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I am inventing a new life for myself.
A mild case of prostate cancer found during my turning 50 physical has caused me to take stock of my life, and I didn't like what I saw. I have removed myself from a less than fulfilling lifestyle, am in the long drawn out process of divorcing my alcoholic wife, have bought a new "This Old House" project, and am currently kicking the shit out of cancer with a diet/lifestyle change. It works! Much to my doctors chagrin.
I now find myself free to pursue things that have interested me, one of these is the desire to dominate/control a woman sexually. I find I have dominant tendencies, I am not sure how much of a sadist I am, but I have had a taste of the rush one gets with power exchange, and the pleasure derived from watching the flesh quiver with anticipation under my hand.
I am a quiet, confident, sane, employed blue collar worker. My hands are calloused and dirty but my conscience is clean. I am literate and intelligent. I have some limited experience in BDSM, limited is the key word. I am probably not into "the scene", I'm not a very social person, I am uncomfortable in groups. I prefer reading to TV. I was raised to be a gentleman. Old school.
Family is important to me. So much so, that when I was shopping for a house, I decided to get one big enough to accommodate my aging widowed mother. This is done. It is a large house, plenty of room for privacy. Interestingly enough, the house was once used as a place of healing, is somewhat historic, and was the birthplace of the first organized occupational therapy association in the country. Weird coincidence eh?
I would like to find a woman who would like to settle down with one man. My ultimate dream would be to start a family, however I understand that at my advanced age this may not be possible. I know it is rather presumptuous of me to expect this after spending most of my adult life pursuing fun times, but there it is. I will not, however turn away any potential life mate because she can't/won't have children.
Speaking of fun times, I am neither a hermit or a monk. I still enjoy a couple of drinks after a week of work, however weekend parties are no longer the center of my life. I enjoy reading, museums, art, live music. I ride and maintain an older motorcycle. I have an old dog and a new kitten.
So, here I am. An older guy, with cancer, whose mother lives with him. I guess you could say I have a sense of humor too, eh? I could use in no particular order; a friend, some kinky sex, a long term relationship. Thanks for taking the time to read this, if you're still reading this ping me or something.
Good luck in your journey, live large.....
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Hi there. I have received a few update requests, and it's been a year and a half or so......
I have neither beaten cancer, nor succumbed to it. My PSA remains high. And that is pretty much the only symptom there is anything wrong. I continue a strict vegan, sugar free diet. My doctor could only shake her head in amazement at my last physical, complete turnaround from 3 years ago. So I'm living healthy as I can. I couldn't not drink during the separation and divorce process (I had quit previously), and after moving out I continued for a while, lots of stress. Shortly after I moved my mother in, she grew quite ill. And then broke her hip. But that's all better now too. But I've quit drinking for good, 10 months now, really trying to fly right and attack this tumor. Really feeling good and positive that it can be done. That and all the articles you read about prostate cancer being over-diagnosed, surgery being over prescribed.........did mention I changed jobs twice, and that I've lost healthcare coverage? No matter, I don't do what doctors say anyway....I'm working on some mail order testing, to measure PSA and the like cheaply, of course it's illegal in NY, go figure.... all in all, I like where I'm at, I can feel changes occurring, and it feels in the right direction. It feels right, is all I can say.
Good news on the home front, I have met a really wonderful woman here on CollarMe, her name here is boundforfreedom, her biggest flaw is that she lives 90 miles away. Other than that, I have found her to be the most gracious, kind, sweet woman I've ever met. I was attending a 2 day work seminar in her city, she agreed to meet me for dinner, at the end of which, she agreed to a second date. The rest, as they say was history. I have never been able to communicate with anyone the way I can with her. I was instantly comfortable talking with her .......it's been a couple of months, and it's all good. All you 19 year old Nigerian and Ghanese broads can stop e-mailing me now.....
I'm spoke for.
So, still going through changes, life is still a battle, the world still sucks but I don't care. Thing are improving, just not at the pace I'd like. I haven't cured cancer yet....... but I'm still living life on my terms, and getting away with it. I am not sorry, and I'm not unsure, and now, I'm not alone. |
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I just recieved a very nice welcome note from Mr. Steel Cuffs and just so we're all on the same page..... finding out I had a cancerous tumor of the prostate was the best thing that ever happened to me. It has enabled me to take complete control of my life, body and health. I have learned much about self control and discipline. I am in the best physical shape I've ever been in. I didn't share my "problem" with you all for sympathy, rather so all would know where I'm coming from and that I am deadly serious. Also when I say I'm going to do something, it ends up being done, ask my soon to be ex-wife.
I will not be a cancer victim, I will be a cancer victor. And I will do it without doctors, surgery or pills. And I will become involved to some extent in this "lifestyle".
So please, no sympathy. Unless I am begging for a mercy fuck.
Later, it's dog walk time |
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| Age: 27 |
| DISTRICT OF COLUM,
Washington |
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