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As much as i might try, i simply cannot sum myself up in a profile. A lot of me depends on how i click with someone, sometimes i am very shy, other times i open up rather quickly; although that shy part still exists....

In terms of the lifestyle, i really cannot describe the One i am looking for. i very much enjoy very rough play from the right person. It however, cannot be the only kind of play; or the only temperament i find. i've found that what seems to work best for me is someone who is friendly, open, likes to joke around and keeps things low key, yet can turn up the intensity. Someone who is always very intense and demanding i do not do well with, although as time goes on with someone i crave more and more of it.

i am not really on here to find a play partner. i do enjoy talking to people and getting to know them exploring the lifestyle; sometimes finding out about community events, but to be honest i am often too shy to meet people, although every now and then it happens.

If you wish to get to know me, the best way to do so is to talk to me, but please don't expect me to open up and really feel comfortable being myself after talking to you for five minutes, or to meet you the next day.

i'm not into rape scenes or extreme age play, at all.  There are a lot of things i will try at some point with someone if i feel the right connection, but neither of those fall under that category. 

i also struggle to find a way to deal with discipline/punishment, so for now i feel thats best left alone until i feel comfortable with someone; although since i am looking for just friends there should be no need to push that.

Thanks for taking the time to read thi, and hopefully understanding (as many are not) that i am not looking for a play partner right now.    
8/6/2009 8:37:09 AM
I found this; and felt like it really fit me....


It is the shy, the really shy ones, who have my admiration. They do not impose force on others: when they speak it is generally because they have something important to say, they listen to our stories right up to the limit of their patience, and they are the shoulder on which we most want to cry. Normally, they are much wiser because they spend more time looking at what is going on around them -- and they manage to do so without anyone noticing. But, above all, they have a smile 

that extroverts generally don't have. It is not common and, because of this, is more amusing -- it begins at a corner of the mouth and then becomes a smile only a little bit at a time.

A big victory is when we manage to stop them from being timid for a short period of time, or when they cease to be shy with us -- it does not count if you furnish them with drinks to get them to lose their inhibitions. In order to be special it is necessary that a shy person feels so secure that he (she) reveals his (her) true self and makes those cynical comments about himself (herself) with the confidence of someone who has rehearsed the words before he (she) says them.

The shy are excused from bringing flowers or presents on St 

. Valentines Day. It is enough for them to show up.

-Isabel Stillwell, Notícias Magazine, April 2001, Lisbon