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my Dom put a photo of me up on his site.. BubbaDom is his name. we were having some fun the other day ! i am looking for a girl friend in our area. i have a Daddy, and am very happy. just a bit on the lonely side. Daddy cant go out as much as i would like to go shopping and such, and if you want, maybe Daddy could play with us too. ask if you need to know more. ( if i look at your photos, it is just that. im looking at something that caught my eye. the bondage photos really make my pussy wet !)

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11/3/2012 3:15:55 PM

life is sooo good !!!!   i love my Daddy so much !!! 

Daddy bought me a new computer for Christmas AND is letting me use it now and not have to wait till then !!  how wonderful is He !!?  

 

later all.............


10/21/2012 12:56:50 PM

well, it has been a few days since i last wrote.  it has been kind of rough for Daddy and i.  but now,  i think things will be all better. 

and a new thing i thank my Daddy for is our new puppy we get this past friday !  thank you Daddy !!  sissy is not really a puppy, she is two yrs old and some one needed her to have a great home.  and with us she will ! she is still kind of skittish with noises and things, but she is coming alone just fine. she was playing with my other dog chrissy today.. it was fun watching them finally getting along.  my other girl sophie is still growling at her, but she is a bit older too.  but i have faith they will one day get along fine. 

well, just thought i would say hi to all of you, and show that i am still around.  ha ha !  

 

later all......


9/29/2012 10:52:27 AM

My Daddy has been great to me !  with all these head aches I have been having, he has stuck by me. He took me to the hospital too the other day.

                                       

                                                 thank you Daddy !!!

 

i still dont know why im had them. and for this long of a time.  right now i got rid of the head aches, but now i'm not sleeping.  last two nights,  we have gone to bed about 10ish and im still awake at 3am.  gee ,,  fun.   not again!!   im not really tired during the day, and that is what i dont understand.  why am i not tired?

 

i just dont know any more.

 

later all..........


9/27/2012 12:05:15 PM

i am sitting here with another headache.  in the last 14 days,  12 of them have had headaches in them.  how lucky can one person be !  not !    i went to the hospital this past Tuesday, and they didn't make it any easier either.  two shots, a CAT scan and other tests, and nothing took care of it.  what to do for it now?  

   if anyone has an idea for me, please send me a note !!

thanks !! 

 

later all.........


9/21/2012 7:54:52 AM

here we go again, headache once more.  i give up !

 

we are going to Nashville tomorrow. big deal.  for a family get together.  no one wants to meet my family.  other then a few cousins and a great great aunt, i wouldn't be going either. but not all of them have me my fiance' (Daddy) . but, im going to force myself to smile and have a good time. 

 

later all.......


9/19/2012 10:35:39 AM

i want to say a thank you to my parents. with out them, i would not have the mind set that i can do anything.  

                               i changed the kitchen faucet out today !

yea, i know, it's a simple thing to do. but how many things can most other women do ?  i do all kind of things here. i have taken out a closet, and re built a larger one. i have changed out two toilets, and they don't leak. mow almost two acres of grass with a push mower. added carpet to both porches. took out the back seat of the van, and made a bench out of it for Daddy on the porch. added a doggie door and fenced in the back area for the dogs. 

 

just a day in my life with my Daddy. 

I LOVE IT!!

 

later all.........


9/18/2012 7:47:38 PM

Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday...  headache days. I hate it ! why me?  one more day, one more headache and I go to the hospital. 

piss me off !

 

later all.........


9/17/2012 12:25:50 PM

Monday,  had to go to WalMart to get some dog food, and  to the post office, on the way there,  I saved the life of a little turtle.  He was laying in the road, all closed up, just there. So I stopped and picked him up and took him to a nicer part of the road, where I let him out and told him best of luck.  I hope he has a good life and a safe one too. 

 

do you know how to tell the difference between a boy turtle, and a girl turtle ??  

 

i do.  just ask me.

 

headache once again.  4 days now.  bummer.

 

later all.....


9/13/2012 9:33:57 AM

  Thursday,  Daddy goes to the Dentist,  for a teeth cleaning.  He's taking a nap right now, before we go out. 

  I have the beans on the cook already. Going to be a good yummy dinner tonight ! wish you all could come....

  Not to much otherwise going on today.  at least right now anyway. 

maybe i will write later too.

 

 

later all..........


9/12/2012 7:42:37 PM

been busy these past few days.  tired too. im not sleeping well for some reason. i feel like im going to sleep for days, but it seems like hours for me to get to sleep. i dont  know what to do. 

Daddy is going to the dentist tomorrow. 

im going to make ham and beans and some cornbread for dinner.  yummy !

have you looked at my pics Daddy posted yet?  i love them ! and i still have the bruises...he he he !!

love it !!

 

later all...........


9/9/2012 10:38:44 AM

Sunday,,,  sitting here with a load of bruises on my tits. Daddy tied them up and spanked them yesterday.  Got me good too.  I love it when he thinks of something different to do.  not to much else going on today. just sitting with my Daddy and loving him sooo much !! 

 

look him up to see my photo...  BubbaDom

 

later all.....


9/8/2012 9:24:28 AM

   Saturday,  sitting here at home, doing nothing, because it's raining.  probably will be all dang day too.  not like there was anything that we were going to go do anyway.  but i do need to get the grass mowed.  but not now,  it's way to wet to do that, or even think of it to do.  i have to finish one load of laundry.  got breakfast cooked and cleaned up already too.  nothing else to do for me today.

 

later all..........


9/7/2012 9:34:39 AM

    Friday,  and I'm feeling better then I was yesterday.  Thank you Daddy for letting me sleep a bit longer today. And for the pills I took last night to help me sleep too....ha ha ! 

    Have you ever had a day, when you feel like there was something you were to do , but just can't remember what it was ?  I feel like that today.  Don't know why, but I do.  Laundry is all caught up, dishes are done, can't mow grass, to wet.  But I just feel like I should be doing something.  Oh well, it may come to me later. 

   I hope all of you are doing great, and having fun looking for your guy/girl.  I have a wonderful Daddy and I Love Him so much too!!! 

good luck all !!

 

later all......

 


9/6/2012 6:36:40 PM

     Wednesday we didn't do anything, well I did do a load of laundry.  

    Thursday,  I woke as the normal way with Daddy coming to get me. And I woke up with a headache. Once again for this year. I lost track, but I think this is like # 756 or something. ha ha ! Not really, but it sure feels like it.

     Tomorrow, I have no idea if I am going to feel like doing anything. I will have to see how the day pans out.  Nothing planed as of now. 

 

later all.....


9/4/2012 10:10:59 AM

     Here it is Tuesday, and Daddy has to go to the Doctor.  Just for a check-up kind of thing. And a test of some sort. We keep getting it mixed up as to what kind. Then Daddy sees the Doctor after that. I'm not going this time. Daddy's best friend and neighbor is going with him this time.  Since I moved in,  they really don't have time together.  So a guy's day out is today.

     We spent the weekend up at Daddy's Momma's. His sister was there and so was his brother. We all had a great time getting to know each other better.  But it was nice to get home too. 

     I washed all the laundry yesterday. Did the bills yesterday. And today I have to go out to pay the water bill and get a few groceries. Then it is back home to be with my Daddy, naked as I usually am.  So fun !!!  

 

 

 

later all..........


9/1/2012 2:00:48 PM

Saturday,  and we are having a great time !  Still here at Momma's. And Sister is here with us now too!  She left her ass hole of a man.  He needs to be taken and taught by a woman how to treat women. But we have been having a great time. Laughing, talking, working around the house and just relaxing too.  Loads of fun !!  

 

hope all of you out there, are having a great weekend too !!

 

later all......


8/30/2012 4:13:03 PM

   Thursday evening..... We are at Daddy's , Momma's house for the weekend.   I love it up here!  It's so relaxing here and fun to be with Momma.  We have been talking and laughing  all day and I don't see it stopping any time soon. 

 

I hope all out there have a safe and fun weekend like I know Daddy and I are !!

 

 

later all.......


8/27/2012 12:21:10 PM

       Lazy weekend.  We didn't do anything on Saturday. I did manage to mow the yard though.    

      Sunday was just as lazy.  Daddy had been wanting Chinese food this week, so we did get that in at least.  

      But otherwise, we're just kind of sitting around doing nothing.  Daddy hasn't slept for the last couple of nights, and I don't like that at all.  It worries me when he can't sleep.  He has a lot on his mind, and I can't help him with it. 

 

 

later all..........


8/25/2012 10:17:47 AM

     yesterday was a fun day.  slow in the morning, then Daddy and i went to the eye Doctor's for him.  then we went over to Radio Shack and got us a new home phone.  we were going to go to the chinese place for dinner , but Daddy got drops in his eyes and wasn't feeling to good. so we went home and had left overs for dinner.  

   then while we were just sitting here watching t.v.,  Daddy told me to go put my butt plug in!  oh ! it was so fun to hear those words again, Daddy telling me to do something ! i think he's starting to feel a little better now. i will wait for his next command, and do it happily !!!!!       I LOVE MY DADDY !!!

 

 

later all.....


8/23/2012 3:58:26 PM

well, a kind of fun day. the afternoon part any way.... 

   went to the dentist to fix the tooth. got a temp tooth for another two weeks. got to be a bit careful when eating. nothing to hard to bite into.

   then got home and got Daddy ready and he took me out to lunch at this really great little hole in the wall dinner that we both love. had a great greasy burger and fries.  then got home and have been sitting here naked with Daddy watching t.v.  of course with my inside collar on too.  i have two different ones now.  one for outside and one for Daddy at home.  i love them both ! 

 

I LOVE YOU DADDY !!

 

 

later all...


8/22/2012 2:41:33 PM

  well, the mail ran after i wrote before.  today was funnnnn ! ! !    we got the weighted butt plug Daddy ordered me. it's like 12 ozs. too !  the fancy kind that looks like a cut stone in it. fells sooooooo  great  in my ass !! and we got the tit rack. ( i guess that's what you call it)  it has a bar on the top, a bar on the bottom and screws on the sides to tighten it together.  squeezer bars, or something.  love them too ! 

  and some small weighted pussy/anal balls, i can wear when doing my housework for Daddy. they were fun. shoved them in my pussy and then i got the big ones we have and shoved them in there too ! yummy !  then i had my butt plug in my ass and 8 balls in my pussy,  and i was on the couch masturbating for my Daddy to watch me ! so fun!!!!!!

  i love My Daddy Dom and all he does for me !!!

 

 

 

later all........


8/22/2012 10:29:45 AM

how happy can one person be with little things ?  like my new collar Daddy got me. And the nipple clamps i got.  i wore them for a long time yesterday and i love them.  the feeling from my tits went right to my clit and just made me tingle !  

also, i have found out the best way for me to give myself an enema every day.  i take the shower head off the hand held and stick the hose up my ass !  it's so fun and i love the feeling !  no mess to worry about either, it goes right down the drain.  so fun !  i love enemas and the feeling that it gives me!

 

later all......


8/21/2012 7:41:32 PM

i have been sitting here with my clamps on my nipples for over three and a half hours now. and i love them ! they make my pussy so hot and ready to explode !  but Daddy has not said that i am aloud to play with myself or to touch my clit.  so i won't .  i will listen to my Daddy.  he is my boss and i love him so much !!  

 

 

later all.....


8/21/2012 12:39:32 PM

 Here it is Tuesday, and I'm sitting here naked, but with my new collar on !!! Daddy bought me actually two of them. One for every day, and one for going out. 

 And I am sitting with my new nipple clamps with the bells on them too !  I feel so damn sexy right now, it's hard to contain myself ! I hope that Daddy will let me put the clamps on my pussy lips some times too. 

 

I LOVE MY DADDY SO MUCH !!!!!

 

 

 

later all !..........


8/18/2012 10:55:18 AM

                       I GOT A SPANKING FROM MY DADDY TODAY !!  yea me !!!   I know it had to hurt him too, cause of his hands and wrists, but he did it to me anyway !!  ooooooohhhh  how i love him so much !!!!!!!!!!

 

                                               Thank You Daddy !!!!!!!!!!


8/18/2012 9:16:37 AM

  My Daddy has been so understanding towards me.  All this time we have been together,(8 months now) he has taken such great care of me. And I don't want to brag, but I have taken good care of Daddy too. I do everything for Daddy with all my heart ! I love to cook and clean and shop and mow grass and laundry and everything in between for Daddy !!  I have never had someone who I can take such care of before ! Children are one thing, but to love a man like I love My Daddy is totally different !  

  And to say a huge Thank You to My Daddy! He has bought me some toys and jewelry that I'm just squirming to use/ wear !!  I LOVE DADDY SO MUCH !!!!

 

 


8/16/2012 2:59:44 PM

well, Daddy and i have been talking about a few things.  i should have in the first place.                      SORRY DADDY !!

He bought me this really beautiful necklace, but where it is going to fall on my neck, it will be more like my collar.  and not to mention how beautiful it is !  we both like black and white, so that is what it is.  black cord with 3 white 'diamond' looking pieces on it.  that is the one i wear around the house.  He bought me another one with 2  white 'diamond ' pieces and a  "champagne' piece on it.  that one He says is for going out.  i'm so excited to wear them !! 

and... not to mention the new engagement ring i have coming !!  and just to let you all know, He has mentioned that we are getting married in February !  yea us !!  

 

I LOVE MY DADDY SOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH !!!!!

 

later all...


12/5/2011 7:09:33 PM

                                I AM NOW COLLARED BY BUBBADOM ! ! !  

 

i am such a lucky little girl !   MY DOM is so wonderful to me too !  we had such a great weekend !!  MY DOM took His time with me this weekend, so i would know what i would be getting myself into. and i still wanted all He has to offer me.  we talked of all i would be learning, and how hard He will be using me,  and all i could say was,  Yes Daddy! More Daddy ! 

 

such a lucky little girl i am !!!   THANK YOU SIR!!!!!!!! 

 

 

 

 

 

 


11/27/2011 10:21:16 PM

I am happy with what is going on in my life !

He is wonderful to me !

Treats me like a queen !

And im counting down the days to take my profile off here !

 

 

night all

xoxoxo


11/15/2011 11:07:04 PM

there were 6 i was talking to.

      and i dont want to hear it from any one of them or any one else.  i have to talk to them to see if they are going to do as i ask of them.  one simple thing.  talk to me every day.  so far,  its starting to dwindle down.

      i do have one that really makes my toes tingle too.  no i wont say as to who it is, but it does look good.  we have alot in common and i really like talking to him. 

     i will see as to where this all goes.  so till the next install of  ''life with subbie'' , keep me in mind,,  doctor appt. on Monday..

 

kisses !!

 

night all !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

xoxoxox


11/15/2011 1:21:57 PM

well all,

   been a few days , so i have a few minuets before one of the final days of baby sitting.

 

   yes, that is right !  daughter will be moved away by the end of the month !  and i will not have to baby sit my grands any more  !  

 

   and i can be getting my life back in order and looking for my Dom.  i want so much to have someone to take over on me.  to use me as i need to be used.  to be used as they want to do to me !  dreams will only get me so far.

 

   i have to get my house/barn cleaned up and ready for sale. i want to be ready for moving when i see i want to go.  i want to get my life back. 

 

thanks all for your reading me...

 

later all

xoxoxox


11/7/2011 8:36:26 PM

i think ive cried enough now.  im worried about this surgery.  wont lie.  but i have a feeling also, that im going to be better then now.  i can only 'go up' from here.  and i have chosen to think that way.  everything will be for the better and it will all work out.

 

funny night.

i talked with 2 new men. 

one was ever so sweet. 

we had a good time getting to know each other.

i want to talk more to him.

the other,was an ass after he started to put his demands out there.

im not talking to him any more.

 

 

please guys,   read from   albanypowerexchange.com   ...  you will learn alot for the protocal rules.

 

 

night all

xoxoxox

 

thanks for all your support too ! 


11/4/2011 9:52:58 PM

had a doctors appointment today.

got some bad news.

got to go to another doctor on the 21st.

then i will tell you all  the date of my surgery.

 

crap.

 

 

 

night all

xoxoxox


11/3/2011 10:44:38 PM

i read something , a while ago.  i found it back when i had just started my search on here for a Dom.  it caught my eye, and my heart.  i wrote it down, and kind of lost it after that.  i found it tonight, and re read it.  and it still has the same power to me, as it did, when i first read it.  whoever i took this from, im sorry if it was your origional work.  but i loved it.

 

 

                The power of submission,

                    lies not in the ability

                    to kneel for another,

                    to give over one's body,

                    or by the wearing

                    of a collar.     

                The power of submission,

                    can be found only in the heart,   

                    of one who gives her love

                    to another freely, 

                    knowing what joy and pain

                    will come from it .       

 

night all

xoxoxox


11/2/2011 10:13:03 PM

    not a bad day after all.  the kids were actually pretty good for once.  i let them play outside for a while,  and my other sister was around too.  but after dinner, i get them more then she does.  no biggy, her house and she works durring the day. 

  got rid of my headache pretty early,  so i know that had to help too.  i wasnt the total bitch i have been known to be , when i have one.

   not a bad day after all....

 

night all

xoxoxox


11/2/2011 10:32:32 AM

i have a head ache again.  probably knowing i have to go baby sit in a little while.  my daughter was mad at me yesterday cause i was a few minuets late going over to 'her' place, 20 ft away from mine.  but she couldnt let the kids come to my place.  she's such a bitch !   why be mad at a FREE baby sitter when it was her choice to have three kids in three yrs !?!? 

 

my life.

i hate it.

 

 

xoxoxox


10/29/2011 11:07:04 PM

im tired again.   cant wait for daughter to move.   will miss my grand kids very much.   but , im tired.

 

hope someone is thinking of me.

 

night all

xoxoxox


10/29/2011 10:47:38 PM

im tired again.   cant wait for daughter to move.   will miss my grand kids very much.   but , im tired.

 

hope someone is thinking of me.

 

night all

xoxoxox


10/28/2011 7:09:11 PM

i need a spanking.

 

 

 

 

night all

xoxoxox


10/25/2011 2:37:00 PM

i added a few things to my profile.   please make note of this.....

 

thank you all, in advance...

 

night all

xoxoxox


10/23/2011 11:33:44 PM

i wish i has someone to tell all about this life style.  like a really great friend.   someone , i could trust in not telling the whole world my secret.   but i just think about the day i get to be with the Dom i have been accepted by.  the day of joy.

 

night all

xoxoxox


10/21/2011 11:36:32 PM

im so happy. 

 

 

 

 

night all

xoxoxox


10/20/2011 9:06:19 PM

woke up feeling really down.  i probably could have stayed in bed.  but i didnt.  and im glad i didnt.  after talking, i started to laugh.  it felt good too.  havent laughed like this in weeks , i think.  cant remember.  sad , when you cant remember the last time you had a really great, deep laugh. 

 

night all

xoxoxox


10/18/2011 9:42:32 PM

so tired.  being used by family so much.  i want to get away from it all.  well, them all !  lol !  maybe , i'll pack what i can in my car, and take all the money i can get next month, and  drive till i run out of gas ,,  somewhere away from this place.....  throw a dart in a map, see where it lands,  and head that way...

 

who's with me ?

 

 

 

night all

xoxoxox


10/17/2011 11:05:20 PM

tears.  happy tears.  for him.  cant stop thinking about him.

 

night all

xoxoxox


10/16/2011 7:10:17 PM

If he misses you, he'll call.

If he wants you, he'll say it.

And if he cares, he'll show it.

If not, he can't be worth

    your time because

you're obviously not worth his.

 

smart words from my daughter. on her facebook page. 

i wish my He would say two little words to me.

 

night all

xoxoxoxo

 


10/15/2011 9:27:58 PM

been a busy couple of weeks.  and once again i did some weeding through more fakes. 

why does this have to happen to someone who wants this so bad ?

i dont know how much longer i can take this.

hurry up december 31st.

any one want to buy an almost finished, barn?  14'x 32'. water and electric is run in it.

will be full of funiture when sold too. i have lived in it for two years.

 

 

 

night all

xoxoxox

 


10/11/2011 9:00:54 PM

so ,  i had this thing happen to me today , that made me the happiest EVER , since i started my search for My Master/Dom !

 

night all

xoxoxox


10/11/2011 12:30:00 AM

   been a few slow days , then a few busy days.  baby sitting the grand kids.  not going anywhere . not doing much of anything. 

   the few of you who see my photo..  can you send me a note and say what you think of me?  how i look .  just thinking.......  just asking...........

 

thanks in advance too !

 

night all

xoxoxox

 


10/8/2011 11:54:12 PM

from day to day , im amazed as to how things change.  one says hello,  another says im backing off,  and then a couple more say hello too.  how is it that i will sit here for days and no one will say anything to me..  then all of the sudden,  i get 3 or 4 talking to me ??   one got pissed cause he wanted from me things that i told him was not going to happen because he wasnt following protocal. i am not collared by any man yet !  when I see that i can trust YOU , is possiably when you will get more from me !  not before !  if you like my photo on this profile, then be happy you get to see it.  i do not have to give you any more then you see here.  if i feel like giving it to you ,,of my own desire,,  then its up to me.  

 

night all

xoxoxox


10/5/2011 11:26:24 PM

what a day with him.   talked alot.   had fun.   laughed too.   he makes me laugh so much.  notes are sent back and forth too.  tons of ideas are mentioned.  smileing all day. 

 

will keep you all posted.

 

night all

xoxoxox


10/5/2011 1:24:07 AM

why is it , that when i talk to someone on here, they have one screen name. then when we talk on yahoo, they have another name. and yet for thier e-mail addy , yet another ? 

does anyone know what k.i.s.s stands for ? 

 

Keep

It

Simple

Stupid

 

oh well, thoughts of me.

 

night again all.

xoxoxox


10/4/2011 9:43:26 PM

i'm happy !!   im talking to someone.  it's early.   very early.   but i feel good about it.   i have a smile all the time.   he's in my head all day .  this could be Him. 

will let you all know how it goes ,  once again.

 

night all

xoxoxox


10/1/2011 9:35:57 PM

  long day. was with grand babies.  day off tomorrow. then another long day monday with the kids. i'm still coughing, but not to bad.  i'm up to 41 pounds lost now.  my clothes dont fit me any more.  lol !  my 'skinny' jeans are to big for me !  lol ! 

 

night all

xoxoxox


9/30/2011 10:54:01 PM

please do not make demands of me.  do not make me choose.  do not make me cry any more. just prove you are who you say you want to be to me.

 

night all

xoxoxox


9/29/2011 11:18:03 PM

  is it bad to think of moving away from where i am, to see if i can get 'noticed' somewhere else ?  i do live in a small 'hick' town , where nothing happens.  and it is far away from any one who might be interested in me.  but i was hoping to move to my Dom/Master's house, and not on my own again.  i hate thinking of being alone.  i want to take care of someone so bad.  to wait on him hand and foot. to cook for him. clean for him. give him a shower. be his sounding board. be his shoulder to cry on.  be his.  maybe one day. 

 

night all

xoxoxox


9/27/2011 10:53:44 PM

  does any one remember the crazy commercials from years back..."stop the insanity!"    its so funny how things have changed now. i laugh about it.  no one it talking to me.  oh, a couple of the 'regulars' have said hi now and then, but i guess im not as good as everyong says. cause i'm still here and not collared.  i'm a good person. a sweet personality. and i can do just about anything. but no one wants to know the vanilla side of me. oh well,  i'll just wait till december 31st and see what happens...

 

night all

xoxoxox


9/23/2011 9:12:06 PM

tired.  have a cold.  starting to get over it.  i have got to go walking tomorrow.  havent been all week due to grandbaby sitting and sickness.  think of me everyone !

 

 

night all

xoxoxox


9/22/2011 10:12:28 PM

we were talking today.   i was upset by my daughter.  and real tired on top of that.  i was talking to Master, and it came out.  i said the 3 little words that can destroy or mend a heart.  i think he knew it anyway before i even said it.  i dont deny it.  i wont deny it.  its how i feel.  yes, i know its still very early.  but, its out there now.  not going to take it back ...ever !

 

kisses Master !

 

night all

xoxoxox


9/20/2011 9:24:35 PM

i  have noticed how things are changing for me.  since i changed my profile,  i dont have the ones i call 'jerks'.  the ones that talk to me for a few days  then demand naked photos of me or for me to turn on my cam.  im not going to do it any more.  im not collared by you and you have no rights to expect them from me.   thats all there is to it....

 

kisses  M !

 

night all

xoxoxox


9/19/2011 10:00:37 PM

      im sitting here, sick again.  i got a cold this time from my grandbabies.  lol..  how lucky am i ?!!  

    i dont have a dom yet either.  interesting how i change my profile and no one wants to get to know me.  i am a person before i am a sub. 

    december 31st is comming fast. 

 

 

night all

xoxoxox


9/16/2011 11:15:26 PM

funny how i change my profile, and i dont have a ton of mail any more.  he must be right,  all the fakes are leaving me alone.  kind of feels good too.  i dont have to deal with crap any more.  but on the other hand, i still have no dom to take me. 

oh well,  life goes on.

 

night all

xoxoxox


9/15/2011 10:20:30 PM

    good day today .  had to baby sit my 2 grand daughters.  it was fun. 

 

   i want to say something.  but i know i really cant.  its way to soon.  so i mumble it under my breath.  it shouldnt be heard that way.

 

night all

xoxoxox


9/14/2011 8:10:53 PM

      i talked to one that had broken my heart some time ago.  nothing changed between us.  we started out great.  he understood what i needed from him.  and , believe it or not,  he gave it to me.  i was so happy !  then he demanded i turn on my cam again.  of course he wanted me naked, but i told him no.  i told him, he will see me on cam fully dressed.  i was not his to demand anything of me.  he didnt like that.  he tried to make me feel bad about it too.  but i stood my ground.  and once again, he stopped talking to me.  its funny too, because he wanted me to give him a guarentee that i was his.  how could i do that , when i knew nothing of him.  last time we talked, it took him three or four days to just tell me his first name.  i will expect to know both sides of my 'dom/master'.  when i go to be with 'Him' ,  i will know 95 % or more of his 2  lives (vanilla and kink) .  which means, we will be talking alot before i have my final say as to who i want to go to . 

           thank you M, for the strength to say this !!  {#}

 

night all

xoxoxox


9/12/2011 11:09:23 PM

it is so nice to be treated with respect. 

       out of the hundreds (i think) of men i have talked to over these last few months, its nice to be treated like a person, and not a piece of meat.  no demands are being made of me. nothing sounding forceful. and its just so dang nice !

  

to have a conversation with someone, about everything under the sun,,,  its great !

 

 

im tired, and i know i shouldnt have stayed up this late, but i did.  why? i will never understand, i have a 4 mile walk to do tomorrow... lol !

 

night all

xoxoxox


9/12/2011 4:03:51 PM

                 I HAVE OFFICIALY LOST 40 POUNDS !!!

 

Happy can not describe how I feel now !! It's not hard either, been walking 4 miles a day and cutting back on my food.  who would have though it would work,,, (diet and excersize) LOLOLOLOL!!!!!!!!  

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

later all

xoxoxoxo


9/10/2011 1:06:20 AM

how can life change so much in just a couple of days ? 

 

 

night all...

xoxoxox

 

 


9/7/2011 9:23:43 PM

       as i sit here ready to type again, im thinking of a man from Pa.   i hope he will read this and know he is on my mind deeply and constantly.  i just wish i knew what is on his mind.  if i am anywhere in his brain.  if he even once a day thinks of me.  i am to hopefull for my own good. to trusting. to willing. to honest.   i miss you R.   where ever you are.

 

       but 'we' talked alot today again. its so funny how 'we' can talk about so much stuff and not sex !  life, family, jobs, health, kids, grandkids, bodily functions, food, ....

you name it , we've probably talked about it at some point.  just makes me laugh inside. 

and not once did he demand anything of me ! nor ask me to do anything for him !!

  thank you Sir....

 

      thank you all who read me.  keep posted.  you just never know where im going to go ......

 

 

night all,

xoxoxox

 

       


9/6/2011 10:50:46 PM

today was a great day.  i got rid of my head ache early on. 

   then when i arrived home and proceded to get on line to CM..  i had an awesome note in my mail box.  i opened it , read it, thought deep on it, replyed to it,  and had a wonderful afternoon talking to the real man that sent it !!  he made me think, taught me a few things, laughed with me, watched me cry a little, and never left me... we talked, and talked, and talked even more !  probably a total of 6 or more hours,,,  who knows for sure.  but he was  honest, sweet, thoughtful, kind, patient, respectful, and on one level, loving...

  he let me know, i was in charge of our conversation.  and if i wanted to do anything for him , it was up to me.  he didnt ask me to show myself, to audition for him, or stand up so he could have a good look, didnt ask for any photos of me, he didnt even masterbate to my voice....   WOW !!  THANK YOU SIR !!   for making me feel like im a real person, and not a piece of meat !!

   hugs and kisses SIR ,XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOX !!!!!!!!!  till we talk again, and again, and again...

 

anyone need some respect training ?   i know a few that do !!!

 

night all ...

xoxoxox 


9/5/2011 10:42:15 PM

     the other day , i was starting to talk to 'a new dom'.  it started out great, everything we liked and didnt like was a match.

     then he told me to make sure i was on cam for him the next night. i said for my face only, due to all the heart break i had had from some other 'doms'.

     then he told me to tell him who some of them were, make a list of their names. i gave him a few. he was a bit short with me , because his name wasnt on that list and he wasnt going to be like the others..he said....

    well, yes.  he is now on the 'list'.

 

add another one,

 

getting a migrane as i type...

 

night all

xoxoxox


9/1/2011 10:11:09 PM

why is this so hard ??  when i talk to one, i hurt another.  then when i talk to a third, the first one wont talk any more.   is it so hard for you  to just know im talking ? only  talking?   that is why im still here and not collared !   no one has come to get me.  i have plenty of offers.  but no one is here.   how else are you going to get to know me and what all there is in my head and heart ?  

 

but i am making a deadline.  if i dont get a Dom buy the end of December, im going to take down my profile.   thats all there is to it.

 

 

 

night all..

xoxoxo


8/26/2011 11:19:29 AM

               IM TYPING IN THE DAY TIME TO SAY I LOST 5 MORE POUNDS ! 

 

                              TOTAL TO DATE LOST, IS 38 POUNDS !!!!

 

                                                    GO ME !!!!


8/25/2011 8:48:13 PM

wow !! what a day !! THANK YOU TO ALL OF YOU,,WHO GAVE ME THE FEED BACK TODAY !!

 

   its an amazing thing , saying your opinion.. saying what is bothering you...

i didnt think anyone was reading my journals, but i have been wrong.

    so, now.. i feel like making it for sure to type every night..

i have had so many people talk to me today , its almost funny..  but i loved every minuet of it !  thank you all !  for the words of support..

  now on to tomorrow.  i have no idea what it will bring, but im up for the challenge ! 

 

 

night all !!

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo!!


8/24/2011 11:25:20 PM

   tell me one thing.....why is it so dang hard to get back something from someone ,  who you have been giving to for weeks ???   why is it so hard to get a few photos of 'him', when you have been giving 30 or 40 of yourself to him ?   why is it so hard for him to call you ?   to see if your ok?  knowing you have been sick..  and are sick now ?  why so hard for him to tell you anything about himself ?    why is he hiding things from you?   why do i care ?  because i do ....   feelings can not be found on line !!  feelings are not that of a key board !  feelings come when two people meet and see each other, and touch for the first time !!!   if you think your going to 'click' on line,,,  then you've been in a hole for to long !!  my sences are not getting stronger for a man over the computer, buy me getting naked for him,,,  buy me sending him photos every night.  

    my profile says i am real.  i have to demand that too from the 'other' side.  im not giving any more , when i dont get anything in return ! ! !

   yes i have been hurt again...

 

 

night all...

xoxoxox

 


8/24/2011 1:59:26 AM

    when i started my profile on here, and had nothing in mind as to what i was going to be getting into...  never did i think it was going to be such a roller coaster ride !!

     i talk to someone, who sounds great, all the things that i like are matching up to the things he likes.  what he wants to do and what i want done ,, all match. 

    then , what happens ?  i cant say as to what has happened to them, other then the reality of maybe having to go through with an actual meeting.... or to actually talk about their life beyond being a dom.  i have a tough vanilla life.  i hate it, but its part of me.  i want to know the man behind the ''mask''  of being a dom.   simple things, name , age, were you married, are you married, kids, pets, still working, food likes and dislikes....just simple things...but when i get to the point of asking any thing in that area of questions...  i hit a brick wall !   most every guy i have had the chance to talk to , are very pleasant to chat with.  but then the conversation dies,,,  and why ? 

     guys !!  there is more to life then just fucking and keeping a girl in the bedroom !!!!  you will have to let her out or go with her to do something other then sex...  i dont know of any man that can honestly fuck as much as some of these guys say they can !!  

      that convent is sounding better and better all the time....  why is it so hard for a guy to give of himself, as much as a girl does !?!?!?!   (even half)

 

dismounting soap box...

 

night all...

xoxox


8/22/2011 3:09:58 PM

            ok,,  get this !!   those of you who have followed my weight loss to date, know i have lost 33 pounds !..  well. this is the funny part now !

         i went to put on one of my bras today to go out with momma, and it was to big !!   so i had to buy new bras today !  and yes ,,  for the sad part of it,  i have lost alot in my tits !  i was a 44 DD....  now i am just a 44 D  !!!   wow !!!!   i lost a whole letter !!  LOLOLOL!!!! 

         i just had to share  this with all my peeps out there !!   lol ! 

i know, im a goof !!

 

 

 

later all !

xoxoxoxoxoxox!!!!!!!!!!

 


8/21/2011 10:19:01 PM

   here i sit. alone. again. why ?    i have had so many people, both vanilla, and kinky, tell me im perfect in all ways.  and yet,  i cant get a dom.  go figure !

  

 

 

night all....

xoxoxo


8/20/2011 8:21:46 PM

     here it is , another day has come and gone.....  yesterday i helped my daughter with my 3 grandkids.  they were sooo sick..  it was comming out both ends...  yuck, but more for my daughter.  i have done it with her and her sister ,  when they were little too.  but we managed to keep then hydrated and so far today , they haven't puked any...

    does anyone have a number for a convent ?  i think im about ready to chuck this all and find one to move into.   im getting real tired of arguing and re typing everything, and having to answer the same questions.  then when i ask a question, i get the run around and it takes them days to answer me. i have alot of things on my profile that i like and dont like, yet they ask what are my hard limits, or what do i like.  re read my profile !  if you cant remember whats on it ,, take notes  !!!  

    i dont know why i did it, but i have a kitten now.  they were giving them away, so i took one.  lol !  and my 2 dogs want to baby her, but i dont think she will like it to much.  i went out to eat at taco bell, and that is what her name it,, Taco Bell,  real origional huh ?  LOL !!

    well, all.  i think im going to try to go to bed early for once.  im tired !  been fighting some pain and now a cough with some conjestion in my chest.  when will it stop ?

 

 

night all....

xoxoxo..


8/17/2011 11:18:16 PM

     So , today has been nuts.    I sent Kansas a note to tell him I still want him, but I dont know if its going to matter.  I will just have to wait and see.  

       Massachuetts and I had a bit of a tiff ,, again.  He told me he was going to force me to orgasms till I passed out !  Which is kool with me !  But then he said , if my ass hurts after I wake up...its because of the branding he did on my ass !  I told him no,  then came the argument !   I said a tattoo is ok, but no burnning branding.  So he quit talking to me for a few hours.  So, I sent him a note afterwards, telling him, that if I knew, from the begining, that he wanted to brand me, we would have never gone past the first day of chat.  So he agreed to a tattoo on my ass !  I hate to say it, but I won that agrument !

       I have forgotten if I told you all, that I have been losing some weight.  As of this past Monday,  I have lost 33 pounds !!  And I can really start to see it too.  My arms, my belly, my legs..  and my back feels better too.  Who would have thought that cutting back on my food intake, and walking 3.5 miles a day would do this !?! (or diet and exercise)

 

 

going to bed all,,  alone, and naked once again...

 

 

xoxox

 


8/17/2011 8:46:30 AM

       well, folks,  its been a few days and i think i need to start typing here every night or time i have something to say ...  just have to do it !!

      so , i am back to not knowing which way i am going.  i havent talked to Kansas, in over a week. guess i'll rip out my heart once again today .  i have been talking to Massachuetts though. did you ever get the feeling something isnt just right ?  i do about Mass. just something,,,,

    is it really that hard to accept the fact that i am a people person ?  and i talk to alot of people , from real vanilla life to being on here like all day long.  i want you, who say hi to me, to know i will answer my mail sent to me.

   

what to do , what to do  ???

 

 

 

morning all !!

xoxoxo


8/11/2011 12:44:40 PM

i guess its time to try to write again.  sitting here a bit sad, but happy at the same time.. 

    Kansas has not made anything clear to me..   so.....

 

talking to Massachuettes now.... 


7/31/2011 11:45:13 PM

      well, im sitting here typing, with my butt plug in my ass !!  man does it feel good too!!  LOL !!  thought you all needed a laugh too !

    so , things are going well, as can be...  i guess.  Kansas is the one i want !  i think He knows it in His heart too,  just not sure if He wants me as bad as i want to be His.  we have talked about everything under the sun and around the moon too.  but it feels like there's something holding Him back.  i just cant say what it is.  maybe He got burned by His last girl..  but , HELLO ,  im not her !!  im better !!!!  in more ways then one too ! !

    i really like talking to all of you that email me,   but why do i feel like in cheating on Him?  what to do ?? what to do ?? 

    with me being such a sub, i want to tell Him, shit or get off the pot ! make up your mind if your wanting me or not.  but im the one who wont say anything.   i guess , too, if He says no after all,   i think i will join that convent for sure !

    keep your fingers crossed that it works out for me !!  i will keep you all posted ! 

 

btw.. my ears are doing fine. the steroid shot helped and i have antibiotics too , just in case they were ready to get infected.  my hearing is fine now.

    got to go to bed, to get up and walk again tomorrow ! back to really trying to loose more weight...

 

 

night all !!!

xoxoxoxo


7/26/2011 8:40:47 PM

this is the third time i am trying to write in here. . .  i went to the doctor. she says there is no infection. i know because my ears dont hurt. so we tried a steroid shot to see if it will help. i do feel better after just one day, so keep your fingers crossed...

 

i also want to say , i have been burned again !  HE will probably know who HE is when HE reads this. like HE reads my profile every day anyway , to see when i was last on here.  well buddy, im on here alot !!  if not every hour ! 

 

why do i do it ? i give out my  number, so someone can call me , so we can get to know each other.  but why was my little voice in my head not screamming at me..hes called you on a restricted number doofus !?!?!   oh , because i trusted him in that HE's not married...

well, i think His gig is up !  He tells me He will be busy and not to worry. but He writes to me telling me He is at the beach with HIS DAUGHTER !!.....UHMMM, funny , you didnt mention a daughter...  oh but there must be a wife too...no??  are you staying till the last one is off too...  like what 5, 6 more years ?  Im not going to be hanging around for the likes of a fake !!  but HE wants to talk about it tomorrow...  i already sent Him a good bye note!  deleted Him too !..

 

  when will i find the one who makes my panties get wet, just by saying my name?  who makes me shudder from the slightest touch, on my ear lobe?  who makes me cum when he nibbles my neck ?  who swats my ass, and i turn around , and ask for another PLEASE !!??  who says there's a great movie on tonight, let make some popcorn , and snuggle up to watch it ?  who will be the happiest man on earth , knowing he sees my love for him in my eyes ?    am i that picky?

 

 

 

night all !!

xoxoxo

 


7/25/2011 6:47:45 PM

     been a weird weekend,,  my head clogged up.  dont know why..  just did .  my sinuses are clear, ears aren't hot or hurting.  i just can't hear very well.

  calling Doctor tomorrow....

 

on the other hand..  oh , wait..  there is nothing going on in that hand either..  bummer !!

 

night all !!

 


7/22/2011 11:45:21 PM

busy day of talking to doms that are interested in me..  but why today of all days ?  i havent done anything different..   other days i sit here looking off into space.. 

 

  i wish someone would call me..

 

 

night all...


7/22/2011 7:51:49 AM

I HAVE LOST ANOTHER 5 POUNDS!!!  NOW IM DOWN 20 TOTAL  !!  GO ME !!!   

 

       i didnt write yesterday , but im happy today !


7/20/2011 9:36:11 PM

      well, after feeling down tonight, and talking to someone..  i feel a bit better.  

  it was a long day for me,  and i guess i should go to bed.  i have a few things to do tomorrow, nothing very important , but i should do then still .

    how is it, when one feels good, life is good....  and one feels bad, the whole world is on your back ?  

    is it so bad to want to talk about other things then how your going to do this and that to me ?  or when we go out somewhere , you'll be dressed this way ??   im a sub.. i know how your going to want me to dress.  95% of the doms i have talked to over these last few weeks ,  want me to dress with a skirt on and no panties...  duh !??!??!  no kidding !!  news flash !!!!  I WANT IT TOO !!

      i know i am in no way ready for a Dom, i have no training !

  i want this !

  im scared !

  im worried !

  im excited !

  im fearful !

  im turned on !

  im freeking out some times !

  im me too.

 

please be kind.

 

night all !


7/20/2011 5:35:40 PM

   i didnt type anything last night, i was tired.   and tonight im not getting to talk alot to the one i want to talk to.  hes busy,   i guess. 

   do you ever feel like , no matter what you do or say, your still feeling like your being ignored ?  and then, that feeling , inturn makes your heart ache even more ?  and piece by piece its getting torn out ?    which ,  makes you even more down ??

   such a viscious circle !! 

 

 

kisses all !  i know a few must be reading me..  thank you ! 

 

 

Susannah


7/19/2011 9:39:14 PM

      i guess this may sound strange to some of you..  but i tasted my own pee tonight ! and it wasn't  as bad as i thought it would be !!

      itsn't it funny how life turns you around and upside down about things ?  nothing in general, but just things....

     im tired..  long day of grandbaby sitting to do tomorrow...  hope all is well with you and yours !!!

 

night all !!!!


7/18/2011 10:12:40 PM

five minuets and i will be in bed... 

 

good night all !!


7/17/2011 8:16:26 PM

   well, here i am , typing on this thing again... i dont know if anyone reads these of anyone  who puts them out ..but it is fun to just let your mind go for a few minuets...  lol !!

    today was a generic day for me.  i do , believe it or not, go to church.  and i did today again.  nice service and had lunch with my mom afterwards..   then it was back home and sat around.   then i got to watch my grandkids for a little bit.   it was fun too !

     then i did talk to a few people on here, and yahoo.  but the real ones i WANT to talk to , are on different schedules then i am.   and who knows when im going to get to talk to them...  so , i have to wait till  they come on and say hi to me..

     there really isn't to much else to say for today .  so i guess we will have to call this one a short entry..

 

night all ! xoxox

 


7/16/2011 8:27:24 PM

  Today was an interesting day for me.  I have been talking to a few men on here. And the thing that I hear the most is the hand holding.  I love to hold hands when I am out with someone I care/love ! Why is it so hard for people to show affection to another they love !?!?!? 

  

   I was out shopping with my Mother today.  We had a good time.  But what I noticed the most. was the other couples that were out shopping too .  I hated to see what I did !  The women were walking in front of their man !  It was killing me !!  The thought of me not being right next to my Master/Dom.. is just unthinkable for me !  If I'm going to give of myself totally to this man, then the least I can do is be right next to Him when ever He wants a kiss, or a touch, or to feel my warm wet pussy ! I want to be so close to My Sir, that we are in sync with our heart beats !  I'm very touchy-feely ! I ache if I cant touch someone I'm in deep love with !

 

   Wake up women of this world !!  Show your man how much you deeply love Him !! Be next to Him to give Him a kiss, or to rub your hand over His shoulders,  letting Him know He is your one and only !! 

 

(stepping down off soap box)

 

night all !!!  xoxox


7/14/2011 9:32:40 PM

         here it is, almost time for me to go to bed. i have had a very busy , mind numbing day too. i deleted and re added stuff on here. but i think this time its going to stay pretty much the same.

 

      i want to say thank you to everyone out there who has ever talked to me !! and for me to appoligize to you too ! i have been having some confusion on the few doms i have been talking to .  but here is to hopefully getting down to the real ones...

 

     if you are interested, very interested , in me.. please do me a favor..  spend time talking to me... i talked with a dom yesterday, for over 2 and a half hours !!  it was great too !!  we talked about food, cooking, punishments, home life, family, what he is going to do to me..and how he is going to do it..  !!

 

    so , till i have a collar on me or a ring on my finger.. im staying !

 

night all !!


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 Age: 35
  New York