first step of ordering them.  I wish I had a strong willed Master or Mistress to "guide" me.  And, of course to celebrate my successes by exposing me.  Hopefully soon I'll meet that person or at least find the courage to start on my own. 

I would love to find somone who forces me to service them daily, making me bend to their will and wear their cum as sign of ownership.  Even though I'm gay, I'd be thrilled to service a woman while I'm being humiliated.  It forces me to be even more submissive.  I would have to do it orally or wear a strap-on since my penis is way to small to offer any pleaseure to anyone.

I'm hoping my Master will let me maintain a pretty scrapbook of me so obeying their commands and getting punished.  Of course, I wouldn't deserve to hold onto it.  My Master would have full discretion as to where and when it gets left out on the coffee table for others to view.

I'm also hoping that my Master will pimp me out and I'll get paid 1 penny for my services.  That way I'm getting paid, so I have to do whatever I'm told and can't back out.  Yet, I couldn't feel any cheaper.