alex0bec1

I guess this is my first journal submission. Within this pass month, a lot has happened. My life was touched by someone that I still care about but he is no longer in my life. As we all know, "collarme" isn't around anymore, but I must give credit, because i in fact, met him on there. We instantly clicked, we had amazing conversations that didn't have any limits. It was easy to let my guard down and allow him in. From knowing just this bit, please be aware that about 30 days, the amount of changes that can occur are unbelievable, at least they were to me, until I lived through more changes than I was willing to handle. As my friend, i trusted what I was told by him. Now, it's as if he never existed. We had a blow out and that's really it. I don't want to burden him with my dilemmas, and I sure as shit don't want to bother him at all. It's one thing if the person enjoys talking to you, but when you can clearly decipher what the person is feeling through how the conversation is going, and they actually aren't that too thrilled to be talking to you, it hurts. At least, it hurts my feelings just a little bit. He was my outlet, I was his, he was mine.

I hope you aren't stressed anymore, and that you're happy.

I guess you could say I'm looking for someone to just vent to before my head explodes.