ama68

well things are good, happy here with my daughter and waiting anxiously for the birth of my first granddaughter in January. I have had ALOT of responses on here and its flattering though a bit overwhelming. I am under consideration from a wonderful Dom in Arizona and i am considering going to him after the baby is born. I hope that everyone understands that i cant have a relationship with every one that messages me on here and i dont wish to lead anyone on simply because i hope to make new freinds. If a serious relationship is all you are willing to consider then please understand that i am under consideration now and not searching for long term at this time until i explore further the relationship with the Dom in Arizona

well it didnt work out with trukerus, though we remain freinds. i am living with my daughter now in ohio, searching for work and hoping to settle close to her and my granddaughter. I still hope to find a Master of my own to serve and love, im scared to death of the future, being a mom and wife is all i have ever been and i feel terribly unprepared to make it on my own. all i really want is to love and be loved,to explore the world in the arms of a Master that will help to guide me to be the woman that i yearn to be.

i leave tonight to go be with Truckerus, his submissive for now, while i travel and start a new life in Minnasota. Pray god that i dont regret this move as i have many moves in the past, but that is what life is all about, risks and choices. if i come to regret it later, i will deal with it, but i think this time will be good for me and i place my life in his hands to help me towards becoming a better person in time. i send love and thanks to my ex master tom wonder, who in spite of my bad decisions in the past, was there for me and gave me safe haven for the breif time i returned to Memphis. i have dissapointed him greatly by setting off on yet another hairball adventure, but i hope he remembers me fondly, in spite of my flighty ways. i will update as often as i am able to access the internet, though will be traveling alot in the future. to all the freinds i have met on here, i hope you keep in touch and wish you all the best.

well i sought help for my mental issues, i wish i could give a good report, but the system is jerking me around as usual. they put me on meds that were so physically hard on me that i had to stop taking them .. and when i went to my doctor visit following release from the hospital, they said they couldnt help me because i have private insurance, and it was a state only facility. never had the problem of have not being seen BECAUSE i have insurance! calling all the local psychiatrists did no good, most are either not taking new patients, or dont take private insurance, and those that do wont see me till end of november early december. i have about given up in getting any help in that part of my life =(. still living with my ex and his gf, a strained relationship for all of us as you can imagine.

to all that are my freinds i will be gone a while. i am going to a hospital.. i need help and not too proud to ask for it... if i still have internet when i get back.. will answer any messages still pending

I wish to point out that if you do not wish to know more about me then please do not bother to ask. I will not volunteer my problems unless i am asked about my current situation. I am NOT looking for a hero to come and rescue me, i am NOT searching for a Dom to just magically take care of all my problems and those that offer such arouse suspicion, not gratitude. So if you feel i have too much emotional baggage for you to deal with then please do us both a favor and move on to some younger, vapid young miss that is looking for a fast lay, because quite frankly this is one submissive (note i said submissive NOT slave!) that is fast losing patience .. and i did not have much to begin with..... And i above all expect honesty, if you do not wish to be friends, then do not lie and say you do.. those that claim to want to be freinds and then dont bother to message for 2 weeks or more will be deleted and never thought of again. And that includes any that have been added to my instant messangers.

Male Submissive, 55, dix hill/gr8 neck, New York

Female Submissive, 41

Male Dominant, 35, Philadelphia, Pennsylvania

Male Submissive, 36, San Diego, California

Male Submissive, 32, rockford, Illinois

Male Submissive, 32, rockford, Illinois

Male Dominant, 48, Central, Florida

Male Dominant, 89, El Cajon, California

Female Dominant, 38, Austin, Texas

Male Dominant, 37, Salt Lake City, Utah

Female Submissive, 29, Oklahoma City, Oklahoma

Female Submissive, 28, bethlehem, Pennsylvania